Beyond the glass barrier Elsa watched intently as Miza stood above the potted flowers, strange it was only February and the flowers sprouted from what Elsa had thought was an empty pot to make themselves seen.

"Elsa, If you don't study, you are going to fail your junior year." Anna whispered from the table where she was watching her computer screen blankly, with an unknown expression. The school had offered an 'at-home' school system while they were shut down and being observed for a crime scene investigation. For three weeks Elsa had not left the house, asking Jack once to go to the grocery store while North and Benny joined Jack every night to come visit Elsa and Anna for two-three hours. They were now not only connected by choice but by horror and understanding, no one but they could ever understand what they had been through.

"I'll re-take it next year. Plus, Mom and Dad's life insurance isn't going to support you and Miza for much longer." Elsa cringed at the thought of leaving the house every day or of Miza going back to school. Elsa had withdrawn her for one year and told her she could repeat second grade next year. Miza was terrified of going to school, she asked to be home schooled and Elsa still did not know how to answer that. Elsa could not even sleep at night or get up out of the bed in the mornings- how was she supposed to decide the child's future? How the hell was she supposed to set something stable up in Miza's world when her own was still falling apart at the seams?

"You should still go to school that's not fair." Anna sighed, her fingers gliding over the keyboard gracefully.

"Well I don't think its fair that you should have a scar on your beautiful face either but I guess we had no control over that did we?" Elsa's throat constricted with her words and she looked up at Anna, teary eyed again. "God... fuck I'm sorry Anna," Elsa gripped the edge of the counter tight enough to whiten her knuckles and leaned in, her head burning with lack of sleep and frustration.

"Well its' not fucking fair that one guy changed your entire life and flipped it upside down, it's not fair that Miza gets to grow up without her brother, it's not fair Marco is dead, it's not fair that Sandy is deaf, it's not fucking fair that I stay up all night because of the nightmares, it's not fucking fair, God its not fair." Anna's voice grew dense with agony and Elsa was instantly at the table, pulling a chair next to Anna's while her sister cried into her shoulder. "Fuck Elsa it's not fair at all."

"I know, I know it isn't fair at all." She hugged the girl tightly and before the tears could come she found herself holding back the tears. No, I have to be strong now. I have to be strong. She bit her lip only the slightest and waited until Anna's sobs slowed.

"I'm sorry." Anna whispered.

"Me too." Elsa whispered back as Miza stumbled in through the back door, the screen snapping shut loudly. The girl did not ask questions, in a flash of black hair she was in the muddle of a hug with Elsa an Anna, kissing Anna's uninjured cheek and Elsa's head, the small girl bringing light back into the depressed room.

"Anna, do you want me to braid your hair? It always makes me feel better." Miza's tiny voice rang out over the somber silence.

"Sure Miza." Anna smiled at her, and Miza guided Anna over to the couch were Anna could sit on the floor and Miza could pull her hair back. Elsa stared at the two, knowing in Anna's face how much she still hurt. She clutched her own shoulders, afraid of the bullets life had thrown at her would strike again. Elsa was instantly nauseous at the thought and she sprang out of the chair to relieve her weak stomach in the trash can.

Simple things had become harder, coffee was suddenly loosing it's taste, the cold was beginning to bite at her skin throughout the night. Things like doorbells or sudden movement-dogs barking or screaming from the neighbor's scary movie marathons was enough of a scare to send her into asthma inducing panic attacks witch she now had an inhaler there were moments when she was doing nothing, and suddenly adrenaline would steal her mental state as well as her lungs. She snatched the tiny metal off the counter as she felt her vision blur and her breath escape her too quickly. She inhaled the tiny crutch as her breath began to slow, the panic slowly fading as she repeated, Its ok, I'm ok, I am ok, I'm fine, Anna is okay, Miza is ok, everything is going to be ok. She found herself surprised when she realized the thoughts were not her own but Jack's, ones he had told her to repeat to herself during her first of many panic attacks at the hospital. She fell back into a chair, her hands neatly folded around the metal and bound to her chest.

It felt like only a few minutes had passed but when she looked up Miza and Anna were both sleeping on the floor by the couch. Elsa glared at the clock, 6:49. She stared at the green digital, each minute passing without Elsa's mind registering that there was any time passing at all. She slowly closed her eyes and fell into a deep sleep.

.:*:.

Elsa was walking peacefully through a hallway in Fallen High School, she looked to her right and saw Hans backing her against the wall, the time she had squirmed from his grip. She looked to her right and saw the first time, the time in the girl's bathroom when everything had change. Clouds of anxiety fogged her chest as hands reached for her. She ran as fast as her feet would carry her and although she knew she was heading towards an exit she was tele-ported to the girl's locker room were she was bent over the counter hissing 'I'm already dead.' while seven dead girls with bullet holes in their head came to rescue her. Courtney Grasso's hand extended towards her in a dead cry for help.

