"Haru-chan! Have you seen Mako-chan?" Nagisa asked Haruka one day during lunch. "And no, he's not on the roof, I checked. And Rei-chan have got some errands. It's kind of lonely, not that I haven't have any other friends other than the swim club. But-"

Man, this guy is even noisier than Makoto. If I'm lucky enough, I might find the switch somewhere on him.

As they walked past the field area, he saw Makoto at a nearby bench across them. But, he wasn't alone. Gou is with him. Haruka stopped to look at them and let Nagisa continue walking.

Makoto and Gou were talking about something and it was kind of intimate. He saw Gou blushed every now and then. And he saw Makoto, showering Gou with his usual affection and concern. Makoto can't seem to stop smiling while he talks.

"Haru-chan!" Seems like Nagisa had caught up, and ran towards him. "Nani, nani?"

Haruka looked at Nagisa to see his reaction towards the scene. He thought about what Nagisa said on that day, and he thought maybe Nagisa too felt the same way about Makoto as he is. But, he wasn't very sure, since Nagisa always seem to clung onto him. However, as of lately, Nagisa haven't been bugging him, and sometimes, Nagisa said something sarcastic and is directed towards him.

"Ah, Gou!," Nagisa peered through the neatly trimmed bushes. "Ne, Haru-chan, what do you think? I mean, let's guess what they are saying."

"Who cares?" Haruka turned to leave them, he's hungry and Makoto dragged him to school earlier than usual this morning, made him skip breakfast. "Let's go Nagisa, I need my mackerel."

"But, Haru-chan… Aren't you irritated?"

"Why?"

"Nothing! Just- um… Mako-chan is straight, isn't he?"

Haruka raised an eyebrow, Nagisa was very weird lately. And if his hypothesis is correct, he wanted proof. He didn't know how to make Nagisa spill, but he wanted to know.

"Who knows."

"Does that mean, I won't have a chance with him?"

Haruka felt a sting in his chest and up at his nose. He got the proof that he wanted. However, Nagisa's statement speaks for him as well. Not that he wanted anything more than the attention he gets from Makoto, but the idea of Makoto has other people to hang out with, other people to prioritize. Who knows where Haruka will end up in his new list, somewhere in the future. It felt wrong, it was out of norm. Norm is when there is Haruka, there is Makoto. It had been like that for so long.

"Nagisa, are you-"

"You caught me, Haru-chan. Seems like I have a crush on our captain."

Haruka gulped, it was weird in so many ways, especially seeing Nagisa making an expression far from his usual bubbly self. He was serious, he was desperate. Always have the social skills of a statue, Haruka didn't know how to react to Nagisa's confession.

"I can't help it. It was his kindness. I know, this is Mako-chan, we're talking about. He is nice to everyone. But his kindness and his smile, somehow, made me selfish and want him to myself. I don't know how to explain this. I'm so screwed!" Nagisa squatted, hands in his hair. "I'm confused. He is my friend, my senpai. And I am sure I am not attracted to guys. But he-"

"I thought I was wrong, so I tried acting normal. But, his gestures towards me made me flushed and nervous, and that feeling came back. During my stay at his place, I can't help but noting all these small things he do."

Nagisa recalled the night he slept at Makoto's. He slept on the futon and Makoto was on his bed. He couldn't sleep well. And sometimes, Makoto's hand hung over him while he sleeps. Nagisa would reach and squeeze the large and warm hand. He felt relieved by doing so. But he felt that it was weird of him to do so.

"Ne, Haru-chan, how did you do it?"

"Do what?"

"Your immunity towards Makoto's kindness and smile. I've seen you two. When Makoto went big brother on you, sometimes a mother, yet, you were not moved. I want that. I don't want to be moved by his actions, I can't."

Haruka think deeply. Immune to what now?

I don't think I'm immune to that anymore.