Hey-yo people, next chapter is a short one, so it's going to be coming up tomorrow... yea... just though you should know that my goal is to post 2 chapters tomorrow... with or without reviews... So yea, TTFN!
beep beep beep beep beep slam bleeeep 'Shut up you stupid thing, won't let me sleep.' I crawl out of bed clumsily and stumble toward the bathroom. While I'm peeing I see that I posted a sticky note count down for the cruise. It was on 5, but it was actually 2 more days. Once I'm done peeing I pluck off the stickies till it says '2 MORE DAYS!!'
'Great,' I think to myself, 'Two more days till I the cruise that is going to take up most of my spring vacation. With Paul and Kelly. Joy.' I get ready and feel like I shouldn't let Paul get to me like this, I mean I did expect something like this subconsciously, so why was I flipping out so much? I wasn't, not anymore. Once I told myself that it actually felt that way. I didn't care anymore, even though I will most likely get pissed the second he walks into my sight, but for right now it was perfect.
I get dressed in normal jeans and a somewhat see through black shirt over a spaghetti strap. I mean, it's not like you can see the spaghetti strap right away, I just don't want to take the chance that it could in the sun. Whatever. I look at my 'packed' suitcase and realized that I probably wasn't really packed. I'd have to actually finish packing. 'Should probably do that tonight I guess.'
'Shit! Paul asked me out tonight!... oh well, not like I'm gonna go with him anyways. If he comes then I'll just…. Mom will probably let him in to 'talk over the "confusion" of what happened.' I think quickly on what my options were. 'I'll ask Cee and Adam.'
I get in Jakes car after breakfast, after mom told me I should probably 'talk' to 'him' again. Jake asked if anything was wrong with Paul and me. I didn't answer, he must have taken that as a yes because he didn't question any further.
Once at my first class, came in kind'av late so I didn't find CeeCee or Adam yet, I get out my math book and homework.
"Would Suze Simon please come the principle's office as soon as possible," says the intercom. Oh great, what does Father D want now? My teacher excused me, she knew I was good at math so she wasn't as mad as my other teachers would be if this happened…. Which did happen, anyways.
"Father Dominick what is it? I'm in class?" I say walking in and sitting down.
"Susannah, I thought I asked you to help Paul with the ghosts. He came in today and looked horrible," he says accusingly.
"Father, there haven't been any ghosts, I had one yesterday and she left though, 'Moved on'. His problem aren't the ghosts," I say having no intentions of telling him about what happened.
"Well then," he said obviously used to me not answering any of his questions truthfully, "Would you just see if he needs any help?" he says almost pleadingly. What is it with people and wanting me to friggin talk to him?
"Probably not Father Dominick, bye," I say letting myself out. As I walk back to class I just 'happened' to run into Paul.
"Suze, look, can you just listen please?" he says really not looking that great. But I mean I looked worse yesterday and nobody budged about it, certainly not Father Dominick.
"I'm late for class," I say not stopping. 'Why wasn't he in class either? Oh well, not my problem.'
"Look, I'm just sorry. As long as you know that," he says almost too sincerely. But just almost. So I keep on walking.
Right, now I'm in my room getting ready to go out with CeeCee and Adam to 'The Club'. It's like 6:30 and they're going to be here in 15 min. and I still have to put a tiny bit of make up on. I'm wearing these short shorts and a spaghetti strap top that actually covers my stomach, I'm kind'av out of shape, even though CeeCee thinks I look 'great'. Whatever, my body, I'm almost in shape again, I don't eat anything tonight and then do a bunch of sit ups tonight and I'm all set. For tomorrow that is.
'What if Paul shows up?' I question myself, 'He won't,' I assure myself while putting on my eyeliner. 'He's new, he wouldn't even know of the place. Or maybe Kelly and him went 'sightseeing' there. NOT.' I quickly finish up the rest of my makeup, not too much, just some eye shadow and mascara, nothing else. Quick check in the mirror, fix my hair a bit more, then rumble down the stairs as fast as I could.
