All I really wanna do
Is to love you.
A kind more closer
Than friends use,
I still can't see it
After all we've been through.
And all I really want from
You is to feel me,
As the feeling inside
keeps building.
And I will find
a way to you
If it kills me,It might kill me.
If it Kills me – Jason Mraz (We sing, we dance, we steal things album).
White delicate snow flakes fell upon the grounds melting before even touching the ground. A feeling of excitment rose in the castle, the Yule Ball was only weeks away.
To Ginny, the Ball was like the snow storm that would arrive soon, it was something that was so close she just wanted to bury herself in her bed.
Ever since Cedric had became her honest friend, she had dreaded the Ball knowing she would say yes to anyone just to see how Cedric and Cho, the couple so perfect for each other, enjoyed what would definitley be a such romantic night.
Puaj!
Her dress was still in the wrapping that came with it when she bought it on the summer. When her mother had told her she was buying dress robes for her brothers because it came on the list of Howgarts she decided to spend what was needed for a decent dress, even if it meant to loose all of her all-life savings. There was no way she would dress like her mother "dressed" (if that's how it could be called). She just hoped that no one was stupid enough to ask her, then she would be forced to leave and could breath for the hollidays, right?
It was the last week of school, the list of the people staying in the castle was to be removed the next day and Ginny was starting to relax and to think of a good excuse to tell her mother why she hadn't stay "to be like a normal teenager" and why "she just couldn't get a date".
As any usual sautrday she had spent most of her time in bed reading, and only getting out of the Common Room to eat. She was dressed with a pair of old jeans and a light sweater to protect herself of the cold. She wasn't exactly thinking of going outside.
She was walking to the Great Hall to eat dinner when Cedric came with a great smile to her. Her heart skipped a beat. After all, it still stunned her how he alwasy seemed happy to see her. "Like seeing her would make his freaking day."
"Hey, Gin!" He said breathless grabbing her by the hand and pulling her away from the Hall. He was wearing a pair of blue, apparently new, jeans and a jacket of brown leather. Under it, Ginny could see a slightly tight green shirt that made the muscules in his chest to stand out.
"Hey! Ced, what's the matter? Where's the fi-" she was cut by Cedric.
"Nothing, nothing. Hey wanna have dinner outside?" He said, still with that strange smile.
"I... but... I was going to the Great Hall" She said perplex, looking at his gray eyes.
"Oh, believe me. You don't want to go to the Great Hall...actually, you wouldn't like being in the castle for a while." He said half-laughing.
"I..." But there was a strange urgency in Cedric's eyes that convinced her. "Ok".
Still holding her hand, Cedric headed toward the grounds without looking back. Once they were away from curious eyes she felt free to talk. The Beabouxton carriage was lighted a few yards from them. From behind the gray clouds, some of the spared twilight light could be seen.
"Ok, now. What's going on? Why are we outside so late? We could be found and put on detention. And you didn't even brought dinner!" She said exasperated. Well, she was hungry.
"Relax, won't you? It's not late, it's seven o'clock. Besides, I had to do some things first and couldn't wait to tell you. And believe me, dinner can wait".
He was silent for a second and suddenly he turned really serious. He sat and invited Ginny to sit next to him. Slowly she acommodated herself close enough to see his face at the moonlight that fall upon them from a small gap in the clouds. His eyes twinkled and looked silver gray, the corner of his mouth twitched a little and a light blush filled his cheeks.
He took a deep breath and looked like he was about to talk but something stopped him. He repeated it five times.
"Oh, just spit it out." Ginny said, a little nervous herself. She put her hand on top of his and retreated it quickly. They looked directly into each others eyes.
"Ok but, before you react, listen to me. Please Ginny, yes?" He looked at her and smiled a little.
"Fine." She said rolling her eyes and smiling a little bit.
"Look, I haven't told you this but it's really important now for you to understand.
"Since before the...well now for a while, things between Cho and me were getting rocky. And before you can start telling me how it's all supoussed to be your fault listen to me, even if anything had happened it would've end up eventually. Morgan has been going on about how she has changed me and, well, he's right. But, still, I'm glad that all this trouble happened because there's something I can tell now without feeling guilty.
"But before, I've gotta tell you. I broke up with Cho. It was meant to be Ginny! No, listen to me" he said before she could interrupt him. She had gone livid but he couldn't say if she was surprised, horrified or something else. "I told you I wouldn't finish it with her but, it was the best for both of us. I know she was also uncomnfortable, even if she started crying and yelling something about killing me...and you but-" This time Ginny interrupted him before and her voice was barely a whisper.
