Sex Talks and Interrogations

EPOV

It was September 8th. In five days it would be Bella's birthday and I still had no idea what to get her. I had talked to Charlie and Emmett, I was welcome to the house but not into her bedroom (not that I would have gone up there) and I thought that we were all on safe ground as it related to Bella's and mine relationship. I was really, really glad I hadn't gotten shot yet.

It was the Sunday after Bella got released from the hospital and I was over at her house. Charlie had gone fishing in the early morning and Emmett was upstairs with Rosalie doing things only parts of my anatomy thought of. I was really starting to get frustrated at myself. What had happened to my morals? My self control? One kiss from Bella and my "friend downstairs" was jumping in joy. If I wasn't careful my hormones would kill my self control. I very well knew Bella was a virgin, and she now knew that I was too. She had been somewhat surprised, but accepted it. That was before we had our "sex talk". I growled as I remembered the conversation.

Bella and I were kissing in the kitchen when I looked down and saw Bella unbuttoning one of her blouse buttons. My eyes popped open and I pulled her hand away from her shirt.

"Bella what are you doing?" I asked, slightly angry that she would think that that was what I was after, HERE IN HER FATHERS KITCHEN!

I saw her face redden and tears threaten to spill down her beautiful face

"Did I hurt your feelings?" I asked, shocked.

"No," she lied.

So quickly that I wasn't even sure how it happened, she was in my arms, her face cradled between my shoulder and my hand, while my thumb stroked reassuringly against her cheek.

"You know why I have to say no," I murmured. "You know that I want you, too."

"Do you?" she whispered, her voice full of doubt.

"Of course I do, you silly, beautiful, oversensitive girl." I laughed once, and then my voice was bleak. "Doesn't everyone? I feel like there's a line behind me, jockeying for position, waiting for me to make a big enough mistake. . . . You're too desirable for your own good."

"Who's being silly now?" she said, pouting

"Do I have to send a petition around to get you to believe? Shall I tell you whose names would be on the top of the list? You know a few of them, but some might surprise you."

She shook her head against my chest, grimacing. "You're just trying to distract me. Let's get back to the subject."

I sighed.

"Please," She finally whispered, hopelessly. "It's all I want. Please." she closed her eyes in defeat, waiting for the quick and final no.

But I didn't answer immediately.

She opened her eyes, and saw my torn face.

"Please?" she whispered again. My arms tightened around her, and my lips were at her ear. "This is unbearable. Do you have any idea how painful it is, trying to refuse you when you plead with me this way?"

"Then don't refuse," she suggested breathlessly.

I didn't respond.

"Please," she tried again.

"Bella . . ." I shook my head slowly. I felt like I had surrendered. My heart, racing already, spluttered frantically, as I kissed her passionately.

Again, she took what advantage she could. When my face turned toward hers with the slow movement of my indecision, she twisted quickly in my arms till her lips reached mine.

My mouth was not gentle; there was a brand-new edge of conflict and desperation in the way my lips moved. she locked her arms around my neck, and didn't stop kissing me. She was the one who had to break away, gasping for air. Even then my lips did not leave her skin, they just moved to her throat. Her hands weren't unsteady now; she got through with the buttons on her shirt this time easily, she pulled my mouth back to hers, and she seemed just as eager as I was. One of my hands still cupped her face, my other arm was tight around her waist, straining her closer to me.

I felt her tryin to undo a button of her shirt and locked my hands around her wrsits

My lips were at her ear again. "Bella," I murmured,. "Would you please stop trying to take your clothes off?"

"Do you want to do that part?" She asked, confused.

"Not tonight," I answered softly. My lips were slower now against her cheek and jaw, all the urgency gone.

"Edward, don't —," She started to argue.

"I'm not saying no," I reassured her. "I'm just saying not tonight."

"Give me one good reason why tonight is not as good as any other night." she was still breathless; it made the frustration in her voice less impressive.

