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Gone
The wind was howling, the only sign that there was a storm coming. The thunder was loud and shook the ground. But no one knew what was happening inside his heart. There were good things and bad things that raged against him, knocking him into the ground. He was long gone down the dusty trail. He was gone away with the wind. He was gone, gone, gone before you could say Amen.
Allen's Point Of View
So the weekend at the cabin ended. I found out that Kanda likes me and wants to go out on a date with me. We headed back to school and I couldn't wait until Friday.
Of course Kanda and I had to "hate" each other so we weren't really talking during school. Finally Friday rolled around and Kanda said he would come pick me up. At my house.
The only problem with that was that I was nervous that Cross would be drunk and at home. I tried to tell Kanda that maybe he should pick me up somewhere else but he wouldn't listen.
All he said was "Che. It will be fine. Be ready by 8:00." Then he turned and walked away. I sighed and went to my car, praying that Cross would be out with his friends. When I got to my house I opened the door quietly. Then there was a bang to the left of my head.
Cross was standing across from me with his shotgun that people called the Cross of Maria. His wife had been named Maria and to remember her, he named his gun after her I guess.
I really didn't blame him for all of this. I really didn't. He was still sad because he had watched his wife die and he couldn't save her. He also watched his family members die right in front of his eyes so he had a reason for doing this. I just happened to be the unlucky victim.
"Hey Allen. Let's play a game of target practice." He said smiling evilly."Oh no" I thought to myself. "He's somber." Now I know that usually people are better when they are somber but that wasn't the case with Cross. He was worse.
He did horrible things to me when he was somber. "Hello Master." I said quietly. "Let's play a game Allen. I want to see how fast you can dance for me."
Then he started shooting at my feet. It was almost 7:00 and I was starting to panic. "What If Kanda sees?" I thought to myself as I jumped, dogging the bullets that were being shot at my feet.
"You're so boring. Come here." He said. "Yes master." I said, slightly out of breath because of all the jumping I had done. Then he took me down stairs to his "dungeon" and pulled out his chains.
He connected my legs and my arms to the cuffs and then started turning the lever that would pull my arms and legs taunt. This was one of the worst so that must mean he was in a bad mood.
He unbuttoned my shirt and slid his hand over my stomach. "Mmmm Allen you're so beautiful with these lovely scars." He found a newer one and pressed on it, hard, so that it started to bleed again. I gasped, my vision blurring slightly. "Would you like a kiss?" He asked, kissing my unwilling lips.
Then he pulled back and smiled. "I think you need some color. You look too pale." Then he started whipping me. After he was done he started laughing and I barely heard him.
He didn't care about me, but I couldn't do anything about it. I wasn't someone who could stand up for themselves. So I had to suffer instead. I didn't want this but I had to endure it because I had no one to help me.
I was afraid that if I let Kanda in, he would hate me and run away, but I couldn't help it. I opened up to him and now that I had, I wanted to know him more.
Cross had started to kiss and lick the blood off my stomach and I gagged. I hated this. Why didn't I fight back?
He hit me again for good measure and then said in a mocking voice, "Hang in there Allen. I'll be back in about a day or so." Then he left me hanging by the hands and feet, blood pooling on the floor….
Voices
Are you happy that you crush others, make them cry? Why are you smiling? If you smile it won't go away. That doesn't matter at all of course. Such a pretty smile they say.
The darkness took your smile and threw it away. It's gone now falling into a place that it will never return. Your smile is fake my friend. You're faking that you are alright when you're not.
You hide the real you behind a mask that will not last but that's okay right? That's what they all tell you that's what they all say and really they try to advice you but their advice doesn't help you and you push them away. You smile politely and then walk away.
But that's okay right? That's okay? Is that what the world says? Is that what they say? Running away takes you nowhere at all. You are not growing stronger but weaker that's all.
But that's okay right? That's what they say. But they are lying to you and that is the truth. Does it hurt? Was it worth it? You talk too much you hurt too much you don't matter at all.
Is it okay for you to love somebody in your condition? Or is it something that I'm missing. Cause it hurts me when you hide yourself with your fancy words. It's a scream for help.
No one's listening, no one's listening. Because nobody ever cared for you. So what would you do if you had someone with you? Would you scream? Would you cry? Would you hurt?
All you hear in your head "No one care's, just go be dead" You can't take those empty words of "I love you, don't cry" I'm not really sure anymore why you try to explain your actions.
Honestly nobody cares what you look like. Who would dare. You were born to die not to live or survive so why bother being alive? So there you have it. A tragic thing in your life. You were happy today right?
Bleeding out
I can see the knife as it comes closer. Maybe today will be the end. Maybe today I'll die and no one will wonder why. The knife is steady in my hand as I slide it across my palm. The feeling is indescribable. No it has a description. Numb. I feel numb every time I do this. I don't know why I do this. Maybe because I like knowing that maybe it will all end today? I might finally bleed out. Because this whole time I've been bleeding out.
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