"What? But... Cedric!" Yes, she was outraged but something didn't made her feel as bad as the last time. Actually, she just felt a little scary about Cho wanting to kill her.
"Ginny, listen. I know it's not what you wanted me to do, but you can't deny me that there's...something between us."
There was an akward silence while Ginny realized how selfish she was being and how that beautiful boy with gray eyes had cheated her...again. Her eyes filled with tears.
"No, Ginny..." The smile had erased from his face. "Don't cry. What did I do wrong?"
Abruptly, her head snapped and looked at him fearsly. How he dare to even ask that?
"Are you serious?" she said a couple of octaves up "You said that...we were just friends. I believed you! I thought you were honest to me! I thought that I could really...trust you." Fat tears fall silent through her cheeks.
Thou know'st the mask of night is on my face,
Else would a maiden blush bepaint my cheek
For that which thou hast heard me speak to-night
Fain would I dwell on form, fain, fain deny
What I have spoke: but farewell compliment!
Dost thou love me? I know thou wilt say 'Ay,'
And I will take thy word: yet if thou swear'st,
Thou mayst prove false; at lovers' perjuries
Then say, Jove laughs. O gentle Romeo,
If thou dost love, pronounce it faithfully:
Or if thou think'st I am too quickly won,
I'll frown and be perverse an say thee nay,
So thou wilt woo; but else, not for the world.
In truth, fair Montague, I am too fond,
And therefore thou mayst think my 'havior light:
But trust me, gentleman, I'll prove more true
Than those that have more cunning to be strange.
I should have been more strange, I must confess,
But that thou overheard'st, ere I was ware,
My true love's passion: therefore pardon me,
And not impute this yielding to light love,
Which the dark night hath so discovered.
Rome and Juliet. Act II, Scene II. Capulet's Orchard (Juliet). Lines 85 – 106.
"Ugh!" She stood up but before she could walk she was pulled down again by Cedric.
He got closer to her.
"Don't cry." He said crooning, it sounded like he was singing a lullaby. Slowly, he cleaned her face with his fingers. Gently, he lifted her head just some inches so that he could looked directly into her light, caramel brown eyes. "I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry. I did lied when I told you we were just friends, but I didn't lied about being friends. I know that besides anything I feel you were always my friend it's just that... in some moment I fall in love with you. Since the beginning I thought you were nice and all that but, what I feel now is...undescribable
"Please, tell me if it's real. Tell me, don't you feel the same?" He kissed her cheek, close to the ear.
After a long pause, Ginny sighed. "You know, it's sometimes hard to stay mad at you." They both smiled a little."Ok, I'm going to tell you the truth. I'm not sure if I'm completely in love with you, but I can say that...I love you. Yes, I cannot think of you as just another friend but...what you did to Cho..."
They were still looking at each other.
"Look, I'll put it this way. You cannot have a relationship with someone when one of the two persons isn't comfortable with it, can you?"
"Ok...that's fair" She said smiling. " I suppose I can leave with that but..." She bit her lip.
"What?" He asked worried, his eyes huge as plates.
"Is she capable of killing me?"
He laughed, even harder than before.
"Mmm, I don't think so. See, she's not that smart." They both laughed.
After a long moment Cedric broke the silence.
"So...this is new. Since when did Ginny Weasley stopped being so selfless? I mean, it's not that I don't like a selfish person but...well it's a change."
"Ouch." She said, feining worriness "Since when Cedric Diggory, the selfless king, likes a selfish person?"
"You gotta be kidding. I mean, come on, Cho?"
"Mmm, again, fair enough" She laughed a little. "Ok, answering your question: I've already told you, I got tired of pleasing everybody. Now, I'll do what I wanna do, whenever I wanna do it.
"Besides, Cho is such a painted whore.
"Yes but," Cedric half-smiled "couldn't you think of that some weeks ago? And , of course, I mean of Cho being a painted whore."
She laughed lightly and he loved it, better than any music in the world.
They got even closer, looking directly into each others eyes. Somewhere close to them, probably in some tree, a cricket was singing. A soft wind played with Ginny's hair and made her shiver under the light, blue sweater.
"Wanna have my jacket?" He asked silently.
"That would be nice" She answered smiling, flushing a light pink.
He took off his leather jacket and for a moment Ginny was knock out by his stunning body. Slowly, she put it on, smelling the sweet natural scent of him. She grinned.
As if someone had called him, he turned to look to the sky. She followed his gaze and saw that the small gap in the clouds had grown and next to the moon some twinkling stars had appeared.
