A/N: Ok maybe not what you were expecting but I hope you guys liked it. So anyways, I was watching Titanic and I realized that it was the kind of inspiration I was looking for, I hope you guys like the way I used it. And yes I know the title is very weird, this is mostly a filler chapter.
Chapter eight: Coldest Depths Make the Warmest Places Feel Cold
Kagome stepped slowly into the outdoor spring, the warmth making her toes tingle. Each step brought a new sigh of content from her soft mouth. She was finally alone and at the moment unafraid of everything. When finally the warm water was up to her waist Kagome dove into the clear water giving her body a flash of true warmth. Her hair floated around her, looking like a cloud of ink. Inside feelings bubbled up inside of her until she finally had to stand and let out a light joyous laugh. Happiness, true happiness. Kagome thought to herself as she lifted water in her hands and splashed it onto her face.
After feeling the ability to relax Kagome laid on top of the water and slowly sank, letting her body drift slowly downwards, watching the sky above her grew in distance away from her. I feel like I am in a shadowed form, watching life and wishing mine could be like that. Filled with freedom and happiness, true happiness, and of course love…What I would do for love.
It felt like spinning, around and around but you didn't get dizzy. You just watched the world behind the glassy water, her hair floating in the invisible current that moved in the very depths of the spring. Even my hair feels free. Something came into her line of vision behind the mirror, clouds and peace but…there was someone there also, someone staring at her through the mirror to the real world. Like an angel, but he was saying something, there was a scowl on his face as he reached through the surface, shattering her peace.
Kagome's eyes flew open as she opened her mouth to scream, water entered her lungs. When finally she was above the water her scream pierced the silence and she was dropped back into the water. Everything was so peaceful here. Her hair wrapped around her face again as darkness over came her. Silence, darkness, it was like she was dead. Dying was so much easier then living, there was less pain and less worry. Why couldn't she just stay here in her black abyss? Finally the coolness hit her once again but she did not scream. She felt tired and unable to lift her head.
"Breath miko, breathe…" The voice seemed to call to her, but her hair was in the way. She could not see anything. "Kagome, God dammit woman, breathe." There was a scream and the blackness started to shake. "Lady Kagome, please lady Kagome wake up!" Kagome wanted to scream, to tell them she was already awake, but her hair was in the way, and water was filling her mouth.
She wanted to lift her hands and brush away the darkness, but her hands wouldn't move, the water burned inside her lungs as her body felt like convulsing. A hoarse cough exited her throat as it lit a fire in her lungs, allowing it to follow up her throat and into her mouth.
Then there was a scream, then more coughing.
Sesshoumaru watched as he tilted the woman onto her side, encouraging her to cough. Water came out of her mouth in what seemed to be cupfuls. He didn't know why she did something so stupid.
When Kagome came to Sesshoumaru glared at her, Celene standing behind, being held by a demon Kagome had never seen before. Sesshoumaru stood and grabbed Kagome's wrist, dragging her with him. "Servant, stay here." He demanded as Celene tried to go after them.
Sesshoumaru hauled her up to his room, tugging her wrist as her naked body followed. Any demon guard that was caught staring Sesshoumaru made a mental note of. Before he knew it he couldn't remember all their names.
Once in Sesshoumaru's room where it was more private Sesshoumaru threw Kagome onto the bed. "Are you mental human?! What makes you think sleeping while in a hot spring is safe?" Sesshoumaru scowled as Kagome tried to cover her naked body. "Well answer me miko!"
Kagome glared back at the demon lord. "Not until I have some clothes." She said with a sharp edge to her voice. Kagome's face flared as he stared at her for a second, like he was only first realizing she was nude.
Sesshoumaru scowled. "This Sesshoumaru has better thing to look at then your body miko." Even with this said Sesshoumaru tossed her one of his haoris. "Do I have to save your life all the time?"
Kagome frowned and looked towards the floor. "I didn't ask to be saved...." she said quietly. "It just happened that way. I have never asked you to save me."
Sesshoumaru face hardened and walked over to her and grabbed her chin, forcing her to stare at him. "Do you want to die? Is that your wish, because I have had enough of you that I will fulfill that request, no questions asked."
Kagome blinked, her eyes filling with tears. "If you wanted me dead why didn't you just leave me!" she yelled, pushing him away and making her way to the door. "If I am such a problem for you then why didn't you just leave me for your brother?!"
He let Kagome walk away, listening to her weak footsteps walking away slowly. Sesshoumaru gripped the edge of his bed in frustration and threw it into the air, storming out of his room. "Clean that mess up!" He hollered at the closest servants. He followed the girl who was making her way down the hallway, angry and hurt deeply on the inside.
When he caught up with her he grabbed her wrist once again and ran into her room, shoving her against the door as it closed behind him. One hand flew to her throat, holding her there tightly. Kagome didn't even bat an eye lash. She stared at him with cold eyes and opened her mouth to speak. "Come on Sesshoumaru, kill me. Strangle me with your own hands so that you can get back at me for all the pain I have caused you."
Kiyoko had asked him to give up on her, but he refused, should he hurt this human in the same way? His hold tightened around her neck. His mind froze, wouldn't it be better to let her suffer the way she had made him suffer. His hand loosened.
