Sam tossed and turned, he could see Dean. He could see the chains digging into his arm. The look of terror on Dean's face, the pain and anguish he was feeling. Sam reached out towards Dean – but then someone called his name. He blinked and suddenly he was awake. He sat up and saw Bobby looking down at him with a concerned look on his face.
"He's been like this for a while now" Bobby was saying to someone. Sam tried to turn around but he couldn't see who it was. He didn't need to;
"It must have something to do with Dean's death….did Sam tell you what happened?" Ruby asked. Sam sank back down' he had a pounding headache and he just wanted to be on his own. He heard footsteps and then the door slammed shut. He remained still as he hoped that they'd both left. Unfortunately for him that wasn't the case.
"Sam, what's happening to you?" Ruby asked,
"Like you care" Sam muttered.
"Why do you think I'm here? Why do you think I even attempted to help you two idiots?" She shot back an annoyed look on her face. Sam faced her; a blank look on his face. He shrugged and said,
"Well it's not because you care" he said. Ruby raised an eyebrow and said,
"Well maybe, but didn't Dean tell you?" Sam looked at her questioningly; "I remember what it's like to be human Sam, I know what you're going through" Sam just looked at her without saying anything. Ruby glared back at him not wanting to be the first to break the silence. Sam shook his head and Ruby finally said,
"What?"
"Is that the line you used on Dean? You remember what it's like to be human….good one" Sam said with a low chuckle. Ruby scowled and said,
"You know nothing about me" Ruby said in a bitter voice. Sam looked her in the eye and he said,
"And you don't know what I'm going through" in a cold voice. He could feel anger creeping up inside him, "You didn't have to watch your brother being torn apart by hellhounds….you didn't have to listen to him screaming in agony….I was couldn't help him…I couldn't do anything…"Sam trailed off as once again he remembered what had happened that night. He could see Dean being ripped apart; he could hear Dean's screams. Sam started to shake uncontrollably and Ruby frowned. Was this a delayed reaction to Dean's death or was something else behind this, she wondered. She chose the latter; Sam was stronger than this.
"Listen Sam, yeah Dean is dead and you're upset I get it, but you need to tell me what happened after" She said hoping to bring Sam out of this trance.
"Nothing…" Sam murmured.
"Nothing?" Ruby echoed, "You mean to say that she let Dean die and turned around and said 'Even though you're my rival and all I'm going to let you go'?" Sam shook his head,
"No…she raised her hand and this bright white light came from nowhere" Sam said, "I ducked and next thing I knew the light had gone and I was fine whereas she looked terrified and she didn't have a hold on me anymore.." Sam stopped abruptly. He appeared to be deep in thought. A few minutes of silence went and Ruby called Sam's name. Sam looked up at her as if he'd just realised that she was in the room.
"Tell Bobby that I'm fine" he said. Ruby frowned. She didn't understand how Sam's mood could just change randomly. However she sighed and left the room.
Moments later, Sam joined Bobby and Ruby is Bobby's front room. As soon as he walked in there was an uncomfortable silence and Sam knew that they'd probably been talking about him.
"I'm going after Lilith" Sam announced in casual tone. This prompted both Bobby and Ruby to exclaim
"What?" simultaneously.
"Sam, are you out of your mind?" Bobby asked in disbelief. Bobby just didn't know what to do anymore. He'd seen Sam go all cold and kill those demons, then he'd watched Sam fall to pieces after that. Now Sam was cold again and this time he wanted to go after Lilith. He remained silent as Sam left the house. Ruby turned to him,
"This is Lilith – she's doing this.." she said as she walked to the door, she turned and said, "What are you waiting for? We have to follow him".