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It had been a three weeks of Jacob avoiding my phone calls, everyone told me he had mono and had to stay home. So he had mono, why couldn't he at least talk to me on the phone? Why was he ignoring me? This was not like him in the slightest an it broke my heart. I was sitting by the phone, swirling my now cold cup of coffee in my favorite mug.

"Hey Kiddo." Charlie spoke as he grabbed his coat. "Look, you...I don't want to see you spiral into this depression again."

"I know. I don't either." I sipped the coffee, forgetting it was cold and grimaced.

"Well, go over there and demand to see him."

I nodded, "Yeah, I think I will."

"Be careful, it's raining pretty hard out there. I'll be back round 6 in the morning. Love you kiddo."

I smiled, "Love you too." It'd taken us quite a while to get to the point where we said that to each other, I never said it to anyone other than him or my family and I hated that.

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Jacob 'wasn't up to visitors' when I went, I had sat outside for 3 hours and got nowhere. Billy threatened to call my dad on me and I finally had given up. Jacob was obviously over what our friendship meant to him and it killed me to the very core. I needed to let it go and move on with my life, I needed to do something new.

When I got home I pulled out my pink folder and pulled out the paper. I stared at it for what seemed like hours and paced the room, going over pros and cons. I'd been offered a full scholarship to brown university and I only needed to send in this form to seal my acceptance. I don't know why I hadn't lately, but I chalked that up to Jacob and what was going on between us. Or what wasn't. I had thought there was something there, we almost kissed at the theatre and now he won't talk to me anymore what was I supposed to think? It was me. I needed this, a fresh start in a new place where nobody saw me as the bloodsuckers dumpee. I sealed the envelope and wrote my address in the corner, determined to not let myself fall into a deep depression again over this.

I had driven myself to the post office and dropped it into the box, fighting back tears as I saw it drop.

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I was tossing and turning all night, it'd been a month since the movies and I was on day 4 of convincing myself to forget about him. Though I was failing miserably, I couldn't shake that something was wrong or that I'd offended him so badly that he couldn't bear to look at me anymore. I heard something hit the side of the house just outside my window and I sat up. Charlie wasn't due home for another 4 hours and surely he wouldn't be walking around outside. As I was about to lay back down Jacob's head popped into view and I screamed, how the hell was he up this high?!

He thumped the window angrily and I realized he wanted me to open it, I ran to the window and leaned outside "How the hell did you scale the tree like that? Are you crazy?!"

"Just move."

I moved to the side and he swung his body in and landed on the floor. I finally got a good look at him when I switched on my light. I was shocked, his hair was chopped off and short, dripping with rain water. He was a foot taller than the last time I had saw him, easily and he was in jean shorts and barefoot.

"When did you find time to get a tattoo while you were 'sick'?" I snarled, sitting down on my bed, still bitter that he pushed me out like he did. "And why did you cut your hair?!"

He looked at the floor, clenching and un-clenching his fist which was a new thing for him. His anger had been awful lately and it was a sure sign something had changed, but what?

"Will you stop yelling?"

"If you tell me why you've been ignoring me? What the hell did I do?!" I yelled, but I wasn't sorry.

Jacob took a step backwards and turned to face the wall behind him, he seemed to be counting. He finally turned around, his face softer his fists no longer clenched at his sides but hanging there. "I can't tell you what's going on with me, it's a tribal secret. But you can come to your own conclusion if you remember something I told you."

"So you answer my question with a limerick?"

"Bella. Will you just cooperate?!" He sighed and tipped his head back, breathing in deeply to calm himself. "I'm sorry. Just, hear me out. Please, I never meant to hurt you."

"Okay." I sat back against my headboard and frowned.

"Do you remember the story I told you on the beach?" he asked, kneeling on the floor.

"About the cold ones and the Quilete legends of shape shifters? Yes."

He didn't answer me, he just stared at me and looked beaten down. I shrugged at him and he sighed.

"Bella...what was the lee-I mean...Edward." he growled.

"A vampire?" I answered honestly, though I hoped he wasn't going to start a conversation up about my past.

"Which is a cold one." He helped me along.

"Right, and...?"

He stood up again running his hands through his shorter hair, pulling at it slightly making it stand up. "You have to understand this implication. Think about it, he's one part of the story..."

"Yes, and the other was a Quil..." I stopped mid sentence in shock, I couldn't believe what he was implying. He took my hands in his, shaking them gently begging me to continue. "Quilute. Are you...telling me you are a werewolf?"

He crushed me in a hug and I felt his body heat engulf me, it felt so nice and comforting. I wrapped my arms around his lower back and pressed my cheek above his heart which was hammering quickly.

"Bella that's why I was acting like that, I was on the verge of phasing into my spirit wolf. Dad knew and was trying to get you out of there so I didn't phase in front of you."

I began to shake, not my Jacob. I felt him start to shake again but this time it was from crying and I held onto him. I felt him clench my shirt in his hands as he cried into my shoulder, he was falling apart.

