This is the longest chapter yet. I didn't know what point to end it at so I just put it all together. I'm not sure if I like this chapter or not. I put some Dean povs in there. Anyway please Review! :)

Roman and I woke up at 8 the next morning when Jessica ran into the room jumping on the bed. We went downstairs ate some breakfast and watched cartoons waiting for Dean and Seth to show up. It was about 10 when they finally pulled up.

"Hey Dean, hey Seth." I said opening the door hugging them both.

"Who's here?" Jessica asked from the couch.

"Uncle Dean and Uncle Seth." Roman answered. The little girl squealed and came running to the door jumping in Dean's arms.

"What's up pip squeak?" Dean asked. She scrunched her face up and Dean laughed.

"Hey pumpkin." Seth said from beside Dean.

"Hi Uncle Seth." Jessica reached out for Seth and rested her head on his shoulder.

"How you doing big man?" Dean asked as we all walked over to the couch to sit with Roman.

"I'm doing alright I just" Roman's phone started ringing and he picked it up and walked outside.

"Okay then..." Dean said.

"It's probably his dad." I said sitting down next to Dean.

Dean nodded his head then looked at Jessica who was sitting on Seth's lap. "How do you like your dad's new home?"

"I love it! We have a pool and a swing set! and i have enough room for all my toys!" Jessica said excitedly.

Roman walked back in and looked at me and Dean and motioned his head towards the door and walked back outside.

"We'll be right back." Dean said as we got up and followed Roman outside.

"What's going on?" I asked.

"My dad just told me that Brittney called him to say she's on her way home with her boyfriend.."

"Boyfriend?" Dean asked surprised.

"Yeah I guess she's with the dude she cheated on me with, anyway she said she had something for Jessica and my dad told her I was watching her the next week and it turned into a fight. He got it figured out but I need to go see him real quick, he said Brittney was going to send her guy over here to drop off whatever she got for Jess and I was just wondering if you two would be okay with staying here and dealing with him?"

"Of course man no problem." Dean said.

"Thanks. He should be here soon and I'd stay to deal but my dad said whatever he needs to see me for is urgent and I don't want Rox dealing with him alone you know?"

Dean nodded and I looked up at him "Why not?"

"I just don't feel comfortable with it. I'm going to get going then so I can hurry back alright?" I nodded my head and he kissed me on the forehead then walked into the living room.

"Hey princess, daddy's got to go see grandpa I'll be right back okay?" Jessica got off Seth's lap and ran to Roman grabbing his leg and not letting go.

"No!" she shouted.

"Jess I'll be back soon, Rox, Uncle Dean and Uncle Seth are going to stay with you." Roman went to peel her off his leg but she held on tighter.

"NO!" She shouted louder this time.

"Sweetie, he won't be gone long. We'll keep you company." I said walking over and trying to pull Jessica off his leg.

"I want to go with daddy!"

I looked up at Roman and he sighed.

"Baby girl, there's no need for you to go you can stay here and have fun with them okay?" Roman said. Jessica started crying and squeezing him tighter. "I don't want you to leave..." she whimpered. I looked at Roman's face and could tell his heart was breaking.

"Why doesn't she just go with you? We'll clean up around here and make some lunch for when you two get back?" Seth suggested standing up from his spot on the couch.

"I want to go with daddy." Jessica said quietly. Roman bent down and lifted her up.

"You can come with me okay? Don't cry" Roman said hugging her. She nodded her head and put her little arms around his neck hugging him. "I'll be back guys." Roman said grabbing his keys and walking out of the house.

"What was that about?" I asked looking at Seth.

"She just wanted to spend time with him." He shrugged walking to the toys on the living room floor picking them up.

*Dean's POV*

We were, okay Rox and Seth were cleaning up around the house while I watched waiting for whoever this douche was to show up with Jessica's stuff. I didn't like that they knew where Roman lived but I guess when you have a kid with someone you don't get to keep stuff like that to yourself. I walked into the kitchen to grab us all a beer. I was walking into the living room when someone rang the door bell.

"I'll get it." Rox said as I put the beers down on the coffee table. I nodded my head and watched her walk over to the door. When she opened the door I saw her tense up, start slightly trembling and slowly start backing away from the door looking terrified. Seth looked at me and we both quickly went to the door.

"Can I help you?" I asked tone laced with disdain.

