I'm listening to music right now as I realize that The Scientist and Tiny Vessels are two songs that would describe how Bella feels in this fanfic. The first song is by Coldplay and the second is by The Postal Service. Both amazing songs that bring tears to my eyes. Also I Remember by Damien Rice. Agh! I have an entire playlist, but I'll keep it to these three! REVIEW PLEASE!!!! I LOVE'th THY'th REVIEW'th!!! (Hee.) Oh, and in response to some e-mails, yes, Bella and Edward's reunion is coming close. Closer than you think. (Insert evil grin)

All characters and original books belong to none other than Stephenie Meyer.

BWAHAHAHAHA!!! I am enjoying this so much, my fingers are trembling to continue!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! (bouncing off walls with joy)

-L-

Bella

My breathing began to hasten as the atmosphere between us grew heavier and heavier by the moment. There were so many things I wanted to tell this little pixie of mine, but how would I say them? Would she even want to hear? Was she on Edward's side on the departure? How would I know? I didn't like the silence, but I couldn't bring myself to be the one to break it.

I could see Jasper's figure frozen far behind Alice. Did she know he was here?

"Don't you dare tell him." Alice spoke. I blinked in surprise. My breath caught in my chest. How I missed her voice. I hadn't even thought I'd missed this much. She turned around to face the slightly hidden Jasper. He looked at her with harsh eyes. "He deserves to know that she's not dead after what you two went through earlier." He retorted.

"Don't you dare!" I yelled. Alice turned to me in disbelief. I tried to look killer fierce, but it wasn't coming easily. Not even when I imagined a hunt. All I could think of was the angered voice of Edward, condemning me away from him once more. I couldn't bear it. Not now, when I was so close. Jasper stared at me. A low growl emanated from his stomach, something that would usually have made me duck back in fear. But unlike before, I could fight him now. Would I win? Most likely; no. But I could try. I tried to get that message across to him, but it wasn't me he listened to.

"Will you tell him sooner or later?" he asked, still looking at me, but the question was directed towards Alice. My gaze quickly parted from him, towards Alice. I waited anxiously for her reply.

"I don't know Jasper, but if you dare say a word-"she threatened, but he cut her off.

"Fine." Jasper huffed. He nodded towards me, his expression no longer cruel. "I'm…sorry." He said in a whisper. I don't know what he saw in my expression that made him falter his. "For what I did to you two. I'm…sorry." He finished before disappearing through the night.

Edward

The piano was almost as cold as me under my touch. My head was lying over the covered keyboard, trying to keep itself together as memories whooshed through me once again. Esme was sitting next to me, her head resting on my shoulders. She knew. Everyone knew. After Alice ran out, I was the only one they had left to ask. I still didn't feel prepared to speak, but I felt wrong in keeping it to myself even for another hour. I shut my eyes as Esme began to hum the song I had composed for Bella. I hummed along. Carlisle and Emmett were in the kitchen, contemplating on how to make it all better. That's what their thoughts said at least. But there was no way to better my situation. Even if there was, after betraying her like I did, I didn't deserve the easy way out. Rose was in her room, still cussing me off in her mind. It is indeed tragic how so many profanities can escape her lips in a matter of seconds. I hadn't even noticed that Jasper had gone after Alice in the end until I couldn't find his thoughts. I also noticed when I no longer felt at ease.

Right as I had begun to think on him, Jasper came in through the front door with a loud thud. It echoed on through the walls, resonating into all the rooms. We all perked up at the sight of him so flustered. His thoughts were a mess, too entwined for me to comprehend.

"Jasper, honey, what's the matter?" Esme asked, now right beside him, her arm wrapped around his shoulder. Jasper smiled at her, a sad kind of smile. He lifted his gaze towards me. His eyes melted with the obvious sorrow within him. I tried again to read into him, but he wouldn't allow it. He had become exceptionally good at blocking me out when it suited him.

"It's nothing, really. I'm fine." He stated, using his gift to calm himself. Carlisle stood, coming to stand by me. Emmett had already come by my side, only seconds before Carlisle.

"Is Alice still out there? Is that what this is about?" Emmett asked.

Rose was coming down the stairs slowly, listening in. Jasper made a frown, but that was all we got out of him. Even when I tried to pry in later on in the night, he gave nothing away.

Bella

"Who did it?" Alice asked.

We were sitting on the steps on the back porch to Charlie's house, gazing at the stars as I played with the fireflies that buzzed around us, as if they wanted to know as well. She was sitting on the top step, knees hugged to her chest. It reminded me of how I get at the thought of him. I was on the bottom step, also hugging my knees, but I was facing her. She wasn't even glancing at me as she spoke.

"Laurent." I said simply. I could hardly remember the encounter. All I could summon was the sun on my skin as I attempted to silence my screams. And his smile. That smile so cruel that never left his lips as he stayed for the first day of the transformation. I found out later that he never made it back to Denali. He had been slaughtered by some kind of wolf pack.

She flinched at his name. "How bad was it?" she asked sincerely.

I shrugged. "I don't like to think on it, but there was a lot of screaming. I think most of it was mine, if not all." I replied.

I didn't see her come up behind me. She was sitting herself right by me, in the same position as I. She faced me this time. "What do you mean? Was there someone with you?" she asked.

"Laurent stayed for the first day. He was… mocking me. He would lie next to me and thrash around, screaming, and pretending to cry." I whispered. She shut her eyes immediately. "He was killed here before making it back to Denali. Wolves or bears, I think. They were all over the place at the time."

"Let me see it." She replied after some time. I looked at her, not knowing what she meant.

"Bella, I haven't even known what happened to you since we left, and don't try to tell me that you haven't been blocking yourself." She scolded. I ducked my head a little. Should I let her? I didn't want to bear my past on her…but it felt as though this were the only moment I would have left with her. I may as well prolong it.

"But no scent." I conditioned. "I will not release my scent." I repeated. She cocked her head at me. "You still have your human scent?" she asked, baffled. I nodded.

I closed my eyes and concentrated on my barrier; unlocking the door to all my past and mind. Her eyes widened and I knew. She was getting all of it. All 98 years.

Edward

We were all in our separate bedrooms when Alice came in. I rushed down, Jasper being the only other who had gone down before me. She was in his arms, whispering too softly even for me to hear. Both of them had their minds blocked. Jasper's eyes widened at something she had said.

"What happened?" I asked.

Alice looked up at me from where I stood on the stairs. Her expression got even more sympathetic as she rushed towards me. I starred in shock as she wrapped her arms around me. She began to sob silent tears. What on earth happened to her?

I stroked her hair before parting her. "What happened, Alice? This isn't normal of you." I said softly, like handling a baby.

She removed her hands from her face. She gazed up at me again. She seemed to be listening to something inside her head before responding to my question. She smiled weakly as the words escaped her lips.

"You'll see. But be ready." She replied. "Be ready and don't react to strongly when you see…it." She warned. She gave me a peck on the cheek before she began to go up the stairs slow enough for me to think she was a human running up. I looked up at her.

'For once in a long time, Edward, you can actually look forward to school again.' She thought openly. After that, she closed up again. She had me worried now. About her and about what to expect today. After all, there was only two hours until school doors opened to all.