YOOOOO! DUDES! I AM SOOO SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO DO DIS! I lost my phone for a while so i couldn't work on it. Won't happen again people! So sorry! XP XP

Donnie and Mikey stay seated next to Raph at all times. In his current condition, leaving him alone would lead to something AWFUL happening to him, according to witnesses and Raphael's 'experience. Both turtles were kneeling there shells against the couch were Raph lie unconscious as Donnie stroked Raphael's head.

"Hey, D-Don?"

Donnie turned his gaze to his youngest brother as Mikey twirled the ends of Raph's mask. Both brothers shared doleful expressions to one another.

"Yea, Mike?"

"W-whats happening to...to Raphie?"

Donnie and Mikey deeply stare into each others eyes before Donatello lets out a low sigh of defeat and shrugs his shoulders to his brother. Both sit in silence as they twiddle with Raph, before the intimidating sound of Master Splinters venting door and watch their distressed and strained eldest brother slowly and defeatedly trudge in their direction. Leo gave a depressed smile to his younger brothers as he enveloped both in a tight hug as he kissed both their temples. Donnie and Mikey both had tears streaming down their faces as the hug gotten tighter. Leonardo whisper 'I love you' to both his younger siblings and led them both to their rooms. Mikey was knocked out wide before he even hit the mattress. Leo smiled softly as he pulled the blanket over his baby brother and headed out of his room. Leonardo continues to travel down the hall towards Donatello's room, until he hears sobbing coming from his little brothers room and walks a bit faster to Donnie's door. Once Leo reaches the door, he swings it open calmly and approaches his weeping Donnie. Leo didn't need to ask what war wrong with Don as he immediately wraps his strong grass green arms around his sibling resulting in Donnie tackling Leo to the bed and digging his head in his chest. Leo tightens his grip around his bawling brother and whispers soothing words to his needs.

"Shhhh...shhh...Donnie, calm down, little brother. Its ok, I'm here. I'm here, Don't cry."

Donnie's cries begin to tone down at his eldest's reassuring words.

"Shhh...Don't cry. Hush, little brother. My little Donnie."

Donatello's cries instantly stop as he begins to doze off in Leonardo's grasp, listening to his soft breathing and his steady heart-beat. After about five minutes, Donatello was now in a deep slumber against his eldest brother's chest. As Leo kept his most protective grip on Don.

"I love you, Donatello. We WILL help Raph. I KNOW we will."

Leonardo knew that Raphael wouldn't be waking up for a while since he hasn't slept correctly for a pretty long time. The herbal tea that Master Splinter gave Raph would put him to sleep for a couple of days. That left Leo without any worries, but not knowing he should be majorly worried.

Leonardo's eyes shot open by the sudden sound of something glass-like crashing to the floor in the distance. Leo instantly had a bad feeling form in the pit of his stomach a quietly pushed himself out of bed, being as careful as he could not to wake his sleeping little brother. Leo then cautiously crept down the stairs toward the kitchen. The thing that began to freak him out the most was the fact that it was pitch black downstairs, and since he had a fear of the pitch black at times, the terrifying whispers and the sound of objects falling weren't helping the situation much. Another crashing sound came out of the pure blackness and Leo yanked his Katanas out of their resting area and continued towards the noises, trembling with caution. The moment Leo got to the kitchen, the whispers were a bit more audible, but still not able to be made out completely. Sweat was clinging to his forehead as he entered the devil darkness of the kitchen. He then shot the light on, and got a painfully tight grip on his Katanas and flew into a fighting stance. There was nothing there. Leo then started to walk slowly around the intimidating kitchen, breathing heavily and keeping his up-most guard up. His senses were going all over the place. Leonardo couldn't help but think that something was extremely wrong the more he crept around the table. Leo then stopped dead in tracks as he heard louder whispers that sounded like...Raph?! He sheathed his Katanas and continued his agonizing journey around the table. Leonardo's eyes were in pain from the size he enlarged them to the sight of his brother. Raphael was sitting in the middle of the floor, his arms, legs, plastron, face and the frigid stone floor were all covered in his own blood. His legs had bloody, deep cuts all over them and his head was lowered to the floor and he was running his fingers along the cuts and licking the blood off of them, with a smile on his face. Leonardo began to feel painfully queasy

as he watched his little brother drink his own blood and smile about it. Leo then leaned over the table and threw up all over the floor. He placed his hand on the edge of the table to keep his balance and catch his breathe and immediately wiped his mouth. This had to be a dream. This had to be a freaking dream! Why the heck was Raphael doing this to himself?! Leo slowly raised his head to find Raph looking at him, completely crazed. Tears began to form and slip from Leo's eyes as he quickly got down to his knees and threw his arms around Raphael's bloody body and broke down.

