Facing the Mistakes of the Past Chapter 23 Attempt at Avoiding, a pitch perfect fanfic

A/N: Sorry. I know this chapter is really late but I had 2 weeks of homework to do and as of Sunday I had done almost none of it so I had to get a bit done on Sunday and Monday, tell my teacher on Monday that I had left it at home, spend all monday night going one of the six physics papers for Tuesday, told my teacher on Tuesday I had left them at home to mark them then spent Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday doing Physics homework then Friday doing my Further maths forr that day so I literally had no time to write. It's entirely mine and my poor time keeping skills' fault. I'm sorry. I do like many have exams coming up, starting on 17th May and finishing 26th June. I have a total of 11. I will still try to update because the longer I leave it the longer I put it off and I'm afraid I'll leave it and then not come back to it. So I have decided to go back and edit/delete my A/N from past chapters. Like the apologies for being late and stuff because they no longer apply for anyone reading thos chapters. Anyway, I hope the chapter is okay, let me know what you think, I hope you enjoy it and see you at the bottom. Oh and my Pitch perfect DVD arrived the other day, guess what I'm watching now.

So on with the next chapter...

Chapter 23

Fat Amy managed to fend off Jesse long enough for Beca to get some food and seat herself where he couldn't sit next to her. Amy then filled in the space next to Beca.

"You know for what it's worth I don't think he-" Amy started.

"I don't care. I don't want to talk about it." Beca cut her off. Amy looked at her and Beca could feel Amy analysing her.

"I know you care but if you don't want to talk about it then whatever." Amy finally decided. Beca gave a sigh of relief. Her relief was short lived when she felt the presence of someone behind her.

"Beca, please can we talk?" He asked, a hint of begging in his voice. Beca carried on eating her dinner doing her best the ignore him. One thing she often seemed to forget about Jesse. He is persistent. "Come on Beca, give me a chance." He tried again. Knowing that ignoring him wasn't working Beca took a different approach. She turned to Fat Amy.

"Do you hear someone talking cause there's this annoying buzzing noise in my ear?" Beca asked hoping he would take the hint. On second thoughts she was hoping Amy would take the hint.

"Oh yeah, it's... Oh right." Fat Amy started before realising what Beca meant. "No, Beca. But whoever it is better go before I unleash the wraith of a starved dingo." Amy started to play along giving Jesse a pointed look at the end. Or Amy's equivalent. Either way Beca gave another sigh of relief when he took the hint, or threat, and walked away. "He still isn't going to give up you know." Amy pointed out once he was out of earshot.

"After what he said in that song I don't get why. He basically said he wants me gone."

"You know I don't think he-"

"I don't want to talk about it."

"But you just-"

"Can't we just drop it?"

"Sure, if you don't feel like talking about it then we won't talk about it." Beca could hear the undertone to her statement. She was reminding her that she hadn't talked about the lie because Beca didn't feel like it. It wasn't so much that Beca didn't want to talk about it but more that she wasn't sure what to say. At least she had more time now and she hadn't had to tell all the others yet due to losing the other group then all the drama that had bought. Still, Beca know it looked like she just didn't want to talk about it. It was true she didn't want to talk about it but that wasn't why she wasn't. She had learned a long time ago that in life you have to do things you don't want to do.

"Look, Amy I'm-" Beca started, trying to apologise, or explain, which one she wasn't sure.

"Hey, I wonder who's going to sing next. Do you think they'll wait until everyone's finished eating or not?" Amy cut her off obviously not wanting to hear Beca's 'excuses'.

"I don't know. Who's next?" Beca decided it was safer to go with the turn in conversation.

"That guy I think." She said pointing to one of the older Trebles. "Although people are thinking of following Jesse's example." She commented. "Oops. Sorry, I forgot." She added when she noticed Beca wince at Jesse's name and the mention of what he sang.

"So, what do you think they'll sing?" Beca asked trying to skim over the uncomfortable territory.

"I don't know but it looks like we're about to find out, he's getting up. He seemed to scan the circle until he set his eyes on a Bella who looked about the same age. He then walked into the middle beckoning her, she stood and met him in the middle. They looked at each other before they both nodded. Beca could see but couldn't understand their silent conversation. They obviously had some kind of relationship in the past but Beca was sure she had seen them both with their spouses earlier in the week, and they weren't each other. It made her wonder about the nature of their relationship. They obviously still had a very strong bond to be able to communicate in such a way. They announced that this song would stand for both of their turns then picked out a set of backing singers.