"Mom! I'm going out, I'll be back later!" I yell and hear her respond but don't wait to hear what it is, as long as she heard me that's fine.
CeeCee and Adam were already outside waiting for me so I walk to the car and get in the back seat, Adam was driving so CeeCee was in the passenger seat. "Hey guys," I say closing the door. "Lets go party!" I say but had to yell the last part because the music was already turned way WAY up. And we were off. 6:48.
Once we get there we all start drinking immediately, as usual, because everybody else here wouldn't care. Adam and CeeCee of course go off and dance on their own doing whatever kind of dance they do. And I go off and dance by myself for like two seconds before some guy comes up next to me and starts dancing with me. I catch a glimpse of his face and see that it was Kelly's ex boyfriend. Whoa, I guess he knows what's going on as well. Whenever the waitress came by with drinks I took whatever she had and drank it. So did he, I think his name is Edd.
While we were dancing I look around for CeeCee and Adam, they were dancing not too far away from me. Good, didn't want them to leave me here, not that they would do that, but still, didn't want to chance it. Edd and I were practically getting it on, like seriously, we were both drunk but we could still dance without falling over. His hands running up and down my sides, mine doing whatever they were. No not doing THAT, god.
A bit later someone at the bar catches my eye. Kelly. She was looking through the crowd her sight creeping closer to where I was with her 'boyfriend'. Or maybe he was already an ex. I dunno. 'Hmmm,' I wonder, 'Maybe I could get back at her.' I wait a bit longer then kiss Edd. He didn't object. And right as I was, this pissed Kelly off. I feel someone tap my shoulder. I turn around to face that person but they slap me. I look at Kelly and slap her back. She stumbles, of course, and walks away furiously. Whatever.
'I think I've danced enough,' and I walk over to the couches to sit down. Edd follows me.
"You ok?" he asks.
"Yea," I tell him and sit down.
"Good, I don't know what got into her," he says sitting down next to me. "I mean she's the one that cheated on me." Suddenly Paul comes up to us and says quiet drunkenly and angrily, "Leave."
I get up to leave, but he puts his hands on my bare shoulders and says, "Not you, him," he motions his head towards Edd.
"Hey, I was here first," he slurs like we were in second grade again.
"Leave!" yells Paul this time and Edd gets up clumsily and leaves.
"Paul," I say angrily and push his hands away, "What is your problem?!"
"You," he says sitting down next to me. "I can't stand it anymore, I need you," he says oh so cheesily.
"Look Paul, Kelly's here somewhere but just leave me alone. I hate you," I say getting up again, this time succeeding.
He gets up and follows me, "Look Suze, I know what I did was messed up, but it seriously didn't mean anything," he says grabbing me again to face him.
"Paul, you obviously don't get it," I say angrily. "I don't like you. I don't like what you did. I don't like that you didn't tell me-"
"I was going to, that's why I came and visited you that one night," he says all sincere and apologetic and stuff.
This left me speechless for about a second, which frustrated me. "I don't care Paul," I say with not even a hint of anger anymore. "Just leave me alone."
He lets me go and adds, "Please just think about it."
"Whatever Paul," I say and leave. CeeCee and Adam were looking for me, they wanted to go home. So did I.
That night Paul called and I picked up, hinting that he probably just wanted to tell me something anyways. And me being drunk didn't help.
"Suze?" he asks quietly.
"Yea?" I ask a bit angrily, but he's heard me angrier.
"Look, I just wanted to tell you that back in Seattle, you know, I had it all. I could have whatever girl I wanted and I did."
"This isn't helping you Paul," I say getting angrier.
"I know, but I don't know, when I saw you and when I kissed you, none of the other girls meant anything anymore. It was just you."
After a pause I add, "Is that what you told Kelly too?"
"No, god no," he was lying.
"Paul, I know when people are lying. Just don't!" I say and I slam the phone down and quickly pick it up again, so that he would still hear this. "And stop calling me."
Then I finish packing.
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