"Yeah you can fix your little tone. I'm looking for Roman." The guy at the door said while staring at Rox the whole time. I looked over my shoulder and saw Rox hugging herself tightly and looking like she was trying to hide. Seth grabbed her by the shoulders and walked her to the couch.

"Yeah well clearly he isn't here or he would have opened the door so once again, can I help you?"

"Wow so he just leaves his daughter? What a dad." he said while rolling his eyes.

"Look here you dumb ass. Do you see his fucking daughter around here?! No that's because SHE IS WITH HIM!"I shouted the last part. "And you want to talk about leaving Jessica alone, look what your little girlfriend did, left her! So drop off whatever the hell you brought for her and get the fuck off his property." I felt eyes staring at the back of my head but I was having a stare down with this jackass.

"Here's the crap." He said shoving it into my chest.

I took a deep breath. I was ready to knock this dude on his ass. I went to shut the door and he stopped it with his hand.

"What?" I asked clearly annoyed.

"Just let Roman know good luck with the case and to have fun with Jessica this week because after this week...he won't have her anymore."

I started laughing and he looked at me like I was crazy "only one who will lose Jessica is your bitch of a girlfriend. Trust me I know a lot about her and what she does. I know she's not the perfect mother she's trying to seem like."

"And I know a lot about Roman's little girlfriend in there... like I said have fun. That woman is going to cause him to lose his child." The guy smirked at me then turned and walked off. I slammed the door and walked over to the couch dropping the bag he gave me on the floor.

"Who the hell was that?" I asked still irritated by my encounter with him.

Rox didn't answer she just started crying.

"Rox what is it? Who is that?" Seth asked rubbing a hand up and down her back.

She shook her head and started crying harder. I grabbed her hand and pulled her into a standing position and hugged her.

"Let's go get some fresh air okay?" She nodded her head and walked to the back patio.

We got out there and she walked over to one of the chairs and sat down taking deep breaths.

"You okay? You need some water or anything?" she shook her head and I sat down next to her.

"Rox..who was that? How does he know you?"

"He is from my past." She said quietly.

"I'm guessing not a good part of it?"

"From the part you had to get me out of... Roman's going to lose Jessica because of me isn't he?" she said looking up at me through tears. I walked to the foot rest of her chair and sat in front of her.

"No. Your past has nothing to do with Roman or Jessica."

"It does when I'll be around her."

"No. It's the past Rox. So many people can back you and say that you aren't like that anymore. Even if you live with Roman, you are no danger to Jessica so you won't even come into play in the custody case."

"You don't understand Dean...that guy he's... it'll just be bad for Roman."

"Rox I'm telling you, you won't effect the custody case. If they want to bring you into it we're prepared okay? I have so much dirt on her mother that would bury her alive. If she even mentions your name we're bringing up all her skeltons. There's a lot you don't know but I do and I have proof. And clearly that guys past is as bad as yours or worse right?" She nodded her head "see? Jessica loves Roman, I know she'll love you, and if for some reason you can be used against Roman guess what? That guy can be used against Brittney and Brittney can be used against Brittney. We have this covered." She leaned back in her chair and brought her knees to her chest looking out to the distance looking distracted.

"Rox. Hey. Look at me" She finally did and I looked into her eyes "Tell me what he did to you." she started crying again and I reached for her and suddenly she jerked away from me and jumped up from the chair and started screaming at me to get away from her. I have never seen her like this. Looking in her eyes it's like the Rox we all knew and were used to was gone. I went to grab her and she started punching me on the chest trying to get me to let go of her but I refused. I pulled her against me and started stroking her hair.

"I'm here okay Rox? You're okay. Shhhhh. It's all going to be okay." I whispered while trying to comfort her.

"I want Roman..." she whispered and I just hugged her tighter.

Seth walked outside and looked at us.

"Is she alright?" He mouthed to me. I shook my head and looked down at her.

"When Roman gets back tell him to come back here alright?" Seth nodded and walked inside.

Not even 5 minutes later Roman walked outside and walked up to us.

"Rox? Baby what's wrong?" He asked rubbing her back she immediately let go of me and went right into Roman's embrace.

"What happened?" Roman looked at me.

"Brittney's boyfriend and her have a past together but she won't tell me what it is."

Roman looked down and her and put his hands on her face making her look at him.

"Who was it?"

"Aaron..."

I saw Roman's jaw tighten and my curiosity grew as to who he was and what the hell he did to my friend.

