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The young man turned around and his dark brown eyes met Susan's frightened blue eyes. Suddenly Susan could feel a horrible pain in her heart, like somebody had stabbed it.

And then all of a sudden she knew it. She knew why she had forgotten about Narnia. She remembered the most painful memories of her life, that caused her to push away all the other memories as well.

She saw herself falling in love with this wonderful handsome dark haired young man with his warm chocolate-brown eyes and muscular shoulders. She saw herself kissing him and saying good-bye. She saw herself lying in her bedroom, shaking and sobbing, grieving for the love she had lost. She heard Lucy telling her "He's married!". And she felt her heart breaking into two a second time.

"Susan, are you ok?" the young man worried, dropping next to her on the floor.

"What are you doing here?" Susan asked confused. This had to be a dream, this couldn't be real.

"Aslan sent me. You asked for helped, you blew the horn and as a queen of Narnia you will always receive help! Once a queen of Narnia, always a queen of Narnia!" he told her softly.

"Did you see my family, are they ok?" Were they really still alive?

"Yes, they are fine! But they are missing you!" he assured her.

"But why didn't Aslan send them to help me? Why you?" she asked nearly sounding angry.

"Their time in this world is over, they've died here. They couldn't come back!" the young man informed her.

"Why didn't they take me with them? Why did I have to remain in this world?" she asked herself lost in thought.

The young man held out his hand to help her up, but Susan didn't take it. She didn't want to touch him; she didn't want to be near him.

"Can you bring me back, back to them?" she looked at the young man pleading.

"Sorry, but that's beyond my power!" he said sadly.

"Then why are you here? I don't want to see you, I don't want to talk to you!" she shouted at him, tears running down her cheeks.

"I am here because Aslan wanted me to help you! Because I wanted to help you …" his voice broke down.

"If you can't get them back to me, I don't want your help!" she screamed, her glassy furious eyes looking everywhere but in his.

"But Tash is going to come back and you can't defeat him on your own!" his dark brown eyes looked sad.

"I don't need your protection. I am perfectly capable to defend myself!" Susan yelled at him.

"You nearly died today. Sorry, but no matter how angry you are at me I am not going to leave you unprotected!" the young man said firmly.

Susan gasped for air, looking furious but she didn't know what to say. As she didn't want to be near him anymore, she stood up and flounced out of the room, shot a last cold look back at the young man. "Fine, then stay out of my way!"

And with this she left the confused Caspian in the room.

He was astonished by her beauty. She was even more beautiful than he had remembered her, if this could be possible. And he was confused by her behaviour. Why had Susan reacted that way? He had thought that she would be happy to see him again, or at least thankful that he had rescued her. Had he been the only one who had fallen in love at their first meeting? Had he been the only one who had dreamed every night and day of them together? Had he just imagined their love?

Susan ran down the corridor, trying to get as much space between them as possible.

"Susan, wait!" the voice with the Spanish accent sounded behind her. She heard his footsteps running after her and then she could feel his warm hand upon her shoulder, turning her around softly.

And for the first time her sapphire blue eyes locked with his chocolate brown ones. Susan could see worry and uncertainty in his eyes and she felt how her body grew calmer while looking in his warm eyes. Caspian could see the pain she had suffered in her eyes. Her blue eyes didn't look proud or cold anymore, but sad. There was silence and they just drank in the sight of each other, their faces just inches apart from each other.

Then Susan broke this silence. "What are you doing here, Caspian?" she nearly whispered, feeling her pain increasing when she spoke out his name.

"I am here because I care for you. Because I missed you! Didn't you miss me?" he enjoyed her nearness. But with her being so near to him, he couldn't think properly. He couldn't resist the temptation and leaned in to kiss her.

But Susan turned away, her eyes glittering with tears. "You're married, Caspian!"

He stepped back, looking surprised. "No, not anymore. She died a long time ago!"

"You married her. You chose her. You moved on and forgot about me!" she shouted, her entire body shaking.

Caspian looked shocked. "It was my duty to my country. I needed to marry and produce an heir. I married her, but I never loved her. Susan, you were the only woman I ever loved. I never forgot about you. I dreamed of you every day and every night."

And with these words he grabbed her shoulders, pulling her closer, covering her mouth with his. She was responding before she even knew what he was doing, moving her hands to his neck. Caspian pressed her fully against him, sliding his arms around her waist. He gently bit her lower lip, and she opened beneath him. She nearly drowned in the sensation, but at the first touch of his tongue against hers, she pulled away.

"We can't do this!" she said hoarsely.

"Susan, I am sorry! Look ..."

