So it seems that Sebastian won't appear until next chapter and probably not until towards the end of it. Ah well that's how it goes and it's even worse when you rip a fingernail off and you can't use that finger to type very well and especially when it's the pinky finger that has to mash the A key.

Do you know how many words have the letter A in them? A freakin lot; that's how many. I mean seriously why does the A have to be with the Z and Q buttons? Why not put X where A is A where S is S to D's position and D to X's position? We have two shift key's so we don't need to worry about that issue. There problem solved! But you think anyone is going to listen to me? Of course they won't I'm just some lowly fanfic writer. Or I could just be more careful when helping someone move a mattress and not rip my fingernail off.

Anywho on with the fic now that my bitch session is over. Thanks for reading in advance; much love for you all. Keva

Oh and the TW in the last chapter was actually meant for this chapter as was the Le Gasp. I miscounted where I stopped the chapter word count. So TW for nocon on this chapter!

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I laid on the bed feeling numb and detached from myself. I was officially married though I wasn't sure how official it was seeing as I was still a boy no matter how they dressed me up. Even with all the laws King Edward passed during his reign. Yet at the moment that didn't much matter as much as what was about to happen.

I was about to have my marriage consummated in front of my father and aunt and Aleister's parents. I didn't think my life could become worse after all that happened to me but this was reaching an all new low. Four sets of eyes were going to watch me be taken for my wedding night whether I wanted any of this or not.

I didn't move and barely acknowledged my mother-in-law as she sat me up and removed the thin shift I was wearing. "It's too bad you're a boy you have the perfect hips of a breeder." She sighed deeply as she laid me back down. "I guess a surrogate will have to suffice to give me a grandchild of this union." She nodded at me. "I'm sure you'll make a good mother even if the child really isn't yours."

I wanted reach up and slap her. How could she think any of this was okay? Or even that the biggest worry was whether or not I'd be a good mother to someone else's child? Was I the only one who had a problem with me being a male and being supposedly legally married to another man?

She stood up just as Aleister entered the room grinning hugely as he eyed my naked form over. "Ah my dear I've been waiting for this moment since I first laid my eyes on you."

I very nearly cringed but caught myself before I did and brought another round of punishment upon myself. My bottom was still tender from the spanking my father gave me earlier when he caught me trying to run away.

I kept my eyes locked tight onto the ceiling as Aleister stood at the end of the bed removing what sounded like his clothing. Which I'm sure it was couldn't exactly consummate a marriage fully clothed.

"Ah son it's good to see you prepared yourself." I heard his father point out from next to my head.

"Of course I did I don't want to hurt her too badly for her first time."

I couldn't help but grin inwardly at that. He could think he was my first all he wanted but he never would be. Sebastian owned that and would own that and my heart for as long as I lived. I prayed that the whole lot of them would rot in the eternal fires of hell for doing this.

I felt Aleister kneel on the bed, push my legs apart, and come down atop me. This was it it was going to be done no matter my plea to God or anyone else to be saved. I was about to become the wife proper of Lord Aleister Chamber the fourth future Lord of the North.

"Darling I know you're nervous," he planted a light kiss to my lips. "but please look at me so I can see the love and pleasure in your eyes as I make you truly mine."

Was this man completely out of his mind? Love and pleasure would never show in my eyes for him.

"It's okay." He kissed me gently. "When we're alone it will be easier for you." He moved his lips to my neck and started sucking and kissing as he rocked his hips against mine.

I could feel him sliding beneath me and wanted desperately to shove him away. However I remained there unmoving as he continued to kiss my neck.

"Are you ready my love?" He questioned when he kissed his way to my ear.

Of course I didn't answer for no amount of time in the world would make me ready for this. However when he began pushing into me I wished I had looked to see what I was in for. I was thankful he was oiled for based on how big he felt pushing into me he probably would have ripped me in two.

A deep groan of pain passed my lips as he pressed further into me making my gut turn in on itself. I was sure I was going to be sick at any moment and looked wide eyed and pleadingly over at my father.

"It's okay my darling daughter." How could he refer to me as his daughter all of a sudden just like that? All this time I was his son and now suddenly I was his darling daughter? Was he saying that because there were others in the room with us? He had to be for he surely didn't want this to be happening to me any more than I did. "Just take some slow deep breaths and the pain will recede."

