Hello, so all my chapters got deleted and I don't have internet access right now, so when I post this so certain things won't fit together as well as others, bear with me, the, story will be back to normal soon enough. And I apologize for how long it's taken to update, I've been traveling around Germany visiting my family, and not all of them have internet. And again, sorry about what happened with me using Walt and Natasha, I was going to kill Trey Prescott, but I like him too much, LOL, and I forgot all about Natasha, I picked her off a random list of Characters, sorry again.

(REED)

I feel so bad for Constance, I know what she's going through, when I think of how I felt when I found out Thomas was dead… and now, I know what it looks like. She looks terrible, her eyes are swollen from the constant crying, and her lips are always chapped from her constant gnawing on them. Then there's the way she dresses, like she's given up, all sweats and T-shirts, like she's not even going to bother being a Billings girl anymore. We were all working hard to help her keep her grades up, but there was just a lack of life in her. I felt terrible, if this was connected to me, than this would be my fault, like with Cheyenne and Thomas, it was hard to swallow, was I to blame for this, did I destroy another life?

That night, when I'd fallen asleep, I woke to the buzzing of my phone, I picked it up, there was a text message, I flipped it open, 'Reed, come 2 my room in Ketlar. Josh.' I got out of bed and quickly threw on a random sweater and denim jeans, I was being quiet, so I wouldn't wake Noelle. I hurried silently down the stairs, and dashed through the cold night towards Ketlar, when I got to the door, I was surprised to find it unlocked, I didn't even need the spare key the boys had hidden for us. I hurried anxiously up the stairs, shivering as I passed Walt's room, and at the end of the hall, came to Josh's room, I opened the door excitedly, and entered, but when I looked up, he was hanging from the ceiling by a thick braided rope. "NO!!!!" I screamed, he couldn't be dead, not Josh, the love of my life, he couldn't leave me, he couldn't die, not like this, not now, not when I needed him, he couldn't die! Ishut my eyes so tightly it hurt, trying to erase the picture of his moonlight paled expressionless face, and the bizarre angle at which his soft neck tilted, the image didn't pale, it didn't disappear, I knew I had to open my eyes, or it would kill me right there. But when I opened my eyes I wasn't in Josh's room anymore, instead there was Noelle leaning over me, concern furrowing her perfect brow, "Reed, are you alright? You were screaming." I shook my head, "I just dreamt that ?Josh was…dead." I managed to choke out, then I grabbed my cell phone, ignoring that it was 2 am, and I called him. The phone rang forever, and when his groggy voice finally answered, all I could do was choke, "Josh!" then burst into tears, I heard my sobs, and knew I was probably scaring him, but I couldn't stop them. "Reed? Is that you? Are you okay? Reed?" he was getting frantic, finally I nodded, forgetting for a moment that he couldn't see me. "I'm coming over there, I don't care if I'm caught. I need to see you. Now." I snapped the phone shut and ran through the door. When I got to Ketlar, the door was locked as it should be, that was a good sign, I fished the key from its hiding place, and opened the door, then I crept in. when I got to the second floor, I had to concentrate so I wouldn't run down the hall and wake the DA. I finally got to his room, and dashed inside, and the second I saw him, I was crying again, I collapsed weakly in his arms, so glad that he was alive. I curled into him, breathing in his scent, and I held his face in my hands, trying to make sure it was real. "Reed?" josh asked. " You're alive." I breathed, and I pinned him on his bed, "You're really alive!!! I was so scared. I heard your voice but…" I couldn't finish, I was just so happy, he was alright, it was just a terrible dream. "Reed, what happened?" he asked, confusion burning in his wonderful blue eyes. "I dreamt you were….that you called me here, and when I came in… you were…d-dead." I told him, shivering at the memory of my vivid dream. "It's alright, I'm here… I'm here." He told me rocking me back and forth in his warm lap and kissing my hair, it took me a moment to realize I was crying again. "I'm here, and I love you, no one is going to hurt you, hurt us. It's okay, shh," he kept comforting me, and I snuggled into his chest. I couldn't believe how real that dream felt, I was so glad he was alive, so glad I wouldn't have to say goodbye to another person I cared about. How could I have conjured such a horrible nightmare. That for me, was the worst conceivable thing that could ever happen. I shuddered "I love you!" I told him, still not totally sure he was really here, that I wasn't really crumpled on his floor dreaming in denial, while he hung above me. I shuddered again. "I was having a dream about you too." He told me. His eyes were full of pain when he said that, "I dreamt you were walking away from me, towards a cliff, and that no matter how hard I ran, no matter how far I ran, you kept walking, it was like I was on a treadmill, I kept running, but I never got closer to you. Then you leapt off the cliff, and somehow, I was at the edge. And I had to watch you disappearing forever." He pulled me tighter against him, "Reed, I love you so much, promise me you'll never walk away, I don't know what I'd do if I lost you again, promise me, you won't try to do something noble to save me or anyone else, I need you Reed, promise you'll stay with me!" he almost growled, I was confused, but I nodded, " I promise, but you have to promise the same thing." I told him, he nodded fervently. I snuggled into his chest. Don't ever, ever separate us. I thought at the world. And I buried my face in his warm, un-broken neck.

Later that morning, I realized I'd fallen asleep, when I woke up and looked around, I realized I wasn't in Josh's room, I was back at Billings. There was a note on my bedside table.

The DA was prowling around, he heard us, so I bribed him, and he told me if I brought you back to Billings and didn't tell anyone you'd managed to get in so late, he wouldn't tell Crom. Sorry.

Love, Josh. I smiled a little, I was glad I hadn't dreamt last night, it felt good when I thought of our promise, like we were really going to be together forever. I smiled to myself, Josh was definitely the one for me. He was so perfect for e, and I knew, I'd never felt this strong about Thomas, but even though I didn't feel as strong, it still brought a piercing pain to my chest to think of how I might have felt about him if I'd had more time. I wouldn't make that mistake with Josh, I wouldn't get angry with him, or be impatient, or do anything to damage our perfect relationship. I knew I could keep him… or rather I hoped I could keep him.

Really short chapter, sorry about that, but I'm also working on my stories for Fiction Press, the ones that are entirely my own, so I don't have as much time for my fan fics right now. I know nothing too significant (that you know of now, hint hint,)happened in this chapter, but the next one will come out soon.