DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS BESIDE ELENA ENEAS, JENNESA CHOLE, AND SEAN CARLSON. THEY ALL BELONG TO STEPHENIE MEYER.
Gloomy Day.
My eyes read every word, but my mind wasn't in the book at all. Rosalie knew what happened earlier and decided on avoiding me the entire day and as for Alice, she just plain ignored me. Jennesa was the only one who still stood beside me.
"Elle, are you ok?" She whispered and I looked up at her, my amber eyes already fading to black. I sighed and slammed the book shut, the spine of the old book snapping.
"I don't know what to do, Jen…" I whispered before placing the book on the table and bringing my knees to my chest. She sighed and placed her book down, bringing me into an embrace. "He's….gone….and he'll never come back." I muttered, choking on some words. Her grip tightened for a moment before she pulled away and stood up. My eyebrows knitted together in confusion as she began to walk away. "J-Jen?" I called after her but she continued walking. I stood up and went after her, following her to the backyard, and then into the forest. She stopped suddenly, causing me to stop as well.
"This," She began, while kneeling down in front of a rotting tomb stone, " is the burial sight of an old friend of mine. She was a very beautiful girl, so beautiful that I was convinced that she was one of us, when she wasn't. She was married at a young age to a man she feel deeply in love with, and they lived very happily together. One day, he was found dead at his job at a local bank, and she fell into such a depression, that I was sure that she'd join him soon after, but she didn't." She stood up after whipping some leaves and dirt off. The name on the stone read, 'Violet Taylor'. She turned towards me and continued, "One day, she met a man by the name of Jason Taylor, who was a friend of the family. Many times she told me, as she wept, that she would never fall in love with another man, but when she met Jason, everything changed. They, in time, were married and they stood together until she died of a heart attack 37 years later." My eyes lowered to the grave and she sighed before walking towards me and placing her hand onto my shoulder. "Before she died, she wrote me her last letter to me, and in it she wrote something that I think will be very useful for you now." My eyes stood on the floor for a moment before landing on her. "Everyone, I believe, has two true loves. If you are not destined to be with one forever, and they leave you alone in this world, and you feel like nothing is worth living for, you meet the other, and they become your reason for living." With that she disappeared, leaving me staring at the spot in which she stood. My eyes shifted to the grave as the sound of light footsteps came closer. The wind blew her pixie hair slightly as she stood there staring back at me.
"What am I supposed to do?" I asked her and she stood unmoving.
"I don't know." She said simply and I turned, a sudden anger and distress filling my mind.
"You saw him, you knew this was going to happen! What am I supposed to do, Alice?" I said louder and she stood quiet for a moment.
"I didn't see it happening like this. You made the wrong decision, and now I don't know what's going to happen. Everything went perfect in my visions, but you had to stay stuck in the past." She said and my eyes widened.
"Excuse me?" I whispered and she frowned.
"If he moved on, why can't you?" She asked and my breathing became rapid.
"This has nothing to do with him!" I practically shouted but she shook her head, taking a step forward.
"This has everything to do with him! You had a chance of happiness and you let him jump from your window! You're afraid of falling in love again, Elena, just face it." She said, her words dripping like venom. "You're afraid that he'd leave you, but he wasn't going to, Elena. He loves you, more than anything. You were truly happy in my visions, but because of your philophobia, everything changed, and now I can't see anything. If you want him, if you love him at all, you'll find a way to fix this." Her words hit my like bricks. Everything was true, I knew it was, but still I didn't want to believe it. "I tried helping you as much as I could, but I can't help you anymore Elle. Not me, not Jen, not Rose, no one. This, you have to do on your own." I kept my eyes to the ground as she spoke and soon I could feel that she was no longer there. I turned slowly before my heart began aching. My knees gave out and I allowed myself to fall to the ground, my head turned towards the tomb stone. I imagined Violet, depressed with the lost of her love, and then I imagined myself in her places. I didn't lose Edward, we both decided that it wouldn't work out. Then I imagined Violet with her second love, Jason. My eyes fluttered closed as images of Sean and I ran through my mind. In every image, I was happy, I was smiling……so why was I afraid of him? Why was I afraid of loving him? A sigh escaped my lips, but it sounded more like a cry of agony.
"What do I do?"