As Kate drove underneath the crystal clear water a million different thoughts rushed through her mind. What would happen if she found the opening under the rocks? Swim through? She supposed so, that was the whole reason she built up enough nerve to dive down in the first place. Then what?

She supposed she would look for the bomb Jack had been talking about in what seemed like such a distant memory. But what if she bumped her head? What if there wasn't any opening? She knew she was taking a risk as she swan down further. She really had no idea what she was looking for, only the need to look. Finally she saw the opening and went in.

It was a tunnel, made in the rocks. Kate felt her lungs throbbing and swan even faster. There she saw above her the surface break. Going up, she broke through in a splash gasping for air. Looking around she found herself in a chilly darkened room. Grabbing onto what seemed like an edge, Kate pulled herself up dripping. Taking a second to let her eyes adjust to the light she dug into her pocket and brought out Richard's silver zip lighter. Hoping it didn't get ruined under the water she blew on it before spinning the wheel. A small flame appeared and gave her enough light to look around.

It seemed exactly like where she had seen Jacob. The carvings on the stone wall and the faint smell of oils and perfumes. Looking around, Kate pushed back her wet hair before stopping dead in her tracks.

The bomb stood there.

Feeling the lighter start to heat up, Kate snapped it closed to cool for a moment. Her heart racing she really didn't know what she was exactly what she was looking at. She remembered Sayid giving Jack what looked like a tiny metal piece, this seemed too big. Right away she knew once she got closer she would see if it looked as though it had been taken apart.

Then what?

What was she even looking for? Whatever had happened had happened. If it was all a dream and everything happened as Richard said she was being stupid not trusting him after all this time. Maybe she had been left behind…but it had been for a reason. And if it was all true, if these memories weren't just a dream then what? What was she even searching for? She could only pray everyone waked up someplace good, safe and away from all this misery. She hoped Sawyer somehow woke in a life with Juliet…both of them alive and together. She hoped Hugo finally found peace and perhaps a girl like Libby that could see him for the gentle soul he was. She hoped Sayid was someplace where there wasn't pain. Either with his wife or Shannon. Miles away from the island like he had wanted…and Jack? She hoped if Jack had woken up someplace he finally could forget this place. That he found a life in which he could be happy…and forget about her.

She hoped Desmond was with Penny, raising and family and not even able to remember anything.

Why was she looking for answers? She had finally found happiness. This island no longer seemed like a nightmare. She was with people who cared about her and had Richard. He was the love of her life and would do anything for her…they had Adam, their baby. She finally found a family that was her own with no horrible memories surrounding it.

But she kept thinking of Sidney. Her beautiful daughter.

If the bomb had worked, she needed to know.

Lighting the lighter once again she slowly approached it froze.

The bomb looked as though it had been opened. Kate gazed inside and found it empty. Just a shell. Holding in a deep breath Kate felt her heart rate begin to race. What did this mean?

Then she heard voices, very faint.

Turning, Kate held out the lighter and followed it. Going down a small hallway, she stopped and saw an opening in the wall. Pieces of brick and stone were all over the place. Snapping the lighter close, she listened closely before squinting.

She saw what looked to be a basement…

A Dharma home.

Hearing the voices, she right away knew it was Richard and Locke talking.

"What's going to happen when she finds out what you had Jacob do Richard?"

Kate tensed, leaning against the wall and straining her ears.

"She'll just have to understand…I did it for her, and for Adam."

"Richard…I know in you're heart you're scared to death of loosing her…but how do you think she'll ever forgive you?"

Just then Kate leaned against a loose rock, it fell hard onto the ground and the voices stopped for a moment. Kate held in a breath waiting.

"What was that?"

"Coming from the basement…come on."

Kate then heard footsteps above her and turned around as quickly as she could. Taking off into the darkness she slid twice on the wet floor before finding the water opening. Taking three big deep breaths, Kate dove back under the water and swan with all her might. Reaching the surface outside, Kate coughed and struggled to swim to the side before getting up soaking wet. Looking around she suddenly felt very scared.

What was Richard and Locke talking about?

Taking off towards their camp, Kate just wanted to run away from it all and wished she hadn't swan into that cave at all. About a half an hour later she reached the camp still dripping wet. Cindy was sitting outside of her tent reading a book.

"Kate what happened to you?"

Kate walked over, trying to catch her breath.

"Nothing, just fell into a stream…where's Adam?"

Cindy marked her place in her book before getting up.

"He's down for his nap…wow you're soaking wet, do you need something?"

Kate faked a smile.

"No I'm fine, just fell."

Kate past Cindy before going inside the tent. Stopping, she stared down at Adam who was peacefully sleeping in his crib, his stuffed polar bear in his arms that one of the women had made from him. Kneeling down beside the crib, Kate reached out and gently touched her baby's cheek. Adam kept sleeping, his beautiful face undisturbed. Feeling a heavy weight in her chest, Kate stood up and peeled herself out of her wet clothes before changing. Nearly an hour later Richard returned just when Adam had gotten up and Kate was feeding him his dinner.