"Dean can you go ask Jess where she wants to go to lunch please?" i nodded my head and walked back inside.

*Roman's POV*

I kept my shoulder around Rox and walked to the end of the yard past the swing set and sat down on the grass. I pulled her down next to me and she leaned into me gripping my hand for dear life.

"Did he do something to you today?"

"No..." she said barely above a whisper.

"Baby look at me please." she looked at me and I saw nothing but fear in her eyes. "I'm not going to let him hurt you."

"He said good luck that after this week you won't see Jess anymore because of my past."

"He can't bring up your past, it has nothing to do with me or Jess and if he does, they're going to want to know how he knows and that would expose him." I paused and thought for a second. "Are you comfortable with the courts knowing what happened?" she shot her head to look up at me.

"Are you crazy?! Are you trying to lose Jess?!"

"Calm down. I don't want someone who is capable of the things he did around my daughter. I need to let the courts know he is a danger to her...babe i hate asking but please?"

She pulled away from me and stood up. "Sure Roman." she said coldly and walked back to the house.

*Dean's POV*

Rox walked back into the house looking beyond pissed off.

"Hi Rox!" Jessica smiled at her.

"Hi." Rox said and walked up the stairs.

"Is she mad at me?" Jessica asked looking at me sadly.

"No, she's having a bad day I'll go check on her okay?" I said while walking up the stairs.

"What's got you so mad?" I asked while walking in her room.

"Nothing."

"We can all see something's wrong so cut the shit."

"Why don't you just back off for once!? Just let me deal with my own shit okay?!" she turned yelling at me.

I took a step back and rolled my eyes.

"Fine whatever deal with your shit on your own but Jessica thinks you're mad at her because you came back like a bitch." I said and walked out of the room. I went back down stairs to see Roman, Seth and Jessica standing by the door.

"Where you going?" I asked walking up them.

"Daddy's taking us out to lunch." Jessica answered.

"Yeah man you coming?" Roman asked. I nodded and we went to walk out the door.

"Wait!" Jessica yelled panic in her voice.

"What's wrong baby girl?" Roman asked dropping to a knee in front of her.

"We can't go without Rox." She said.

"Rox isn't in a good mood I don't think she feels like going out Jess."

"We still have to ask." she said while taking off up the stairs.

*Rox's POV*

I was lying on the bed staring at the ceiling breathing hard when the door opened.

"Didn't I-" I shouted while sitting up stopping when I saw Jess standing in the door way looking hurt.

"I'm sorry Jess I thought you were someone else."

"Who?" she asked quietly.

"It doesn't matter. I'm sorry I shouldn't have shouted."

"It's okay." she said quietly again looking at the floor. I sighed and got up and walked up to her and kneeled in front of her.

"No it's not. I'll try not to shout anymore okay?" She looked up at me.

"Are you mad at me?"

"Not at all. I have no reason to be mad at you sweetie. Why do you think i am?"

"Mommy yells at me when she's mad...she's mad a lot."

"I'm sure your mom is just stressed and doesn't mean to yell at you okay?"

"No..it's me.. she tells me so." I looked at her confused about to say something when she spoke up. "Daddy is taking us to lunch. I told him we couldn't leave without you."

"That's sweet Jess but I think I'll just stay here okay?"

"So you are mad at me..." she said tears in her eyes.

"I promise I'm not." I said while wiping the tears from her cheeks.

"Then why aren't you coming?"

I stood up and grabbed her hand and walked out the room "I'll come okay?" she smiled and nodded and we walked down the stairs to the 3 guys.

We went Denny's and ate. I was quiet most the meal considering I only went so Jessica would know I'm not mad at her. We finally got back home and I went right back upstairs.

"Where are you going Rox?" I heard Jess ask.

"I'm going to go shower I'll be back."

I walked up to the room and figured I would shower. I picked out sweats and a tank to wear when I got out, grabbed a towel and went into the bathroom. I started the shower and went to start stripping when I heard the door open. I turned around and saw Roman and just stared at him.

"Why are you so mad at me?" He asked while walking closer to me. I ignored him and turned back to the sink to ignore his gaze. I felt a hand on my shoulder and felt myself being turned around. Roman was right in front of me staring down at me.

"We aren't 15, we are grown ass people so stop being immature and fucking talk to me." His stare was so intense that I shrunk down feeling like I was getting lectured.

