A/N: Here's the next chapter. This chapter is a bit shorter than the last but it's still about 3,000 words. It may seem to go over bits you already know but remember just because you know things doesn't mean the other characters do. Anyway again I hope you enjoy, the song thing still stands as always. I realise I haven't done a disclaimer in a while so

Disclaimer: I do not own Pitch Perfect or any of it's Characters etc.

I found that when I pasted this chapter in it went funny at the start so I have fixed it, I have also gone through the previous chapters and fixed my mistypes. It was shocking how many I found but that's what I get for desperately wanting to get a chapter up. Anyway...

So on with the next chapter...

Chapter 6

Beca woke up Tuesday morning with a plan of what she was going to do. However this plan did not take into account what could have been planned on the itinerary for the groups today. Yesterday had mainly been focused on nursing hangovers and settling back in. Today the attempts at patching things up started. Beca however had missed the presentation of the week's itinerary. She also hadn't really seen any of the Bellas or Trebles since she had run out yesterday. Filled with apprehension she headed down to the sitting area. It appeared that they were waiting for her, all in a group together.

"Now Beca," Aubrey started. It was clear by the look on everyone's faces that she had called seniority, and that was why she was making this speech. "As you were missing yesterday from the meeting, and because of the punishable reasons you were missing," Aubrey's voice stayed just as authoritative as it always had been but she could tell from her face that she wished she didn't have to say it, "we have all agreed that you should only know the day's itinerary that morning so we can't tell you what is happening the rest of the week just today. 'Great, well didn't I say one step at a time? I guess now its one day at a time." Beca thought to herself. She gave them a sarcastic smile that said 'Great'.

"Okay, so what are today's plans then?" She hoped they would tell her.

"Breakfast in the other house; all meals are, then we separate to bond with the different generations; tell stories about our time here, then lunch together, then in the afternoon we have to prepare, we have dinner, then at night the university decided it would be a good idea to re-enact the riff offs from different years." Chloe explained

"God knows why they think that will help. It's not like Justin ever let the Bellas win" She put in. As much as Beca hated to admit it, it was true, how would it help, although she was a little unsettled at the thought of re-enacting her first riff off. She remembered Jesse singing that song to her like it was yesterday, he would have to do it again, and no doubt everyone would go crazy about the 'Betrayal'.

"Right, well, I'm starving so I guess I'll head for breakfast. Does anyone want to tell me when we have to start this Bella bonding time? Or shall I just guess?"

"You have an hour; maybe you should have gotten up earlier, or even been here last night." She snarled. Beca ignored her as she walked past.

"Better get going then, catch up later?" She called as she headed to the other house. This would seriously compromise her plan. It meant she only had three chances to see him and apologise and talk. As she walked through the door she realised she was in luck. Sat at the breakfast bar, alone, just starting their breakfast was Jesse. Taking the opportunity Beca grabbed some food and sat down next to him. He stiffened but stayed silent. His stiff movements the only indication he knew she was there. Looking across the room she noticed Jane and Benji sat together talking animatedly. They had obviously made up. It made Beca smile. It was also a potential opening.

"They look happy together." She started.

"They always were. It killed him when they had to break up." She could feel it was a little dig at her.

"About yesterday-" she started but he cut her off.

"Look, not right now."

"If not now when? You had no trouble with talking at breakfast yesterday." She was starting to get irritated and it showed in her voice.

"Fine, where do you want to start?" He didn't sound particularly open but he seemed to accept that she wasn't about to give up.

"I'm sorry."

"For what exactly, for college, for graduation, running away to L.A., the other night? Take your pick."

"For everything but for the record I don't regret what happened Sunday night, just how it happened."

"Well Beca, that makes everything okay." He said sarcastically.

"Just let me explain, I know I don't deserve forgiveness, but I just want to let you know why. Starting with L.A. What you learned yesterday."

"I'm all ears for this one Beca 'cause honestly all I want is to understand."

