Everlasting darkness, that was all I saw and I would have thought that I was just in a void if I didn't feel myself standing there. I tried to focus in on anything, anything at all. I eased forward, testing my footsteps as I walked into this darkness when it suddenly began to rain silver streaks across the sky; and now lit, the world blurred around me, flashes of oranges and greens as if the whole world had sped up and I had stayed rooted to this one spot. And, while nothing really scared me I felt this overwhelming wrench of sadness; something that I could only relate to the time when Edmund had disappeared.

Pulling in a gasp at the sudden well of emotion, I pressed my hand to my heart, feeling it pound against my chest. Unable to catch my breath, I dropped to my knees as I looked around and saw this gigantic wave of water tumbling towards me, threatening to drown me, but I couldn't move. The fear and sadness was crippling me in place. Closing my eyes, just waiting for it to hit me I fell onto my side and folded up into a ball as I pressed my hand against my chest.

"Eres!" With a gasp, I opened my eyes to see Lucy and Edmund in front of me. I once again registered where I was and slowly started to uncurl myself and my hand that was gripped onto my nightgown over my heart. "Are you alright?" Edmund asked in obvious concern.

"Yes, umm what was I doing?"

"You just started gasping and looked like you were in pain," Lucy murmured, just as concerned along with confused.

"It was just a weird dream," I murmured to her and pushed up to sit on the side of the bed when Edmund shot her a look and before she could get another word out she stood up and walked out.

"That was more than just a dream," he whispered.

I wanted to say differently. I wanted to continue to deny his persistent worrying and questioning but I could still feel it in my chest, radiating throughout my body. "I think something's wrong in Narnia," I breathed out my worries from the last couple weeks.

"What? How do you know?"

"I don't really. I mean I just feel it," I cringed as another well over took me and once again reached up and pressed against my chest. "The only time that I've ever felt like this is when you disappeared. I have you but Narnia…I don't know Ed. I just feel like something is happening or is going to happen."

"Okay," he spoke softly and reached up, taking my hands, "well Diggory and Polly are coming over in a couple days. We can all talk about it then. But I don't know why you'd be having these feelings and not any of us."

"Because I'm Narnian Ed," I breathed out, "it's in my blood and it doesn't feel right."

Frowning, he looked over me before leaning up and pressing a small kiss to my forehead. "Just a couple more days, and you'll have some things to distract you. Christmas Eve is tomorrow and then you have the dress fitting."

Suddenly my stomach flipped as I the thought popped into my head and panic filled me. "The last time I had these feelings it didn't turn out well. I think we should do something tomorrow."

"What?" He frowned.

"I don't want another wedding passing us by should something happen. I want to be married to you," I spoke, knowing that I sounded fearful and panicked.

"Erie, nothing is going to happen," he took my face in his hands and the feelings crested.

"You don't know that. You don't get it Ed, this isn't just panic. I feel it," I took one of his hands and pressed it to my chest so he could feel my heart beating. "The twinges, aches, pains, everything is tied to it."

"How do you know that it's not something else? Something medical?" He frowned.

"Because I know what that feels like, and I know what this feels like. My heart is breaking," I felt frustrated tears well up in my eyes. "Please, just trust me on this. Something is going to happen, we need to do this."

Furrowing his brow, he looked over me unsurely but finally gave in. "Okay," He nodded, "if you're positive you want to do this. I don't care how we get married."

"I'm positive," I answered resolutely and moving forward he pulled me into a hug which I immediately returned and tightened, burring my face in his neck as the fear plateaued at its height and tears welled up in my eyes. "What are we going to do?"

"Well," he pulled back and once again took my face in his hands, "tomorrow afternoon my parents are going to their friends Christmas Eve party and we can go to the Shoreditch Town Hall."

"What about rings, witnesses and all the other stuff?" I sniffled.

"Humm, well," he settled back on his heels thinking about it. "As for rings, I have my Mum's for you and we can just find something for me. And for witnesses…well…"

"I'll go!" Suddenly came from the door and wide eyed, both of us looked up to Lucy and Peter in mid reach obviously hoping to pull her back before they were given away. "And I also have an idea for the rings and a dress for you, Eres. Don't worry," She plopped down beside me and pulled me into a tight one armed hug. "We'll all make sure it happens this time."

The panic finally started easing off a bit and I leaned my head on her shoulder with a teary eyed smile. "Thanks."

oOo

"Alright, I've got everything. Now this is sample for the spring so I'll need to have it back in the store by tomorrow," Susan rushed out worriedly as she rushed into the room with a shopping bag and the garment bag hoisted above her head. Lucy quickly shut the door behind so neither the prying eyes of the boys or Helen would see it. I felt horrible because Helen wouldn't be coming, but I knew that if she and Mr. Pevensie knew they wouldn't understand. They would try to stop us and I knew that we couldn't right now. Susan didn't understand either but I think she knew that it had to happen. She knew that we wouldn't do this unless we needed to. Half of me thought that she thought that I was pregnant.

I leaned back against the footboard of Lucy's bed as she hung it up on the closet door and carefully unzipped the bag, revealing the perfect dress. "And I don't think any of us would be able to afford-" I cut her off as I rushed up and clamped my arms around her.

"It's perfect, Sue," I wished. "Thank you."