Elsa pushed through the crowd, gripping her body hard enough it bleed, she stared at opened skin on her wrists in terror as rivers of scarlet gushed on her face and the tiled hallways. She was suddenly in a circle of blades, each whispering her name in foreign tongue. Then she heard the familiar voice.

"I love you Elsa." Marco called from behind her and she whipped around to see a smiling face and bright eyes.

"Marco? Marco!" She was overcome with shock she forgot everything else but just as her bloodied hand was about to touch his face he was falling backwards into a black abyss. She was touching a gave stone now instead and she fell backwards in another panic, watching her only lover slowly disappear within the black. She whipped her head around to find Hans and lunged at him, her nails digging into the skin of his throat, drawing blood as she watched life disappear from his evil. "You monster! You monster you monster go to hell! No how could you? What did I ever do- It isn't fair! Fucking die! Go to hell you devil!" She yelled in his face, "He was mine he was mine and you took him! You took everything from me you monster! You stupid- fucking monster!" She hissed and screamed until her mouth stopped working and his blood mixed with hers. Her face contorted in a monstrous, crazed rage. She stared at the mess.

"Elsa?"

And Elsa turned around to find Miza, staring at her with huge- terror filled eyes, then she turned away from Elsa.

"A battle... with myself." The tiny girl whispered and when she turned back around she was holding a square carpenters blade and her wrists were exact replicated of Elsa's.

.:*:.

Elsa jerked awake, her eyes peeled open in terror and her entire body twitching unnaturally. She brought her hands up to the table and ran her fingers down them unconsciously, screaming in a higher pitch then she ever had before. She could not get the images out of her screamed so loud that her own ears started ringing. She left huge scratches in the wood and broke all of her nails, bringing her hands up to her face as she continued to scream.

Anna jumped on the couch, her own panic attack on the brink. Miza was crying hysterically at the sight. When Anna was the tiniest bit calmer and less shocked she tried to calm Anna, however Elsa's mind was somewhere else, locked in a permanent state of horror. She didn't know what to do, Anna called Jack and he was their within 3 minutes- flying through the door to Elsa.

"Elsa! Elsa snap out of it! ELSA!" Jack took her by the shoulders, and shook her once. "ELSA!" and once she saw the blue eyes her mouth snapped shut, her body continued to tremor and spasm but she kept nodding her head like she didn't know where she was. She just knew Jack was there.

"M-M-Miza!" Elsa managed through the sobs and the girl came running to her, still crying.

"Mommy..." Miza said into Elsa's thigh, clutching it tightly.

Elsa's breath was fading but her eyes never left Miza, she snatched her inhaler and held onto it for dear life, meeting eyes with all three of the only things left she cared about. Turquoise, her Anna- her prized possession that she would protect with everything on earth heaven and hell. Emerald, Miza- the only thing that kept her sane, her medication, her heart the thing she held the tightest. Sapphire, Jack, her calm, her breath- her support her diary, the only thing that would keep her warm on the coldest of all nights.

"I love you." Elsa said to her treasures.

.:*:.

Morning came when she was sitting on her couch with her arms wrapped around Miza, and Jack's around her. Of course she could not have slept and instead was flipping through the same TV stations blindly. A knock from the door and Elsa peered over at an also still away Anna. She knew Anna was terrified of going to the door alone, hell so was she. Elsa freed herself from Jack and Miza expertly not awaking them and the sister came t the door together.

A man in a nice black suit with locks of black hair and a clean shave was peering back at Elsa with huge hazel eyes.

"Hello." Elsa said flatly, never fully opening the door and leaving the chain lock connected, never revealing more then an inch of her face.

"Hello, you are Elsa Aren, correct?" The man's voice was deep and rusty. She nodded and he cleared his throat. "My name is Carne Devello, I am the prosecution attorney for the Hans Valencia vs. State case. Do you have a moment?" Elsa glared at the man and opened her mouth to say 'no' when he interrupted her. "I know you probably do not want to talk about anything that has happened, however I think that you'll fond the circumstances different then you would think." Elsa thought for a moment, sending that bastard to jail was hardly a constellation to what she had lost, however she asked Anna to leave for a moment, not offering the lawyer to come inside and pinning him outside with the chain lock.

"Say what you have to say Mr. Devello." Elsa almost whispered.

"The defense is trying to get off on temporary insanity, claiming that Hans only-" He stopped and gave her an apologetic look, "That he only raped you once, and was under a long term temporary insanity." Elsa clenched her jaw and dung her fingers into the wood of the door. Only once?

"What do you want from me?"

"A testimony."

"Is that all?"

"Pretty much,"

"Fine." She glared at the lawyer again. "Anything else?"

"Blake Pitch and Wesely Duframe hacked the camera systems before the shooting. We need proof of what happened in that stairwell." The man looked at her blankly. Elsa gritted her teeth again and felt her breath intensify.

"Fine. As long as Hans and Pitch suffer for every ounce of pain this has caused my sister, and Miza." Her eyes burned with untamed rage as she closed the door on the dumbfounded attorney.