*Roxs POV*

The week on the bus felt like the longest week of my life. Something was bothering Dean so he was quiet. Roman was still quiet around both Seth and I. Seth and I barely talked and Jessica got sick. To say the least, when we got home I couldn't be more excited.

We all unpacked while Seth started his laundry then went out with some realtor to look at new houses for him. Roman didn't kick him out or anything but the tension between them was tangible.

"Hey Dean?" I asked while standing in the door way of his room.

"What's up Rox?"

"I have a favor to ask you."

"Shoot."

"Will you watch Jess tonight?"

"Uh..alone?"

"Please!"

"Why?"

"Because I feel horrible about everything that's happened with Roman. There's a cabin in the mountains and today's a big deal for whatever reason up there so there's going to be fire works and everything. So I was going to make dinner and desert for him and pack it in like a picnic and go up there and watch fire works with him and talk to him and just try to fix everything. We'll be back tomorrow. Please Dean."

"I guess...she can't be too much trouble alone right?"

"Right!" I smiled. "Thank you Dean."

"Yeah yeah. Go fix shit with your man."

I smiled and walked into the kitchen where Roman was making a snack for Jessica.

"Hey Rome."

"Hmm." He still wasn't really talking to me after his break down and it hurt.

"Pack a over night bag for tonight."

"What?"

"We're going somewhere. Dean will watch Jessica. We'll be home tomorrow."

"I don't know." he said pouring juice in a cup.

"Please.." I sighed.

"I'll think about it." He grabbed the plate with Jessica's snack, her drink and walked outside where she was playing.

I walked over to the door and grabbed some house keys and my sunglasses.

"Where you going?" I heard Dean say from the stair case.

"For a walk. I need to think about things."

"When are you going to pack for the Roman thing?" he asked walking closer to me.

"He doesn't know if he wants to go..I'll see you later." I said rushing out of the door and away from Dean.

*Dean's POV*

"Man what's going on?" I said walking outside, leaning against the sliding glass door.

"With?"

"Why don't you want to go with Rox."

"I don't know Dean."

"She's trying man. For once it's her putting in the effort."

"Every time I put in effort she would eventually shoot it down. Karma I guess." Roman shrugged.

"This is why relationships are so damn hard! Instead of getting over this pride shit everyone has to be like 'well you did it to me so i'm doing it to you'. Are you a child? You wanted her to try and now she's trying and you're going to shoot it down?" Roman stayed quiet. "Fine. But don't bitch when she doesn't try again. Don't bitch when she gets closer to another man who gives her the time of day when she's trying." I scoffed walking into the house and slamming the door.

*Rox's POV*

I came back to the house an hour later. I took a deep breath before opening the door. When I opened it I saw 2 suit cases sitting by the door. I looked at them, then up confused and saw Roman staring at me.

"What's this?" I asked pointing at the two suit cases.

"You want to try so,let's do it. I packed a bag for each of us."

I looked up at him skeptical.

"Dean told me how childish I was being. I can't tell you I want you to try and then shoot you down for trying so I'm sorry. I know I'm difficult and not really worth it but I'll work on it."

"You are worth it though." I said quietly. He gave me a small smile then turned to the side and called Jessica. Jessica came running up with Dean following.

"Rox and I are going to go out tonight. We'll be back tomorrow baby girl."

"Okay daddy." Roman bent down and gave her a tight hug and kiss on the forehead.

"Bye Rox."

"Bye Jess." i said giving her a small hug.

Roman and I went to leave when we heard Jessica's voice barely above a whisper.

"Are you okay?" Roman asked kneeling in front of her.

"Yeah I just wanted to know..if we..when you get back could we uh...can we go see mommy tomorrow?" she asked timidly.

I looked at Dean who was looking at the ground.

"We'll go see your mom tomorrow." Roman said pulling her into another hug.

Jessica nodded her head and grabbed Dean's hand and walked back towards the living room. Roman looked at me and I gave him a sympathetic look.

"I'm sorry. That's not how she should have to see her mom.." I said.

"It's not but we can't change it. I just wish I could." he said grabbing the bags and walking to my car.

Half way to the ride to the mountains Roman reached over and grabbed my hand while I was driving. We were silent the ride up there but it wasn't full of tension or awkwardness for once. Every once in a while I'd glance at Roman and saw the look on his face. I knew he was thinking about Jess and taking her to Britt's grave. It seemed like he wasn't ready to go there himself. I squeezed his hand and continued on the drive.

