"Because of the sensitivity of the mission, I can't bring in a psychiatrist. But I want to try something that will draw Vala's emotions out."
"What would that be Dr. Lam?" Asked Sam.
"I need Vala to confront all of you at the same time. You trusted Vala with your lives. Now you need to have Vala trust you with hers."
Dr. Lam wanted her session with Vala in comfortable surroundings. She used Daniel's home as a safe haven for Vala and one for all of SG1. Daniel had taken Vala home, still under light sedation and even made a separate bedroom ready for her, just in case she didn't want to share a bed with Daniel yet, due to her memory of being raped. While Vala was still asleep, Dr. Lam had arrived at the household early and soon after Daniel's friends joined them for breakfast. Dr. Lam wanted to set the mood and began to speak about what to expect.
"Thanks Daniel for the breakfast. I think we all really needed this before we begin."
"No problem Carolyn. What do we have to do to help Vala?" Asked Daniel.
"First I want to thank all of you for giving up your free time to do this. It's important that all of you understand that this is going to be very emotional for Vala, but more important she's going to pick up on you if you're feeling pity for her."
Sam interjected. "How are we to react if she rejects this type of emotional therapy?
"Indeed."
"Yeah Carolyn. How do we know what to say to her without upsetting her?" Stated Mitchell.
"That's what I wanted to speak to you about. Don't be afraid to share your experiences with her. It's going to be difficult for all of you. I mean really difficult. You have already seen her pain and suffering, but she has not seen yours. I'm asking you all to be honest with Vala. Reassure her with your own pain. Everything you say is off the record and confidential. No one is her to judge anyone, only self healing to her and you. But Vala needs to know that you are there for support not to let her relive her pain."
They all sat pensive, taking in what Carolyn was asking them to do. They had been thru to much with Vala and they didn't want to disappoint Carolyn or Daniel.
"Carolyn, what if she rejects all this and sinks deeper into depression?" Daniel was not sure what he wanted to say in the session.
"My experiences in these sessions are to help the victim. In turn others who support the victim also support themselves, and it becomes a healing process for everyone concerned."
"Well, I'm not going to lie guys. I'm………I'm scared for her." Said Daniel. "I want her to know she can say anything to me, whatever is bothering her, she can come to any of us. I……..I don't think she's ever had real friends in her life. I think seeing what we did, just made us feel more protective of her. I hope she realizes that."
"Then we are all in agreement." Stated Carolyn. "I want to get started as soon as possible. Daniel I think if you bring Vala something to eat and we sit with her; we can start. I don't want to give her an opportunity to deny she's in pain. She has to confront her self doubt and all of you about what she's feeling."
VALA'S BEDROOM
Vala was hearing voices again; Adria's, Kraco's and Ba'al's. She felt if she was being held down. Unable to move her body as if she was being pressed down, restrained.
No more games mother. Why did this prisoner want to kill you? Open your mind to me mother. I will no longer tolerate your resistance.
Open your mind, open your mind.
NO, Stop. Pain, pain. Noooooooooooo. You keep me from them. They need me. Stopppppppppp.
Stop resisting mother. Let me see through your eyes.
No, leave me alone. Nooooooooooo. Nooooooo, I can't, save them, save them. Too much, too much.
Stop resisting again mother. I only want the truth. Who is doing this to you? I need to know why. You are fighting me for no reason. What are you hiding?
Noooooooo. Please, no more. I must save them. The pain, please stop. Stopppppppp.
"YOU WILL NOT ESCAPE ME THIS TIME, SNAKE. I WILL CRUSH YOU."
That's right My Queen. Open your eyes to your Lord and Master.
Yes Vala, it's your faithful friends who want to you to come out and play. You do hear how anxious she wants to enter you; like I will soon. Yes, open your eyes and see what I have for you.
Then she could see faces. Faces of Sam, Teal'c, Mitchell and especially Daniel. She tried to shake the images, all of them. She didn't want this to happen. She didn't want anyone near her, it only caused her pain. The shame of being humiliated, the pain of someone hurting her friends. She couldn't bear the weight of it all anymore. Vala screamed out in her mind, only she didn't know it was her voice that everyone heard, loudly.
Daniel and his friends heard Vala scream. He immediately ran to her room. Dr. Lam ran behind him and they followed. Daniel opened the door and Vala's screams were one of terror. Daniel grabbed her in his arms and she struggled trying to break free. She was fighting him.
"Shhh, shhhhh. Vala? Vala; it's me, Daniel. I'm here, you're safe. We're at my house, our house. Your home baby. Shhh, shhh.
Vala immediately snapped out of her trance. She blinked several times and focused on everyone in the room. She pulled back from Daniel and put on a brave face.
"Why…..why is everyone here? Asked Vala, uncomfortable with everyone starring.
Daniel looked at Carolyn for answers. She had her bag with her and a sedative ready if Vala needed it.
"Why are you here Dr. Lam? I was in my roon. How did I get here? Where am I anyway?"
TBC