"I was scared when I fled to L.A. I was running away from my problems I know." She started. He seemed to be listening and she relaxed a little. "We were only just free of the oath and we had been fighting viciously for the last two years. Then we did that and I didn't know what to do, how to deal with it. So much had happened I knew we couldn't go back, I was sure it was too late. I realise now it's never too late to at least try but I didn't know that then. I didn't know what it meant, what happened. I figured it almost seemed like the perfect goodbye. So I headed to L.A. It was my dream to go to L.A. to produce music. I figured you'd move on and by happy without me to drag you down and I'd be able to pursue the career I always wanted. Before I came here I never needed anyone else. Why would I in L.A.? To start with I was fine. I got a job that was going somewhere, I successfully managed to cut everyone out of my life. I guess maybe I was thinking I could start over from scratch. It almost worked. I got an apartment, I made a friend at work, and I got promotions. I mean I now have my dream job. It was working, except for you. I couldn't get you out of my head. So I threw myself into my work. I guess you could say I'm a workaholic. Ironic I know. When things like anniversaries, birthdays and holidays came round work wasn't enough. The first time I just went into a bar and I sat there and just kept drinking until I couldn't feel it anymore. Or until I could fall straight to sleep. The next time it didn't work so well." She paused reluctant to explain the next part, even though he already knew what was coming thanks to Josh. It was still going to be hard.

"Go on."He said somewhat encouragingly. He obviously wanted to whole tale. She took a deep breath before continuing.

"I started out drinking; when it wasn't enough I picked up a guy. Just to take my mind off of everything. The next morning that day would be over and everything could go on as normal. I just needed the distraction for the night. The next morning I would kick them out and continue with my daily routine and not think twice about them. I was always careful so I never felt the need to talk to them. Everything worked fine. It didn't happen all the time, once every few months I would go to the same bar and do it. It became some kind of coping mechanism I guess. Sometimes the next morning the guy would want something more. The first time it came out I was so shocked. I didn't even know where it came from." She paused again.

"There's someone else." He supplied for her.

"Yeah, but it was true for me. I knew we weren't together, I figured you probably hated me and never even spared me a thought but I just couldn't move on. I soon realised I never would. I made peace with that in L.A. In 7 years only one guy broke through. Only one person. He refused to leave even after I told him. He kept pushing until I broke. I told him everything that had happened since I had arrived at Barden. It felt good just to let it out. I think he knew I needed it. True to his word I haven't seen him since and as far as I know he never told anyone. He never gave me any advice he just listened. The only thing he said at the end was 'maybe it's not as over as you think'. I kept up the habit but no matter what I couldn't get you out of my head, I'd push you to the back and you'd fight your way to the front again. Cheesy and clichéd as it sounds. Somewhere along the way I got a reputation. I guess that's what comes from always going to the same bar. When I got that invitation and I realised I couldn't get out of it I panicked. I had learnt a lot from my job. How to step back and look at a problem objectively. Not to go in guns blazing. To stay calm and talk instead of scream. Not to take things at face value. To trust what I know not what people do or what I see." She paused that was particularly relevant. Jesse nodded and she continued, "And most of all not to give up when things seem hard or impossible. Still when that letter arrived I was terrified to see you again. I knew I had to at least try to make it right. I still loved you, I still do and I know it's the last thing you want to here right now but I'm giving you the truth and that's part of it. I messed up with everything back then. I was afraid I'd become her again when I got back here. I almost did. As usual the night before the flight over here I did what I always do when I couldn't cope but it wasn't enough to make me forget this time. Instead I get a dream about this perfect life we could have had together. It doesn't make any of it right, I know but maybe you can get where I'm coming from." She took another deep breath and a sip of her coffee. They had nearly finished their breakfasts now and Beca knew she was running out of time. Before he could jump to another conclusion she decided to put that idea to rest. "You weren't one of them," she started again, he looked at her, slightly in awe as though she had read his mind, she had missed that look directed at her, at one time he always looked at her like that. "One of the guys I slept with to forget. About you I might add. You never were, you were always so much more, I should have told you that every time, all the time. I know it's a lot to take in over breakfast but I really have to go now, as much as I wish I didn't have to. Maybe we could meet and talk at lunch?" She asked slightly hopeful.

"Yeah, maybe," he said distractedly. She nodded understandingly albeit slightly disappointed. "Hey Beca." He shouted as she began to leave. She turned to look at him. "Thanks. It means a lot, even if it's hard to hear." He called to her. She smiled and waved. Well, it was a start. But now she had only 5 minutes to get ready for 'Bella bonding time'. 'Oh the joys' she thought to herself as she headed to the Bella house, her being the last Bella in 'No man's land'.