"You moved on, and I moved on as well! I am engaged!" and with these words she turned around, leaving him again, but this time he wasn't confused but shocked and hurt. He hadn't thought about that. That she might have found another man, whom she loved.

Susan slammed the door behind her and took a deep breath. She needed to calm down. So much has happened in the last ten minutes. She had been attacked by a god and Caspian had been her knight in shining armour. And she had kissed him. She had felt so wonderful and safe in his arms. But she was engaged and Eric was a wonderful man. She needed to focus on that!

The good thing about her experiences, she had learned that her brothers and sisters weren't dead and that gave her hope, although she didn't know how to get to them.

And now she needed to calm done and think about a plan. She knew that Caspian wouldn't leave her, and to be honest she was quite glad about that. She felt helpless against this god, although she would have never admitted that.

But she needed a hiding-place for him! Mrs. Macready wouldn't allow him to stay, even though it was Susan's house. And she could come home any moment!

After another deep breath, she walked out of the room. Caspian was still standing in the corridor, where she had left him, looking a bit lost. Susan stopped some feet away from him, so that both of them could think clearly.

"If you really want to stay, we need to hide you, until we have thought about something else. Mrs. Macready, the housekeeper wouldn't allow a strange man to stay!" she explained to him, forcing a smile on her lips.

Caspian nodded understandingly "I don't want to cause any more problems!"

"I think the best place is the attic. Follow me!"

The attic was very dusty and much different furniture was standing higgledy-piggledy in the room. Susan made a quite comfortable sleeping place out of an old mattress and some blankets. She brought Caspian some old clothes from the professor to wear, some books to read and some sandwiches. Then she left him, reminding him to be quiet and promising that she would check on him as soon as possible.

After she left him, she went to the room with the wardrobe again. Caspian had entered her world through it, so maybe she could now enter Narnia through. But as the last time she checked, it was till only a wardrobe with coats and jackets in it.

When Mrs. Macready went to her room for an afternoon-nap, Susan sneaked upstairs.

Caspian was just reading in one of the books. He had changed his clothes and was now wearing some of the professor's clothes. They were a bit too large, but that didn't bothered.

When he saw Susan coming in, he gave her a warm smile.

She sat on a chair some feet away from Caspian.

"Tell me, how are my siblings? What has happened in Narnia? Who is this Tash?" she asked curiously. Although it might hurt her, she needed to find out what has happened.

Caspian took a while before he answered, "Tash is the patron god of the ruling class of Calormen. The Narnians call him a demon and he has done several bad things, so he was banished by the command of High King Peter and in the name of Aslan!"

"So Peter, Edmund, Luca, Eustace, Lily, Professor Kirke and Polly, they are al in Narnia? All of them are fine?"

"Yes, they are but …"

"And who is King Tirian? Peter mentioned him in his letter!"

"Well, .. he is…" obviously Caspian didn't know what to tell her, "He's the current king in Narnia!"

"So he is your son?" Susan concluded.

"No, eh … "

"Don't you have any children?" Susan asked sounding a bit sad, when she thought about him having children with another woman.

"Yes, one son but … his time as a king was a long time ago!" he finally said.

"How much time has passed in Narnia since my last visit?"

"About 250 years!", Caspian answered, deciding to tell her the truth.

"Then how did you … Aren't you … Do you come from Aslan's country? Are my brothers and sister there too?" she asked confused.

"Susan, I am sorry but I don't think, that Aslan wants me to tell you this! I don't know if you're supposed to know …"

"To know what? That they are dead in Narnia as well?" she felt like she had experienced their deaths a second time. Tears were running down her cheeks, she looked angry at him. "But you told me that they are fine! That they are alive!" she almost shouted.

"In fact I never said that they are alive … and they are fine!" Caspian stammered.

"They are dead! How could they possibly be fine?" she screamed, her entire body shaking

"Susan, Narnia isn't the Narnia you have known once and life after death isn't exactly what you are thinking it is! Trust me, they are fine!" Caspian assured her, approaching Susan, pulling her into a comforting hug.

In his arms Susan could forget everything else, all her sadness and all of her troubles. She could just breathe, not thinking about anything else. She leaned her head against his chest and calmed down.

After some while Susan looked up at Caspian, her glassy blue eyes pleading. "Can you take me back with you? Can you bring me to them?"

"I am sorry, but as I said, that's beyond my power." Caspian told her, although you could hear in his voice how much he would have wanted to fulfil her wish.

"Then who has the power to do it? Aslan?"

Caspian nodded. "I think so. But I think it also depends on you! You have to want it and you have to believe in it!"

"But I do! What else am I supposed to do?" she asked desperately.

"I don't know. But we are going to find that out!" he assured her, although he didn't know how to do that!

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