"Well what's more important," She murmured, returning the hug. "My best friend's wedding dress or losing my job?"

Smiling, I tried to stop the tears as I stepped back and looked at it once more. It was fairly simple in design a fitted top that flowed into a full tulle skirt that would probably hit at mid-calf and overall it was a nice soft white color. The neckline of the top section was a sweetheart with cap sleeves. Just from that it was a beautiful dress. But then you looked to the details. It wasn't pearls but little fabric flowers that were scattered about the dress, concentrating at the top of the neckline. And the top layers of tulle were a muted gold with flicks that shined in the sunlight. It was a perfect mesh of modern and my old dress.

"And," She reached into the store bag and brought out a pair of soft white high heels and ring box, "I got the best I could with the money you and Ed gave me along with a bit from us," She smiled and handed it over. Opening it up, I saw a simple gold band. "And I also got this," she said as she pulled out a single sunflower, "It's fake but I thought that it was better than nothing."

"Thank you," I grinned.

"Well let's get started," Lucy said excitedly.

I was nudged over to her vanity where for the next two hours my hair was curled and pulled over to the side where it was pinned. My makeup was done up, Susan perfectly winging out my eyeliner and lightly coating my lips with red lipstick while Jill painted my nails to match, all in between getting themselves ready.

My nerves began to grow as I watched the clock tick down in the mirror. "Kids we're leaving!" I heard Helen call.

"Bye," I heard his voice. I had been pretty much separated from him all day and for the first time I actually realized that he was doing the same thing just two doors over in Peter's room.

"Wow," I murmured.

"I agree," Lucy spoke and I moved back out of my thoughts to see all of them looking at me in the mirror.

"Time to get dressed," Susan ordered, keeping us on the schedule.

"You know," I murmured as I pulled off my robe, "I had a solid five years of not having to wear a corset and now I have to wear something that is even worse." Both Jill and Lucy gave small giggles but I watched Susan close down a bit. I had been doing so well not to mention anything about Narnia.

Yanking on the stupid girdle, I had to take a moment just to get my breath back before pulling on my stockings and clipping them to the garters. Smiling to Susan, I moved over to her and carefully navigated my way into the dress before she started buttoning up the back. Finishing it all off with the shoes and flower I turned and looked at myself in the mirror. This was really happening.

"No, no, no," Lucy rushed over grabbing a tissue, "don't cry."

Laughing, I tipped back my head to stop the tears from coming out. "It's just been such a long time coming," I grinned, but got it under control.

Smiling to me, she leaned in and pressed a kiss to my cheek. "I'll go see if Edmund is ready."

Nodding, I shifted around and sat on the side of the bed. "Jill," Susan spoke, "can you give us a moment?"

"Sure," She nodded and with a smile quickly moved out the door.

"What is it?" I asked. Did she actually think this was a horrible idea or something? She had always been the reasonable one.

"I just, I wanted to talk to you for a moment," She sat down beside me with a frown. "I know that over the past couple years I haven't been the best friend or sister that I could be. It's just…" She trailed off, "everyone is always talking about it…It's easier to pretend that."

I reached out and took her hand, "I get it Susan. You don't have to explain it to me and I don't hold it against you."

Looking like she was about to burst out crying now, she pulled me into a hug. "Now," She gave a small chuckle and smile as she pulled back, "to get down to the really reason to talk to you. You're ready for tonight right?" Right there was one more thing that I hadn't really thought about. Edmund had surely thought about it, though. "Eres…"

"I've thought about it before of course. We've talked about it before. But I mean I haven't thought about it all day. I've been too preoccupied with this," I gestured.

"But you know that's going to happen?" She asked gently.

"Yeah," I nodded as a whole new bought of nerves surfaced. I didn't have much time to get rid of them as Lucy opened up the door.

"They're ready."

Heaving a sigh, I looked between them. They were my best friends, my sisters in all ways but one; now that was happening.

Both Susan and I stood up and she grabbed my coat off the chair. "Have we got everything?" I asked.

"Something borrowed?" Lucy asked and I gestured to the dress and shoes. "Something old and blue?" She smiled and I held up my hand, showing her the engagement ring. "Something new?" Looking over my outfit gave a small shrug and held up the flower.

"And a sixpence," Susan held up the coin. Rushing forward, Lucy took it and as I shifted onto one leg she placed it into my shoe.

"I guess we're all ready," I grinned and moving in both pulled me into a tight but short hug. Both then moved out the door and I just stood there for a moment, taking it all in then started out. Instantly it was as if all my nerves melted away as I stepped up to the railing and saw him there at the bottom of the stairs. It wasn't perfect compared to everything that we had gone through before. The only flower that I was going to have was a fake sunflower, my dress wasn't really mine, and we didn't have all our friends and family to watch it. But, as I looked at him down there in his grey suit, his hair combed to the side and our family beside him I saw that I didn't really need that. This right here was perfect in the right way.

Giggling slightly at his expression I made my way down the stairs. Eagerly he moved up a couple and took my by the waist, pulling me into a kiss. "You, My Love, look beautiful."

"And you, My King, look very dashing." Leaning in we shared another kiss.

"Alright, alright," Peter spoke. "You're not supposed to be doing that until this is over. So let's go."

We smiled to each other, then taking my hand Ed lead me down the few extra steps and we made our way out to the car.