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*Roxs POV*

"Are you okay?" I asked rubbing my hand on Roman's leg. We've been on the tour bus for a few hours now and Roman has been pretty silent. He only talked to Jess and she's since went to bed and he hasn't said a word.

"I'm going to bed." he said standing up walking to the bedroom in the back of the bus.

"Do you know what's wrong with him?" I asked Seth and Dean.

"Nope." Dean said.

"No I don't."

I sighed and looked back at the door Roman walked through.

"I'll be right back." I said before getting up and walking into the room. Roman was lying on his stomach, his face buried in the bed.

"Rome, talk to me. What's going on in that mind of yours?" I sat down beside him and put my hand on his lower back.

"You really haven't noticed it?" he said his voice muffled.

"Noticed what?"

"The way he looks at you, the way he acts around you."

"Who?"

"Seth." he said moving away from me.

"What are you talking about Roman?"

"Seth likes you. I don't mean in this friendly bull shit way he's trying to make it seem."

"No he doesn't."

"Yes he does! You must be blind if you can't see it." he said glaring over to me.

"Maybe you're just seeing things." I scoffed putting my hands in my lap.

"Right. It's always me."

"I didn't say that."

"No but it's my fault we broke up. It's my fault you two got close. It's my fault you can't just be with me. It's me seeing things? No possible way I could be right huh?" he rolled his eyes.

"Those have nothing to do with this Seth thing Roman."

"Yes it does! Oh my God Rox how do you not see how they connect?"

"Because there's nothing to connect! Seth doesn't like me that has nothing to do with you cheating on me."

"I'm so sick of that. Let's make something clear alright? I fucked up and slept with another girl, yes, but I never did and never would cheat on you! So stop trying to accuse me of that bull shit. Hell the whole reason you probably don't want to actually be official is for Seth! When he finally admits his feelings you can go running into his arms and I'm just here to keep your bed warm til that happens!"

"Are you kidding me?!" I stood up and yelled.

"No! I never cheated on you but you want to continue to use this no trust bs excuse. Yeah I hurt you but you act like I lied and cheated and all this other shit. I'm so sick of being treated like I did something other than what I did! So come on with your next excuse cause this one is real fucking old."

"It's not an excuse, it's the truth!"

"The fuck it is! Admit the real truth. Go ahead! You want Seth too and I'm just here til you get that."

"That's not true Roman!"

"You're just like Brittney!"

"Excuse me?" I scoffed and looked at him with wide eyes.

"You act like you accepted me how I was but you didn't. You held everything wrong I did against me. You put me on this unrealitic pedistal so when I failed it gave you an excuse to leave and find someone else. Nothing I do to fix everything is enough. No body cares about how I feel. I'm not good enough for anything." his voice was so low and shaky that my anger immeditely disappeared.

"You are good enough Roman that's not it.." i said moving closer to the bed, finally not screaming.

"She left me for Aaron. It's only a matter of time before you leave me for Seth. I made mistakes but I didn't mean to hurt you. I never meant to hurt her. I never meant to do any of this.." he whispered letting out a deep breath. I sensed there was more to what he was saying. i sat down next to him and put my hand on his arm. "I'm so sick of never being enough. I'm sick of no one accepting me how I am. No one loves me for who I am and I'm just.. I'm.." he stopped and put his face in his hands.

"I love you how you are Roman."

"You don't even want to be with me. You go to Seth and Dean first. You look more comfortable around them.. Let's be honest. You're sticking around for Jess." his voice was shaky like he was on the verge of tears.

"If I didn't want to be here I wouldn't be Roman."

"Yeah you would. For Jess."

"I came around for Jess before. When we weren't even on speaking terms. I'm here because of you Roman."

