A/N: All characters belong to Stephenie Meyer

Big thanks to everyone that reviewed the last chapter. =) Also, thanks to those that have read the story so far and to my beta – JennBell. I hope you all are enjoying the story as much as I am writing it!! This chapter is shorter than the rest, I hope you don't mind. I want to write a BPOV next and I wanted them in separate chapters. Anyway, enjoy the chapter and let me know what you think.

Chapter 6

EPOV

I don't know how long I sat on my bed frozen staring up at her breasts.

Rose must have noticed something was not right. She stopped kissing me. "What's wrong Eddie?" She asked.

Fuck, I hate when she calls me Eddie.

I couldn't think straight. I gently pushed her off my lap and onto the bed next to me while I continued to look at her breasts.

"Is it because I gained a pound?" She sounded as though she was almost in tears. "Because I can lose it if you want."

What the fuck?!

"No!" My eyes shot back at her. Did she really think I cared about that? "You look perfect."

She looked at me completely confused. And I'm sure I had the same confused look on my face. "Then what is it?"

I shook my head.

"You don't want me?" There was so much agony in her voice.

I hated seeing her like that. Especially because I'm the one that caused it. I had never once in our almost 2 year relationship turned Rose down for sex. And didn't want to start now. But I had to.

"No. Rose, I really do want you." I told her while looking her straight in the eyes.

I think she took that as a sign that we were going to continue because she quickly sat back down on my lap. Her lips met mine again. She forcefully tried to part my lips with hers. I couldn't let it get this far again so I pulled my face away from her.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" She spat out at me while grabbing her shirt and putting it back on.

I didn't waste any time putting my shirt back on either. "I just…" I paused not knowing how to turn her down without hurting her feelings. Realizing there was no way to do that I continued. "…I'm not in the mood."

She glared at me. I could see the hurt and pain in her eyes. "You're saying I don't turn you on anymore?"

How could she even think that!

"No!" I practically yelled at her. "You do… turn me on."

I couldn't believe we were even having this conversation.

"Why?" She quietly began, "Why are you denying me?"

I ran my hands threw my hair. I didn't even know what to say. And there was no way I was about to tell her the truth. "I just…"

Fuck, what do I say to her?

I sighed heavily. "I have a lot on my mind."

It was silent for a few minutes. I didn't even dare look up at her. I'm sure if I did I would have just given in. I also didn't want to see the hurt I had caused her.

She finally broke the silence. "I'm not on your mind?"

I rolled my eyes. She was acting overdramatic.

I scooted closer to her. "You're always on my mind." It was the truth.

"I just don't understand." She whispered as I started to rub her back.

Believe me, I don't understand either.

I didn't say anything. There was nothing I could say to make her feel better.

I continued to rub her back while she sat there staring at the floor. I don't know how long this went on for but I do know my arm was starting to kill me. "Can you take me home?" She finally asked. I nodded.

She grabbed her stuff and I lead her out of the house. Once we reached my car I opened the door for her. She got in without saying anything. I walked over to the driver side and plopped down on the seat. I quickly drove over to Rose's house. It was completely silent the entire way.

I pulled into her drive way and got out of the car to walk her to the front door. I could tell she was still upset with me. Hell, I was still upset with myself. "I love you" I told her as we reached the front porch.

She gave me a half smile. "I love you too." Then she walked into her house leaving me standing there without a kiss or even a hug.

She was mad.

On the drive back to my house I decided to call the one and only person that could possibly help me sort my feelings out. Alice. She agreed to meet me at my house.

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Once I reached my house I noticed Alice wasn't there yet. I sat in my car waiting for her.

I still had no idea what I was going to say to Alice when she finally got here. I wanted to tell her the truth, whatever the truth was.

The problem was everything didn't make sense anymore.

One minute Rose and I were kissing on my bed and the next I was pushing her away. And in that moment all I could think about was Bella.

It wasn't like I expected Rose to be wearing the same bra or even color because she wasn't. So why Bella appeared in my mind at that particular moment was beyond me.

But I knew it had to stop. It wouldn't be fair to Rose if I continued while thinking about another girl. Rose deserved better than that.

And as much as I wanted to be honest with her I couldn't. It would hurt her even more and I wasn't about to do that.

Just then Alice knocked on my car window interrupting my thoughts.

I unlocked the doors and she jumped into the front passenger side seat.

She gave me an apologetic smile. Alice could always tell when something was wrong which is why she's my best friend.

"What's wrong?" She quietly asked while grabbing my hand with hers.

I sat there in silence trying to gather my thoughts. I had to tell Alice everything. So I did just that. I told her about walking in on Bella dressing and even told her about the bra. She laughed. Then I explained about the car ride with Rose. Her laughing stopped. I proceeded with caution when telling her about Jasper and gym class. She looked a little upset. And I could only imagine what she would have looked like if I told her the whole Jasper dilemma. I briefly told her about my confrontation with Bella on the way home and ended my story with Rose in my room.

When I finished I looked up at her. She was staring at me.

Shit.

The story must have freaked her out or something.

"Do you like Bella?" She asked without breaking her gaze on me.

I snorted. "No."

Then her face looked a little puzzled. "No?" She questioned.

I thought about it for a minute.

No, I really don't like Bella. At least not the way Alice was implying.

I shook my head no.

"Well…" She began but paused. "…maybe you shouldn't be around Bella then."

I know.

But that's not possible.

"I know." I rested my head on the steering wheel. "But I don't know how that's even possible."

"Find someone else to drive her to school?" She asked.

My head popped up. I hadn't even thought about that. But who could I get to do that. I turned to face Alice. Maybe she could. "Will you?"

Alice began shaking her head no franticly. "I drive with Jasper."

Oh shit.

I completely forgot about that. That was the last thing I wanted.

"Then who?" I questioned. I wasn't even friends with any of her friends and don't even know who has a car or not.

Alice thought for a minute. "Mike Newton?"

I rolled my eyes at the sound of his name. He bothered the shit out of me. I only wanted to find another ride for Bella not torture her. "Why Mike?"

She began laughing. I lowered my brow at her. "Mike is in love with Bella!"

Huh?

"Really?" I asked. I never paid enough attention to Mike to even realize he had any feelings for her.

She laughed even louder. "We are all in the same biology class and you've never noticed Mike's persistent flirting attempts with Bella?"

No.

Then my mind wandered to biology class. Mike sat in front of us with Angela. Then it dawned on me. Mike turns around and tries to talk to Bella at least five times a day. "Oh."

She laughed again probably at the realization on my face that Mike likes Bella.

I really didn't like the idea of Mike driving Bella to and from school every day. Especially if he had a thing for her.

Don't ask why.

But it might be my only chance of getting my life back to normal. Well, at least my life in school. The cabin was a whole other problem. So I have to try. I nodded to myself. I was definitely going to bring it up to Bella on the way to school tomorrow.

I thanked Alice for her help. Then headed to bed with a plan.