We were just outside of Washington when Jacob's cell phone rang, He pulled over and responsibly answered the phone causing me to smile at him.

"Hello? Oh Hey Dad. Yeah, we're outside of Washington. No kidding?! Wait...what?" He suddenly hissed and gripped the steerling wheel so tightly I thought it would snap off. I laid my hand on his thigh and his grip released and he threw his head back against the seat rest. "She doesn't know about me, how is that supposed to work?" They argued a while more and he ended the call, pulling back onto the road without a word.

"What's wrong?" He clenched the steering wheel again and I felt like I was invading his privacy. "I'm sorry, never mind."

"No, It's..." He sighed, "It's not that you asked, it just makes me madder every time I think about it."

"Well if you want to talk to me about it you can, but you don't have to." I patted his leg and he smiled at me.

"Thanks." He squeezed my hand and kissed my knuckles. "My sister Rebecca came home."

"Oh! That's wonderful! You haven't seen her in years!"

He nodded, "Right, which is why I was so excited. But then Dad informed me that she was moving back in and living with us."

"So...the problem is?"

He looked at me like I should've known what he was implying, "Rachel and Rebecca don't know about the wolves, Bella."

"Oh god."

"Yeah and she'll be living with one. It's just not what I wanted to hear right now, I love her and having her home will be great. But I know I am going to slip up or one of the guys will and the fact that Dad doesn't care..."

"I understand why you were so upset."

"Oh no, it doesn't end there. She brought her boyfriend with her, and from what I've heard about him he's an arrogant ass wipe. So they will both be living with us and I have to keep my mouth shut because Dad is happy she's home and wants her to feel as welcome as possible."

"Oh Jake..." I squeezed his hand, he had so much on his plate already I wished that I had some way to fix all of it for him so he could be as carefree as he was before he phased. "It'll work itself out. They are staying until they find local housing, I assume, right?"

"Dad said they can stay as long as they want, I don't know."

I nodded, "Maybe once you get home your Dad will realize though it's nice to have her back it isn't really plausible to have her living under the same roof as you again, things have changed."

"I don't know about that one, the girls were Dad's pride and joy. They don't ever seem to do anything wrong."

I nodded, I knew that when we were younger the girls would constantly get Jake in trouble. Once Jake and I were playing on the beach and his Dad snatched him up from our sand castle and spanked him for pushing Rebecca into the water in her party dress. He cried out that he didn't push her, that she was playing near the water and a wave knocked her down, which is what happened, but his dad hauled him up to the house and I didn't see him all weekend. I knew Billy loved Jacob but it hurt him when his father took their side over his.

"Maybe now that you are older he'll see through their crap?" I offered, but he rolled his eyes and shifted in his seat.

"Yeah, doubtful."

"Try not to let it get you down, you won't have to be home for a couple more days anyhow. We'll just enjoy the trip and forget about it." He smirked at me and I burst out laughing, "You are so cute."

"You just now realize this?" He stuck his tongue out playfully and I blushed.

I bit my lip and smiled up at him, "Well, I did but it passed." We laughed and I leaned forward to turn the music on, "Jake...what do you think I should do about that record exec?"

His hand wrapped around the skin above my knee and he held it there, "I think you should consider calling him, I really think you could do this. I had no idea you had a voice like that, it's really powerful. You could give that genie in a bottle bimbo a run for her money."

I laughed so hard I nearly lost control of my bladder, "Christina Aguilera."

"Whatever," He chuckled, "Seriously though, I support you in anything you do and you know that. But this is new and I'm sure you are scared about the endless possibilities which is understandable. But I think it's healthy for you to venture out of your comfort zone sometimes, good things come from that." He laughed at some joke I had no idea of, "But, seriously...I say go for it, I would if I could sing."

"OH MY GOD!" I howled, laughing hysterically again. "You CAN sing!"

He shook his head, "You can't prove that." he smirked playfully.

"Next Karaoke out I will prove it, and I'll have a record exec there waiting for you Casanova."

He barked out a laugh, "Dream on. I don't really sing when I do karaoke anyhow, I hold back. It's funnier when I sing like a tone deaf chicken."

"Why do you want people to think you can't carry a tune?"