I sat there holding Jacob in silence forever, him kneeling between my legs, a million thoughts running through my head not one of them pleasant. I couldn't imagine this happening to someone, the fear you must experience before your first phase had to be so scary and here I thought he hated me or I did something. I couldn't imagine how scared Jacob had been, how much he had to endure or how he thought I would hate him.

Jacob finally looked at me with reddened eyes, "Thank you for letting me cry on your shoulder, literally."

"Our little secret." I said sadly.

"You won't tell anyone...will you?" He asked, wringing his hands together.

"Of course I wouldn't tell anyone, we'd both be in trouble."

"Thank you Bella." He pushed a few strands of my hair behind my ear and looked deeply in to my eyes. It made me feel funny again, a feeling i'd had a few times while with Jacob but it was a good feeling. "I'm sorry I worried you and made you think I was mad at you. I wasn't allowed to be around you, I had to do a ton of training and pack stuff and learn how to control my anger. It's what initially makes us phase, we have to learn to control it and eventually we can phase on demand."

I nodded, boldly running my hands through his short hair. He dropped his head so I could really see it and I frowned, "Your hair..."

He lifted his head but took my hand in his, his warmth around my small hand made my stomach do flips. "We have to keep it short. When we phase it can't be too long."

"This?" I rubbed my hand over his tattoo.

"Pack branding. The guys had to hold me down, I didn't want it but oddly enough I knew in my heart that I needed to let it happen."

"Then explain the jeans and I guess I can guess how you scaled my house." His fingers began to caress mine, enticing all sorts of feelings in my tummy as I stared at him.

"When we phase whatever we are wearing is ripped to shreds, we tie jeans to our legs and when we phase back to human we're naked. So we have to phase behind a bush or something."

I blushed, "Don't jeans hurt your.." I stopped that thought as I said it, playfullness dancing on his lips.

"It's not the most comfortable thing in the world, no. But it's what I have to do, I like that you think about me like that though." He laughed, getting a light smack from me. Our hands were still joined between us and I squeezed his hand in mine.

"So we're okay? I really thought you were done with me."

Shame crossed his beautiful russet colored face, "Bella I'll never forgive them or myself for making you feel that way. I wanted to call you the second I found out but I was bound by tribal laws and I knew distancing myself from you was better until I learned to control the anger and phasing. I have it pretty much down right now, I'm still working on my anger though. I love you. I mean..."

My eyes shot open at his bit of information he just hurled at me, he was back peddaling though, trying to cover it up.

"I meant I love your company I would'nt ever be done with that." He shook his head, he knew he screwed up that cover and I smiled but he couldn't see. His head was hanging staring at our hands.

"You said you love me..." I whispered.

He raised his head slightly and frowned, "I really...I just...I didn't..."

I put my finger over his lips to hush him, the feeling of his warm lips against my finger made my insides dance with nerves. "It's okay. Will you stay with me Jake?" The look he gave me was one that screamed 'the hell' and I released my hold on him. "To sleep."

He relaxed a little and I scoffed, "Like you would've cared if it was more than that."

He bit his lip and laughed, "I just, it's out of your norm to be so bold."

"Yeah, well...either you want to sleep here or you dont." I was pretending to be offended, I climbed back into my bed and he grimaced.

"I would...but my pants are soaked."

"So take them off, I won't look."

He stood frozen in his spot and I groaned, "Jake." I went to Charlies room and grabbed a pair of his boxers and tossed them at him. "Get in this bed with me."

I was being slightly bossy and extremely bold, I wasn't sure what had gotten into me but I liked this. Jacob asked me to turn my head which made me laugh out loud and he hissed at me to shut up before he growled 'move over' to me. I did and as soon as I felt him slide in next to me I flipped over and curled into his side. He put his arm around my shoulder and I laid on his chest, it was so warm and comforting to me. I yawned let myself relax in his arms.

"So, the wolf thing doesn't freak you out?" He asked, slightly humored that I had this reaction.

"No Jake. You'll always be the same guy to me, no matter what. Are you okay with the whole thing though?" I was tracing his abs, square after square they were so tight.

He hesitated and slowed my hand on his chest, tracing the tips of my fingertips. "Truthfully, I'm better than I was when it first happened. I was a mess Bella. I was angry that nobody warned me about this, I knew the legends but not that they were true or that I was one of them. Dad and I fought really bad and I stormed out of the house only to be met with the rest of the Pack. I wanted to tear them apart but they assured me they were just there to help me transition, into this...monster." His voice broke at the last word and I squeezed his hand in mine.

"You are not a monster Jacob Emphram!"

"Who changes into a werewolf?" He said sadly, my heart broke further in two.

"You do. It's part of you, it's part of your destiny and you know what?"

"What?" He asked, finally looking at me.

"I won't tell anyone I know, but I'll be there for you whenever you need me."

I felt awful for him, he was never going to get out of Forks like he'd wanted to. I knew he had to be furious with his Dad most of all because we had all discussed his college applications and he never let on that he wouldn't be able to go. Not that he could've said anything at the time, but I can understand where Jake was coming from.

"Thank you." He kissed my forehead lightly and I snuggled into his side.

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