Edward
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Goodbye.
I was going to make the biggest mistake of my life. I could feel it, and yet I was going to do it anyway.
I was going to leave Bella. Sweet Bella. My Beloved. It was going to tear her up inside, and out.
I'm not going to school today. I can't face Bella. If I see her again then I won't be able to leave. I have to go. I could call and tell her I wouldn't be in school (I miss school a lot anyway) but I can't stand to hear the disappointment that will flood her voice.
I was on tenterhooks all day. I couldn't sit still. My mind was screaming with protest about what I was going to do to Bella.
I glanced down at my watch; the screen said 13:00. School cut out at 15:00. No doubt Bella would come round after school. It took her half an hour to walk to mine. So that gave me 2hours 30minutes to leave a note and get out of town. Plenty of time. But first I needed to pack. I ran around my house throwing things into my case, occasionally knocking something over. If Bella looked in, it would look like I had to leave in a hurry then she would worry one of my family members was in trouble... of course she would worry, she wouldn't be bella if she didn't. It was one of the things that attracted me to her in the first place.
She would think something bad had happened and that's why I left- she would realise I had gone straight away. She would try and remain calm and even though she would be worrying like mad she wouldn't let herself panic. She is so predictable- I hope.
My watch beeped. It said 13:30. Damn! I was running late. I had to get out of here. I hastily wrote Bella's name on a piece of paper. I flipped it over and wrote:
Bella,
I love you.
I am sorry x.
I folded it up with tears in my eyes, and wedged it under the front door. As I stood up and turned around a tear dripped down my face. I sat on my bags and wept, only when I heard a noise did I move. In the distance I saw a figure coming towards the house. Damn! It's Bella. I grabbed my bags and darted for the bushes, making it just in time to see Bella stalk, well more like sprint, past.
She is so beautiful. I should be holding her, telling her how beautiful she looks. I need to be leaving but I can't. I am mesmerized. I watched as she banged on the door for several minutes. Finally she gave up and kicked the door wincing in pain. I fought back the urge to go to her. Instead I remained sat in the bushes hidden from view. I watched as she saw the note. Watched the flicker of relief cross her face.
Then I watched it turn to worry. I watched as she read the note.
Watched as the words registered in her mind.
But what I didn't watch was Bella crumple to the ground.
I didn't watch as the pain ripped her to shreds.
Instead I ran.
Ran through the trees not knowing or caring which direction I was bags lay abandoned and the tears were falling thick and fast.
I just ran, and ran, and kept on running...