"I'm the funny one of the group, they tell me all the time they love having me around because i'm such a comic relief. If I got serious...I don't know that I'd still have them as friends."

"If they dump you because you sing seriously for once, they were never your friends. I'd rather know that than waste my time with people who are using me for a comic relief. Besides, if they were your real friends they would support your ability to really sing as well. And I've heard you sing when you didn't know I was around, you CAN sing."

He blushed and turned the car off of the highway, curving around the off-ramp and merged into traffic before he answered me. "When did you hear me sing?"

"I heard you while you were in the garage one summer, you were singing to some song...I see the good in life, what was good what was gone it all makes sense."

He blushed deeper, "Chris Daughtry, wow. I didn't know anyone was around, I made sure of it."

I laughed, "Wolf hearing has nothing on ninjas."

He chuckled, "If you'd driven your truck that day and not had Edward drop you off at the bend I would've heard you coming."

That was the first time I'd heard him mention Edward without snarling or growling but I dismissed it. "Yes, my truck would've given me away. You know, I never actually told you this...but when I drove that truck I always thought of you and that you basically built that truck for me."

"Is that why you are hanging on to it?"

"Yes."

"Aw, that's cute. We do need to fix it though, it's on it's last leg. When we get home I'll see what I can do for her."

"Thank you Jake." I looked out the window as his thumb caressed my leg., at the passing signs that now read 'Washington 1200 miles' and sighed. We only had two more nights in a hotel before we were thrust back into real life. His hand now creeped towards my core and I clenched my legs, "Are you horny or something?"

"Or something." He pulled his hand back and put it on the steering wheel and turned into an empty parking lot, facing the forest in front of us. He killed the cars engine and turned to me, "I need you."

"Excuse me?" I was unsure of the implication but wasn't going to react before I was sure of what he meant.

"Come here." He motioned for me to climb over the console and I raised my eyebrow at him, "Please." He pointed to his lap and I un-buckled my seat belt and threw my right leg over the console. I laid it on his right side and pulled my left leg over, I now sat on his thighs and slumped my shoulders.

"What did you need this for?" I giggled.

He laughed, "I needed this..." He pulled my mouth to his and initiated a very intense make out session, we'd managed to fog up the windows very quickly and give him a boner. My own arousal though hidden, he was painfully aware of it as the smell permeated in the air. I felt his arousal on my inner thigh and I was suddenly very aware how close his penis was to my core. I scooted back and hit the steering wheel and I pulled out of the kiss.

"Jake..." His face was flushed, his eyes were glazed over and he had a look of confusion on his face, he was blissfully unaware of my problem. "We should really get back on the road." He looked annoyed and I rejectedly climbed back into my seat and hugged myself. "Sorry I'm such a prude." I mumbled to myself, though his wolf hearing betrayed me.

"What'd you just say?"

It had been out of my mouth quicker than I caught myself and I bit my lip, swearing under my breathe which of course he heard too.

"Nothing."

"Who called you a prude?" He looked at me, his eyes were burning holes in the side of my head and I was a little upset that he was playing stupid.

"You know who did."

"Oh god, Bella..."

Flashbacks

"Toss me a Philips." I yelled at Quil over the radio, it was up so loud I could barely hear myself over the music.

He handed it to me and I tightened the screw on the engine, the screw had been stripped though and just kept turning in it's place. "Fuck."

Quil slapped my back and leaned over the hood, turning the music down that was sitting on the roof of the car, "Yeah, we know man. You need to get laid."

I glared at him, "No the screw is stripped. I have to go buy a new one." I threw the screwdriver into the box and began to check the oil.

"HA! Even the screw gets more action than you!" Quil laughed, doubled over.

"You want me to kick your ass? Shut the fuck up!"

"Oh dude, I would love to take you." That only fired his hysterics and I rolled my eyes at him, he was seriously getting on my nerves lately.

"You wish." I wiped the dipstick onto my pants and checked the oil quickly, I was grateful I knew how to fix my own cars and vehicles. I knew one day I could open my own garage if I wanted to, it was one of the only options I really had after graduation.

"Oh no, I know you want Bella. God we all know you want Bella." He rolled his eyes, "You seriously need to get laid bro, BEFORE she leaves for college preferably."