"Raph...!T-this isn't real! Tell me you didn't REALLY do this to yourself!"

Raphael slowly elevated his head to gaze intensly into Leonardo's hurt and feared eyes. Leo let out a wet gasp as he stared at his brothers face. Raphael's eyes were clouded with insanity and he had a happy, insane smile on face.

"I'm done."

Was all Raphael said.

"R-Raphie...no...mmmm...NOOO RAPH!"

"LEO! DUDE, WAKE UP!"

Leonardo jolted up hard in bed, tears still streaming down his cheeks as he tried to gasp for air with all his might.

"Leo, ahh man. You scared the livin' shell outta us, homie!"

Leo's eyes enlarged again as he swung his legs off the side of the bed and took a firm grip on Mikey's shoulders still breathing extremely hard and shaking like mad.

"M-Mikey! W-w-where's, Raphael?!"

"Woah, Leo! Calm down, bro. Raph's ok."

Leonardo started to calm down a bit, but still wasn't very much convinced. He had to see if Raphael was really ok! What he had seen of his hot-headed brother nearly gave him a heart-attack.

"Mikey, where's he?! I have to see if he's alright!"

Leo showed nothing but pure worry in his voice.

"Oh, ok man. Raph's on the cou..."

Mikey was interrupted by Leo swiftly passed him and threw himself out the room as he yelled his 'thank you's' to his youngest.

"Couch."

Leonardo must of been doing warp 10 for how rapidly he reached Raphael. Leo stooped down eye level before an out-cold Raph. Raphael's final words were still buzzing around in Leonardo's head like a storming swarm of wasps. "I'm done." What could Raph had meant by that? Did he DIE? or was his sanity...? Leo shook his head to get such a threatening thought out of his mind. Leonardo was interrupted by the sound of a pained groan. Leo shot his head to Raphael's direction and found him with a severely agonised expression on his face. Without warning, Raph lunged into a sitting position panting punishingly. He still had his eyes closed and his expression showed he was in IMMENSE pain. Raphael's body began tremble and quiver, like he was frigid. Leo was staring at his brothers shivering form, completely strained and oblivious on what the problem may have been.

"R-raph? Are..."

"Get...it outta... *GASP*...me."

The pain building up in Raphael's stomach was like the rainbow. Laying down already caused pain too ridiculous to stand, and sitting up so suddenly almost knocked him back into unconsciousness. Leonardo was sitting next to him as Raph was sitting there totally overwhelmed by...this strange pain suddenly boiling in his gut. Leo was watching him, reckoning the situation couldn't get much worse, was awfully proved wrong as Raph began to scream in pain and agony and clutched his stomach firmly. Raphael had sweat dripping like a waterfall from his brows. He slowly lowers his head down to his stomach, his eyes enlarge and he lets out a terrified gasp. His stomach was GROWING! And at an incredibly fast rate. Leonardo followed Raphael's gaze to Raph's stomach and flared off to confusion. Why's Raph looking at his stomach like that? Is he ok? Leo was blew out of his thoughts by a sudden tight grip on his wrist. Leo shot his head up to Raph and intensifies his gaze.

"Raphael, are you alright?! What's wrong?!"

Leonardo loudly whispers, concern completely

"Please...it...it hurts! Get it...outta me!"

Raphael suddenly shouted out in pain as he bent and spread his legs. The pain Raph was feeling was not improving, but becoming overwhelming.

"Ahhhh! Uggghhh! It..hurts! Please, get it out!"