That was easy for him to say he wasn't the one laying here getting split in two. I fisted the sheets tightly as the bastard continued to press until he was fully seated deep into my body. As much as I didn't want to I followed my father's advice and took several long slow deep breaths trying to will the pain away and for the most part it worked. I felt my body beginning to relax and as it did so Aleister began a slow pull out of me followed by a slow push back in.

The pain receded even more the more he moved until I could feel the hints of pleasure beneath. However I didn't want to enjoy this and fought with all my willpower to keep the pleasure pressed down. Yet the more he moved the harder it was to ignore the pleasurable feelings building up within me.

I could feel the four sets of eyes watching us but didn't dare to look at any of them especially when a small moan escaped my throat. I kept my focus on the ceiling above fighting what I knew was going to be a losing battle against my body. Why it wanted to enjoy this I didn't know but it did and my mind was screaming for it to stop.

"Oh my love." Aleister panted above me. "You feel so good inside." He began thrusting a little harder and faster.

I couldn't help but moan when the last bit of pain fell away leaving me with nothing but pleasure and I hated myself for it. I was truly a slave to everyone and had no say in my life whatsoever. If they wanted me to be made to look as a girl; I was. If they decided I was to be married; I was. If they wanted me to consummate my marriage to my husband; it was so. If they wanted to watch; they did.

"Lift your legs." I heard a Maria say followed by her hand gripping my calf and lifting my leg up.

When she let go my leg stayed up in the air followed by my other lifting as well. Why did she care if my legs were lifted or not? What was wrong with these people?

"That's it my darling daughter-in-law." She said proudly. "Show your husband how good he makes you feel."

I wanted to yell and scream at her that he wasn't making me feel anything but disgust but my moans of pleasure said otherwise. When he started thrusting into me fast and hard hitting that special spot inside I couldn't help but pull my knees up higher towards my shoulders and grip his arms tightly.

"Oh yes my love." Aleister panted then pressed his lips to mine burying his tongue into my mouth.

As he made as much love to my mouth as he was making to my body I could hear the words of encouragement coming from those watching us. The internal burning of a release building had me wrenching my mouth from his to let off a loud moan before arching up and coming all over the two of us.

"Yes oh yes!" Aleister panted above me. "I'm going to plant my seed deep inside you and make you mine for eternity!" He growled and began pounding into me fast and hard. It wasn't long until he stiffened in the spine, pressed as deep as he could, and spilt himself deep inside me.

It was official my marriage to this man was consummated and there was no taking it back.

He gave me a loving kiss before getting up and standing at the end of the bed. "Get cleaned up my darling so we can dance the night away at our wedding party." He beamed proudly at me. "Oh and mother please make sure she's tied into chastity proper."

"Yes son." She nodded at him.

He nodded in return then turned and exited the room after giving me a wink and a smile.

"The maids will be in to get you cleaned up and dressed." Vincent nodded at me with a proud grin as he ruffled my hair. "You have guests to attend to so don't be too long." He placed his hand on Angelina's shoulder. "Come sister let's go eat, drink, and be merry."

Angelina gave me a quick glance with a wink before allowing Vincent to lead her out of the room followed by Aleister's father.

"I'll get the maids so we can get you cleaned up and ready to see your guests."

I could do nothing but give the woman a small nod as I stared up at the ceiling. I was too disgusted with myself for allowing my body to betray my mind and all for the sake of a moments worth of pleasure. What would Sebastian say if he saw me like this?

Then again if Sebastian was here none of this would be happening to me now. How I wish he were here now to save me from this nightmare. Then again he'd probably tell me to fight this and be strong but clearly that didn't work. The more I fought against this the more I was showed it was going to be done anyway. A man I may be but I definitely wasn't a very strong one and apparently in any aspect.

However I still had my life and as long as I lived I would do whatever I could to escape these people and find my way back to my one true love.

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I stood in the entryway to the grand hall shifting my hips trying to loosen the ribbon that was tied tightly into a makeshift chastity belt around my privates. I wasn't quite sure why Maria tied the pink ribbon around me as she did but it was uncomfortable especially since I was rubbed until I was hard before she tied me up. I just hoped no one bumped too close to the front of me for surely they would feel my half erection through the fabric of my gown.

"There you are." Aleister suddenly appeared before me. "I was getting worried that I hurt you too much and you couldn't walk."

