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Tears, Fears, and everything in between.
The tears of my depression, cascade like water falls. My fears, My resurrection, complete, yet make me fall. Though no one sees my crying, they see me with my smile. The razor blade that I pick up helps me keep my smile. Everything spiraling out of control. They ask if I'm okay. I guess I'm not with all my tears, my fears, and everything in between.
So can you tell that I cut? Or think about things I shouldn't? Yeah I thought so. I really shouldn't like Kanda because everyone knows that he is with Mary, some random girl that he likes. I shouldn't feel this way but I can't help it. What is this feeling? This tightening in my chest? Its physical pain I think. But it's caused by my emotions. I tried to forget him, push him out of my mind. It's really quite hard you know. Trying to forget him. He's everywhere. No matter where I look. Every time I think about him my chest tightens. My breathing becomes labored. And of course he doesn't know. I can't meet his eyes either. He has really pretty eyes. They are like the sea that swallow you whole. Long black lashes rim his eyes making him look mysterious and hidden. When he closes his eyes his long black lashes brush his cheeks. A strong jaw, a long straight nose, full lips, and straight white teeth. Strong broad shoulders and long legs that carry him gracefully. Long midnight hair that streams down his back. I love hearing him laugh. I of course don't want to admit these things. I really can't help it. What I hadn't told you earlier, sense we had such a brief introduction, is that I have known Kanda for at least two years? Now I know I act like I haven't really known him but I have. Now then. I still have to act like I don't love him. I mean really I am hopeless. Hmm that's quite familiar. Right now I'm in creative writing so I have a chance to write some more poems. I hope that the teacher doesn't read these though. I guess I'm just self-concise. Luckily Kanda isn't in this class and he doesn't know I'm in this class either. The only people in this class are Lenalee, Miranda, Johnny, and some other kids that I don't really know.
Inspiration
You inspire me. Sometimes its good, Sometimes its bad, but I write it all down, though it makes me sad, Because somehow I learned, to escape all these words, by writing them on paper instead. Though bad thoughts fill my head, as I lay in bed, You inspire me to write what I do. So until I stop writing, my hands are so frightening, I'll get inspiration from you.
I sighed. This really sucks. "Hey Allen! What are you writing about?!" asked Lenalee excitedly. I smiled at her. Lenalee was one of my only true friends and I was grateful to her for that. She also knew I liked Kanda. I still wouldn't want her to know about my poems though. "Just some random poems." I said closing my notebook. The bell rang and we walked out of class together. "Let's go get something to eat!" She said jumping slightly when Miranda appeared out of seemingly nowhere. "C-can I come too?" Miranda asked nervously. I smiled. "Sure Miranda. Where are we going to eat?" Lenalee slammed her locker closed and slung her book bag over her shoulder. "I think we should go to The Demon's Place." Miranda gave her a weird look so I decided to explain. "It's a new place in the corner of town. I'm not really sure why they named it that but I know the owners and they're pretty cool." She nodded and we walked to Lenalee's car. "Is it cool if we meet up with Kanda and Lavi?" Lenalee asked me, turning her unnatural purple eyes on me. "Yeah that would be fine." I said politely looking out the window. Inside I was totally freaking out. Kanda?! And Lavi? Wait I'm fine with Lavi being there but Kanda? Really?! The drive to the café was agonizingly slow. Not that I wanted to get there first or anything. Nope not at all. When we got there I saw Kanda and Lavi sitting in the corner booth. We walked over and I turned away for one second. The next thing I knew there was only one place left to sit. Right. Next. To. Kanda. Crap. I sat down and accidentally bumped his leg. "Watch it Moyashi." He growled. I smirked. "Is someone being a little touchy?" I asked teasing him. All he did was his usual "Che," and then he turned toward the menu. I sighed. Kanda wasn't exactly my friend because of how popular he was but he didn't really like it. He was my worst nightmare come to life. That made me think of something. "Sorry guys I have to go or Cross will get mad at me." They smiled at me, with the exception of Kanda. "Bye Allen!" "Bye Allen-chan!" I smiled at them. I stood up and walked over to the front of the store. I was late and it wasn't going to be pretty. Hopefully he wasn't home.
Nightmare
Nightmares are things that haunt your dreams, they leave you in despair. They take your fears and make you see them over in repeat. But the worst kind of nightmare there is, are the ones that learn to speak. The nightmare that my brain has spun, it haunts me everywhere. No matter where I try to run, in vain I get nowhere. So what could I be talking about? Why it's the worst nightmare of all. The one that lives and breathes your air, the one that's after you all. Boo.
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