Sorry this took so long! I wrote a chapter and my computer crashed completely erasing it and every other chapter and then I got writers block and apparently more people want a little more "sox" so i was taking that into consideration but next chapter I'm thinking of having a little more Jess in it visiting her mothers grave but I'm not sure so let me know if I should. Review please!:)
*Dean's POV*
True to our word Roman and I planned to take Seth out for drinks on his first night home to not only celebrate him winning the championship but to also to fix or at least try to mend our friendship. We figured we'd go grab a bite to eat and try to hash out everything there and then have fun getting drinks. WWE changed their schedule so wrestlers now had Thursday, Friday and Saturday off. So many wrestlers were getting injured and drained that they switched things around so they still did a lot of shows in a limited time but got more days to rest. Roman and I were taking him out Thursday when he got in since he was getting in, in the evening and Rox would hang out with him tomorrow a bit alone since those two were completely okay we didn't want to bring her along while we tried to fix everything and she wanted to spend some time with him since she felt like she was being a bad friend or whatever.
We told Rox and Jessica goodbye and left to go pick Seth up at the airport.
"I don't know what to say to him man." I said as we got closer to the airport, Roman driving.
"That you're sorry." Roman said checking his blind spot and switching lanes.
"But I don't know if I am."
"Why?"
"It's like Rox. I meant what I said."
"Then apologize for how you said." he shrugged.
"Are you even into trying to fix this?" I asked glancing at him, then back out the window.
"Yeah I am. I'd rather just squash it and act like it didn't happen then actually sit down and talk about it though."
"I fucking hear ya. I don't want to have a heart to heart. That shit's not me."
"Well...get over it Ambrose." Roman said pulling into a parking spot and checking the time.
Seth landed half an hour later and we were driving back to Roman's so Seth could drop his stuff off. Since everything happened at his house he just sold it and forgot about it. Roman's house was big enough for all of us for now so we didn't worry about it.
We pulled into the drive way and Seth got out and grabbed his stuff to walk it in the house while Roman and I stayed in the car.
"This is awkward." I spoke up.
"Stop making it awkward then."
"Dude seriously? You're telling me you don't feel the tension?" I asked looking over at Roman.
"I do but ignore it. Noticing it only makes it worse."
"Fine. Where are we going to eat anyway?"
"That resturant near the beach. There's an outdoor patio you can ask to sit at so I figure it's a lil more private to talk, then we'll go to that one club you always go to and just have some drinks."
I nodded my head and looked back to see if Seth was coming back yet. I looked in the big window and saw Seth and Rox hugging tightly.
"Are those two a little too close to you or is it just me?" Roman asked me raising an eyebrow.
"I don't know man, they did only have each other but I don't think anything of it." I shrugged. Roman just nodded as Seth finally walked back to the car and got in.
We drove in silence to the resturant Roman told me about. He requested a table outside and it was more private but not completely. It was a big space with only a few table out there but with enough distance between them to have a private conversation. The waiter came over and we all ordered beer.
"So.." Seth trailed off taking a drink of his beer.
"Obviously we're all fucking awkward with these type of conversations with each other." I said.
"Oh well. We're having it." Roman spoke up as the waiter came over and took our order for food.
"Fine. I'm not sorry for what I said about you two doing more. I meant it. I think you could have. I'm sorry for the way I said it and worded it. I wasn't blaming you guys for what happened. I just think maybe you could have done more. Happy?" I said looking over at Roman.
"See Ambrose that's not a fucking sorry to me. Whether you meant it or not I don't care about. Don't tell me you're sorry then give me excuses on why what you did was okay. The bottom line is you can preach all day everyday til you're blue in the face about how we could have done more, what you can't do is imagine and put yourself in that position. Common sense leaves in that situation alright?" Seth said raising his voice and clenching his fists.
"Guys come on. Look Dean and I fucked up. Regardless of how we felt, kicking you and Rox out was a mistake. Neither of you did anything to Britt and for me to blame you was wrong and I do apologize for that." Roman said then looked at me. I inwardly groaned then looked at Seth.
"You know shit like this is not easy for me. But I am sorry for how all this shit went down alright? I know a lot of shit happened and a lot has changed but at the end of the day I'm always going to see you as a brother, we've traveled too many roads together, too many miles, been through too much shit to just be like peace out."
Seth stayed quiet and took a few swigs of beer before taking a deep breath.
"You're right Dean. We have been through a lot of stuff together. All three of us." he said looking towards Roman, "the way you two treated me though was absoulte bull shit. I'm willing to try to put it behind us though. I'm not saying we're going to be close right away or even again but we can try. So let's just squash this shit, it's in the past, we'll move on and not bring it up again." he said putting his fist out in the middle of the table where Roman and I joined and all put our fists together. Just like old times in the shield in the ring. Damn I missed being in the ring.