As the song started Beca started to get an idea of the kind of relationship the two had shared.

"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie" The Bella started.

The Treble took over for the verse.

"I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight
High off of love, drunk from my hate,
It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me
She fucking hates me and I love it.
Wait! Where you going?
"I'm leaving you"
No you ain't. Come back we're running right back.
Here we go again
It's so insane cause when it's going good, it's going great
I'm Superman with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed I snapped
Who's that dude? I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her, I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength"

The Bella picked up again.

He started again.

"You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you're with 'em
You meet and neither one of you even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah, them chills you used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick of looking at 'em
You swore you'd never hit 'em; never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face spewing venom in your words when you spit them
You push, pull each other's hair, scratch, claw, hit 'em
Throw 'em down, pin 'em
So lost in the moments when you're in them
It's the rage that took over it controls you both
So they say you're best to go your separate ways
Guess if they don't know you 'cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it's a different day
Sound like broken records playing over but you promised her
Next time you show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it window "pain"".

Beca got the feeling the hits were more emtional that physical in their relationship but that it was no less destructive. It seemed like a good thing they had managed to escape it although she wasn't sure how they had. Even looking at them now she could see them been drawn back in. In a way it reminded her of her own relationship with Jesse. A lot of the war had been about hurting each other but at the same time they wouldn't let go, or at least she wouldn't, she was no longer sure how he felt. She started to sing again.

He started the final verse. Everyone could feel the impact their relationship had had on them.

"Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love you're just as blinded
Baby, please come back
It wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed, I'll lay my fist at the drywall
Next time? There won't be no next time!
I apologize even though I know its lies
I'm tired of the games I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
Im'a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
I'm just gonna"

Whatever Beca had expected them to sing it hadn't been 'Love the Way You Lie' by Eminem feat. Rihanna. Once they had finished they both stood frozen staring at each other. Everyone sat watching them with bated breath waiting and wondering what they would do next. Fortunately for them, although much to the disappointment of everyone else, someone intervened before either one could do something they would regret.

After the excitement of the couple singing the last song everyone seemed to settle into near silence as everyone focused on eating, it appeared the next person would be singing after all the food was finished.

"So how long do you think everyone will keep up with this singing thing before they decide to call it a night?" Beca wondered aloud.

"Probably only another few songs before they call it a night and pick it up after breakfast in the morning." Amy reasoned. Once they had all finished eating the singing started again. Beca found herself tuning them out.

Fourth Year at Barden

They were all on their way to regionals now. The Bellas still had yet to get the Trebles back for hood night but they had a plan formulating. The new Bellas seemed to be doing okay and although the Bellas weren't at their best they felt strong enough to be fairly confident going into the competition. A second auditions had been set up for the week after regionals for replacements. The new 'bad' Bellas were aware of their situation and although they were somewhat disappointed that they would be taking a back seat and once they had new Bellas had been picked they would be 'on the bench' in effect they were still loyal to the Bellas, which meant they too hated the Trebles.

News of the rivalry and war between the Trebles and Bellas had somehow become public knowledge between finals last year and regionals this year and their fans had divided. Still, this was all just rumors. Neither the Trebles nor the Bellas had been in front of a crowd since. This was another reason Beca was a little nervous about going up on stage tonight.

They all watched the Sockapellas first; Beca was still amazed they were still going. It also reminded her that a friendly competition was going to take place at Barden next month. All Barden's a Capella groups were to take part as well as a few other groups from other universities that had been invited, the Sockapellas were among them. As if they didn't had enough on with preparing for the ICCA's, but the BU Harmonics had insisted to the university that it would be a good idea and bring good publicity. Apparently the Bella-Treble war wasn't the good kind. Really it was just a way for the BU Harmonics to compete as they weren't good enough to get into the actual competitions.

After the Sockapellas finished they set the Bellas headed up onto the stage. This was when they first noticed the difference in their fans. On one side they got cheers, but only from one side. The other side however was perhaps the most noticeable. From the other side they got boos. It appeared that not only had the Trebles' and Bellas' fans separated themselves they were actually competing with who was loudest; the fans cheering and the others booing. Beca tried not to let it affect her. It had been no secret over the years that the Trebles had more fans but it had never been this noticeable. Especially as now there was no one that was cheering for both. It was a clear line. Either you were a fan of the Treblemakers or you were a fan of the Bellas but you couldn't cheer for both.