"Why? So you can hate me? So you can throw all my mistakes in my face? I get it, I messed up but I wasn't in the right state of mind. NO ONE EVER THINKS ABOUT THAT!" He suddenly yelled. I jumped and he got up from the bed pacing back and forth. "I lost my first love! I lost my ex fiancee! I lost the girl I spent 10 years with! I lost the mother of my child! In the most brutal way! I lost my best friend! I lost my girl friend! I had to be strong while planning a funeral! While holding Jessica every night when she cried! I had to be strong for everyone else because no one was strong and there for me! So yes I fucked a girl to get my mind off of you, for one night! I'm sorry okay! No one ever fucking asks me how I feel! I was expecting to have this girl in my life for the rest of my life because of Jessica! I was expecting to see her wedding dress shopping with Jessica one day! To be holding our grandchild one day! She eventually would have got her shit together and been there for Jessica. This girl I've known since I was 19 who I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with was gone! The girl who made me happier than everything wasn't there for me when I needed her! And that's my fault too! I pushed you away but I needed you more than anything! I'm a giant fuck up and I'm scared to death to fuck up with Jessica because it's all I seem to be good at!" He stopped facing the wall and I saw him shaking and heard light sobs escape him. "No one cares about that though. No one asks how I'm doing. No one wants to see my side of things.. If I thought there was a chance we were going to work things out I never would have took her home. We were over. I never cheated and I never would. You should know me better than anyone to know in the right state of mind I wouldn't have done that. No one knows how I felt, and I hope none of you ever have to feel like this. You don't know how hard it is to become a single father. To have to tell your child her mother is gone. To explain all that to her. There's no 'how to' book. You can't imagine my feelings in that time. None of you even tried. You all just looked at what I did. No one cares enough to try to put themselves in my shoes." He turned around and leaned on the wall staring at me. "I love you so much. I pay attention to you so much. So don't you dare tell me I'm imagining things when I see another guy look at you the same way I do. He's simple. He gets you. He won't cause you pain. He's everything I'm not for you. And.. I know he'll always win.." Roman pushed himself off the wall and walked into Jessica's room.

I sat on the bed quietly in shock for a few minutes before getting up and walking over to the door to open it. But it was locked. I hit the wall and laid down flat on my back on the bed. I felt like shit. Roman was in so much pain emotionally and I was only thinking about how I felt. I never did ask him how he was doing. I never took into consideration the pain he must be in. I just wanted to hug him and tell him everything was going to be okay, that we would work this out but he locked me out. How could someone I love so much be in so much pain and I never knew..

*Seth's POV*

We heard yelling at sat there awkwardly not knowing what to say. When the yelling stopped me and Dean just stared at each other not knowing what to do. Hearing Roman actually yell like that is something I've never heard. You could hear the raw emotion in his voice and the pain he was feeling. Here I was wanting to take away the girl who could make him feel better. I ran my hands over my legs before standing up and knocking on the door. Rox opened the door and just stared at me.

"Are you okay?" she nodded.

"Do you want to talk?" she shook her head and went to close the door.

"Rox, let me be there for you." i said.

"This isn't a good time okay?" she shut the door in my face and I turned around seeing Dean just staring at me with a disapproving look.

"What?"

"You really think that was necessary?"

"Being there for a friend? Yeah." I said walking back over and sitting down across from him.

"You heard your name in that argument."

"So?"

"So you trying to go be a 'good friend' shouldn't have been done. That's not the way to get the relationship you want with her."

"Yeah like you know anything about relationships. When was the last time you were in one again?" I saw Dean tighten his jaw and stand up. "Dude I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that."

"Fuck you." Dean said and walked away.

*Dean's POV*

I walked in my room pissed. I was trying to be a good friend. I just wanted everything back to normal. Who the hell did Seth think he was? Yeah I haven't been in a relationship but.. i've dedicated all my time to wrestling. I thought I would have it forever. Some of us aren't as fortunate as him to not have our dream ripped away. Like I didn't know I was alone. Like I didn't know i've been alone for a long time and probably always would be. Fuck him for throwing it in my face. Fuck this stupid road trip, fuck Seth, fuck all of this. I just want to go back to Florida and tell Seth to shove it. I kicked off my shoes and laid in bed. This road trip was the dumbest idea we've ever had.

*Romans POV*

"I'm sorry for waking you baby girl." I said lying down next to Jess running a hand through her hair.

"You sounded mad." she whispered.

"I was."

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah. Are you?" she nodded her head and I kissed her on the forehead.

"Go to sleep okay?"

"Okay but daddy?"

"What is it?"

"I miss mommy." she said before crying. I felt my heart break. Every time she cried for Brittney it wasn't little cries, it was loud sobs. And I could never fix it for her. I pulled her closer to me and hugged her tightly.

"I know baby.. i know. She's watching over you right now okay? She's always with you. She's not phsycially here but she's in your heart. She loved you more than anything remember that." i felt her nod against my chest as she soaked my shirt. I tried my best to comfort her. This was not how I expected my life to turn out.

*Roxs POV*

The next day we got to the arena around 2. Everyone stayed in their rooms for the day until we got to the arena. We got out and it was extremely silent between all of us. I know what the tension Roman and Seth was about. The tension between me and Roman and me and Seth but there was so much tension between Seth and Dean. They wouldn't even look at each other and I had no idea why. As soon as we got to the door I froze and looked at Dean since he was the only one it wasn't kind of awkward between.

