083. Angels. Castiel and humanity. 401 words
Castiel spends the first three million years of his existence watching. From the edge of Heaven he observes compassion, love, hope, anger, guilt. He observes humans tears and laughter and watches them bleed for nothing at all. He observes.
He does not understand.
He does not understands why any of his brothers and sisters would fall for the sake of emotion and the short ugly lives humans live.
(They say his favorite place to watch is the place where Michael once stood to watch the Morning Star fall. There is a warning in the words.)
Heaven buzzes with the news of the vessels being born and Castiel feels the weight of what is written on his shoulders everyday. The end of the world is nigh and God is absent.
When his superiors tell him to save Dean Winchester from Hell, he does so one of hundreds to try because Dean Winchester is significant. He is human. Flawed but when you take his soul in your hands and raise him from perdition you feel awe. Perhaps there is something to these creatures beside your Father's favor.
He calls you Cas. And drags you around with him. As you grow weaker the Winchesters grow stronger. This is written.
Perhaps this too is written. When Dean slings an arm around you, you smile pulling on Jimmy Novak's memories of how to make the muscles move. It feels uncomfortable on your borrowed face. When you and Sam trade lore and legend, he offers you little bits of humanity (anger and faith and love) in exchange for what must be, to a human, an eternity of stories. Sam teaches you contractions and Dean teaches you to swear and somewhere in between you think I can save them and realize there are emotions attached to the thought (grief and wonder and hope).
When you realize the angels also seek to release Lucifer you feel the changes they have wrought in you. You are angry (because god is gone and Dean and Sam are broken and the world is only worth saving because of two children screaming to the night that they can change the world).
This is when you Fall.
You do not regret anything.
You understand best of all His children. He gave you free will so you could hang yourselves. With Dean to your right and Sam to your left you don't mind one bit.