"Since when is my sex life anyone's business?" I recapped the oil and re-checked it, it was now full.

"It's our business when it's all we hear about in our minds! Bella needs to stop being a prude and put out already!" Quil laughed, while I wouldn't say she was a prude I knew that we wouldn't be intimate anytime soon. She wasn't fully over the abandonment issues that Edward caused and I was ok with that, but I won't lie it was frustrating having to yank myself off everytime I thought about her.

"Yeah, well." He slapped me playfully and turned behind him briefly, "What?"

"Nothing man." I shook my head and tightened the coolant tank after topping that off. Bella would be here in a little while and I wanted to shower first.

"Go home asshole, I gotta go take a shower." I slammed the hood and shut off the radio as I walked out of the garage.

"Yeah yeah." Quil laughed, sauntering towards the woods.

When I got back into the house I took a quick shower and saw Bella had let herself in and I kissed her hello. "Hi beautiful."

"Hello handsome." She smiled her beautiful smile but it didn't reach her eyes.

"Something wrong?" I asked her, tucking her beautiful hair behind her ears.

"Nope." She smiled again and tugged my shirt, we were heading to the movies.

"I knew something was up when you'd kissed me, your smile didn't meet your eyes. How long were you out there?"

"Was there more that you said?" I eyed Jacob knowingly, I'd truthfully only just walked up when he'd said 'yeah' in agreeance.

"Uh..." He scratched his neck thinking, "No, actually and I didn't agree with him really...I just..."

"You didn't disagree with him."

"I'm sorry, I...we get with our friends and we act stupid. I never thought you were a prude."

"You, Jacob Black, are a liar." I crossed my arms across my chest, mad that we were fighting.

"I am not!" He sighed, "Look, I mean I won't lie I wished things happened before you went to school but I was not going to push you and I sure as hell didn't think you were a prude! I knew you had gone through hell with the douche-lord," There was Jacob, his true hatred for Edward was still there. "So I would never ever make you feel bad about reserving yourself around me."

"So, let me get this straight. You wanted to mess around but knew I didn't so you let it go and then you convinced me school was a great idea and sent me off across country despite you having blue balls?" I eyed him.

"Yes! What kind of boyfriend, let alone friend, would I be if I forced you into stuff you weren't comfortable with?"

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be, we can talk about this stuff. I just wish you would more often instead of getting upset or keeping it bottled up inside of you."

I nodded, he was right I did keep most of my thoughts bottled up, but I'd try really hard not to do it anymore we both deserved an easy relationship which was impossible without communication. "I'll try harder."

He chuckled softly and pulled his seatbelt on. "Ok. Now we really need to get moving so we can get out of this State."

We ended our night at another smaller hotel chain and checked in, ordered take out and showered. We didn't really say much other than answering each other in conversation about dinner and what not. While he was in the shower I thought back to what Quil had said that day, that the entire pack has to endure his frustrations with not getting laid. Jacob was a teenage boy and when they got together they acted stupid, they always did and you add a girl to the mix...it was lethal and I couldn't honestly be upset with Jacob.

I knew Jacobs hormones were raging, but I couldn't let that push me into doing things I wasn't ready for. But it also made me think about the pack mind and how they could all read each others thoughts and feel what each other felt. As I was thinking about this Jacob came out on the balcony and leaned on the railing, looking at me.

"Penny for your thoughts." He smiled warmly at me and I looked up at him from the chair I was in.

"I was curious, you and the guys can see each others thoughts and feel each others feelings right?" He nodded, curious as to what I was driving at. "So does that mean when...one of you has intimate relations...the others can see that happening?"

Jacob turned beet red and glanced behind him to the buildings, we didn't have much of a view at this hotel. "It's really hard to control our thoughts all the time, but if we truly focus on it we can keep things to ourselves sometimes. Sam has slipped up once in a while, I mean it happens."

"Is it visual? I mean..."

He glanced at me before finding his feet very interesting, "Yes, it's almost like we're watching the stuff happen in first person."

"God. That's mortifying!"

He nodded, "Yeah, he's gotten better at it thank god."

"So...through the pack mind you've seen Emily naked..."

He grimaced and nodded, "I know it's sick, once it starts to happen we usually tell him and he controls his thoughts or phases. We can only see the images in wolf form."