"I just wish I didn't tell you about Aaron..."

"Why?"

"Because now you're going to make me tell everyone."

"No I'm not. I'm asking you to tell the courts."

"And I don't want to. I told you thinking I could finally get it off my chest and forget it and now you're going to make me relive it again."

"Sorry I don't want my daughter around him. How wrong of me." he scoffed. I just stood there staring up at him.

"Nothing to say now?"

"Not really no" I said.

"You're really mad at me for asking you to help me keep some dangerous psycho drug addicted alcoholic away from my daughter?!"

"No.. I understand that okay?! But you keep saying my past won't effect it so why would his? Why is his so different than mine?"

"You didn't rape someone! He did! I don't want my daughter around a rapist."

"I can't even prove he did it. It's a he said she said."

"But they'll know! At least then it'll be in their heads to keep him away from her."

"i don't want to fight okay? I said I'll tell them and I will."

"Yeah while being pissed at me the whole time."

"Not really." I said while leaning back against the sink.

"You seem pretty pissed now."

"And I'll get over it." I said while crossing my arms over my chest.

Roman slammed his fist down on the counter and I jumped.

"I don't get what the hell you're so pissed about! I'm not asking you to tell a million people I'm asking you to tell my lawyer and maybe a judge!"

"Okay."

"Seriously that's it?!"

"Yes! What am I supposed to say!? I already told you I would tell them, I told you I'll get over it and you're still going! You keep saying pasts don't matter in this case yet you're bringing his into it and that means Brittney will bring mine into it. I'm going to be seen as dangerous too!"

"No you're not! He is a dumb ass who got addicted to drugs and alcohol because he couldn't find a way to cope and turned to substances because he was too much of a pussy to deal with real life."

"So was I..." I said while looking down feeling like I got punched in the stomach. Roman took a deep breath and reached out to me "Babe I didn't.."

"I need to shower." I said while walking away from him and stripping getting into the shower.

"Rox.."

"Leave me alone." I said. I heard him sigh then leave the bathroom.

I got out the shower and got dressed. I mentally prepared myself and walked downstairs. Roman, Jess, Dean and Seth were all playing a board game so I went over and sat on the couch. Roman looked up at me and gave me a small smile and I looked down at my phone.

"Do you want to play Rox?" I heard Jess say. I looked up from my phone and slowly shook my head

"I don't know how."

"What?! This game is a classic family game!" Seth said shocked.

"I didn't have a family." I shrugged.

Jessica looked at me confused "Why didn't you have a family?"

I shrugged my shoulders and expected her to drop it.

"You didn't have a mommy or a daddy?" she asked looking at me. I shook my head.

"Why not?"

"I'm not special enough to have a family." I saw Roman look at me with a sad look on his face

Jessica walked up to me and climbed on the couch then onto my lap and hugged me.

"You can be my family Rox." I hugged her back and decided Roman was right. I had to let the courts know what kind of man Aaron was.. no matter how much I'd rather forget it I couldn't sit aside and let Jess possibly be in danger.

"She can be in our family right dad?" She asked crawling down and going back to her spot on the floor.

"She always will be." He said looking at me. I got up and walked to the kitchen.

I felt someone standing with me in the kitchen and turned from the fridge with my bottle of water and saw Dean standing there.

"Hello.." I said when he just kept staring at me.

"I'm sorry for calling you a bitch earlier." He said.

"It's fine I am one." I said while walking past him to go into the living room.

"No you're not."

"Yeah I am. To you. To Roman. To most people. No wonder most people choose to leave. I'm a mess." I said and walked back into the living room. Only Roman was still there sitting on the couch.

"Where's Seth and Jess?" I asked standing near it.

"They wanted to go swimming. I told her I was going to wait for you then go out there."

I nodded my head and went to go walk outside to the pool.

"Babe wait." I turned around and saw him standing up and walking toward me.

"I'm sorry about earlier."

"Okay."

"I can find another way to prove what kind of guy he is okay?"

"I don't care. I don't want him around Jess so I'll tell the court. It's fine. No worries. I don't mind I want to tell them." Roman smiled and went to hug me but as soon as he hands touched my waist I pushed them away.

"Baby don't be mad at me for asking please? I'm sorry i really am."

"I'm not mad at you for asking...it's just really nice to know how you actually feel about people who get addicted to drugs and alcohol.." I said.

"Rox."

