It is a long distant walk home. I'm not alone, but I feel lonely. I feel as if no one is here for me. We both walk in silence before we finally reach the front steps of the house.
He grabs my arm," Look Katniss, if I could take back what I said, believe me. I would. But I can't, and I'm sorry."
I stare at him blankly," Good-bye Gale".
"I'll be back later", he says. But I brush this off not paying attention to it as I walk into the house. I'm frustrated so I slam the door. Peeta's sitting in the living room waiting for me. He immediatly stands as soon as the door slams shut.
"Bad hunt?", he asks jokingly.
"Peeta", I say.
"Okay sorry, I was kidding hun"
"No that's not it", I say softly, " I might be pregnant."
He stops for a moment, "Really?", he asks politly.
"Yes.."
He quickly walks over and envelops me in a tight hug. I missed him while I was gone, even though it was just a short time. I feel the warmth of his hug and it feels like home. I don't even know why I missed him so much. It feels like I havn't seen him in ages. I don't ever want him to let go, but eventually he does.
" Are you excited? Are you ready?", he asks.
I stop and think for a second. Am I excited? Am I even ready? Do I even want kids?
"I'm more nervous than excited", I admit, "and I'm not really ready either. But I know you are, and I do want to have kids with you."
He starts to smile and kisses me slowly. He gives me many lingering kisses that I don't want to stop. And he doesn't for a while.
When he stops he looks at me shyly," Do you want to go and cuddle in bed the rest of the day?"
"Sounds perfect", I say as a huge smile crosses my face.
I tell him to turn around and give me a piggy-back ride all the way to the bedroom, and he does like the good goofy husband he is. He plops me down on the bed as gently as he can. I immediatly scurry under the comfy blankets while he heads into the bathroom. I turn the lamp off as if we were going to bed. He comes back a minute later and lays down with me and he holds me close. I position myself to where my head lays on his chest so I can listen to his heart beat. It makes me feel safe being with him, and there's no place I'd rather be.
"What do you want the name to be?", he asks.
" I havn't really thought about it. What about you hun?"
He takes a minute to respond," I like Xander"
This makes me smile," I like the names Maliki and Jamison. And we should give all of our kids two middle names so they feel unique"
"I like that idea. How about this", he clears his throat for dramatic affect," Xander Maliki Jamison Mellark"
"Hmmmm. Glorious!", I say giggaling.
"Thanks I came up with it myself", he says laughing then kissing my head.
"I love you"
"I love you too, Katniss"
This makes me smile uncontrolably for a long time. He makes me so happy. I continuously smile for a long time while listening to his heart beat, this puts me to sleep and the last thing I hear before I fall asleep is Peeta whispering the word "Always" into my ear.
I wake up before he does. We had gone to bed really soon, I think around 12:30 in the afternoon, but I'm not comletly sure. It feels like so much has happened in a short period of time, and I guess it has. Peeta has a firm grip around my waist as if guarding me from something. I gently remove his arm from around my waist, and place it on my pillow so he's still comfortable. I glance over at the clock and realize that it is only 6:47. I'm not sure if Gale stopped by yet, or he had decided against it. Part of me wishes he'd come running back to go into a deeper apoligy, and the other part just wants him to keep his distance for a long time. I feel a sudden pang of pain in my chest and wonder if it's guilt.
I decide on going downstairs to make some tea. While the stove heats up I contimplate whether I should call my mother or not. If I call her she'll probably want to talk for hours and know every minute of my personal life. But I think it would be good idea to tell her I might be pregnant. I'll call her after I make my tea. I took my time making the tea, and not to burn myself.