*Seth's POV*
We were at the club in our own section. They gave us a VIP section since they knew us. Being a WWE superstar definitely had it's perks I left the section to go get us some more drinks. I really only agreed to meet with Roman and Dean and talk about everything because of Rox. I know how much it bugged her that we were on the outs and I hated the idea of her being stressed or upset so I agreed. In all honesty I'm glad I did. I have missed Dean and Roman and at the club it was just like old times. Jokes, stories and just having a good time. It was nice to not feel so alone anymore.
I reached the bar and ordered our drinks. As I was waiting for the drinks I took out my phone and texted Rox to let her know everything was fine and we'd be home late tonight.
"I'm so glad! Have fun Boo. Stay outta trouble you three ;)"
She texted back. Lately she had been calling me boo. The first time she did it took me by surprise and I read into it but then I noticed she had a nickname for everyone, boo was just mine. I sighed and slipped my phone back into my pocket and grabbed our drinks heading back to the VIP section.
*Roman's POV*
We got back home around 3 am. Dean and Seth far more drunk than I was considering I was the driver. We stumbled into the house as quietly as we could to not wake Jess or Rox. I walked into the bedroom and saw Rox lying in bed watching Law and Order SVU.
"Hey babe." she said.
"Hey beautiful lady in my bed." I winked. She just chuckled and went back to watching TV as I went into the bathroom to brush my teeth and change.
I came back out and plopped down on top of her.
"Ugh Roman get yo fat ass off of me."
"I'm not fat!" I said faking offended.
"You gonna crush me." she whined. I groaned and rolled over onto my back. She moved to lay on top of me with her chin on my chest looking up at me.
"So how was your night?" she said running her hand through my hair.
"Like old times." I said.
"About time. You three are the most stubborn people ever."
"Yet you love all three of us so it can't be that bad a trait."
"I do." she said leaning up and giving me a peck on the lips.
"Have I officially won you back?" I said resting one of my hands on the small of her back.
"I don't know." she said looking down.
"Why not?"
"Because...you hurt me a lot and yeah you've made me feel special and better but I'm just not sure it's been enough yet.. but at the same time, I love being with you so I'm torn."
"If you love being with me how can you be that torn babe?"
"Because you scare me now."
"How?"
"I'm afraid something bad will happen and you'll throw me away again, I'm afraid of opening up and giving you my all to be left out in the cold again. I'm afraid of.." she trailed off getting off of me and laying on her back next to me. I rolled on my side and held my head up with my hand.
"Afraid of what?" I asked pushing her hair out of her face.
"Walking in to see you with another girl again." she said looking at me. I immeditely dropped my head and sighed.
"And I hate that.. I used to think no matter what happened between us that's one thing I would never have to worry about with you and now I do. I love being with you and being in your arms and kissing you but that fear is still so there and fresh and I don't trust you and I don't want to get with you officially and not trust you. I don't want to give you the power to crush me again like that and if we're not official and you hook up with someone I can't technically be mad or hurt or betrayed. It's safer for me."
"Rox...I was in a bad place and was an ass hole but it won't happen again."
"See, I hear you say it and looking at your face I know you mean it but it doesn't change it because when I'm not with you I'm terrified it's going to happen again. When you went out tonight I was so scared you hooked up with someone. I can't be in a relationship like that. Just give me more time, or we can just stop but I'm not ready to give you what you want Roman."
"I fucked up and I own up to that so I'll give you more time. I'm not going anywhere. I'll always wait." I said leaning over and kissing her cheek.
"Let's go to bed." she said turning off the tv and turning on her side. Her back facing me.
*Rox's POV*
The next morning I slept in while Roman got up with Jess and made her breakfast and started with her school work. I walked to Seth's room at 11:30 and knocked.
"Come in." I heard his groggy voice say.
"Hey boo." I said walking in and shutting the door behind me, sitting on the edge of his bed. He sat up and rubbed his eyes.
"What time is it?"
"11:30 I wanted to know if you wanted to go to lunch with me." I smiled.
"Of course." he smiled back.
"Okay, I'll go take a shower and get ready and we can go."
"Yeah no problem. I'm going to take a shower too."
I nodded my head and walked back to Roman's bed room and got in the shower.
I got out and put on black shorts, blue vans and a blue strapless top on and put my hair in a bun and walked downstairs to wait for Seth.
"Want some lunch Rox?" Dean said walking into the living room from the kitchen with a drink for Jessica.
"No I'm going with Seth, remember?"
"Oh yeah."As if on cue Seth walked down the stairs in those damn skinny jeans of his and a plain black t shirt.
"Ready to go?" he asked.
"Yup." I said grabbing my cell phone, keys and debit card.
I drove us to a resturant a lil bit aways so there wasn't much people around.
"This is a nice private little place." Seth said taking off his sunglasses and he scooted into his booth.
"I figure with you still having a hetic schedule you would appreciate private." I replied sliding into the other side of the booth.
"That I do."
"By the way Seth."
"Yeah?"
"I'm so proud of you."
He got a huge grin on his face and I smiled. "Thanks girl!"
"You deserve it."
"I wish you could have been there though. The storyline would have played out and just been better if we didn't have to replace you with Paige."