"Do you think they'll be okay with me being here?" I whispered.

"Yeah why wouldn't they be?"

"They didn't want a murderer working with them they probably won't want one backstage..."

"It'll be fine okay?" he gave me a reassuring smile and I nodded my head and we walked backstage.

Almost instantly I saw Hunter and Stephanie and started internally panicking.

"Hello guys, and ladies." Hunter said smiling down at Jess.

"Hey boss." Seth said.

"Hello Rox." Stephanie said setting her gaze on me.

"Hello Stephanie." I said kind of quietly.

"Don't be shy Rox, it's okay that you're here." she replied, almost as if she read my mind.

"Yeah of course it is! We couldn't keep you employed but you're still welcomed backstage." Hunter smiled.

"Thanks." I smiled.

"We were actually hoping to find you three before the show. We heard you were traveling together and had a propositon." Hunter said.

"What's that?" Roman asked.

"Well with our newly crowned champion over here we were thinking of a little shield reunion for the night."

"I can't wrestle." Dean said looking disappointed.

"Oh we know, it's okay. We weren't expecting you to wrestle. What we were thinking is Seth is out there cutting a promo and suddenly the shield's music hits and you two come out from the audience. Dean will cut a promo congratulating him and hinting at Shield memories. Roman will eventually go to talk but Cena comes out and demands his rematch. Seth accepts and you all go backstage and do a segment where you say you'll be out there to support him. Seth will retain and Cena goes to attack but Roman will get the spear and Dean will do...well whatever Dean feels like doing at the time and then you can do the symbol of excellence. The fans have been saying since he won the title how badly they wanted you two to acknowledge it so we thought it would be perfect. Of course you'll be paid for it."

I saw Roman roll his eyes and grit his teeth. "Sounds good." he said.

"Great! We'll get everything ready." Stephanie said as her and Hunter walked off.

"It's going to be so awesome to be in front of that crowd again!" Dean said while doing a little dance.

"I like Uncle Dean's dance." Jess said then copied it.

"That's adorable!" I said.

"We're going to go see everyone." Roman said flatly and walked off with Jess. I looked after him and then back at Dean who gave me an apologetic smile.

"I'm going to go find my locker room." Seth said quietly and walked away.

"So what are you going to go do?" I asked looking at Dean.

"I figured I'd go sit in the crowds seats and watch as they set everything up. Come with me?" I nodded my head and followed him towards the set.

"It's pretty awkward today." I said after a while of silence. We were sitting in the highest seats watching as the put everything together.

"Yeah. We heard part of your fight with Roman last night."

"I'm a bitch right?"

"You both are right and wrong." he shrugged. "He wouldn't cheat on you though if that's what's holding you back."

"I don't know what's holding me back." I said putting my feet on the chair in front of me.

"Well figure it out and don't lead him on."

"I'm working on it."

It was quiet again and i saw him biting his nails every so often.

"What's up Ambrose?"

"With?"

"You. You're doing your nervous thing and you had tension between Seth. I noticed."

"Seth just said something last night that got me thinking."

"About?"

"Being alone."

I shifted my body so I was facing him. "What did he say?"

"Basically just pointed out how I haven't been in a relationship in a long time and i probably won't ever be."

"He said that?"

"Not in so many words."

"I thought you liked being single. What's the problem?" I asked him confused.

"I liked being single because it's easy. I spent all my time with wrestling that a relationship wasn't worth it. I liked not having that responsibility and being with random girls. I dedicated my life to wrestling and it got taken away and now I have nothing. I know I'm alone I don't need people to comment on it. I'm not good at relationships. My longest commitment was wrestling and even that ended." he joked "it was always wrestling for me. That's all I had and now that it's gone I have nothing."

"This isn't about relationships." I said, he looked at me and raised an eye brow. "Even if you had a girl would you be happy? No because you want wrestling. Sure the doctors said it's near impossible but it was near impossible for you to start.. we'll work out together we'll get you in the best shape and in Roman's dad's ring. You made a life out of proving people wrong. Do it again. I'll help you the best I can. All you need to do is decide to do it. There's no stopping Dean Ambrose when he has his mind to something. You can do this."

"Thanks for believing in me."

"Always. So...we're going to do this? We're going to get you to return?"

"There's gotta be a way right?" he smiled. I smiled back and we looked back down at the ring and got quiet.

"Watch out everybody.. Dean is coming back."