This was basically the rest of chapter 8 but I keep on chopping and changing and now the end of my original chapter 8 is now the beginning of my chapter 10. I hope I haven't confused anyone…
Sam's hand dropped down to his side and he sank down onto the ground. Why was this happening to him? He'd already lost everyone he'd ever loved but that wasn't enough; he still had to suffer. They'd all been protecting him. Maybe if he was dead then they would all be alive. Instead he had to cope with pain of losing everything that ever meant anything to him…and the fact that he had supernatural powers. Deep down inside he knew that one day he'd turn; he'd become one of the things he'd hunted. And Dean wouldn't be able to save him; no one would.
Suddenly Sam was tired. He struggled to keep his eyes open; he was tired of the nightmares, Seeing Dean's death over and over. He felt his eyes closing as he slipped away. Slipped away into the darkness. But this darkness was different from the frightening never ending darkness in his dreams.
"Sam can you hear me?" a voice whispered and Sam's eyes flew open. He gasped as he saw Ruby in the distance. He got up quickly and observed his surroundings; they were in some sort of dark room. It seemed familiar somehow although Sam couldn't see much. Ruby stepped out of the distance and she glared at him. For a split second he wondered if this was a vision…but it was too vivid. Ruby's voice cut into his thoughts,
"What the hell was that out there?" she said in a raised voice. Sam looked at her questioningly,
"Erm well hello to you too" He said slowly. Ruby frowned and said,
"Listen smartass, I'm not the one who just had some sort of breakdown" She paused for a few seconds before lowering her voice and saying, "You need to pull yourself together Sam". Sam looked away for a moment as he realised that she was right. If he was going to survive whatever Lilith had planned he needed to be strong. His dad had been strong…Dean had been strong. He had to live up to his family's name.
"Is…is it really him?" he asked. Ruby shrugged,
"I don't know Sam…but be careful, this could be one of Lilith's tricks" Ruby said with a distant look on her face.
"But why-"
"Why Dean?" Ruby said as she shook her head in disbelief, "Isn't it obvious? Dean is your weakness and everybody knows it". Sam thought back to watch the Trickster had said to him months ago and he realised that she was right. Again.
"Just sort yourself out Sam" Ruby said as she began to retreat into the darkness. There was still something weird about all of this.
"Wait" Sam called with a confused expression on his face, "Where are we?" Ruby grinned.
"Inside your head" she replied. Inside his head…?
"What?!" Sam almost shouted as he realised what she meant.
"It was the easiest way for me to talk to you" Ruby explained with an amused look on her face. Sam nodded slowly; "Okay…" he said just as Ruby rolled her eyes and disappeared.
"Sam…Sam wake up" a voice called. Sam eyes flew open and he looked around for a few seconds until he felt a sharp pain. He grabbed a hold of his head and he found himself gasping for breath as he looked up at Bobby's concerned face. His mind was blank for a few seconds as he tried to remember what had happened. It all came rushing back as he spotted the knife lying on the floor next to him. Dean had been here.
"Where is he?" Sam asked in a shaky voice. If Sam hadn't been so shaken up he would have realised that Bobby was hiding something from him. But he didn't notice; Bobby told him that Dean was at his place and that he'd drive them there. They drove in silence, Sam figured that he'd been unconscious for a few hours seeing as Bobby had driven to his place and back. He thought it was weird how Bobby was very quiet but he just assumed that Bobby was a little freaked out.
Dean was waiting in the front room when they arrived at Bobby's house. Bobby looked down at the floor and he said,
"I'll just wait here". Sam took a deep breath as he entered the room. He didn't really know how he was going to handle this; but he had to make sure that he remained calm. Before Sam could say anything Dean smiled at him. Sam froze; it wasn't a friendly or 'I'm happy to see you' smile. It was cold. Sam decided that he wouldn't move any closer. He looked into Dean's eyes and he took another deep breath.
"Erm...it's…good to see you" he said as calmly as he could.
"I bet that you thought I'd never get out…you thought that you'd finally gotten rid of me" Dean said bitterly. Every instinct inside Sam told him to get out of there fast but he couldn't. He had to stand his ground; he couldn't run away.
"Dean, what are you talking about" he said as calmly as he could. Sam wasn't sure how long he could keep this for but he knew that he had to wait for 'Dean' to tell him what he was doing here and what he wanted. Sam cursed silently as he realised that he hadn't come prepared. He had no weapons, no holy water – maybe he wouldn't need them.
"You let me burn in hell Sam…you said that you'd save me but you didn't" Dean yelled. Sam shook his head slowly,
"No…" he whispered. It was twisting things; that wasn't what had happened. Come on Sam, keep it together.
"No, Dean it's not like that…I tried everything I could, you know that…hell I was willing to do anything but you wouldn't let me…so you're wrong Dean" He said in a steady and calm voice. He could sense the anger rising up inside of 'Dean'.
"I died because of you…" Dean said in a bitter voice. Sam glared at Dean coldly.
"No one forced you to make that deal," he paused, "But you didn't make any deal because you're not my brother" Dean snapped and he lunged towards Sam. Sam backed away and held up his hand instinctively and everything became still. Sam gasped and looked down at his hand when he saw that Dean was in front of him like some sort of statue. What had he done?