Split

Esme POV:

It was like some kind of nightmare we couldn't wake up from. Something we had never considered, never prepared for. We all respected Edward's decision to leave Bella, though we all knew what it would do to him, to both of them. When his mind was set, it was in stone. He had stubborn streak a mile wide.

A few days ago Alice had a vision of something horrible. Bella had apparently jumped off a cliff and drowned, ending her life by her own hand. Poor Alice could barely tell us what it had been about, she was so distressed over the loss of her sister, her best friend. She'd immediately gone to Forks to help Charlie, despite her promise to never interfere there again. I didn't blame her.

It wasn't just this event alone that was ruining my family. Rosalie had called Edward and told him that Bella had died. She had meant this gesture to be kind, that Edward would come back and we could live like we always had. There was a lot that Rosalie still had to learn. I knew that Edward wasn't coming back, and that he may never walk through the door again.

Edward had gone to the Volturi to follow after Bella, to end his life as she had ended hers. If you threatened the Volturi's perfect security they held in their city, you were gone within seconds. Rosalie and Emmett had tried to stop him, but he was too far. It was only Bella and Alice that had a chance, and they had gone to Italy in hopes of saving him.

What did this mean to my family, If Edward didn't survive? I knew without a doubt that we would be split, perhaps for good. The pain of all my children and my husband was like cracks in my forever dead heart. If you had ever lost someone you dearly loved, or see someone you loved hurting you knew what this felt like. We would all change.

Jasper would be lost without Alice. Right now he stared at the phone, re-dialing the numbers and listening to her oddly cheery voice. Each time he heard the message his face fell a little more. I didn't have the heart to take it from him. Perhaps he would leave us and go back to his horrible past, letting the blood lust and wrath hide his pain. It wouldn't work. Crack.

Rosalie would be utterly consumed by guilt. Knowing she had caused the event that killed her brother, and possibly her two sisters as well. She wouldn't talk to anyone and wouldn't be around us. I didn't know what to say to her. I doubted that she would stay. Crack.

Emmet wouldn't laugh again. Edward had always been a very close brother, and the loss would crush him as well. He would forgive Rosalie in time, because he loved her. I didn't want him to go, but he couldn't stay away from Rosalie. Crack.

If Alice made it back alive, she would be depressed. She wouldn't share her visions and wouldn't talk to anyone. I doubt that she would even want to shop again. Of course, Jasper would follow suit. Another couple to split from our family. Crack.

Carlisle would be devastated by the loss of his son. Of course, he was the father and would be here for his family. I didn't know if he could forgive Rosalie. Carlisle had always tried to stay strong for the everyone, but he loved Edward dearly. His first son, and also his partner and crime as we liked to call him. They were a team when it came to making decisions. Possibly the biggest crack of all.

And then there was Bella. I didn't know much about how she was getting along when we left, but Alice's expressions after her visions let me know that she was miserable. That cliff stunt had confirmed it. If Edward was gone she would die. Already holding on by thin, taut strings, the news would break what little hold she had on life. This thought brought another dry sob up from someplace inside me. No one glanced over. Crack.

How did I feel about this? I didn't know if I could go on without Edward and Bella. A double-loss, a son and a daughter. Had we been so horrible that we deserved this? I wanted to find fate and destroy it. Was it fair to have our family split? All hopelessness seemed to be crashing down on us when we were startled by the phone in Jasper's hand ringing.

That was a little more angsty than I intended. It may be because I have to drive for the first time with my instructor today and I am absolutely terrified.

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