Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of the main characters, Stephanie Meyer does.

I got up from the chair and walked over to the window and looked out. The sky was a gorgeous, blue skies and not a cloud in sight. What a pity my mood couldn't be as sunny.

"Ugh!" I groaned loudly. My head was hurting from all the thinking I had been doing and my heart was going through a roller coaster of emotions. It's been a week since my party and I had been thinking a lot about that night. Dancing with Edward, being in his arms that night, it brought back feelings I haven't felt in a long time. Then there was that almost kiss in the hallway. I would never do anything to hurt Danny, yet that night I had came so close and it's been killing me ever since.

I just stood there, feeling so confused and very alone. I needed to talk with someone, I picked up the phone and dialed the familiar number.

"Hello?"

"Hey Lila, it's Bella." I replied slowly.

"Oh hey Bells! What's up?"

"Um, do you mind coming over to my apartment? I have an issue and need to tal - "

"Sure, be right over!" She cut me off and hung up.

In about ten minutes, Lila was over, a small smile on her face. "I figured we might need this." She held up two pint of Ben and Jerry's mint chocolate chip ice cream. I laughed and shook my head yes.

We walked into the living room, I sat on the couch and she sat on the armchair. "Ok, Bells, spill"

I sat there staring at my hands, uncertain of what to say my problem. "Well…"

"Bells, does this have anything to do with Edward?"

"Yeah." I mumbled sheepishly.

She nodded understandingly. "I figured as much. Talk to me. I'll help you in anyway I can."

"I..I" I took a deep breath. "I have two men in my heart, two men whom I loved very much, each in there own special way. But I cannot decide who I love more and I know I have to."

I grabbed my pint, scooped a spoonful, and stuck it in my mouth. I swallowed the ice cream and spoke again. "I know it hurts Edward to see me with Danny, but if he hadn't left, then none of this would have happened."

We sat in silence for a few minutes eating our ice cream. "Edward was my first love and I never stopped loving him, I know that deep down. My love for him is as strong as the first moment I realized I was madly in love with him. His smile knocks the breath right out of me. He was always there for me….." I took a deep breath. "but he also treated me like a porcelain doll, he always kept me in the dark about important matters. And he walked away from me, leaving me with a broken heart."

I sighed and continued. "Then there was Danny, he managed to win his way into my heart when I didn't think I would ever let anyone back in, I am in love with him. The sky could fall on us, Lila, and I wouldn't notice because I am with him. With him I am always happy, he's so sweet, so romantic, and a very charming. He has always treated me as an equal, he has always spoken to me as a girlfriend, he never once treated me like I was fragile."

I got up and walked over to the window again. "I love both men very much but I don't know what I was going to do. Do I find out where our relationship with Danny could go or do I decide to give Edward a second change?" I sat on the floor next to the window and sighed. "I have a terrible choice to make and I honestly did not know what to do. It's tearing me up inside."

"I don't know much about Edward, except what you've told me but he seems like a good guy. And I do know Danny and he's a wonderful guy. I know he loves you, I've seen how much he does and I know you love him as well. So I can only imagine how terrible this is for you. "

Lila walked over and sat in front of me. "I can't give you much advice in this matter, except you, Bella" she said pointing to me. "you need to think about you right now. This is not about either of them, forget about what Edward or Danny want and focus on what is going to make you happy."

Tears poured down my cheeks. "How can I think about me Lila? How can I think about my happiness when I know choosing is going to break one of their hearts. I don't want to hurt either to hurt."

"Unfortunately Bella, it'll hurt someone either way. If you stay with Danny knowing you love Edward more, you are eventually going to end up hurting yourself and Danny. If you choose Edward you know Danny will hurt but I think in time he will be ok." She lifted my chin with her finger. "Bella, you need to think about you and think hard. Making the wrong choice will hurt you and both of them."

Lila and I talked for awhile, she was a great friend. She held me while I cried and I listened to me every time I spoke.

I was alone again and I just stood there leaning against my door. I couldn't make myself move. I didn't know what I would do. How could I choose? Who should I choose? I wondered. They were both amazing guys, and they both loved me.

When I was finally able to move, I walked into my bedroom and collapsed the bed. I had to make a decision soon before somebody got hurt. I didn't even notice how much time had passed but eventually I fell asleep.

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I awoke the next morning wishing I could have stayed asleep for awhile longer. I got out of bed and decided I needed a long bath. Forty minutes later I got out of the tub, I was in the there I decided I needed to get away for a couple of days. I am going to take a short trip, I just needed to call and make the arrangements. I quickly got dressed and put on my makeup. I walked into my living room and gasped, sitting on the armchair was Alice.

"How did you get in?" I asked confused. "Never mind I know you have your ways. What are you doing here?"

"Bella, I know." She said. "You KNOW I know what's been troubling you."

I felt tears well up in my eyes. "Alice you can't help me with this. It's a decision I have to make on my own." I said walking over to the couch and sitting on it.

"I know that Bella. I am your best friend and I am here to help you."

I took a moment, trying to gather my thoughts. I didn't know if I could talk about this with Alice. Edward is her brother after all, she couldn't have a biased opinion. I….

"Isabella Swan" She snapped me out of my thoughts with her angry tone. "How dare you think that I won't be biased. I am your best friend and I would never do anything that wasn't best for you." She stood there glaring at me.

I got up quickly and wrapped my arms around the pixie to hug her. "I didn't mean to hurt your feeling Alice." I pulled away to look at her. "It's just Edward is...ugh...never mind. I know you will help me make the right decision."

"Yes I will."

"Um….Alice, I am going to -"

"I've already seen it. You'll leave tomorrow, your mom is going to be thrilled that your going down to see her, your going to have a great time with her. Danny will pick you up at the airport when you return on Sunday night."

She walked into my room and came back out with a suitcase. "I packed your suitcase while you were sleeping. Your all set to go."

I laughed. "Thank you Alice."

"Your welcome" She grabbed my purse and handed it to me. "Now lets go." "

"Where are we going?"

"To Dean and Deluca, it's eating time for the human."

I grabbed my purse from her, laughing.

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