Chapter 15

Edward's POV:

Looking out at the horizon, a pale orange for the sun had just set, I could only think of one thing. Alice was a genius, night swimming! Then Bella wouldn't have to be embarrassed.

"Hey Edward"

She's here "Hey Bella, how…"Oh my god, she looks beautiful. Her pale skin; offset with a black bathing suit cover, was simply glowing in the moonlight. "How are you? Ready to go swimming?"

"Yeah, just turn around and don't look"

Just to please her, I turned around. I could hear her trying to take her cover-up off. I wasn't sure on how much success she was having…thud!

"Bella, are you ok?" like I said

"Yeah, I tripped, can you help me up?"

"Can I look at you?" What is she worried about? I think she is beautiful

"Yes, just don't say anything" Did I say she was stubborn?

"Alright." I turned around to help her up and was meet with the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. Bella was wearing a midnight blue bikini. It made her brown eyes pop and her skin glow. She looked happy; content. It was a good thing that she didn't want me to say anything. I couldn't think of anything to say to compliment such beauty. I didn't understand why she was so worried about how she looked…she had a small bump on her stomach, but she looked healthy. You couldn't even tell that she was pregnant.

"Hey Edward, when your done staring at Bella, send her over to Carlisle. He wants to talk to her."

"Thanks Alice." Sisters..

Bella's POV:

"Yes Carlisle…"

"Just be safe ok Bella."

Don't worry Carlisle, I'll be safe." Carlisle had once again gained my respect. I wish he could be my father instead of the one that I got.

"BELLA! Come on the water's warm!"

"I'm coming Emmett, calm down, you're scaring me!"

"Sorry…" yeah right. That big teddy bear. I had no choice but to love him.

All night Edward was staring at me. Had I grown a second head? I was getting tired , I heard that that's what pregnancy does to you, but I wasn't entirely sure…I didn't have much to go on.

Emmett and Rose4 had snuck off about an hour ago. Alice and Jasper were talking on the beach not far from us. Carlisle and Esme were star-gazing and I thought it looked like a lot of fun. Edward and I were sitting on the waters edge. I don't know what Edward was looking at, besides me, but I was listening to the waves and looking out on the horizon.

"Bella, do you ever regret anything you've ever done?"

What the heck is he talking about? Where did that come from? What do I have to regret…better yet, what does he have to regret?

"No…well yes. I regret not doing anything when I went back to Charlie's. What about you? What do you have to regret?" Here it comes…

"The one thing I regret is not telling you how I feel about you. What you do to me."

Well that explains why he has been staring at me. He hates me. Why did Alice lie to me?

"I'll just leave now."

"But why Bella? Why are you crying? What did I say?"

"You don't like me do you? You've just been acting for the last two months haven't you? The last two months have all been a lie haven't they?"

I don't like you Bella. Where did you get that idea? It's quite the opposite actually"

"What do you mean 'quite the opposite'?

"Have you ever had anyone who could jumpstart your heart just by walking in the room? Make the world seem so much brighter? Change your whole outlook on life? Stop your breathing? Fill your every thought?"

Yea I do, it's you! "Yes, I have. Who is it?"

"It's you Bella. Since that first day in the hospital, I loved you before I even meet you! I sat there for two days waiting for you to wake up. When you left two months ago, I feel apart. I was broken. When you returned, it was like the last two months hadn't even happened. I love you Bella and I can 't tell you how much you inspire me by choosing to keep that baby."

"Really?" Oh god, why does my voice have to be so squeaky?

"Yes, really. I have been waiting almost five years to do this, but can I try something?"

"What"

"This" and he leaned in to kiss me

"Edward! Bella! Cannon Ball!" Lovely, it doesn't take Emmett very long to ruin the moment.

"Emmett, I don't do cannon balls!"

"Aww, come on Bells, you should. They're fun"

"Bells?? No way!!" why did he just call me bells?

"Party Pooper!" lovely. And I thought he was 17!

"You know I love you Em!" "Edward, can we take a walk?"

"Yea, are you okay bella?"

I hesitated…

"Bella, are you ok?"

"Not really. I have to talk to you. You know when I told Carlisle about the one time, I didn't lie but I didn't exactly tell the truth. It happened more then once. I took birth control and I was given no choice on whether or not I wanted to go."

"I was there for a week and he wouldn't let me take it. He forced me to do things with him every night. I have been thinking…what if he wanted to get me pregnant? If you hadn't found me, what would have happened? Would he have killed me? If I went back, would Renée be upset? Would she even care?"

"Why is it that every single person I have ever loved, has found some way to hurt me? Have I made the right choice in keeping the baby? What's going to happen to me next?"

"Bella, calm down, it's okay. I won't hurt you and neither will Carlisle, Esme, Emmett, Rose, Alice or Jasper. We all love you and want what's best for you. We are here to help you. We want you to be happy. Do you want to find out what Renée would think? We can go back to Phoenix, but only if you want to."

"But that's the problem Edward! I don't even know what I want. I want her to be happy for me. I want her to love me…for me! I want a father that loves me and wants to help me. I want my brothers to love me, better yet, know me! I want to be normal! I love you Edward but I don't know what I want! I need to figure out if what I'm doing is right.