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Darkness

The treacherous black abyss, has given me death's kiss. The taste was bitter sweet and it gave my soul its rest. So if I passed the test, please leave me in darkness, Because dear sir I lay, and dream the day away.

Now you might be wondering why I have to hurry home. My guardian, Marian Cross, has always had a… um drinking problem. I have a curfew that I have to make sure I follow and if I'm late then I'm in huge trouble. My foster father Mana had died years ago, when I was about six years old.

Here's a flash back… He sat quietly in his room, silent tears streaming down his face. Outside the window, lightning and thunder created a dangerous light show, the clouds their background. He had to keep quiet so that the neighbors wouldn't hear him. His arm still stung and he prayed that his dad would stay downstairs. He was shaking, shaking at any slight sound, curling in on himself.

No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't forget that voice downstairs, yelling and crying, angry and sad. "Lord please help me with that brat, he just makes me so angry Lord." Those words said in an angry, crying voice, struggling with not screaming.

So he was a brat. He ran his fingers lightly over the fresh scratches that marred his deadly pale skin. What could he do to easy his dad's agony? He could run away. No he didn't have the courage. He could kill himself. No he didn't have the courage for that either.

He obviously talked too much but he couldn't stop. He couldn't take back those horrible words he had said. He couldn't get them out of his head…... That was the night Mana died. I had a fight with him and he hurt me for the first time. I was so upset and I said some pretty horrible things.

He slammed the door and left the house. I decided after a time that I would go after him. I got up and went downstairs and out the front door. As I was walking a gang jumped me and dragged me into and old abandoned building. Then I saw him. They had captured Mana and there was blood everywhere. "Allen….run" He said coughing up more blood. Then I screamed.

"Mana! Mana! I'm sorry! I love you Mana please don't go! THIS ISN'T FAIR! YOU'RE TAKING MY ONLY FRIEND HERE ON EARTH AWAY FROM ME! HE'S THE ONLY ONE WHO UNDERSTANDS! It's not fair. It's not fair! Don't take him from me! I need him! Please don't go Mana. Please stay. He loves me here on earth. He can hold me. Please. Don't take him from me. I think I'll go insane. Unless I already have. I can't stand it anymore." I was sobbing by now.

Mana hadn't heard any of that because he was already gone. The gang took me and carved a scar down my cheek. My hair, which had been brown, turned and unnatural white. They even went as far as to burn my arm. That is why I where my gloves. That is why Kanda will never love me…..End of Flashback.

Cross found me and took me in but that didn't mean he was a good guardian. I had to learn to gamble because of all his debts. Now I never lose a game of cards. I hurried home and then quietly opened the front door. "ALLEN! WH-WHERE AREEEE YOUUU?!" Cross was home.

And he sounded really drunk. "I'm right here master." I said quietly, hoping that he wouldn't hurt me. "YOU LITTLE SLUT! WHERE YOU BEEN?!" I sighed. This wasn't going to end well. "I was out with me friends." Slap. "I don't care you slut. Go clean up the house." He kicked me and started beating me, reopening wounds that were still fresh.

I didn't cry out because I knew that would make it worse. After he finished beating me, he flopped onto the couch and fell asleep. I winced as I moved standing and limping my way up the stairs. Somehow I managed to bandage myself up and to clean the house, which really wasn't that big.

I decided that I wanted to write some more poems so I want downstairs and searched for my notebook. Then I realized something. I left it at the café….

Kanda' Point of view (Just because I want to) I sighed. I think that Lavi has lost whatever brains he had in his small head. Lenalee had invited Lavi and I to The Demon's Place to eat with Allen, and Miranda. I didn't really want them to know.

Lenalee had also invited "Mary" but I told her that "Mary" was busy. Honestly I don't have a girlfriend. The only one that knew that I didn't was Lavi and Lenalee. She had invited "Mary" so that Miranda and Allen wouldn't know my secret.

About a year ago, Lavi decided that because I didn't want to be surrounded by girls, he would spread a rumor that I had a girlfriend. It worked and they distanced themselves though not by much. When we got to the café we walked to the corner booth and sat down.

Lenalee, Allen and Miranda walked in. Lenalee sat down next to Lavi and Miranda sat next to Lenalee and the next thing that happened was Allen walked up. The only spot left was the one next to me. He sat down, accidentally bumping my leg. "Watch it Moyashi." I growled at him. I'm not even sure why I did it. He smirked and then said "Is someone being a little touchy?" All I did was "Che" and then turn to the menu.

I had gotten a weird feeling when he had touched my leg. "Sorry guys I have to go or Cross will get mad at me." Allen said standing up. They smiled at him, with the exception of me. I don't smile. I just "Che'd" and watched as Allen left. "Bye Allen!" "Bye Allen-chan!" Allen smiled and then hurried away.

I looked down at the place Allen had been sitting at. There, sitting on the bench was Allen's prized black and gray notebook. The one that he carried with him everywhere. "Bye Yuu-chan!" Lavi said smiling brightly. "Don't call me that Baka Usagi." I growled unsheathing Mugen, my trusty sword, and putting the blade under his chin. "O-okay Kanda." He said gulping.

I picked up Allen's notebook. "I'll let him come to me." I thought to myself. When I got home I threw the notebook on the counter. The notebook hit the counter softly and then fell open. The title of the page was called Memories. I couldn't help it. I started to read.

Memories

Memories are painful. Memories are sad. Many of your memories may make you mad. Of course there are the good ones. The thoughts that make you glad. That you were born a human. And of course that you're not dead. I know right now you're hurting. But open up your heart. To someone who won't hurt you. Or tear you heart apart. Your memories will get better. I promise that you'll see. That memories are happy, and they won't make you bleed.

My eyes widened. Allen wrote this? But he's always so happy! And who was he referring to? I put the notebook down and sighed. I'll find out somehow. I didn't know Allen had so much to hide. Suddenly I heard my cellphone ring.

"What." I said impatiently. "Aww Yuu-chan! Is that how you greet your best friend?!" The annoying rabit said over the phone. "Do not call me that or you will be killed slowly and painfully by my hands." I growled at him. "What do you want?" I asked him, massaging my temple. I already had a headache.

"I was wondering if tomorrow you wanted to go and meet up at my cabin because it's going to be the weekend and its close to your…" I cut him off. "No absolutely not." I could hear him crying. "But Yuu-chan! Please! Allen will be there and so will Lenalee and Miranda." I sighed.

He wouldn't leave me alone. "Fine. But no celebrating anything. It's just a weekend in your cabin. Okay?" I said firmly. He sighed. "Yuu I think it's a bad thing that you don't talk about….." He trailed off. "I do not have a reason to. Goodbye Lavi." I was seriously pissed now. "Okay Yuu-chan. Bye Bye!" He tried to get his earlier mood back but he sounded strained. "Bye." I hung up and sighed.

What was I going to do?

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