Chapter 2: Depressed psychopath
Magnus woke up to his mother opening his door, She looked very upset. "Hun someone is on the phone for you". He could tell something was definitely wrong. "Hello" he said with a nervous pitch in the back of his throat. "It's Laurenda, Giovannas mother". Her voice was so thick with tears that Magnus had a hard time understanding her. She had a long pause. "Magnus... There is something I need to tell you. I don't know exactly how to say this but... Giovanna's dead. Her body was found in an alley this morning, near where that house party was." Magnus's heart dropped into the pit of his boiling stomach acid, tears rolled down his cheeks. "Laurenda I'm so sorry." Is all he could get himself to say. "I'm sorry for you too sweetie..I know she was your best friend." Magnus couldn't speak for a moment.. "Wha- what happened to her?" Magnus felt like he could barely breathe. "This is all my fault, If I was with her I could have stopped it." He though to himself. "Oh Magnus, honey. She was strangled and raped. " Magnus could hear her sobbing. "I'm so sorry Laurenda. I would say thank you for letting me know..but nobody wants news like this. Goodbye." The phone clicked. Magnus began repeatedly throwing things. He was just standing against the wall slowly hitting his forehead against it. "Why the hell didn't I just go with her". He thought. "God i'm a pitiful Idiot." He didn't go to school that day. He just sat in his dark room, his whole body was numb. He didn't move, he didn't eat, and he didn't talk. The day passed so slow. Magnus was always happy. He never really felt like this.
Magnus woke up feeling like his body was trying to shut down. He still felt horrible, but he got up and went to school anyways. As he walked into the high school he automatically regretted it. He ran into the bathroom, his heart was pounding. He sat in the corner of the boys bathroom for the first 4 hours of school. He just wanted to forget about everything for a moment. He reached into pocket and pulled out his wallet, as he reached inside the third card pouch he pulled out what revealed to be a razor blade. He began leaving numerous cuts down his arms, going a little deeper each time. He was sobbing uncontrollably, he put the razor down and threw is face into his hands pulling his knees to his chest.
Alec walked into the bathroom not knowing he was about to find his best friend in a corner hurting so much. He ran up to Magnus and fell to his knees, Oh my god Magnus! What have you done to yourself? What is wrong? "Gio- Giovanna's body was found in an alley yesterday morning. If only I had went with her...This would have never happened. It's all my fault Alexander. I knew I shouldn't have let her go to that stupid part alone!" Alec froze. "Magnus. I'm so sorry. I know she was your best friend but this isn't your fault. Nobody could have stopped this." Alec said getting a paper towel wet. "You can't be hurting yourself like this. I used to do this all the time. I almost died once. You have to stay here for me, I need you Magnus. You're my first friend i've made in this hellhole." Alec said while wiping the fresh cuts on Magnus's arms. Magnus sobbed, Grabbing Alexanders face and pulling it to his. Their hearts fell into the pit of their stomach's, both wondering if the other feels the same. As Magnus pulled Alexander a little closer his heart began to race, his vision went blurry, Everything went silent, with a small ringing in the background. It was like they were the only two left in the world. Their luscious lips touched. His vision came back, he began to hear again, And the ringing just kind of faded out. His heartbeat is becoming more even now. When they pulled their heads back it was like they were in slow motion. With their eyes focused on each other perfect cupids bow. Their lips quivering in such excitement.
They were both kind of unsure of what just happened. Magnus felt so much better "he only kissed back because he felt bad for me and it has to be that because Alexander is straight." Magnus thought to himself. They both walked out of the bathroom with their cheeks burning red. Both smiling like idiots but didn't let each other notice. "I can't go to class like this, everyone will stare at my arms." Said Magnus. "Take my sweater." Alexander insisted. They both took separate hallways because they didn't have the same class. As Alec was walking to his pre calculus class he was thinking to himself about everything that just happened. " He only kissed me because he needed the comfort. Plus he has no idea that i'm gay, Just play it cool. Everything will go back to normal now." But it didn't- both of them had to fight so hard to keep their feelings to themselves. Days passed and they were talking more and more, getting closer and closer. They even began sitting with each other at lunch. How perfect this is in this messed up world.