"I wish too Seth." I said putting my hands on the table.
"I tried to explain the situation to Hunter."
"Really?"
"Yeah. He said he understood but it was still too risky for his liking. I'm sorry."
"It's fine Seth. Wrestling just wasn't meant to last that long for me." I shrugged taking a sip of my drink.
"What about training at Roman's dad's school?"
"Roman is actually going to start going on a couple days a week."
"What about you?"
"Nah. I made myself a promise. As long as Dean can't be involved in wrestling I won't either."
"That's not fair to you though."
"I just feel better that way. For him to watch his close friends do something he can't that he loves would kill him no matter how much he wont admit it. I see that emptiness in his eyes when he watches wrestling you know? Besides that I feel like my passion isn't as strong anymore. Maybe in a few years I can do some training and Dean can do promo class or something but as for right now I'm content watching my best friend live his dream while sitting at home. It's so peaceful I love it."
"Yeah I get that. I must admit I love the peacefullness. I'm happy WWE is giving us more days off now."
"I bet. Instead of hopefully one day off you for sure always get three. That's great."
"Yeah we still have to put on multiple shows a day to keep the amount of shows the same but having more days off makes me feel more rested and ready to go. Like it's adding years to my career."
"I was actually thinking of something."
"What's that?"
"Well...since you do only work 4 days now maybe sometimes we can all travel with you. Like good old times just adding Jess to the mix. It's not like she'd be on the road with the hectic schedule because her dad wouldn't have it so it would be more relaxed like a vacation. You get to live your dream, we get to watch."
"That would be awesome." he smiled.
"Good. I'm like 100% sure Dean and Roman will be down for it."
"What about Jess?"
"She's asked me if she can go one week. She misses you."
"Anytime you guys want to is fine with me."
"We can rent a bus it'll be easier." I suggested.
"Oh we will definitely do that. I like your idea."
"I want to make sure you know you're not alone Seth. Never."
He reached across the table and squeezed my hand when the waiter brought our food up and we dug in.
*Seth's POV*
We got back to Roman's around 5. After we went out to eat we went to a park and just hung out. We also went to an pet adoption center since Rox really wanted a dog and apparently so did Jess. When we got there I told them I was going to go for a walk and call my family up just to check in.
I walked a few blocks away and sat down in the grass calling up my older brother.
"Hey bro!" He greeted after only 2 rings.
"Hey man, how ya doing?"
"I'm doing great, just bought my first house, been seeing this girl for a while, got a raise life is great, how are you?"
"I wish I could say I'm doing that good."
"What's going on Seth? I heard you were the champion I expected more excitement."
"Work life is great, personal life not so much."
"Why's that? Talk to me."
I ran a hand through my hair. "Well you know everything about Rox." when I went back to WWE alone I had called him up filling him in on everything including me confessing my feelings.
"Yeah and?"
"Well I convinced myself it was just bullshit of only having each other ya know? Not real feelings but they are and it sucks. Her and Roman are still trying to fix everything, Roman and I fixed things we're all cool and friends again but these feelings are strong as hell man. I mean I feel alone now that she's not on the road with me and hearing her congratulate me just makes me feel way more proud than when I hear it from anyone else, and just hanging out with her it's like time flies and i have a great time each time. I love everything about her but I can't I need to respect her and Roman. They've been through hell and high water for each other and I'm not going to do anything to mess that up. I care about Roman and I care way too much about Rox to try it."
"I get the loyalty Seth but did Roman have any to you or hell to her? You were there for her when Roman wasn't. If they're still not together maybe there's a reason. Maybe they aren't meant to be."
"So what do I do man?"
"Wait it out. You have other options of course but that's my suggestion. You just made things right with Roman you don't want more drama. Just be there for her like you were before Roman will mess up again, it seems that's what he does and just be there to pick up the pieces again. Just don't wait until she's in shock to let her know."
"Is it wrong though? I feel like I'm scheaming to steal a friends girl."
"I'm not saying steal her Seth I'm saying be there for her. When the time's right you can tell her that's up to you but right now be there for her. If she needs to vent about Roman or anythingn be the friend you have been being to her it might lead to something it might not but at least you won't feel guilty for doing anything to mess with her and Roman okay? Maybe she's not sure if she truly wants Roman and that's why they're not together. Maybe she's there for Jessica. There's more to it than you see but adding pressure to her will do you no favors."
"It fucking sucks though."
"It always sucks having feelings for someone who is trying with someone else but if you can stand there and be there for her in that situation she'll know you're truly there."
"Yeah I guess you're right. Thanks"
"No problem Seth. You need to come visit us more though ass hole. I have to go though I have a date alright? Let me know if you need anything."
"Alright bye." I hung up the phone and looked out at the view in front of me.
I know Rox loves Roman I'm not stupid and I wouldn't do anything t hurt either one of them on purpose but maybe my bro is right maybe if Roman will mess it up himself and I can help her. Either way the feeings were hard to ignore but I'd do it to avoid hurting her.