Decisions
As I was sitting on the couch in the living room with Edward, Carlisle calls me to his office. I was a little surprised, had he tested the blood already? I go upstairs and knock on Carlisle's door before going in. Carlisle was sitting at his desk with two folders in his hands. "Have a seat, Bella," says Carlisle. I sit down in one of the chairs across from him.
"So what's the verdict?" I ask. Carlisle opens the two folders.
"Well, you are 100% human," says Carlisle. "I also did some DNA work and you don't even carry the werewolf gene like your friend Amber does."
"Then I want to become a vampire," I say without hesitation. This seemed to surprise Carlisle.
"Have you spoken to Edward about this?" asks Carlisle.
"I wanted to see if I was human or not first. I don't want to be human, Carlisle. I want to be with Edward forever. I don't want him to even have to consider me leaving him. Do you understand?" I ask. Edward had already told me what he would do if I died and I didn't like it. He didn't plan to outlive me for very long. I didn't want him to die just because I was no longer a part of this world. If that meant turning into a vampire then I would.
"You have to talk to Edward about that. I have no problem with you joining our family in that way, you're already like a daughter to me, but I don't want to go against Edward's wishes either," says Carlisle.
"I'd rather try to fight a nomadic vampire," I say honestly. I already knew what Edward would say: NO! I didn't need Alice to tell me that. Carlisle chuckles.
"I'll keep your file on hand as well as Amber's," says Carlisle. I nod and stalk out of the office. I really didn't want to face Edward, but I had a feeling he had heard everything that just happened. I had planned on trying to avoid him by claiming I had patrol, but Edward was waiting by the stairs for me.
"Let's go to the meadow," says Edward.
"Umm…sure," I say. Edward takes my hand and leads me down the stairs. At the bottom of the stirs was a closet where he grabs my jacket and helps me put it on before leading me out to his Volvo. It didn't take us long to get to the meadow, but it seemed that way to me, probably because the trip was filled with silence.
I rode on Edward's back the whole way there and once we were there we went and sat on the damp grass. "Tell me why you want to be a vampire," says Edward as he paces the meadow with his fingers pinching the bridge of his nose. "How could you ever want to become the very monsters you once hunted?"
"I want to be with you. I'm doing it for you, Edward. You said you couldn't live in a world without me and I don't want you to have to face that reality," I say in my strongest voice.
"What about yourself? Do you want this for you?" asks Edward.
"Yes, I don't like being human, I've grown so used to being a werewolf that being human has become difficult. I've gotten so used to having to watch myself that I still do it. I've been a werewolf ever since I was 13; I was the youngest one ever and four years of being a werewolf makes being human dull. I'm better at acting human than actually being human," I say.
"You're seventeen, Bella. Is that what you want? To be stuck at seventeen for the rest of your life? Do you want to be like me?" demands Edward.
"Yes, I want to experience everything you do. I feel like something is missing, like maybe I'm human for a reason," I say.
"And what would that reason be?" asks Edward in exasperation.
"So I could become a vampire like you," I say matter-of-factly. Now Edward was stomping back and forth obviously unhappy about the situation. "I want to be with you forever."
Suddenly Edward was in front of me with his face mere inches away from mine. I could smell his sweet scent. "This is wrong, Bella," growls Edward.
"I'm not saying that I want you to turn me into a vampire right now, Edward. I want to graduate high school and I'd need to talk to the pack about my change not breaking the treaty," I say. Edward still didn't seem happy about this, but I had a feeling this discussion was over…for now at least.
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My talk with Sam went about as well as the one I had with Edward. He didn't like the idea of me turning into a vampire either. "Absolutely not, Bella!" roars Sam.
"Why not?" I demand.
"Why would you want to become what we fight?" demands Sam. I roll my eyes and sigh heavily: men.
"Because I love Edward and I want to be with him forever and if becoming a vampire is the only way then I will," I say strongly.
"You're a werewolf, Bella!" shouts Sam angrily.
"Carlisle tested my blood and DNA, I'm more human than I was at birth. I don't even carry the gene anymore," I say. Sam seemed surprised by this news.
"So then you can't be a werewolf so you want to be a bloodsucker?" asks Sam incredulously. He shakes his head and sighs heavily. "I didn't want to tell you this, Bella…I really didn't."
"Tell me what?" I ask.
"How your parents really died," says Sam remorsefully.
"They got in a car accident," I growl. Everyone knew how they had died.
"They got attacked! Three vampires totaled their car, drained them of their blood and made it look like an accident! The pack hadn't been able to make it there in time to save them and decided it would be better for you if you didn't know. We didn't want you to get angry and try to go off on your own on some revenge fueled suicide!" sneers Sam. "We were trying to protect you! Quil and Embry knew because they were with us when it happened and I forced the pack to keep what really happened away from you. Bloodsuckers killed Renee and Charlie, and if you don't want to believe me you can ask your brothers."
There was no way I was about to believe what Sam had just said about my parents. They had gotten into an accident. It had been raining so the roads were slick. Yet even as I thought about what I knew happened I found myself walking to my truck and driving home to Quil and Embry.
When I get there I find Quil and Claire watching some sort of Disney movie and Embry was reading a comic book. As soon as I close the door Quil and Embry look up at me in surprise. "Bella!" they chorus happily. Then they really look at me and their expressions darken. "What happened?" demands Quil.
"Sam told me a story…and I want to know if it's true," I whisper angrily. I could feel tears streaming down my face, but I didn't care, I wanted answers.
"Well what was the story?" asks Embry.
"How did mom and dad really die? The truth! Don't spare my feelings anymore!" I demand. Understanding flashes across both their faces followed by anger.
"Sam wasn't supposed to tell you that story," growls Quil.
"So was it true then?" I demand.
"Embry, take Claire to Emily's," says Quil picking up Claire. Embry takes her and leaves. Quil walks towards me and I knew he was about to hug me so I take a step back.
"Tell me! I deserve to know the truth!" I shout angrily. Quil pulls me into a tight hug before I have time to react.
"Yes, Bella…We saw it all and there was nothing we could do about it," whispers Quil. I begin to sob uncontrollably in Quil's chest. "We aren't exactly sure who the vampires are, but they've been back since then. You've met them."
I suddenly remembered the three vampires in the woods that I had helped the pack fight at the time when I was still fighting with the pack. There were two males and a female. "All the more reason to become a vampire then," I murmur.
"You can't become a vampire if the only reason is for revenge," says Quil calmly. "Mom and dad wouldn't like it."
"That wasn't even my reason for wanting to be a vampire! I wanted it because I wanted to be with Edward on a more balanced scale. I wanted to be his equal, or at least closer to it. Then Sam told me that story to try and persuade me otherwise, but it didn't work, it only gave me one more reason," I growl at the end. Quil sighs heavily and kisses the top of my head.
"I'll talk to Sam about your wishes to become a vampire," says Quil. "And I'll be giving him a piece of my mind for telling you that story."
"Would you like me to stay and make you and Embry dinner?" I ask in an attempt at changing the subject. Quil chuckles and I look up at him to find that he was grinning.
"You know I do," says Quil allowing me to change the subject.
"I'll make lasagna and garlic bread," I say as I head towards the kitchen.
End Chapter
A/N: Thanks for reading. So Bella parents were killed by vampires, who'd have guessed? Thanks for the reviews! Sayonara! =]