Change

Edward had warned me about the change from being human to becoming a vampire. He warned me that it would be painful and that the entire time I was going through it that I would be begging for death. Edward wasn't joking. I didn't think he was, but hearing about something and experiencing it are two very different things. I had told Edward he was giving me the greatest gift he could possibly give me, and that still held true, but it was also the most painful. The venom was coursing through my veins burning anything in its path and the only thing I could do was fight to hold still and not scream.

Rosalie had once told me that screaming doesn't make the pain go away, so I was going to stay quiet and not allow Edward to know just how much this hurt. I would keep my eyes closed and pretend to sleep, pretend that the morphine never wore off. The morphine had only delayed the pain, but it hadn't stopped it from returning. This pain felt like I was dropped in acid and then set on fire. It was not a pleasant thing, not at all. My body was slowly dying; I could feel my heart beating erratically in an effort to stay alive.

I could also hear Edward sitting next to me holding my hand and whispering words of love and encouragement to me. There were also words of apology and a tone of sadness. Edward felt terrible for causing me to go through this, but I knew it would all work out in the end. I had faith that everything would work out, it always did for Edward and I.

To escape the pain I begin to think back through my life. Back to the beginning when I was a small child playing with Quil and Embry in the yard. I was five and they were nine and we were playing soccer. Well they were playing and I was trying desperately to block the goal and failing horribly.

"Come on Bella, you have to block it!" says Embry after another failed attempt by me.

"I'm trying Emry! It's really hard!" I complain. Back then I couldn't say Embry very well.

"Well you gotta try harder! Quil's gonna win if you keep missing!" shouts Embry angrily causing me to tear up.

"This is too hard! I wanna play a different game!" I demand.

"Then go play somewhere else. Embry and me are gonna play this! We don't want to play girly games," sneers Quil causing me to run inside the house where my mom was in the kitchen. I run over to her and wrap my arms around her waist and cry into her apron.

"What's wrong sweetie?" asks Renee.

"Quil and Emry are being mean to me again!"

"What did they do?" asks Renee kneeling down and hugging me and petting my head while I buried my face in the crook of her neck.

"Yelled at me! Emry said I wasn't playing good and they won't play something else with me," I complain.

"Here, you can have this cookie and I'll talk to Quil and Embry," says Renee handing me a cookie and kissing my forehead before walking out of the kitchen.

Back then things were easier. Back then a cookie and a kiss would fix anything. Things aren't like that now, I grew up and had to face things on my own for a while until Edward came into my life. A lot of the time all I needed was a kiss from Edward to feel better. A kiss wasn't going to fix this though, wouldn't make the pain go away. It wasn't like mom's magical kisses; this boo-boo wasn't going to feel better after a little kiss.

I would just have to find ways to pass the time. That was about the time that I think I fell asleep. If I wasn't asleep I was numb floating in darkness. I'm not really sure which. When I'm aware again I was still in pain, but it was receding. Edward was still by my side and I could hear my heart beating frantically, trying to beat the venom that was flowing straight towards it very slowly.

The fire was slowly fading from my hands and feet. Slowly, but surely. I would be a vampire very soon. I could hear Edward and Carlisle talking about it. "How much longer Carlisle?" asks Edward.

"Not much longer, Alice told me it'd be today," says Carlisle. There was a pause before Edward spoke.

"I see…thank you." Edward sounded relieved to know whatever Carlisle had been thinking, but I wish I knew. My heart was beating even faster than before. The fire was centered around my heart and I knew it was over.

My heart gives one last thump and I gasp which in turn causes Edward to gasp. "Bella?" says Edward obviously concerned. His grip on my hand tightens and I realize I there was no pain so I risk opening my eyes. At first I was surprised by how bright and clear everything was. The bright light caused me to wince until my eyes adjust.

"How are you feeling?" asks Carlisle who was suddenly standing above me which scares me and suddenly I was on my feet hissing at him. "Oh my, I'm so sorry, Bella. Please forgive me, I wasn't trying to scare you."

I suddenly realize what was going on as well as the fact that I had an audience so I straighten up and look around at everyone. Taking in the atmosphere, the sights, sounds, and smells around me. Everything was so new to me. "I'm sorry Carlisle, that was no way for me to behave," I whisper. Edward walks towards me slowly and reaches his hand out to mine. Apparently no one else wanted to scare me.

I reach out and take Edward's hand. "I've been worried about you, Love," says Edward.

"I'm fine," I say before kissing him passionately. Edward kisses me back and I'm surprised by the feeling of want and need I had for Edward. I wanted to continue to kiss him and for him to make love to me. I wasn't supposed to be feeling these things and yet I was. Edward was the one to break the kiss and when he did he looked a little concerned.

"Aren't you…thirsty?" asks Edward. Now that he mentioned it I guess I was so I nod. "Okay, I'll take you hunting right now and when we get back we can do whatever you want."

"I can think of a few things I'd like to do," I say suggestively forgetting our audience.

"Ew! I didn't want to know that!" complains Emmett. If I could have blushed I would have been beet red.

"Sorry Emmett," I mumble in embarrassment. Soon we were in the woods and I was trying to chase down a doe that we had come across. It didn't take me long to catch the doe, but I was still hungry.

Edward catches up to me as I'm finishing up with the doe. "There are more deer about a mile northeast, do you want to go and get one?" asks Edward as I get to my feet.

"That sounds good. Are you going to hunt this time?" I ask. Edward nods and offers me his hand so I take it and we begin to walk through the woods. It was so weird being a vampire even compared to being a wolf. The scariest part was probably that being a vampire felt right to me. As a wolf I always felt as though I didn't belong. Not because I was a girl or anything, just because. There was something inside of me that told me that where I was wasn't right, but it would get me on the right path, and it had.

Soon Edward and I were running through the woods behind two large bucks. We would be able to capture them at anytime, but the chase was so much fun that I wasn't ready yet. As we ran through the woods I began thinking about my time as a wolf and how there were times when we would have to hunt for a meal because we'd be too far from home or something. Deer were often the prey of choice, but were fast runners and tended to run in areas that slowed us down whether it be from fallen trees and boulders or spaces that were small enough that it was difficult to get through.

At those kinds of times I had wished my wolf form was smaller. This chase also made me wish I was smaller. I realize that I'm a vampire, but we have limits, and small spaces can be limiting. As I ran I began to wish I was a wolf again, running on four paws. Suddenly Edward gasps and stops and I look at him confused.

"Bella…what happened to you?" asks Edward his voice full of concern.

End Chapter

A/N: Thanks for reading…can you guess what happened? If not you'll have to wait until the next chapter. I'll give you a hint: it has to do with a special power that I decided to give her…;P that's all I'm saying. Sayonara! =]