Richard approached the opened tent a few of the others were sitting under, eating and talking among each other. Kate had Adam on her lap as she wiped his cubby little face and tried with the small wooden spoon. It seemed as if most of Adam's food were getting on his clothes then in his mouth. Richard walked over smiling before Adam looked up and saw him.

"Dada!"

Adam held out his arms.

"Dada!"

He began to wiggle in Kate's arms before Richard smiled.

"Let me see him."

Kate breathed a sigh of relief before handing him over before wiping his face one last time with a rag.

"He's been fussy since he woke up."

Adam laid his head on Richard's chest and right away began to calm down. Richard smiled holding the baby before rubbing his back.

"You been a good boy for you're mother?"

Adam made a gurgling sound and began to chew on Richard's collar. Smiling, Richard looked down at Kate as she began to clean up. Right away his smile faded as he watched her.

"Something wrong?"

Kate looked up before nervously smiling.

"No…just tried."

Richard watched her closely for a moment before Kate stood up, wiping her hands on her jeans.

"So…how is the village looking?"

Richard looked straight into her eyes.

"Good…Locke says we might all move back there within the year. He wants to disable those fences…might be an accident you know?"

Kate nodded before feeling a horrible tug on her heart. Not being able to stand his eyes on her for another second Kate quickly turned and headed for their tent. Richard watched before Adam made another gurgling noise and giggled, now trying for one of Richard's shirt buttons.

Following her, Richard entered the shade of the tent and closed the opening behind him. Kate sat on the bed, looking at her hands and her ring. Richard walked over, Adam in his arms.

"What's wrong Kate?"

Kate looked up at Richard, before deeply sighing.

"We promised each other we wouldn't tell anymore lies…that we wouldn't hide any secrets since we loved each other."

Richard sat down beside her, his face worried.

"Kate what is it?"

"Richard I'm going to ask you this one last time, and I want the truth."

Richard held onto Adam looking at her, his eyes slightly concerned and uneasy.

"What?"

"That day…when I woke up and we were making love in the tent, when I didn't remember you and started acting funny and you had to remind me about everything. You said it happened a few times before…but not since. Why is that?"

Richard looked as though the biggest weight had been lifted off him. His eyes seemed relieved.

"Oh…"

Kate waited for an answer before Richard nervously smiled, before looking at her.

"I don't know…ever since you became one of us with Locke you would get confused every once and a while. Forget stuff…but once someone reminded you…it would just all come back."

"Don't you find that a little strange?"

"Kate, you fell from a moving chopper…you nearly died. I'm suspired you even lived. While I was taking care of you, laying in this very came tent…almost in a coma, I fell in love with you."

"But that doesn't explain how for three whole years I faintly remember another life. I had another child Richard…a girl."

Richard shook his head.

"You had a miscarriage, that's how I found you on the beach."

Kate's eyes welled up with tears.

"Richard…I saw the bomb."

Richard's expression froze.

"You what?"

"I swan underneath the falls today and looked for the bomb, it looks as if it's been taken apart. Exactly what happened back in 1977."

"How did you know…"

"Remember you took us there…with some other woman…her name was Ellen or something."

"Eloise?"

"Yes! You do remember!"

Richard slowly shook his head.

"Kate, Eloise used to be our leader back in the 1970's…how you know that is beyond me. She left the island shortly after 1977."

"But the bomb…"

Richard shook his head.

"My people once we buried it there tried to find a way to disable it. We nearly got ourselves killed doing so…the entire thing is still there. How in the Hell did you know…"

"Because you brought me there!"

Richard shook his head.

"Kate I didn't! I might be getting up there in age but my memory isn't going. You must of heard about it or seen maps or something."

"It's under one of the houses in the village."

"Then maybe you were in the basement and went down there my mistake, thought nothing of it…pushed it in the back of your mind."

"Stop lying to me!"

Adam began to cry, Richard tried to sooth him.

"Kate I'm not lying. I have no idea how you got down there or why you think I'm keeping something from you."

"Well maybe I did fall from the chopper, maybe I did join up with you guys five years ago. But what if my self-conscious caught up to me. Maybe mentally I was in 1977 and when the bomb went off I finally caught up to myself here."

Richard stood up, his eyes angry.

"I can't explain how you know about the bomb, your why you're acting this way. All I know is that five years ago while you're friends were being rescued I saved you! Me Kate! Nobody else! I brought you here and welcomed you and then protected and loved you. I've done everything for you! Why do you care so much about what might of happened! You're friends left you…I'm the one who loves you!"

Adam was crying even louder now as Richard paced back and forth rubbing his back.

Kate stood up, furious.

"Don't talk to me that way! I'm not stupid."

"Kate! You're acting crazy! No bomb ever went off! If it did there wouldn't be an island now!"

"But how does this explain how I remember everything! How!"

"I don't know! But I'm starting to think you're not happy here…that you rather be with the people who left you behind!"

"Don't say that!"

Richard then walked right over to Kate, his faced heated and his eyes darkened.

"I did everything for you! And if you want to leave then go! But you're not taking our son!"

"Richard!"

"No! It happened like this before! I'm not having it happen again!"

