As we walked accross the meadow, Gale didn't say a word and just let me have my moment when I walked up to the fence. I stood there waiting, listening for the buzz of the electrical fence , like I always have. Back then it was rarely ever on but I always stopped to check. Now I deffinatly wouldn't have to, I never will again. Still I do as a force of habbit. I havn't been back here in so long yet it still feels like home. I can already smell the cedar and pine trees. I'm not going to hunt today. Mostly because I forgot my father's bow and arrows at home, and I'm too lazy to go back and get them. So I'm just going to watch Gale for today.
I go under the small hole in the fence, and Gale follows closely behind. I walk only twenty feet in the woods and I stop to take in my surroundings. God, I've forgotten how much I've missed it here. It's so peaceful just looking at the scenery, and listening to how alive the forest sounds. Then I hear them. Those birds. Mockingjays. I close my eyes and think of the beautiful little girl I watched die in the arena. I take a moment and whistle her four note tune. The mockingjays fall silent. I then whistle the four notes again so they can hear it, analize it, and repeat it. One bird starts, the more join in. Untill the whole forest is alive with her sound. It's beautiful. I slowly sit down on a near by log with my eyes closed, just listening to the perfect harmony. I begin to think of Rue, and Prim.
What did Prim mean when she said I was going to have a 'beautiful baby'? Does she mean I'm pregnant? Well I could be, there's a strong possibility. Peeta wants them so bad, he wants a family. This is all too much and I begin to sob in the middle of the forest. Gale is taken back, but still comes over to comfort me.
"What's the matter?", he asks.
"I've just been thinking..about everything", I admit, " I had a dream the other day, and Prim was in it. I think she was telling me I'm pregnant."
He's stunned by this, it's at least a minute before he speaks, "Well..could you be?"
I look him sheepishly in the eyes. I see his concern. Then I turn my head quickly, looking at the forest foor I anwser, " Yes".
"Well God damnit Katniss!", he exclaimes.
"Well what the hell do you expect Gale? We're married. It was bound to happen sometime."
"Not this soon."
"What do you mean this soon? We've been married for a while now. Instead of yelling at me why can't you just be there for me?"
"It's not that simple Katniss.."
"Well why the hell isn't it Gale? Huh? Why!"
"Because.. I loved you once too. I have feelings too. I came her for you.. I didn't want it to have to come to this but it did. I'm hurt. I never wanted this to happen while I was around. And it just so happens that the only time I come here for the first time in a while, it does."
I stand there in complete and udder shock. I don't know what to say. A combination of fear, rage,and sadness coarse through me. I have no idea how how to react. He sees this in me and comes to sit by me.
"Katniss", he whispers, "I'm sorry.."
I turn away, being distant and cold to him. "I think I should go home now", I simply say.
He begins,"But Katni-"
" I said I want to go home!", I say as I raise my voice.
"Okay.. let's go."