"Look over there," Cedric said pointing somewhere in the sky. "See the big shiny star and the kind of rectangle underneath it? It's called Lyre." He looked back at her face. She also turned after making sure she saw the constellation. She nodded. "It's original name is Lyra. Acording to the greek mitology, the lyre was invented by Hermes. Later it arrived to Apolo, who gave it away to his son, Orpheus. He played it so well that even Hades, the master of the death, was marveled. Orpheus, thanks to his singing, got the permission of him to go get his wife, Eurydice, of the world of the death and bring her back to life. But he had to promise that in his way back to the light he wouldn't turn and look at her. But he, so pained with longing, turned to look her face and lost her for a second time. Those stars are a reminder of that sad story.
"Ginny, I didn't wanted to loose you for a second time. That's why I waited a little more to talk to you." He looked her directly into her eyes and for a second she felt so self-conscious and overwhelmed she was afraid of fainting. "I can't bear to loose you, in no way possible, not again. The pain of it, will destroy me. The idea of not seeing your eyes again and not hearing your beautiful laughter is just...unbearable. There doesn't seem to be an universe in which there's no you... at least in my universe.
"Ginny, would you like to go to the ball with me?" He asked with a haf-smile. He was so nervous and she could notice it. Ginny wondered how she looked.
"Yes!" She almost yelled after a long moment. He let a laugh escape his mouth and in a sudden movement he was hugging her. She wrapped her arms around his neck and closed her eyes, recording the moment in her head forever and ever. He wrapped his arms around her waist and smelled her hair, still euphoric about her simple answer.
After a moment he unwrapped himself unwillingly.
"You should better go back to the castle. I'm sure you need to sign your name in the list of the ones staying, right?"
"He he he, kinda."
They both got up and looked at each other for another moment.
"Sorry about dinner, but I guess it's safe now to go to the Great Hall." He said smiling. She laughed.
"It's ok, I can ask my brothers for something to eat. They're always going to the kitchen to steal food but, is she serious about hurting me?" She said a little nervous. They started walking.
"Well, I don't know. If she hurt you it would be like admiting she lost. But, then, she can be really discret." He smiled unsure.
"You really know her."
"Yeah, well I was her victim." He smiled. They were quiet for a while.
He looked at her, she pretended not to notice it. Slowly, he grabbed her hand.
"This is nice." She said, looking at their hands together. "So, mr. Surprise, you like astronomy?"
"And mitology." He said smiling. "I'm not only a bubble-head, quidditch player."
They were silent for another moment when Ginny slowed her walk until they came to a halt in front of the doors.
"What will they say?" She said so low it seemed she was talking to herself. He squeezed her hand.
"Come on, don't worry about it. You shouldn't, you know why?"
"Why?"
"Because," he said kissing the hand he was holding "I'm with you."
She smiled and they both walked, through the doors and into the castle.
"[...][Cedric]'s going with Cho Chang."
Ron looked up.
"I asked her to go with me just now," Harry said dully "and she told me."
Ginny had suddenly stopped smiling.
J.K. Rowling – Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Chapter Twenty-two, The Unexpected Task. Page 399 U.S.A. paperback edition.)
They had separated after that blondie asked for a word with Ced, not without looking at their hands like it was being rude to her and when Ginny gave him his jacket she actually looked offended.
Her mind had wandered until she had found Ron in the floor looking like he might cry.
"Hey, Ron. What's the matter?" She said, suddenly worried.
"I don't know why I did it!" He turned to look at Ginny. "Why did I did it!?"
"I don't know what you're talking about!" She said.
"I...saw Fleur talking to that Diggory boy." Ginny supresed a growl and patted him in the back to continue, "And I just yelled to her if she wanted to go to the ball with me. She didn't even answer she just-" Ginny interrupted him and made him stand up.
"Come on, tell me the rest as we go back to the Common Room."
And as they walked, Ron told her everything. She had to fight a smile really hard, not only because of the whole story but because she knew Fleur had tried to make a move on Ced but Ced would never, ever return the "gesture" because he was hers. He was hers and it felt really good to see it like that.
They entered the barely crowded Common Room and she made him sit down. She continued to pat him while he moaned how his life was ruined.
Harry entered the room and, when Ginny saw him, was looking as if he might have just died.
"Hey Harry! Where were you?" Ginny asked.
"I went for a walk." He said sadly. "What's up, Ron?" He said joining them..
Ron looked up at Harry, a sort of blind horror in his face.
"Why did I do it?" he said wildy. "I don't know what made me do it!"
"He – er – just asked Fleur Delacour to go to the ball with him," Ginny answered, trying not to smile as her imagination run wild again, imagining how Cedric rejected Fleur. She patted again Ron's arm.
"You what?" said Harry.