"well for one, your brothers upstairs" i said, kissing her throat. She grimaced

"secondly, when i make love to you, i want it to be special."She sighed

"Thirdly you're in a walking boot you cant take off" She pouted

"and fourthly, i want to ensure we have a shot at heaven" i said into her ear.

"Your trying to protect your virtue" she said, frustrated

"No silly girl, i'm trying to protect yours, and your making it increasingly difficult" i murmured.

"Ugh. I know what that means Edward. And i dont like it." She told me.

"what do you mean?" i asked her, confused

"You plan on waiting till marriage?" she said the word as if it were a taboo.

"Many people wait until marriage, Bella" i said, slightly hurt at her tone.

"Oh, Edward." She said softly, when she noticed my face.

"I'm sorry, i'm just slightly sexually frustrated, and i didnt know it was important to you" she said, taking my face in my hands and looking at me until i met her eyes.

"You lead, I'll follow" she said

I shook my head at her.

"No. I wont do anything of the sort. We're equals here Bella, we both get to lead."

She smiled and we kissed, this time more sweet and tender than the passionate, fiery ones we had had before our discussion.

To think that she had actually, well, what i can say is that my "freind downstairs" wasnt happy by my rejection of Bella's offer. To be completely honest, alot of me wasnt completely happy with it. But the coherent side of me knew that it would be better, much better if we waited until i married her. Yes, i had every intention of marrying her someday. I knew that as soon as i could get that ring on her finger i would make her mine in every way. I didnt want to acknowledge i was slightly terrified. People shouldnt want to get married after only knowing a person for two weeks, but that was how sure i was of Bella. I knew that her reluctancy at marriage didnt come from her not wanting me, she had told me all about her mother, who had always loved her father but preached to wait till after college to get marries. I remember laughin when Bella told me boiling live puppies was higher on her list than mariage. I also knew that i would do anything to make er happy, so as long as i played my cards right, we would go off to Dartmouth together. I was going to ask her to marry me before. I didnt want to go and live in sin at Dartmouth, and since i had every intention of living with her, i knew that she was going to be my wife before we got there. My only fear was that she would stick stubbornly to her idea of waiting until after college. I prayed not. I had spent my entire life waiting for her, just to find her in Forks, Washington. Life was really unpredictable. Now all i had to do was bide my time. And well.

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The next day i waited in the parking lot with Rosalie, Jasper and Alice. Emmett had to take Bella to school because she couldnt drive and we all knew i couldnt pick her up, no matter how muc i wanted to. We all knew what would happen if our secret got out, and were up to protecting our family. Rosalie nudged me gently as Emmett's jeep came into view. There she was, my persnal miracle. Emmett helped her out of the jeep and she pretended to not see us until Emmett said a little too loudly.

"Hey Bella, do you mind if we go talk to Mr. Cullen?"

"nope" she said, acting like she didnt care. I held back my smirk at her bad acting as our eyes met.

As hse got closer i could see her frown falter, failing to hide her happiness.

"Ms. Swan it's nice to have you back" i told her as she got closer, loud enough for the nosy students around us to here me call her by a formal name.

"Its good to be back Mr. Cullen" she said, showing part of her smile.

"Indeed it is" said a voice behind us. We all turned around to see Principal Greene.

"If i make speak with you Ms. Swan, ?" the principal said, turning around and walking ahead of us.

Bella looked at me, slightly panicked, the others expression equaled hers. I silently whispered so the principal couldnt hear.

"say nothing", she nodded, a slight tremble in her lip

"are you afraid?" i asked her, angry at myself for getting her in this situation

"My only fear is losing you" she said silently. I squeezed her arm an entered the principals office.

He motioned for us to sit.

"I'm sure you know why i've asked to speak to you." He said inquisitively

"No, sir. I at least dont, i dont know about Ms. Swan" i said turning to her and calming her with my eyes.

"I'm sorry, but i dont" she said in a voice that was believable, but shaky.