"I'm fine." I whispered trying to keep the venom out of my voice as much as possible. I decided that now wasn't time to make a scene with so many people around. I had to wait until I was alone and unguarded to do whatever it took to get away.

"Well that's good." He held his arm out to me. "Shall we greet our guests?"

I took a deep breath before reluctantly slipping my arm through his and giving him a small nod. I was swept around the room and introduced to Lords and Ladies from all over the place. So many in fact that I couldn't remember the name of a single one of them by the time we were sat at the wedding table.

Aleister leaned over and placed a kiss on my cheek as he beamed proudly at me. "We're finally husband and wife."

I tried to smile at him but it fell short causing me to look down at the plate of food in front of me.

"Oh darling what is it?" He questioned with a stroke of his fingers across my cheek.

"I'm just uncomfortable because of the," I shifted my hips so he would think that that was my problem. "you know."

"I see." He sighed deeply. "I know it's uncomfortable but it's must be done."

"Why?" I looked over at him as he lifted his wine cup to his lips and took a sip.

He sighed deeply then set the cup back down. "You see the rules state that you are only allowed the pleasure once during the consummation of our joining." He frowned and scowled down at his own plate of food. "It's an absurd rule but to make this wedding legally binding we have to follow King Edward's laws."

"So I'm going to be tied like this for the rest of our marriage?" I gasped as I stared wide eyed at him.

"No." He shook his head and looked back at me. "It's only until you take up your position as Lady proper when we arrive home."

"Oh." I drew my brows deeply at that. "But that's not all is it." I stared at him suspiciously.

He sighed deeply. "It's nothing serious." He nodded.

"But I'm not going to like it though." I pointed out causing him to shake his head. "What is it Aleister." I demanded.

"I have to have you the first night we arrive home somewhere where it can either be heard or seen." He grasped my hand and held it tightly. "But I swear to you we'll be as discreet as possible so only the castle gossip will hear us and spread the word that you are in fact my wife."

I could do nothing but stare at him and wonder at King Edward's sanity. "Is this a rule or just some sick fantasy of yours?"

"Oh no I would never intentionally dishonor you in such a fashion." He shook his head at me. "It's a rule so everyone will know that you are my wife and the new Lady of your home."

"Was King Edward out of his mind?" I scowled.

Aleister laughed at that. "Some tend to think he was but he did love truly love Queen Lilliana right up to the day he died."

I snorted at that. "And what ever happened to the Queen?" I drew my brows being I was never one to pay much attention to Kings and courts and all that.

"She died some years ago some say from a fever and others from despair." He smiled at me. "Rumor was that she loved her husband just as much as he loved her."

"Do you think it's true that Lilliana was actually a boy and was once the King's squire?" I arched a brow at him.

He just shrugged. "If she was it had no effect on me or anyone else. From what I was lead to believe was that she was a fair and just Queen who loved not just her husband but everyone. Including her son the current King and even her missing grandson."

"Missing?" I questioned and now knew why everyone was so into court gossip. "Where'd he go?"

"No one knows." He shrugged. "The rumor says that he ran from home when his father was insisting he marry some princess from the East. He's been gone for near on five years now and his father even put a bounty on his head to have him returned home," he nodded. "alive of course."

"Of course." I scowled and waved a flippant hand through the air. "Can't force a marriage on someone if they're not there to be forced." When he frowned at me I sighed deeply. "I don't mean anything against you it's just that you've had years to ready yourself for this," I stared plainly at him. "I've only had weeks."

"Right." He smiled apologetically at me. "I sometimes forget that this is new to you and can't be easy."

There was that damn sad smile of his that made it so hard to dislike him. He was too sweet and gentle and I was already feeling guilty for the day I was going to break his heart and leave him. Really if I hadn't had met Sebastian first I probably wouldn't mind this arrangement at all.

"It's alright." I smiled back at him in spite of myself. "All new things take time to get used to."

He grabbed my hand and placed a loving kiss on my lips at that. "Darling I just know that once things settle and we're at home we'll be as happy as King Edward and Queen Lilliana." He beamed brightly at me.

I just smiled back and him and did my level best to keep him at a distance. It would do no good to let him or myself for that matter get too attached.

LOL Ciel is now Lady Cielly Chamber! And you didn't think I would actually marry him off. Now the question is how is he going to get out of it? Hmmm I wonder.