Raphael had his gaze now directed towards his lower plastron. There was something crowing out of his entrance and getting overly painful. Leonardo grabbed at Raphs hand as he began to push for some reason. Leo was now terrified as he saw blood begin to fall from Raph's mouth.

"Okay, this can't go on anymore!"

Leo knew that he couldn't wake Donatello, he's been through enough these last couple days. Mikey...No way! MASTER SPLINTER! Leonardo thought as he gripped Raph's hand harder. Leo began his shout for his sensai, but was muffled out by Raphael shouting his loudest in pain.

"AHHHHHHH! NO! NO...IT CAN'T...COME...AHHHH! IT HURTS! IT HURTS!"

"Oh no, Master Splinter! Sensai! Help!"

Master Splinter came only moments later from Leo's cries and Raphael's shouts.

"What is the matter, Leonar..."

Splinter was instantly interrupted by another loud scream from Raph.

"AHHHHH! IT HURTS!"

Leonardo shot himself on top of Raph's suffering form and flew his hands up to cup and stroke Raphael's cheeks.

"Shhhh...Raphie. Its ok...shhhh. Calm down."

Master Splinter speed walked over to his two sons and placed a hand on Raph's forehead and used his robe to wipe the blood off the corner of Raphael's mouth.

"Raphael is developing a fever. An herbal tea that I know shall calm him down."

Splinter calmly got up and walked towards the kitchen. Leo didn't dare take his gaze off of Raph the whole time Splinter was near them, but he did listen to what his sensai told him. Raph was sitting upright with his legs still bent and spread. He was breathing slow, but hard and his face showed off a pale-green as sweat fell mercilessly down his body. Leonardo was still stroking Raph's face as he examined his brother and the position he was in. Leo also noticed that his brother wasn't pushing anymore, like something was inside of him and he was desperately trying to remove something that was making him see the rainbow of pain.

"Raph, why are you sitting like that?"

Master Splinter came back not only seconds after Leo spoke, with the herbal tea. Raphael and Leonardo both lifted their heads at the same time to glare at their Master who had a small cup clasped in his hand. Splinter begins to approach his sons until Raph narrows his eyes dangerously and growls loudly at Splinter and grips Leo's arm. Leo and Splinter stare completely stunned and wide-eye at Raph. Master Splinter slowly lowers his ears in alert as he gingerly walks further towards Raphael and Leonardo. Raph instantly hops up from the couch and violently yanks out his Twin Sai, hard and quick enough to cause a slight burn on the sides of his stomach and pulls Leo up as he backs away from the approaching Splinter. Splinter stops dead in his path when Raphael pulls out his weapons.

"Would you really attack me, my son?"

"Dont. Ya. Freakin' Da'e come nea' me or 'im."

Raphael looked absolutely pissed at Splinter. His voice was deep with insanity and rage, completely enveloping and blocking out his original, well-known Brooklyn accent. Anger, even beyond his knowing, began to boil in every blood flow known in the body. Leo was speechless as he glared into the eyes of his IRATE little brother. Raph was REALLY going to full-on attack their Sensai. And why wad he gonna do it?! At that very moment, Raphael lunged at his Sensai, his Sai aimed directly towards his throat and all too ready to stab and kill. Just as the sharp end was only inches away from Splinter's throat, Raphael was firmly pulled back by his eldest brother. Raph turned towards Leonardo, his insane rage gaze slowly disappearing at Leo's expression. A huge amount of Pain...fear...worry...concern all bodied up in just one set of eyes.

"Raphael! Don't! Thats your Sensai! Your father!"

Raph's eyes returned to their normal size and colour, for Leo noticed the almost completely red glow in his usually golden orbs and how his pupils turn back to a normal size from the raging dilation. Raphael slowly turns his head back to his Master and notices how close he was to almost brutally murdering his own father. Raphael instantly releases both his weapons and let them clatter to the cold stone floor. Raph then hastily backs away from Splinter and releases his protective grip on Leo's arm and backs the furthest he could go into a corner. Leonardo and Splinter watch Raph dumbfounded as he brings his knees up tightly to his plastron and firmly wraps his arms around his knees, rocking back and forth.

"Look what you've done. You almost killed your own Sensei."

