She didn't know why it hurt so much. She hadn't even really wanted the thing. The thing. She couldn't bring herself to call it...
She shouldn't have felt this way. She should have felt relieved. She did feel relieved, but that part of her mind was so overwhelmed by the great sadness looming over her now, she didn't know what to do. She went back to bed and lay there all day, crying. She hadn't realized how much she could cry, and now she didn't know if she would ever stop.
In the evening there was a knock at her door. She didn't move. She didn't want to be seen like this, whoever it was.
There was silence for a moment, and then the door opened. Someone who had a key?
"Sakura?" Shizune's voice rang through the apartment. "Are you there? Tsuande sent me over, since you didn't show up at work today."
When Shizune walked into her room and saw Sakura lying in bed she immediately rushed to her side.
"Are you okay?" She asked. "What's happened to you?"
Sakura moaned and turned her head to bury her face in the pillow. "I lost it."
"Lost it? What...?"
Sakura pointed to the laundry basket. "I was-" Her breath caught in her throat. She had to take a deep breath to finish the sentence. "I was pregnant." A sob tore through her chest and burst out of her mouth, causing pain to flare up through her core.
"Sakura, you..." Shizune stopped, unsure of what to say. "How?"
"I was stupid." Sakura said bitterly. "I thought... I guess I didn't think. If I was thinking I never would have let it happen. If I was thinking I never would have fallen in love." She sat up and turned to look at Shizune. Shizune sat beside her and put her arms around her. "I'm so stupid!" Sakura wailed, clinging to Shizune's shoulders. "So stupid!"