Once the initial shock had worn off and the crowd had quieted down the Bellas started. At the end of it Beca was quite proud of their performance. That was until the Trebles came along anyway. By the awards ceremony everyone was aware of who was taking the trophy home and it wasn't the Bellas. The Bellas did come in a solid second however, or at least that was what Beca had told them, she had also reminded the, that it wasn't the first time they had lost to the Trebles at regionals but won at the finals, they still had hope. The ride home on the bus had been anything but happy that night.

As it turned out Amy had been quite right, after another couple of songs everyone had decided to call it a night and set to going to bed. That had been when they had all discovered problem number 2.

"Amy? How many tents can you see?" Beca asked as they reached the area that they had set up the tents in.

"About 30 why?" Amy asked, obviously not grasping the problem. Each tent was small an absolute maximum of 2 people and even that was pushing it.

"There's 60 of us Amy." Beca said hoping her blonde friend would get it without her having to explain the whole problem in simple terms.

"So?" She still seemed puzzled to what Beca's problem was. After Beca staring at her for a few seconds it seemed to click. "Oh, I see your problem. No one thought it would be an issue. We all sorted out pairs earlier, before..." She left the end of her sentence unspoken. Before her and Jesse had fought. "I'm sorry Fat Butt but I promised Bumper I would share with him. After I spent dinner with you, he's a little needy like that," She joked, before continuing so say something Beca wished she hadn't heard, "besides, we've got to make the most of not having the kids with us. I'm like a-"

"Please stop! I really don't want anymore a mental picture than I already have." Beca cut her off before she could scar her further. After 7 years she was out of practice with Amy. "What about Chloe?" She asked steering the subject back to bunking.

"With Aubrey."

"Stacie?" She asked trying to think of someone who was single, even if it would mean listening to her disturbing sex stories.

"Found some Treble to seduce. The only one whose free is..." she said turning to point to none other than Jesse. "Sorry Flat butt but there's no one else. Good luck." She offered before leaving Beca and joining Bumper, patting Jesse on the shoulder as she passed him. If she didn't know better she would say they planned this. Seeing Beca unable to get to the tent without aid, or at least a great amount of pain, he walked up to her and offered her him arm. She reluctantly accepted and he wrapped it around her. She cursed her body for involuntarily relaxing at his touch. He silently helped her over to what was now their tent. Once they managed to crawl inside Beca promptly escaped his hold and turned her back to get changed, ignoring his presence. It wasn't like he hadn't seen it all before, he had only that morning, and she would actually have to talk to him in order to tell him to turn around. Once they were both settled into their sleeping bags, which were irritatingly closed together, Jesse finally decided to break the silence.

"I'm sorry Beca. I-" He started.

"I'm tired and I don't want to talk to you. The only reason I'm sharing this tent with you is because there's no one else so please just don't I don't want to hear it!" She cut him off, finally talking to him in an attempt to stop him from saying what she didn't want to hear. She still had her back to him.

"Please Bec, just let me explain." He pleaded. It was met with silence. "Beca?" There was no answer. He could hear her deep breathing, it looked like she had gone to sleep. "I'm gonna make you listen at some point Beca, I'm not giving up this time." He whispered to her sleeping form before closing his eyes.

Beca tried to stay still, keeping her breathing even and deep. Hoping he would think she was asleep. She knew he wouldn't give up this time but it didn't make her not wish he would. It would be so much easier to move on now if she could just hate him but she knew he wouldn't let her do that. He would explain it to her and make her see his side and make her fall in love with him again even though he didn't feel the same. She couldn't do that again. In an attempt to distract herself she thought about how they had got the Trebles back. Maybe the drugs really had been going too far.

Okay, I know it wasn't that long cause the song took up a lot. It also had swearing in, I copy and pasted it again, I know my rules are weird with that. Not much Beca Jesse interaction in this chapter. I think I have managed to spread this day over more that 10 chapters. Any songs for next chapter or whenever are welcome. This chapter was a result of me forcing myself to write after a break because the longer I leave stuff the harder i find it to do.

Thank you to jumbled2 for suggesting the song. I do love it, it just hadn't occured to me, I even bought it on itunes ages ago I just skimmed over it when I went throught my library.

I left a mini cliff hanger at the end let me know what you think about it. Also my usual questions. Do you think the Bellas should find out the real reason Beca kept the lie or not?

I have finally decided which story I want to review to first so hopefully I will get up the courage, and effort I'm lazy I know, to review to said story then I can freely review to all my favourite stories. Okay, I hope you enjoyed it, let me know what you think. And see you in the next chapter. (*smiles*)