"No! I'm sorry we're not all as strong as you are to deal with everything. I'm so sorry that we're all pussies who can't deal with life."

"I didn't mean you.."

"You sure made it sound like it was to any one who turned to substance."

"No.. People who can't deal with day to day life bull shit who turned to it are.. not you. After everything you dealt with I completely understand."

"Maybe I just shouldn't be around your daughter either."

"Rox stop! You're not a danger to her!"

"You do realize a lot of the things you're going to say about him is going to be said about me right?"

"Not the part that counts! I don't care about the drugs or the alcohol from either of you as long as it's in the past! He raped you. That's the part I care about. I'm not letting a rapist near my daughter!"

"You can stop saying that." I said looking down.

"What?"

"The 'he raped you' I was there I kinda know he did it okay?"

"Well what am I supposed to say?"

"Nothing...Just let it go. We both know what is being brought up so we really don't need to keep talking about it.."

Roman just stared at me.

"Are you two okay?" Dean asked slowly walking into the living room.

"Yup." I walked outside and looked back to see Roman running a hand over his face while talking with Dean.

Later that night everyone went to bed but I stayed outside in the back yard thinking. it was 11 when Seth walked outside.

"Why are you out here alone?"

"Just thinking."

"About what?"

"Life...all the mistakes I made."

"Don't think too hard about it. We all make mistakes. That's how we learn."

"My mistakes cost Roman's fiancee to leave him and try to take Jess away. My mistakes are going to be used against Roman.. I just fuck everything up Seth.." I looked away and a tear fell from my eyes.

"Sleeping with Roman was a mistake?"

"He was engaged Seth.."

"Do you regret it though?"

"No..."

"Then it wasn't a mistake Rox. You need to stop blaming yourself. Roman and Brittney were over for a while. Eventually Roman would have broken up with her anyway. She would still try to take Jess. Your mistakes are helpful Rox."

"How?" I said looking at him like he had 3 heads.

"Your mistakes caused bad things to happen to you, I'm not saying that's good but me and Dean heard Roman say that guy raped you." I took in a harsh breath and looked away from him. "Your mistakes as you call them got you to know who that guy was, got you to be in Roman's house when he showed up and got Roman to know what kind of man would be around his daughter. Your mistakes are keeping his daughter safe if you really think about it."

We just sat there in silence before I looked at him.

"I hate myself Seth."

"Why?" he looked at me confused and leaned closer and put his hand on my knee.

"I'm a horrible person. I hurt so many people and I'm just a mean bitch.."

"You're not a mean bitch Rox."

"I yelled at Roman for trying to keep his daughter safe like it was a attack against me and my past, he said something about Aaron's past and I took it offensively and was rude to him, I was rude to Jess without even meaning to be, I am always rude to Dean, even he thinks I'm a bitch."

"No he doesn't"

"He told me today I was one."

"He didn't apologize?"

"Of course he did but he meant it. I am one. I yell and push people away who try to help me, I take out what happened to me on new people, I hurt people just so I won't get hurt, I slept with an engaged man and didn't even think twice about cheating on my boyfriend, or ruining his family. Whether I did or not, I was selfish and only cared about myself. I don't get why any one puts up with me.." I started crying and we heard the sliding glass door open.

"Can I talk to her alone?" I heard Roman's deep voice. I heard the door shut and felt Romans hand on my arms pulling my hands away from my face.

"You're amazing." He said, i rolled my eyes and he shook his head.

"Don't do that. I'm not lying to you okay? We all have pasts, we all push people away at some point. We all hurt other people. We all make mistakes. But you own up to yours, you feel bad when you do something wrong, you help people. I love you and I couldn't imagine not having you around."

"I have so many issues that you don't know about Roman..."

"And when you're ready to tell me I'll be here to listen and help you through all of them."

"You deserve better than me."

"There is no one better for me than you. Stop being so hard on yourself, you only ever see the bad in you but never the good and there is so much good."

He grabbed my hands and stood up pulling me up into a hug.

"I love you Rox."

"You put up with all my shit..it's not fair."

"That's what you do with someone you love. I'm always going to be here okay? For the long haul remember?"

"I love you Rome" I tightened my hold on him.

"Hey Roman?" I said after a few minutes of comfortable silence.

"What?"

"Tomorrow..talk to Jess, ask her about Brittney."

"What why?" he said looking down at me.

"Just some things she said to me today has me worried okay?"

"Okay I will."