A long time in coming but when it comes to getting into lemon scenes my brain shuts down. I absolutely abhor writing lemons so don't ask when the next chapter will come out. Though I just might recycle a lemon from another fic I have and call it day, and though I've done that several times as well it still annoys me. Let's just face it here writing lemons SUCKS! Ah well hope you enjoy, much love for you all. Keva

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He maneuvered both my hands into one of his so his other hand could grab me by the chin. He turned my head so I was facing him and without a word his lips found my own. I tried to break free of his hold when his free hand moved from my face and trailed down to my thigh. He pushed my shirt up to expose my leg completely and trailed his fingers up to my hip.

"Sebastian," I pulled away and gasped at the feel of his fingers grasping my hip pulling me tighter against him. "please." I didn't know what I was pleading for but what ever it was I wanted it more than anything in the world right now.

"You don't belong to me." He whispered as he brushed his lips against my own. "I can't give you this."

"No." I jerked my hands free of his hold, wrapped my arms around his neck, and held him tight like he was going to vanish at any moment. "Don't leave me." I managed to wrap my legs around his waist and pulled him tight against me. I could feel his heat through his clothes searing me to my very core.

He chuckled at that. "Silly boy," he pulled back and stared down at me with that smirk I loved but at the same time hated. "I've spent too much gold on you to leave you anywhere."

"You," I stared up wide eyed up at him. "you did buy me. It was you."

He continued to smirk at me and shook his head. "You can say it and hope for it all you want but it will never be. You're not mine."

"Why? Why can't I belong to you?" I stared pleadingly up at him. "I want to be with you. I love you."

He arched a dark brow at that. "Love me? You silly silly boy. Love." He snorted. "You know nothing about life or love." He planted a quick kiss on my lips and ground his hips against me.

"Show me." I nodded up at him. "Show me life and love. Show me what it is to be with you." I arched up pressing my body against his. "Make me yours for the rest of eternity."

"No." He suddenly pulled away from me and got out of the bed.

I sat up and stared at him. "What?"

"What you want is something I can't give you." He grabbed his robe and put it on. "Get some sleep we're leaving early." He ordered with an edge to his voice and quickly left the room.

I sat there staring at the door not sure what to do or even what happened. "Sebastian?" I whispered wanting to go after him but not sure if I should or not.

What was happening between us? It was getting harder and harder to remember who and what I was and who Sebastian really was to me. What I did know for sure was that I wanted nothing more in the world than to stay with Sebastian for the rest of my life.

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"Please don't do this." I pleaded and wrapped my arms tightly around his waist, pressing my face against his chest. "Don't."

"I have no choice." He placed his hand on my shoulder and tried to push me away from him.

"You do." I looked up at him. "No one has to know you found me." I nodded. "Maybe you were killed, maybe I was killed, maybe you can't find me. Anything could have happened to either of us."

"True but eventually someone is going to see me with you and word will get back." He sighed deeply. "It's unavoidable."

"I'll run away." I nodded. "I don't want to leave you but not belonging to someone else is more important. I have a right to live my own life."

Sebastian sighed and shook his head. "You may think that and maybe it should be that way but when gold is involved free will is nothing but a hopeless dream."

"Is gold so important to you?"

"Not necessarily." He nodded down at me before he picked me up and set me on Shadow. "However life is very important to me," he mounted the horse and settled in the saddle behind me. "especially keeping mine."

I frowned deeply at that. "But what about mine. Does my life not have any meaning or value?"

He wrapped his arm around me and spurred Shadow into a trot causing me to go stiff in the spine. "To someone else; yes. For yourself; no."

"I'm a person not property." I whispered sadly.

"Again that is the way of man," he pointed out simply. "to be God over all others."

"Well if someone has to be God over me why can't it be you?"

He held me tight against his chest and buried his face into my neck. "You want me to rule you?"

"Yes." I whispered and pressed tighter against him. "If someone must rule me I want it to be you."

"Just because I'm the first person to show you any kindness since your mother sold you," he loosened his grip on me. "is no reason to put so much trust into me."

"That's not why." I scowled.

"It is and it is because you are looking for a way out of your fate. You think I can save you."

I narrowed my eyes though he couldn't see me do so from behind me. "You could if you really wanted to. So why don't you want to?"

He snorted. "You aren't the only one with life problems trying to escape his fate."

I swallowed my fear as best I could and worked to turn myself around to face him in the saddle with a lot of help from him. "What are you running from?!" I glared up at him after I had a tight grip around his waist to hold on and to push down the anxiety from my fear of falling from all my moving around.

"As I have said before my life and why I choose to do what I do does not concern you." He glared down at me.

"At this point I don't care." I growled. "I want to know." I nodded determinedly up at him. "The worst thing you can do to me is either kill me or beat me and with knowing what I am that's no different than what's happening to me anyway."

"Irregardless." He growled. "Mind your own."

"Why can't you tell me?" I demanded angrily. "What horrible thing is going to happen if you tell me?"

"For the last time drop it." He hissed coldly.