In 10 minutes she was ready and down in the sitting area they liked to call the common room. She was late. All the Bellas were sat in a circle watching her. They all seemed to acknowledge that she was late and some of them seemed to have an accusing look in their eyes as to why. She had been conversing with a Treble. That alone made her a traitor. She quietly walked over and took her seat between Fat Amy and Chloe. It felt very much like a walk of shame. Opposite Beca She sat smirking. Somehow story time didn't sound like much fun with her here. Aubrey started, pulling age rank again, with a story of how she joined the Bellas before they even reached the finals at the ICCA's back when it was all about tradition. Some of the younger members looked interested, some of the older members were bored and slightly traumatised by the memory of what the Bellas had been like. Only a few knew of how the change went about. It was Chloe's turn next as they went round the circle, She told the story of how her and Aubrey had struggled to get knew members in their senior year and how they had been forced to open up the group to a wider variety of people who were just 'good singers'. Then it was Beca's turn. She took a different approach to the story. The other two had been about the Bellas but as always Beca liked to break the mould. She told the story of her first regionals competition, the fight after between the Tonehangers and the Treblemakers, how Jesse didn't want to fight and she had punched the guy, how Fat Amy had taken over and how it all landed her in jail and the only one there when she got out was a Treblemaker; Jesse, not that she had appreciated it at the time. Throughout her story the Bellas went through a range of emotions. Annoyance one second to laughing the next, cheering and booing. Even the occasional 'aww' at how sweet it had been, the relationship between a Treble and a Bella, although most thought her just incredibly naive. They had no clue she was the one who started this whole mess. Still the fact that not everyone had jumped on her for it she counted as progress. As the stories continued round Beca found herself once again thinking back.

Second Year at Barden

The Bellas had soon gotten over the song incident. Apart from Beca who as leader was worried that maybe there really was someone leaking information to the Trebles, either an inside or outside source. Her and Jesse were still rocky and had never truly made up after the Semi-finals. He had assured her that the song thing was a complete accident and it was bound to happen at some point in the long life of the ICCA's it was just pure bad luck. Still he had sensed the slightly accusing tone she had used and it had only pushed them further apart. All the same they had no plans of breaking up. They both felt that it would work out, eventually. One of the new girls seemed to take this opportunity to spend more time with the object of her affections: Jesse.

Beca was still feeling a little insecure over it all and watching even more girls throw themselves at him since the Trebles won the semi-finals did not help Beca's insane jealousy. However, because of the semi-fighting status of their relationship she could not show them that he was hers. All she could do was watch. They hadn't been together since before the semi-finals and she had a niggling feeling he maybe didn't want to wait until they eventually made up, but she trusted Jesse, he wasn't like most men or boys, he was special. He loved her and would never do anything like that to her.

So when she heard a rumour about him and one of the new Bellas she naturally went to simultaneously confront him and gain comfort from him reassuring her that it was just that, a rumour. As she reached his door however she felt her world fall apart. Wearing his Treblemaker t-shirt and not much else as she crept out of his room was a girl.

"Don't worry Jesse; it'll be our little secret I won't tell Beca. See you tonight lover." She whispered into the room then she turned her head as she closed the door to see none other than Beca herself. The girl went wide eyed, her mouth opened and closed a few times like a fish before she managed to get her words out.

"Beca it's not what it looks like!" She denied.

"Really Carly?! Do you think I'm stupid! What do you take me for?!" Beca yelled before turning on her heels and leaving, trying to get as far away as possible. Benji, who had been stood on the other side of Carly and had seen the whole thing chased after Beca leaving Carly stood there shocked having been caught practically red handed. For once Beca was glad the rest of the Treble house was empty as she stormed out heading off in some unknown direction. Tears streamed down her cheeks now. 'How could he do that to me? I thought he was different." She asked herself as Benji chased after her.

'No, I'm definitely not looking forward to her story' Beca thought as she looked across at Carly opposite her, she had a smug expression on her face that had Beca 1: dreading her story and 2: wanting to wipe said smirk off her face. She was right story time was not going to be fun.

Okay before anyone starts screaming and refuses to continue reading because of what Jesse did, just remember no one said he did anything. Nobody looked in the room so only two people know whether it happened or not. I'm not going to say whether it did or not but don't immediately jump to conclusions like Beca, Benji and earlier Jesse kind of almost did. Most of it was just her telling him about L.A. I know I went over alot of it in the beginning but it gives you a bit more of a why she did what she did and Jesse didn't know. So, you finally know who She is and what she did, or part of it. Are you suprised? This flashback was quite short but it tells you how Benji and Beca start their him comforting her relationship. What do you think Benji will say/think? Will he go to Jesse? How is Carly still a Bella? All interesting questions in my opinion but then again I'm the one asking them so... Enough babbling now (I do it way too much) I hope you enjoyed it. Let me know what you think and thank you to those who have reviewed, you know who you are (te-he I always wanted to say that, well not really but I couldn't resist, I'm crazy I know but I prefer eccentric) Moving swiftly on... Hope to see you in the next chapter. Good bye. (*Smiles*)