"So you can't see it when it's happening?" He shook his head, "What about...your hearing...I mean...if you were close enough, could you hear it?"

My sudden curiosity in the sexual side of our relationship was confusing him, it was written all over his face. "Yes, in either form our hearing unfortunately allows us to hear even the softest sounds."

I groaned, "So you've heard..."

He nodded, "I know it's not exactly ideal, but there are ways to avoid it." He continued after I looked at him, hopeful for future privacy. "Like making sure they stay away from the house, they will know you are being intimate but they won't be able to hear it. And with our vivid minds, we can block the images while we are phased it takes practice but it can be done."

"So why does Sam slip up so much? Shouldn't he be able to control his thoughts by now?"

Jacob chuckled, "Actually, Emily and Sam haven't always been intimate. It's rather new, the last 9 months or so."

My eyes nearly bugged out of my head, one look at them and you'd think they were constantly boinking. "What?!"

He crossed his arms in front of his chest, bending one leg. "Yeah, the whole imprint thing shook him up and he felt like he was betraying Leah, which he was but he held out. So he's still trying to control his thoughts, it's still new."

I bit my lip, "You think you could practice now?"

It made him laugh and he ran his hands through his shaggy hair, the sunlight bouncing off of it making it shiny. "Yeah."

"Thank YOU." I sort of sang, "How's Leah, I mean really."

He shrugged, "She's pissed. Being inside of her mind while we run our shifts is pure hell on anyone unfortunate enough to run with her. She's got a lot of pent up anger and issues about it all, she doesn't understand why she wasn't worth a fight for him to fight the pull."

"Wait, you can fight the pull?"

"Yes, nobody has tried it yet but she was upset that the Alpha couldn't put his love for Leah ahead of his desire for Emily and just gave in so easily without so much as a glance back at her. It's rough when they have to be around each other, I try not to put them on the same patrol just so they don't kill each other. I know they still love each other though, I can hear his thoughts sometimes but I don't let him know I can hear them. We all just kind of ignore their personal thoughts of each other, if he knew he'd kill us."

I was thoughtful a few minutes while Jacob watched me, he finally spoke up after sitting down next to me, "Before you get any ideas I'd never fight the pull for you and leave you for someone else."

I nodded, not fully convinced. "I know you love me, but I'm accepting that one day it just may not be enough. That's how real relationships go Jake, this isn't a fairy tale ending."

"You will always be enough for me, I've loved you my entire life...how can you say that?"

I shrugged, "Because that's how I feel. I mean...It just is. It's a reality all couples face, I can't rely on some supernatural spell."

He leaned forward on his knees and stared at me, dumbfounded. "Bella! This imprint shit means nothing to me either, I told you that when I told you about finding out about them. It is supposed to help our spirit wolves find their mates and help us find who we are meant to be with. I already knew I was meant to be with you before it happened and it won't affect me in 5 years, or 10, or even 20. I love you."

"People fall out of love Jake. It happens every day." I wasn't sad about what I was saying, I knew it was possible and I knew that I just had to focus on the now and enjoy every second I was blessed with.

"I don't believe what you are saying right now...How can you say that?"

"I just told you how, it's how I feel." I leaned towards him, "Jake, I'm not mad or even worried...I live in the moment and you know that. I'm enjoying every minute I get with you, whether that is 5 hours, 5 months or 5 years."

He shook his head, "But you are basically telling me that no matter what I feel or think, you are right and it will eventually end."

"It's not a power struggle, neither of us is right or wrong. Our opinions and feelings are just that, neither of us can predict what will happen. Why are we arguing?" I suddenly realized the air got tense.

He stood up and pulled the sliding door open and just glanced at me before dissapearing inside and sliding it shut. I pulled out my cell and dialed Charlie to check in and allow Jake time to collect his thoughts before heading inside.

"Hey Dad."

"Hey Kiddo, where you guys at?"

"I think about 800 miles outside of Forks, should be there by Sunday afternoon or so. How's everything going there?"

"Oh, same old same old. How's the trip?"

I could hear the curiosity in his voice and I just wasnt in the mood for that conversation, "It's okay."

"Uh oh, what's wrong? What did Jacob do?"