I fell silent at the anger I could hear in his voice. I laid my head against his chest listening to his heart beat trying to sort out his mysterious past. What was he hiding that he couldn't tell me? I mean considering who and what I was who was I going to tell? Really the truth of the matter was I didn't care who or what he was I just didn't want to be parted from him.

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The silence between us reigned on for the rest of the day and even long after we stopped to camp. I had nothing to say to him especially since he was going to make sure I remained as what he bought me as. He was right I was putting all my hopes for freedom into his hands and it was a foolish move on my part.

At this point my only option for freedom was running. Yet how was I going to get away? I didn't have shoes, nor clothes aside from the white shirt Sebastian gave me, and I had no idea where we were. So where would I run to and how far would I get if I tried?

I set about making myself a little bed with the blanket he gave me and ignored his questioning look. Yes I was silent and no I didn't have anything to say to him not even a thank you for the blanket. I was a slave in the midst of being transported from one owner to the next and Sebastian was nothing but my ride to get there.

I slipped my tired body into my little bed and put my back to the man sitting across from me watching. I could feel his midnight eyes boring into me but I chose to ignore it. What good would it do me to acknowledge him especially since he made it quite clear what we were to each other. I was a nobody and he was just a shadow escaping his own troubles there was no room for our paths to intertwine. Our paths could only meet and run parallel until the time came for them to diverge into different directions.

"Ah so you've decided to submit to your fate."

I could hear the smirk in his tone and chose to ignore that as well. "Yes." I answered simply knowing that he was trying to instigate me.

"Is it because you're a coward or because you know you can't change your path?"

"Does it matter which it is?" I questioned back. "You've made it quite clear that I have no choice or say in my life. So why bother trying to change that which is beyond my ability to change?" I sighed deeply. "And do not mock me for my choice in submitting especially when you refuse to fight against your own fate."

Before I could process what was happening he was on me pinning my hands above my head. I didn't struggle or fight back just stared up emotionlessly into the dark black pools staring down at me glinting deadly.

"You know nothing of what I do." He hissed.

"No?" I questioned flatly. "You're running; it doesn't take a genius to figure that out. So long as you continue to run from your past your nothing but a coward." I shrugged. "But then again as you so often put it that's none of my business so it doesn't matter what you do or what I think."

I wasn't sure what happened but one second he was glaring deadly at me the next his lips were covering my own. He was so confusing in his actions from one moment to the next that I just couldn't keep up with him. He made no sense; what did he want from me?

Was I just a means to an end for him? A toy? A game? A temporary escape from his own nightmarish troubles? What ever I was to him he couldn't keep playing these two sides with me.

I twisted my head away and stared off to the side. "Stop." I ordered determinedly. "I can no more be an escape for you than you can for me. You don't own me." I whispered quietly.

"You're right I don't." He agreed. "But you already gave me your soul so I possess the deeper part of you. Remember telling me that you wanted to belong to me, that you loved me? If that isn't handing over all or yourself to me I don't know what is. "

Yes I remembered telling him that and now I was sorely regretting it. "Then give it back." I looked back up at him. "I don't want you to have any part of me. I'm a slave and you're nothing to me but a ride to my new master. Therefore you shouldn't have any part of me."

"No." He smirked down at me as jerked the shirt I was wearing up until it was bunched around my chest. "What's given to me I keep and I will never give it back." He purred darkly jerked the shirt off of me faster than I could blink then smashed his lips to mine in a demanding possessive kiss.

I attempted to fight back but it was futile at best. Sebastian just had this way about him that no matter what he did to me I fell weak and submissive to him. How did he get so much control over me so easily?

I arched my back sharply when Sebastian moved his lips down over my chest, wrapped his lips around my nipple, and gave it a hard suck. It was almost painful but felt good until he gave it a little bite causing me to gasp. I jerked my hands trying to break free of his hold either to hold him closer or push him away; I wasn't quite sure which. I just knew that what he was doing was kind of painful but felt good.

"Tell me Ciel," he ordered almost darkly as he moved his lips to my other nipple as his free hand trailed down over my bared hip. "are you a virgin in every way?"

"Nnn…" I trailed off with a painful gasp when he bit my nipple harshly.

"Don't lie to me." He hissed as he lifted up and looked down at me.

I stared in to his dark onyx before I turned my head to the side. "Yes." I whispered almost shamefully. I never understood why a woman was expected to be a virgin till marriage but it was shameful for a man to be one after the age of thirteen. Was it so wrong that I was a virgin?

It wasn't like I wanted to be but the women in my village treated me like I was one of them. I knew all their secrets, who really was a virgin, who really wasn't, who was having an affair with who, and every other scandal they were or weren't involved in. Actually before my mother sold me I was pretty certain some of them were planning on dressing me up like a girl to see if they could land me a man. I couldn't quite prove it but every time they paid me a visit I had an uneasy feeling that they were up to no good. Yet I never found out for sure what they were doing for soon after I was sold into slavery for a bottle of whiskey.

However that had nothing to do with what was happening to me now. For I suddenly had a fluttering in my stomach that said my virginity was going to be gone within the hour.