Before she could say another word Richard left the tent with Adam. Now alone Kate rubbed her face and began to softly cry. Why was everything spinning around her? Sitting on the edge of the bed Kate really couldn't explain how she knew everything she did. Or how she knew where the bomb was. She knew Richard was hiding something.

Sitting there, Kate remembered how everyone did in some way leave her. That it had been her own fault and how selfish she had been. Sitting there, Kate crossed her arms before taking a deep breath.

Whatever happened, happened. If the bomb had worked…she was here. Even if Richard knew this, he was just trying to protect her. This was where she had found happiness, this is where she finally found someone who loved her for who she was. Why was she trying to break away from it all? Feeling guilty, Kate swore to herself she would never go underneath the falls again.

Whatever Richard and Locke were talking about was their business. She didn't care anymore. She had a home now, and it was here. Thinking of Desmond's words she pushed them away. If this was all some after effect from the bomb, then it had brought her here. Nothing was wrong with that. She could see how scared Richard's eyes were. He just simply loved her, and wanted her with him.

Standing, Kate sniffled back the last of her tears before leaving the tent. She knew where Richard was.

Ten minutes later she was climbing up the steep hill that over looked the valley. It was a beautiful afternoon and a warm wind was in the air. Kate found Richard sitting on the hill looking out at the view with Adam in his lap. Kate felt her stomach twisting before taking a deep breath and walking over.

"Richard?"

He looked up at her before she sat down beside him. Adam was fast asleep. Smiling, she stared down at him.

"I'm sorry."

Richard looked over at her.

"What?"

"I'm sorry I didn't trust you. I should have…It's just…I know something happened, dream or no dream. Something brought me here and I just can't understand it."

"Kate if you think a bomb went off and then you landed up here that's fine…you can think whatever you want. I can't explain how you know certain things, but really what it comes down to is that I'm not lying…I never would. For the past five years you've been with me and that's all I know. I'm sorry I yelled…I just get upset whenever I think I know you're not happy."

"But I am."

"Then why keep this up about the bomb. I don't know if it did…but you seem convinced."

Kate shook her head.

"I can't explain it…only that if it did or didn't I know you're not lying. I'm here now…I have a husband who loves me, and a beautiful son. There's no more worries or regrets. You're my family now and I would never trade that for anything."

"But you still believe the bomb worked."

Kate shrugged.

"If it did you guys know nothing about it…and if it did then here I am. At least it brought me someplace nice."

Richard faintly smiled before brushing back Adam's thick black hair.

"I love you Kate, you know that right?"

Kate nodded.

"I know."

"And no matter what, I just want to protect you."

"I can protect myself Richard."

"Can you?"

They stared at each other before Kate took a deep breath.

"Tell me about Eloise."

Richard stared at her for a second before looking down at Adam.

"Eloise came to the island in the 1950's when she was just a teenager. By the time she was in her mid thirties she had became our leader. Mind you I didn't agree with everything she did…but she had a leveled head on her shoulders and she was smart."

"You loved her?"

Richard looked up

"I thought I did…even back when she first came to the island. But it really wasn't my place to fall in love and start relationships. So I stood back while a man named Charles Widmore became her love interest. It killed me to watch from afar as those two held each other or kissed. I hated Widmore…he was always too keen to jump the gun and not do what was right for the island. Then…back in 1977...well Eloise and I slept together a few times."

Kate saw how painful this was for him.

"I hadn't been with a woman in so long, and Eloise was different. Next thing I knew we were in love, but she wouldn't leave Widmore. I stood back when she announced she was pregnant and Charles stood back proudly…it made me sick."

"You?"

Richard nodded.

"That's right. She told me herself…I couldn't believe it. This was long before the problems pregnant women had on the island . It just hit me…for as long as I had lived on this island, I was going to have a child."

"What happened?"

"She left…before even Widmore. The truth came out before the baby was born and there was…well let's just say an argument. Things were never the same and I never saw Eloise again. Ben became in charge shortly after Widmore had his horrible run and that was that."

"You never saw the baby?"

Richard shook his head.

"I don't even know if their alive…I've tried hunting them down but Eloise is a very smart person…Ben even knew that. She wants to keep away."

"That's horrible."

Richard sighed before gently patting Adam's curled up body on his lap. Adam was sucking his thumb and nuzzled up against his father.

"I've shared plenty of heartache in my very long lifetime Kate. More then I can even explain. But the one thing I want you to know is that I don't know anything about the bomb. If I did I swear to you I would tell you."

"I know…it doesn't matter."

"But It does. I'm you're husband Kate, you need to trust me."

Kate shook her head.

"Whatever happened like you said happened. For whatever reason fate brought me here I'm with you and our son. I'm happy Richard…and I want to me with you until I die."

Richard looked at her slightly uneasy before lifting Adam up in his arms. Adam kept sleeping.

"So now what?"

Kate smiled before looking over at the baby, touching his face.

"We live, that's all, together until death do us part."

Kate leaned over, gently kissing Richard's face before standing up. Richard sat for a moment longer, looking off at the view and feeling horrible.