We pulled up to the cabin while it was still light outside. Right before the sun went down. Roman grabbed the bags and walked to the front door as I followed him with the keys.

"You don't have to take my bag, but thank you."

"You're welcome."

I let us in the house and he took the bags upstairs as I took the picnic basket out of my car. I had been hopeful and put it in there before Roman wasn't sure if he was going. Luckily. Roman walked back to me and stood in front of me.

"So what are we going to do?"

"Well.. I figured we could go complete movie scene and go to the look out mountain part and eat dinner and desert while the sun is setting. Today's some kinda big day for them here, so they're going to be setting off fire works and I thought we could watch that." I suddenly felt extremely nervous like he would think it was the dumbest plan ever.

"I like it. Should we head out now?" he asked raising an eye brow at me.

"Yeah." he nodded his head and pulled his hair into a low bun and walked over and held the door open for me.

We walked over to the look out part. It was covered in grass, with a few flowers, and trees blocking out everything to the sides of it.

"This isn't what I expected." I said as I sat the picnic basket down and pullled a blanket out of it.

"What were you expecting?" Roman questioned as hit sat down on the blanket.

"Dirt. I thought it was going to be lots of dirt."

"Makes sense." he said. I sat down next to him and pulled the basket to us.

"What did you make?"

"Keke- pu..keke. pua" I kept struggling with the word and felt myself blushing in embarrassment.

"keke-pua'a?" Roman smiled.

"Yeah! I remember the first year you and I were friends and you found out I was spending my Christmas alone since Dean was going with you and you invited me over to your house while Jess was with Britt and her parents and you made it for me. It was special because it was the first Christmas I wasn't really alone, or with just Dean. I called your mom earlier and asked for the recipe. I made cheese cake for desert though just in case this sucks we still have something to eat."

"I'm glad you remember that."

"I remember everything you've done for me. Even though I don't show it. I just wanted to remind you of that day."

"It was a great day." Roman smiled getting his plate set up with the keke-pua'a.

*Dean's POV*

"Alright! Let's get you to bed!" I said after Jessica ate.

"No."

"What do you mean no?"

"It's not my bed time."

"I'm the boss and I say it's your bed time little girl."

"No Uncle Dean I'M the boss and I say it's not my bed time big man." Jessica said crossing her arms in front of her chest. I stood taken aback for a second.

"Go to bed!" I said in a stern voice.

"NO!" She shouted back at me.

"If I give you an oreo will you go to bed?" it looked like she contemplated it for a second before she smirked.

"Two oreos and I might go to bed." Well..what did I have to lose. I handed her two oreos and as soon as she finished it I smiled.

"Time for bed."

"I said maybe."

"Jessica."

"Uncle Dean."

"Go to bed."

"You go to bed!"

"This is going to be a long night." I sighed falling back onto the couch.

"Yes it is." Jessica said running and jumping on me.

*Rox's POV*

"That was really good." Roman said sipping on his drink. He had wine while I was drinking a Pepsi.

"Are you just lying to make me feel good?"

"No babe, it was good." he laughed.

He laid down on his back and i laid down next to him with my head on his chest.

We stayed there in a comfortable silence until the fire works started.

"I love fire works. They're probably one of my favorite things." I said.

"Why's that?"

"Because they're so pretty."

"That's it? Your explanations are never that simple." he said raising his head a little bit.

"I just like how they light up the sky. It's completely dark and then they make it brighter and disappear. I like how different they are. I don't know it's stupid.."

"What's stupid?"

"I.. i just like that fireworks are so bright at night, they light up a big part of your sky. There's different types. It's like in the dark times, no matter how different you are, you can still shine and make someones night brighter.. told you it was stupid." i said sitting up and pulling my knees to my chest watching the fire works go off.

Roman sat up and put his head on my shoulder "I don't think it's stupid. I love how you can find little inspirational things, in simple things like that. People just view it as cool and you have a unique spin on how you view things. I absoultely love that about you."

He wrapped his arms around my mid section and I put my hands on top of his as we watched the fire works.

After the fireworks ended Roman and I sat out there a bit longer just enjoying each others presence before we walked in the house. We went into the bed room and laid down.

"Rome..."

"Yes?"

"We need to talk about everything. Actually talk about it. Not yell or fight or storm off. We need to sit down and get everything out in the open if this is going to work. Can we do that now plese?"

