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EPOV

"EDWARD ANTHONY MASEN CULLEN" Yelled Alice from the other room. In an instant she was in front of me with her finger pointing at me. "Don't you even think about doing it!" She was mad and Alice never got mad, I was in trouble.

I sighed. "Do what Alice?" I said running my hands through my hair, then down to the back of my neck."Don't even think about kissing Bella!" she was yelling. "She will not react the way you think she will. She will get mad and want you to go away."

"Alice, what is going on?" asked Rosalie walking into the room with Emmett.

"Edward plans on kissing Bella the next time he's alone with her and it ends badly. She gets mad and refuses to see him again." "Why would you do that? She is HAPPY Edward, don't ruin it." Rosalie said sincerely. "You" she said pointing at me. "left so she can have a normal human life and she is. If you are unhappy to see her with someone else, you only have yourself to blame. This was your doing."

"I know Rosalie." I ran my hand through my hair."Did you see her last night? How she was with him? How happy she is? Don't be selfish. All I ever do is hurt her. She's better off with him." she said leaving the room.

"Edward Cullen, if you do anything to hurt Bella again .!" Alice shrieked. "I just got my best friend back and I will NOT lose her because of you AGAIN!" She went back into the main room.

I shut my eyes for a moment, sighing. No matter what I tried, Bella was always in my thoughts. I just sat there, letting my thoughts go wild. I didn't even pay attention when Esme walked into the room and sat across from me. She didn't say anything; she was going to let me talk.

"What am I supposed to do, Esme?" Edward muttered. "I still love her."

We sat in silence for a few minutes when I spoke again. "I hear his thoughts, Esme, he loves her very much. His thoughts are filled with Bella. When they danced his eyes were focused on only her. He only thought of how beautiful she was, of how he loved when she blushed, when she smiled it lit up his whole world."

"It must be difficult to see the woman you love with another man. A man who loves her just as much as you do."

"I only have myself to blame, Esme. She didn't meant to but did exactly what I told her to." I got up and walked over to the window. I stood there a minute in silence then turned to look at Esme. "Everything is not the way it should be, Esme. Bella is no longer in Forks, she's in a new city, with someone else, all because of my decision to leave."

"Edward, dear, we are all here because of the decisions you have chosen to make. We have all been affected by the decisions you have made concerning Bella. Losing her was just as hard on you as it was the rest of the family. Carlisle and I love her as a daughter, she was a part of the family the moment we met her and without her our family was not whole."

"I spent years without love, when I had finally found it, I left her behind. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do and was the worst mistake I had ever made." I ran my hind through my hair again. "It will haunt me forever."

"The past can not be changed, dear. You are here now, if you want to stay in her life I suggest you do nothing that will jeopardize that. She has allowed you back in once, she may not do it again."

Esme got up, walked over to give me a kiss on the cheek and left the room.

I was alone again to think. I want Bella back, it had been painful to be away from her, she was the missing part of me but I couldn't have her. She was happy, who was I to take away her happiness? I was the one who had taken it from her the day I left, I couldn't do it again. I want to be in her life, I was not strong enough to leave her again. I would stay, be her friend, it is the only place I have in her life. "Her friend." I sighed.

___________________________________Same day - Central Park - Jasper & Bella

JPOV

I asked to spend some time with Bella away from the others. We had been standing near a pond in silence for twenty minutes and I could feel she was starting to get worried.

"Jazz, are you alright? If you weren't a vampire I would swear you were going to faint." she said laughing but she stopped when I didn't reply. "Jasper! Please say something! What's wrong?"

"I wanted to apologize again, for ruining your birth -" she cut me off.

"Oh for the love of God, is that it? You had me worried for that. I wish you'd stop apologizing for that. Jazzy, please stop beating yourself up for something that I don't hold against you."

I could feel her genuine forgiveness. "I know you don't Bella but you should, I am the monster that nearly killed you. I don't understand how you can stand to be near me."

"JASPER WHITLOCK HALE YOU LOOK AT ME RIGHT NOW" I looked at her in shock, I had never heard her so mad and her face showed it. I could feel how furious she was.

"I DO NOT think you're a monster, Jasper. I never have. You are my big brother and I love you very much. I could never hate you and I have never been mad at you. What happened that day was an accident. And If I EVER hear you call yourself a monster again I swear I will find a way rip your arms off and smack you with them."

I stood there in shock. She was mad, I could feel the anger rolling off of her. I could also feel sincerity, she wasn't lying about not hating me.

Suddenly she threw her arms were around me in a hug. "I know you won't ever hurt me," she said. "ever."

She released me and looked up at me, "I forgave you that day, and you know that. Stop feeling guilty!"

"I will Bella." I didn't know what else to say, I was completely speechless. I had almost killed her a year ago and here she was brushing it off. She has a good heart!

"I love Bella, you are an amazing sister and you amaze me. I hated myself so much after your birthday party and here you are so forgiving. Thank you!"

"Jasper, I want you to know something."

"What?"

"You won't hurt me." she said confidently.

I looked at her and then I started laughing. She looked at me, puzzled. "What's so funny?"

"You ripping out my arms and smacking me with them."

She started laughing as well. "Yeah that is funny." We laughed for several minutes then I spoke.

"Bella, your last birthday was -"

She cut me off. "Jazz I thought we already went through this?""I'm not going to apologize again, promise.""Good." she said smiling.

"Your birthday is not that far away and I want to plan a party for you. I want to make up for ruining the last one.""Jazz, you do not have to do that.""No I do not but I want to. Please Bella." I was begging.

"Ok Jazz" I smiled at her. "BUT I have a condition. I know Alice will help you. Keep it simple! I do not want a huge over the top blow out with elephants or anything like that. Please please don't let her go over board."I laughed. "I will try." We both laughed. We knew that there was no way we could control Alice.

We started walking again. "Jazz, I want us to do something. ""What?""You'll see." She grabbed my hand. "Let's go."

We walked a few minutes and we arrived at the Friedsam Carousel.

"You want us to ride a carousel?"

"Yes, I've walked by lots of times but never got on. Come on, it'll be fun."

I laughed. "Ok. Let's go for a ride."

We rode the carousel several times, changing animals with each ride. I had never ridden one and I admit I had fun.

"Thank you Bella!""Your welcome. And there is one more thing I want us to do."

"Whatever you want little sis."

"Good, wait right here."

She went to a cart vender nearby and bought something and walked back to the carousel. She stopped to talk to a lady. "Ma'am do you mind taking a picture of my brother and me?" The lady shook her yes, smiling.

Bella turned to me smiling. "Come here Jazz." She said smiling. "This nice lady is going to take out a picture of us." I laughed.

I went over to where she was. Bella grabbed my hand and positioned us in front of the carousel. "All right Jazz, say cheese!"

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