"Well Ms. Swan, i heard about your terrible attack and wanted to offer you the schools support. You were lucky your brother and Mr. Cullen were there. But the real reason i brought you in here is that i was informed by the police that the man Mr. Cullen helped aprehend was wanted in 5 states for assault, rape and murder. I was wondering if Ms. Swan would want to introduce him at the assemble that will be held tomorrow in thanks for your act to te community" he said and i held back a sigh of relief. I looked over at Bella who was suddenly much wittier.

"Oh, of course Mr. Greene i would be honored, after all, i have Mr. Cullen to thank for being here" she said, smiling at me.

"Wonderful, thank you, well thats it, you can both go, Mr. Cullen, please right Ms. Swan a permission slip, or beter yet, escort her to her class so she doesnt run into trouble"

Yes, sir" i nodded at him as Bekka and i walked out of the office.

I let out a sigh of relief and Bella let out a shaky laugh.

"Bella, I'm sorry for putting you in this situation, i'm a monster, i-"

"edward you cant take all the blame for everything. It takes two to tango, and its not your fault. Nothings happened. I love you, please dont go" she begged me and i took advantage of where we were to hug her and kiss her softly.

"As long as you want me, I'll be around"

"'ll alwasy want you, forever" she whispered

I beamed at her.

"Who do you have in second period?

"Mr. Banner"

"Alright, come on" i said usuring her through the doors to building three.

As we walked we kept stealing glances at eachother, smiling slightly.

When we reached her lab i knocked gently, before sticking my head out and calling out Mr. Banner, who was in the middle of a slide about mating monkeys.

"Yes Mr. Cullen?" he said, slightly agravated at my interuption

"principal Greene asked me to escort Ms. Swan to her class, she was at the office with him" i told him. He nodded, his face showing compassion towards Bella who was standing looking up at him innocently. How she could go from seductress to innocent angel was beyond me, but it worked on Mr. Banner who welcomed her warmly back to school and escorted her out, i brushed her arm as i passed and she slightly squeezed it.

I walked away, shuddering at the thought of what her touch did to me. My little freind was already bouncing and if i werent careful any student might think i was some pervert going after them. I laughed at the irony.

As i walked toward my classroom which i new was being supervised by a substitue i heard the horrible Stanley girl and Lauren Mallory talkin loudly as they walked from the bathroom, completely oblivious to my presence.

"I dont know why they didnt just him kill her, its not like anyone would have missed her" said Lauren Mallory, and i was confused as to what they were talking about.

"And i heard it was Mr. Cullen that saved her, to think of..."

"MS. STANLEY" I shouted in anger, knowing exactly who they were talking about. My sweet Bella, dead, what was wrong with these girls.

"Oh! Um. Mr. Cullen ... I was" said Jessica in terror.

"if you ladies will accompany me to the principals office, you have some explaining to do."

They both nodded and followed me.

I knocked i the principals door and he let me enter so i did, followed by the two little devils.

"Mr. Cullen?" asked Principal Greene, confused

"Mr. Greene i am here because i was going to my class from escorting Ms. Swan like you asked and found these two students speaking horribly about the girl and wishing her death. They also had the nerve to insuate my involvement was misterious. Now Mr. Greene that is slander an i am personally offended. Not only that but Ms. Swan was brutally attacked and these girls were trashing her name and wishing her dead, i believ there is something in the rule book about that" i said, slightly red faced with anger as i pointed at the twosome.

Mr. Greenes expression changed from confusion to anger as he examined the girls.

"that is despiccable. This school does not accpet that behaviour young ladies. If i hear you have been spreading any rumours about any faculty members, or have been bothering the poor Swan girl at all you will get expelled She is an excelent student unlike yourselves with an impeccable record. You will both get a weeks suspension and this will go on your file. Now wait outside till i call your parents." He told them, red faced like i was.

"i'm sorry Mr. Cullen, those girls have always been trouble. I want you to know we will not accept that behaviour and completely know the falseness of their allegations." He said to me.

I nodded and thanked him, walking away to my class, which was filing out. My downcast attitude immediately changed when Bella came in the room and sat in the front row next to Alice, winking at me and smiling before opening a book and pretending to be busy.

I smiled knowing that when she was around she made everything better...