I heard Roman let out a big breath before he sat up and turn on the lamp on his side of the bed.

"Of course we can."

"I'll start. I know you needed me and I wasn't there. I thought I was doing what was right by leaving you alone, I mean we just broke up and had a huge fight and I thought trying to be there for you would have been pushing it, but I now know I should have. I had no idea you were holding so much pain inside of you and I hate myself for not seeing it. I hate me for not checking on you. Regardless of what you were going through you were there for my during my crazy stage of seeing dead people but I never put my shit aside to be there for you. I never thought about the history between you and Britt and how much it must hurt for her to be gone. I only thought about recent events and never took into account anything else. And I really am sorry for that."

"Rox, I understand. Don't hate yourself okay? There's nothing to hate yourself over. You don't deserve to hate yourself. What you were going through was pretty scary and I completely understand you not asking me. From your point of view it does make sense about your choices. I just broke down and took it out on you. I do that a lot and I get so pissed at myself every time. I ignored you all week because.. it hurt that you didn't ask but because of you and Seth.."

"What about us?"

"You two are so close. Before you two weren't even friends now you're best friends. You go to him for everything, feel comfortable with him and truly trust him and you don't trust me. I'm..this is hard for me to admit alright? I'm insecure. He is simple, he doesn't have any drama, he stood by you when I didn't, he's always there for you, he's perfect for you. He's everything I'm not for you and that scares me. When I saw how he looked at you, I shut down more because it was like I was slowly watching you slip away. Like I told you I watched as Britt slipped away and I'm terrified you'll do the same."

"You're right. Seth is simple. Going with him would probably be natural and easy."

Roman looked down and I put my hand under his chin forcing him to look at me. "But he's not you. I want you. It doesn't have to be easy. We'll fight and butt heads and hurt each other but at the end of the day when we needed each other we were there for each other. You're the only person I would really kill for. Seth is amazing and he's my best friend. I love him to death but I don't love him like I love you. I love you so much. I'm in love with you. Not Seth. I don't need easy Roman. I just need it to be worth it and my heart is telling me you're worth it, so I'm going to believe that."

"I don't deserve you Rox.. I really don't. You're amazing and I'm not even close to amazing but you are one of the best things to ever happen to me. I'm sorry for being so jealous but the thought of you with someone else kills me."

"Imagine how I felt seeing you with someone else." the picture of him and that girl flashed into my mind and i quickly shook my head.

"If there was a way I could take back what I did, I would in a heart beat. The look on your face... I can't even describe how I felt looking at you so hurt. I just know I never want to see that look on your face again.. that's also why I stopped talking to you this week. I saw how happy and at ease you were with Seth so I was trying to back off and it fucking sucked."

"I wasn't happy with Seth. You not talking to me hurt like hell. I didn't even talk to Seth this week. Seth and I will never be more than friends. I swear it. Stop trying to back off and let me decide what I want okay? I want you. I know I keep talking one step forward with you and ten steps back but it's because every time I get close to taking that next step, I hear you saying you regret meeting me, then seeing you with her and it brings all those feelings back and I push you away. I know it's not fair though Rome so I-"

"Rox stop." he interrupted me. "We both know it's fair. It's frustraiting but after everything I put you through.. it's more than fair. I deserve it."

"I don't want you to hurt me again..."

"I can't promise to never hurt you. That's unrealistic but I can promise, I will try to never hurt you again. I can promise I'll never be so stupid again. I will never make a mistake like that again. I know how lucky I am to even be sitting here with you right now and I will never do anything to screw it up."

"We've been through a lot of terrible shit lately.. Stuff we went through would have completely torn people apart but we're still here trying to fix it and I think that says a lot about our love so why don't we do something?" I asked hopeful

"What do you want to do?"

"Completely clean slate. We both forgive each other and will move on. No more holding back. No more steps backwards. We fix this for real. We don't hide things. We tell each other everything so there's less fights." I looked down "I want my Roman back.." I whispered.

"I want my Rox back." he said. I looked up and for the first time in a long time i could tell all of his defenses and guards were down. I could see all the emotion in his eyes.

"So we're going to do this for real this time? Moving on from everything?"

"Clean slate. No more past being brought up."

I grabbed his face and kissed him.

"I love you Roman." I said lying back down.

"I love you too Rox."

"Show me." I quietly, pulling him on top of me.