Raphael shot his head to his side to notice a figure that looked exactly like him was kneeling down next to him, rubbing his hand up and down Raph's plastron. His eyes were the same blood shot red colour that he'd known he had seem before and held the same deep Brooklyn accent. Raph was breathing as if he had been enslaved, labouring non stop and sweating waterfalls. Tears were collecting in his eyes as everything else was completely blocked out and got his full attention on the figure speaking to him.

"Oh, Raphie. How could you do such a thing to your own...our father" The figure actually sounded...hurt and betrayed, which resulted in Raph staring wide-eyed and tears rushing down his face desperately stuttering, trying to answer.

"I...I-it waz an...a-acciden'! I don'...I.. can'..."

Raphael was suddenly cut off by a finger gently pulled to his lips.

"Shhhh...it's ok, Raphie. There is a way you can fix this."

The figure soothed as it cupped Raph's cheeks comfortingly. Raphael leaned into the figures hand that held mysterious warmth and let more tears slip from his eyes.

"How? Wha'..wha' c'n I do?"

Raph hurriedly asked, really hoping he could do something to fix what he had done.

Leonardo and Master Splinter where staring at Raph with the expressions of confusion, and worry. 'How what? Who the shell is he speaking to? Is he talking to himself? He won't stop glaring at the wall?!' Leo rapidly thought as he kept his gaze on his brother, and taking a one step forward leaving his father a few inches behind.

The figure grinned and stood to walk, talking his hand away from Raph's face and knelt slowly in front of him and eventually sitting all of the way down. Raph followed the figures movements as if he were some amazing wonder. The figure then gripped onto Raphael's hand and guided them towards his Twin Sai. Raph lowered his head to his and the figures hand and back to its Blood eyes. It was glaring intensely into his golden pools as he brought his other hand up to stroke Raph's face again. Leaning back into its warmth, Raphael spoke back.

"I...I don' un'erstan'."

"Raphie, hurt yourself. Take your weapons and stab it into your beautiful dark skin. You WANT to feel the damage you caused to our father. Drink the blood. Worship it."

The figure then leaned in closer to the side of Raph's face and spoke into his neck, its cold breath blowing against him, causing Raphael to visibly shiver.

"And if you do hurt yourself, Raphie..."

It then brought its lips to Raph's neck and repeatedly kissed it.

"You'll get a reward."

With that the figure pulled back and brought its lips to Raphael's and embraced him with a deep, loving kiss. To Raph, the kiss felt...right. As if he was connected to the figure in a way. Raph then wrapped his arms around the figures and returned the kiss just as lovingly. Just as the kiss was about to intensify, Raphael felt nothing but air blow across his lips. He let out a small whimper to the sudden empty feeling.

"No, no where are ya?"

Raph kept searching around for the figure, but it was gone. He then felt strong hands grasp onto his shoulders which made Raphael tense up a bit. Raph pulled his golden diamond eyes up to meet Leo's dark almost black shining eyes and smiled. Leonardo was followed by their Master as he knelt down next to Raphael as well.

"Raph! Are you ok? Why were you...talking like tha..."

"I have to do it."

Master Splinter and Leo both share even more frightened expressions shown on their faces.

"D-do what, Raphael?"

Raph directed his eyes to Splinter and smiled wider as tears kept falling from his diamonds.

"Fer you. I'm gonna hurt myself fer ya, Father."

Shock was written all over his fathers and Leonardo's faces at Raph's threatening words. Splinter immediately wrapped his arms around Raphael firmly, not daring to let go. Leo moved over a bit to let that happen.

"No! No, my son! You mustn't! You are ill! You must let us help you!"

Raphael was still had his attention directly in front of him with a large smile spread on his face, like a dolls. He then turned his head towards his eldest and pulled out his Sai. Leo's heart skipped almost five beats when he heard his little brother hauntedly speak:

"I'm done."

Before Leonardo or Splinter could process what Raph has just said,

Raphael stabbed his sai deep into his arm and began to burst into a fit of laughter.

Hope ya guys enjoyed this chapter! And I'm still soooo sorry fer takin so long wit it. :( BUt anyway hope ya enjoyed and:

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