"I don't know what made me do it!" Ron gasped again. "What was I playing at? There were people – all around – I've gone mad – everyone watching! I was just walking past her in the entrance hall – she was standing there talking to Diggory – and it sort of came over me – and I asked her!"
Ron moaned and put his face in his hands. He kept talking though the words barely distinguishable.
"She looked at me like I was a sea slug or something. Didn't even answer. And then – I dunno – I just sort of came to my senses and ran for it."
"She's part veela." Said Harry. "You were right – her grand-mother was one. It wasn't your fault, I bet you just walked past when she was turning on the old charm for Diggory" Ginny grinned a little at the thought of blondie trying to charm her Ced. Suddenly she thought of it. A part veela flirting with Cedric. Panic overwhelmed her. "And got a blast of it - but she was wasting her time. He's going with Cho Chang."
Ron looked up.
"I asked her to go with me some hours ago," Harry said dully, "and she told me."
Ginny had suddenly stopped smiling. Anger filled her.
Never trust a painted whore.
"No she's not." Ginny said fiercely.
"Yeah she is. She told me." Said Harry like she had said elephants were pink.
"No she's not!" She said even more angered, blushing angrily.
"How do you know?" Harry said suspiciously.
"This is mad," said Ron as if they hadn't spoken. "We're the only ones left who haven't got anyone – well, except Neville. Hey – guess who he asked? Hermione!"
"What?" said Harry, completely distracted by this startling news.
"Yeah, I know!" said Ron, some of the color coming back into his face as he started to laugh. "He told me after Potions! Said she's always been really nice, helping him out with the work and stuff – but she told him she was already going with someone. Ha! As if! She just didn't want to go with Neville...I mean, who would?"
"Oh! You two are real a–"
Just then Hermione climbed through the portait hole. Ginny quickly turned her back to the pair of them and looked franticly at Hermione trying to tell her she had something important to say.
"Why weren't you three at dinner?" she said walking toward them.
"Because – oh shut up laughing, you two – because they've both just been turned down by girls they asked to the ball!" said Ginny furiously.
"Thanks a bunch, Ginny," said Ron sourly. Ginny turned around to look at him and smile sardonically
"All the good-looking ones taken, Ron?" said Hermione loftily. "Eloise Midgen starting to look quite pretty now, is she? Well, I'm sure you'll find someone somewhere who'll have you."
Ron gaped at her
"Hermione, Neville's right – you are a girl...."
"Oh well spotted," she said acidly.
"Well – you can come with one of us!"
"No, I can't," snapped Hermione.
"Oh come on," he said impatienly, "we need partners, we're going to look really stupid if we haven't got any, everyone else has..."
"I can't come with you," said Hermione, now blushing. Ginny smiled, proud of her friend "because I'm already going with someone."
"No, you're not!" said Ron. "You just said that to get rid of Neville!"
"Oh did I?" said Hermione, and her eyes flashed dangerously. "just because it's taken you three years to notice, Ron, doesn't mean no one else has spotted I'm a girl!"
Ron gaped at her again and then grinned.
"Ok, ok. We know you're a girl," he said. "That do? Will you come now?"
"I've already told you!" Hermione bursted very angrily. "I'm going with someone else!" And she stormed off towards the girls' dormitories again.
You go girl!
"She's lying" said Ron flatly, watching her go.
"She's not," said Ginny quietly with that strange smile still in her face.
"Who is it then?" said Ron sharply.
"I'm not telling you, it's her business." said Ginny standing up to go and write her name in the list of the people staying.
Ron and Harry followed her curiosly.
"Ginny, you can go with Harry, and I'll just – "
"I can't" said Ginny calmly as she wrote her name in purple ink. "I'm going with – someone..."
"You have a date?" asked Harry with insulting incredulousy.
"Yes" She said turning to look at them and blushing with renewed anger. "I told you that Ced wasn't going with Cho..."
"But...are you saying you're going out with Cedric Diggory?" said Harry perplex.
Well, since Cho already wanted to kill her, it wouldn't hurt to kick her pride one more time.
Ron looked at her angrily.
"Well...yeah!" She said grinning at the pair of them. "Good to get that out! Now, if you excuse me I'm going to bed" After all that had happened that night she didn't felt hungry anymore.
"Wait! You come back here!" Ron yelled at her as she walked to her room. She turned and stuck her tongue out. Cedric would probably know how to defend himself from her brothers. She ran for her life and felt safe when she reached the last step.
"Hermione!"
"What!?" She said anoyed "Oh, sorry. I thought you were someone else." She said grinning apogetically.
"Hey, how's it going with Viktorrrrr?" Ginny said giggling.