"What is the matter Sesshoumaru, can you not kill me?" His hold tightened again as he leaned towards her.
"You will not tell me what I can and cannot do miko. I could kill you quicker then you can blink."
Kagome lifted her chin in denial. "Then why aren't I dead?" She blinked her eyes to show her resistance.
He didn't know why, was it her spirit or her denial towards him, something made his beast snap and break its restrains. His lips were upon hers before he knew what was happening. Her lips moved by themselves, parting so that their tongues could dance around in her mouth. He pushed his lips against hers harder, in a bruising fashion.
When they broke away Kagome stared into red eyes. She could feel his hands moving around on her body causing her to panic. Shakily she pointed her finger at his chest and fired her miko powers at him, knocking him shocked to the ground. His controlled side came to as he stared at the crying form in front of him. He couldn't really remember what had happened. Did I lose control that bad? Sesshoumaru sniffed his hands, smelling her on them. He wanted to stand and leave, but there was something about her shaking form.
"Why didn't you just leave me for your brother?" Her voice reminded him as he started to remember his hands touching her body, pushing her against her wall as kissing her. What have I done?
Kagome looked up for a spilt second to see the demon lord in pain, fighting with himself. He was in shock, scared of his own self. He's scared it will happen again…Slowly Kagome crawled to him, tears dripping off of her face and landing on the ground. "Sess-Sesshoumaru…" Kagome whispered. Her voice called to him and he looked up, hurt golden eyes hit her and she took a sharp breath.
"Kagome…" Mine!His beast screamed at him. Kagome dove into his mid section and wrapped her arms around his waist. Her tears came faster now. "Kagome?" he asked, more concerned now.
Kagome's body breathed rapidly, trying to speak. "I'm…so sorry…I didn't mean to hurt you." Sesshoumaru's eyes opened wider in shock. Hurt me? How does she think she hurt me…Images of him regaining control came to his mind. The small shock, it was what allowed me to get my control back.
He hugged her shaking body against him. He wanted to tell her not to be sorry, he wanted to say that she had helped him and if that ever happened again she was allowed to hurt him. "I am no better then my brother." Sesshoumaru whispered to himself. Kagome's sobbing stopped and looking up, staring into his eyes.
"No your not." Kagome whispered in her strongest voice. "You are nothing like your brother."
Sesshoumaru wanted to smile, but he just held her closer, gathering her up into his arms. He lifted her bridal style and carried her to her bed, placing her down softly. Once she was tucked in he turned to leave, only to be stopped by her soft hand on his arms. "Sesshoumaru, don't leave…please…just not yet?"
Sesshoumaru stopped and looked back at her. He had hurt her, caused her pain, and still she wanted him to stay. It is my fault she is hurt, so I guess I owe her this much. He reasoned with himself, lying on the opposite side of her.
"Sesshoumaru, what are you thinking?" Kagome asked shyly. Sesshoumaru stared at her, hesitant to tell her. He had never opened up to someone before. Kagome smile innocently. "I know you are thinking something. Your eyes always seem brighter when you want to know something."
Sesshoumaru held her chin, gazing into her eyes, staring into her soul. Hesitation took over him again, What if I do not like the answer she gives me? What if she tells me, it is because she loves him…What do I care, I do not care who she feels towards me. "Why am I different from my brother?"
Kagome was the first to pull away from the staring contest. She looked down, her cheeks red. So bright, even in the night you should see them shine. "Inuyasha had known that he was doing it, he only went into his demon side when I fought against him."
Sesshoumaru seethed at the information but continued to carry on conversation with the girl lying across from him. . "So why didn't you shock him like you did me?"
Kagome tried to smile, but the memories had taken over her mind. "I knew you could handle it. Inuyasha…I…I didn't want to hurt him…I don't want to hurt you."
Again Sesshoumaru moved her chin so she was forced to look into his eyes. "You never hurt me…You couldn't never hurt me. You Kagome, are so gentle." Kagome just nodded and avoided his gaze. "What do you want to know?" Kagome looked at him in shock. "You were avoiding me, you want to know something." Kagome nodded slowly, slightly surprised at how well he knew her. "Well ask it." He said, in a slightly colder voice.
Kagome shook her head. "It is not my place."
Sesshoumaru's gaze tore at her as she tried to pull away, but his gazed was hypnotic to her. "Kagome, ask me."
"HowdidKiyokodie?" She asked so quickly that Sesshoumaru had to break it down in his mind. When he did get it translated he froze, his cold exterior was put back into place. "You don't have to answer that." Kagome added sheepishly, trying to move away from him to avoid his wrath.
"She was sick…" His answer shocked Kagome, not the answer in itself, but the fact that he answered it at all. His focus withdrew as he remembered meeting the human. "I couldn't save her…no one could. "
Kagome nodded, trying to comfort herself more then anything. "Did…What are you scared of Sesshoumaru?"
The demons lord got off the bed and stood, ignoring her question. When he was at her door he stopped and looked back at her sad features. "Sleep Kagome. " He said softly, walking out of the door and closing it behind him. He leaned against the door, sighing softly to himself. "I'm afraid…of falling for you…Kagome…" He whispered, knowing she couldn't hear.
Kagome tried to smile, closing her eyes and releasing a deep breath. Your cold heart Sesshoumaru…it warms me.