I heard Billy in the background, "What'd he do?"

"Shut up old man, I'm talking to Bella."

"Is he being mean to you Bella?" I heard the sound get louder and knew I was on speaker phone, I laughed they were really like gossping old ladies.

"No, we're just having our first disagreement on some things. It'll pass, what you two up to?"

"Games, what else. I can't wait to see you guys." Charlie said, clearly distracted by the game.

"Smack him upside the head Bella! He can take it!" Billy said from the distant background, I'd assumed he'd gone back to the game.

"Will do, I'll let you guys go. See you soon."

"K, love you kiddo. Be safe."

I blushed as I heard the dialtone, I hoped he'd just meant on the road.

When I went into the hotel room Jacob was flipping absentmindedly through the tv channels, giving each show about a second to play before moving on. I knew he was upset and I cautiously lowered myself next to him on the sofa.

"Just talked to our dads, they are good. Anxious to see us." All I got was a nod, "Jake, come on...don't be this way."

"I'm not arguing with you Bells, just drop it."

I knew I should've dropped it and let it go, but there was stubborn streak in me a mile long and I never knew when to shut up. However I knew this needed to come to a head before it would get better, "No. I'm not going to drop it, if you are mad at me say so."

He sighed and turned off the tv, throwing the remote on the table roughly. "I'm not mad at you, I'm disappointed." That's even worse, I thought. "That you don't believe in our love lasting."

"How can I believe that when I don't know?"

"You pretty much said that outside. That you are just enjoying the time you do get with me, how the hell am I supposed to feel about that?"

I shook my head, exasperated. "Happy? I don't know? I didn't mean that I was cherishing every moment because one day it'll be gone but I know that's a possibility!"

"If I hadn't said you could fight the pull you never would've thought that."

"That's not true," Maybe it was, partially. "Okay, maybe it is." He glared at me knowingly, "But getting mad about it and fighting takes away from our time Jake."

He rolled his eyes and kicked the coffee table away from him, he put a little too much force into it and it shattered on impact.

I flinched and stared at him, "You feel better?"

He was clenching his fists and I understood I was fueling his anger, so to prevent an accident from happening I stood up and headed for the balcony. I turned before opening the door and mumbled a sorry.

I played on my cellphone until it died in my hands at which point I threw it against the wall, watching it bounce in pieces. I felt tears well up in my eyes and I couldn't hold them down, I pulled my knees up to my chin and leaned on them and let myself cry. How could something so wonderful sour so fast? I'd be lying to myself if I let this play out like a fairy tale, I knew they didn't exsist and there was no sure thing. I hadn't meant to imply I was waiting for it to blow up in my face but he obviously took it that way and I wasn't sure how to fix it. I knew my presence earlier just made him angry so staying away looked like my only option and that broke my heart. I felt like I was suffocating, the pain was still very present and real and the added hyperventilating from crying was making it even harder to breathe.

I heard the door slide open slowly and heard him clear his throat, "Bells, come inside. I'm sorry I scared you." I sniffed unmoving, I suddenly felt his presence in front of me he was kneeling in front of me. "Bella, I'm really sorry I let things get out of hand like that. Losing you is a touchy subject and the way you said all of that just struck a nerve. There's no excuse for my behavior, but I'm really sorry."

I sniffed again, trying to keep the snot at bay. "Apology accepted, I'm sorry too." I didn't move so he stood and wrapped me in an awkward embrace. His warm was soothing and it brought more tears to my eyes. As they spilled out he kneeled back down, rubbing my shin closest to him.

"Please don't cry, I hate seeing you upset. What do you want me to say to make it better?"

"You can't say anything to make it better, it hurts and I'm reacting."

"I know." He sat there for quite a while, just rubbing my leg until I uncoiled myself and sat up in the chair. He sat back and looked at me expectantly, waiting for words to come out of my mouth. The way he looked at me reminded me of why I loved him so much and I just pulled him to me and wrapped his shoulders in a hug. He happily returned the hug and rubbed my back gently, kissing my neck. "Love you."

"I love you too Jake and I always will."

He managed to piece my phone back together and he had already cleaned up the table, though it was unsalvageable. We settled in for the night, silently cuddling on the couch and enjoyed the night watching tv together.