"Oh shut it you!" She said smiling. "You know, I would have never thought someone that looked so sulky could be so...cute." Ginny giggled a little more and Hermione continued like there had been no interruption. "Besides, he's so smart and well...kinda hot if you look him closely."She said giggling now. But just then, Parvati and Lavender passed them and stared at Hermione, starting to whisper something that sounded like scandal.
"Come on Herms, let's go to my room. I'm almost sure my lovely roomies aren't home yet" she said smiling.
When they arrived the room was empty and they started chatting again as they sat in Ginny's bed.
"So...tell me, has someone asked the everyone-wants Ginny "god-she's-so-hot" Weasley?"
"Well, now that you say it...."
"Oh my god! Someone asked you!" She said literally jumping in bed.
"Well, yeah!"
Hermione gasped and her hands jumped to her mouth.
"Oh. My. God! Cedric asked you, didn't he?" she said smiling.
"My gosh! How do you do that? How come you always guess correctly!"
"I knew it! I knew it! And, for your information, I don't guess I watch." She said grinning really proud of herself. "So, how was it?"
"Well, I was going to have dinner when he stopped me and told me there was something really important and it was best not to go to the Great Hall at that moment. We went outside and he told me he broke up with Cho. I was really pissed off until he explained me that he couldn't have a relationship with someone he didn't love and, let's be fair, that's true.
"Then, we said something about Cho being a painted whore and then we were silent. It was beautiful, it was a silence that didn't need to be filled. Then a wind blowed and I shivered and he gave me his jacket and, oh my god! It smelled wonderfully!
"Then the sky cleared a little from the clouds and he turned to look at it. He showed me a constellation called Lyre or Lyra – "
"Oh, yes! And it's origin is told by two legends. One of it – "
"I was getting to that, thank you!" she said a little annoyed.
"Sorry" Hermione with a little smile.
"He told me of the legend of Orpheus and Eurydice. Then he said that he couldn't bear to loose me one more time and, oh Hermione, the way he said it! He said he couldn't live without me and then he asked me to go to the ball with him.
"I told him yes and well, we kinda hug but it was so...unbelievable. After an eternal moment we got up and went back to the castle chatting. And well, he grabbed my hand and when we entered, that blondie arrived and said 'she wanted to talk to 'im'" she said imitating Fleur's accent.
"And did he looked interested?" asked Hermione excited.
"Well...no. He was looking at me and said 'see you later, Gin'. It made her angry, that and the fact that I was wearing his jacket and we were holding hands." Ginny laughed. "But even though Harry said she was using the old charm on him, he's mine." She said, a twinkle in her eyes. "And he better didn't do anything" she said joking, but just then she realised that was a possibility.
"Relax" said Hermione hugging her "He loves you. I can tell by the way he looks at you, by the way he talks to you. It's unique love and it's all yours." She said smiling.
"Thanks."
Later, that night, Ginny dreamt of the Yule Ball.
The prettiest thing
I ever did see
Was lighting from the top of a cloud
Morning through the dark a million miles and hour
With somewhere to be
[...]
The prettiest thing
I ever did see
Was dusty as the handle on the door
Rusty as a nail stuck in the old pire floor,
Looks like home to me.
I'm dreamin' again
Like I've always been
And way down low
I'm thinkin' of the prettiest thing.
The Prettiest Thing- Norah Jones (Feels like home)
~*~
Yay! A nice, well-written chapter (in my opinion). First of all, I want to say that this chapter was written before last one and it still fitted exactly. Oh I love me!! LOL! So, I just wrote this foot-note to dedicate this chapter to two of the most beautiful persons in this world. Firstly, to my beautiful boyfriend (I don't care how cornie this sounds) who has given me two beautiful months. He's one of the greatest persons I have ever know and I love every part of him (hehehehe). This chapter was inspired in him...*blush*. Also, I want to dedicate this to my wife who is also one of the greatest person in earth, mars and the whole universe! I'm really sorry hon', honestly I couldn't read it. I really love you.
So, to the both of them let me tell you, as Paul McCartney said "A Love like ours, could never die".
Oh! Now that reminds me, my new favorite band of ALL TIMES is The Beatles! "YAAAY!!!!" No, really I'm crazy for them! Too bad they aren't any more but really if they were I would scream and cry and scream and cry again and scream "RINGO!" "JOHN!" "GEORGE!" "PAUL!"...hey, just and idea! LOL! So, it was just a random comment (if you see a lot of beatles songs from now on, don't worry, it's natural!)
Love,
Fer I Love Muffins Lovegood.
P.S. I'm not bisexual. It's just that I love my wife and my boyfriend and my husband and my two lovers and my other boyfriend....LOL!!! *too complicated* ¬¬