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Amanda couldn't help it, she was still surprised he was there.

On the way there she made sure no one was following her. His suitcase was packed. He put it in the car and she drove him to the safe house. She didn't drive straight there, even though she couldn't see anything suspicious she still had an uneasy feeling in the pit of her stomach.

They didn't say a word to each other during the ride. When they entered the house he looked around and she could tell he wanted to say something.

She suddenly felt a sense of sadness, she couldn't explain it, she didn't want to feel like this. Why did he come back? Why was she helping him? She could get in trouble, she could get Nick into trouble. Why couldn't he stay away?

Why did he have to leave without her?

She made her way back to Nick's apartment after telling her father she'll be back tomorrow. She had to figure out her next move but couldn't think straight.

She got back to Nick's house and he had the sweetest smile when he opened the door.

"I got you something while you were gone" he said.

"Yeah?"

"Here" he handed her a plastic bag "it's a disposable cell phone"

"Thank you" why didn't she think about it?

He looked at her as she placed the bag of the table. She looked at it and all of the sudden her expression changed and he could see tears in her eyes.

He walked over to her and embraced her as she cried without saying anything.

She calmed down after a little while, but didn't want to pull away yet.

"It's going to be fine" he whispered.

After they pulled away they tried watching something on TV but couldn't concentrate. They ended up in bed and this time Nick took his time and made sure to feel every inch of her under his mouth.

She fell asleep afterwards. He'd be proud of himself for exhausting her if he could be sure she was tired because of him and not because she was in this situation, he could see it was taking a toll on her.

But what else could he do to help?

She didn't sleep long. He watched her waking up and stretching a little.

"Good morning" he teased.

"Did I sleep that long?" she asked with a smile "you really wore me out" she mumbled as she turned around on her stomach.

He chuckled "it was my pleasure" he whispered close to her ear and let his hand rest on her exposed back "I'm available whenever you can't sleep"

"Good to know" she turned her face to him and he lay his head next to hers, they just looked at each other for a while, his hand still resting on her back.

"I should go" she whispered.

He really didn't want her to leave. He wanted to spend the rest of the day as close to her as possible. He had plans with Gil on Sunday and he was pretty sure he won't get a chance to see her again before they had to go back to work.

"Stay just a little longer" he gave her a peck on the lips.

They ended up staying in bed for about half an hour, just kissing and being close to each other. But she had to go. He watched her getting dressed and she gave him one last kiss before she left.

She wanted to drop by and give him the cell phone. It was a good thing Nick bought it. She said she'd be back tomorrow but decided not to wait. The apartment wasn't close to Nick's place but she thought it would be good to walk. Frannie liked long walks and so did Amanda.

He was surprised to see her.

"I brought you something" she said and handed him the bag "it's for emergencies"

"You got one too?"

"No, they can't trace it to you so I can just say it's a work thing or something"

"Well thank you"

"Yeah" she looked around the apartment "you need me to get you anything?"

"I have some food, there's a store near by"

"You shouldn't leave too much"

"This reminds me of the…" he stopped talking when he realized she probably doesn't want to hear about his first days in WITSEC.

"Of what?" she asked.

"The rules the Marshals had"

"What was it like?"

"Weird at first" he answered "the Marshal they assigned me, Marco Diaz, he was this no nonsense guy, you know? He questioned me about the gambling and demanded I get treatment. I'm clean, have been ever since. I told you before it made me understand my mistakes with you and your mom. How are they? Your mom and Kim"

It was a question she dreaded, should she tell him the truth? He doesn't know anything about them, and they've been through a lot. She didn't want to talk about it.

"They're…fine, I guess"

"And you? How are you doing?"

It took her a while to answer, but she decided against telling him the whole truth "I'm alright" she said and he nodded.

"Starting over, it gives you a lot of time to think" he said "there's no way for me to atone what I've done. I'm not asking you for anything and I know that you helping me can be dangerous. I'm just…" he wasn't sure what he wanted to say. She was so grown up but he could see the little girl she used to be. Always responsible, always trying to help. If he could turn back time he would have never started gambling, he would have been the father she deserves.

"Amanda?"

"Yeah?"

He didn't answer for a while and she waited "can I give you a hug?" he finally said.

Now it was her turn not to respond but she eventually nodded and moved towards him. The hug felt a bit awkward.

He remembered one time, when she was maybe four, she was running around in the park. She brought him a couple of rocks she said she liked and ran away to get more, he wasn't sure why but let her be. When she came back she was crying, he could see she had some blood on her knees and he rushed to her.

"I fell" she cried "I have a wound"

"Oh" he said "let me look at the wound" she only had some scratches, nothing serious "you are so brave, you know" he told her.

"Yeah?" she asked between sobs.

"Yes you are" and he hugged her, he put one arm around her lower back, and one just under her neck and held her close. It calmed her down and when she pulled away she stopped crying.

She wiped her eyes with her hand and smiled to him, she was so cute, with dry tears and a bit of mud on her face.

"I need to get more rocks" she said and ran away.

He remembered that Amanda now, and placed one hand on her lower back and the other under her neck, and even though she was much older, he felt like it calmed her down a little.

Amanda stopped for some food on the way home. The state of her fridge was embarrassing. Not that she minded spending more time at Nick's place, he always kept food at his place. But if she was being honest with herself she had to admit that she preferred it when they met at her apartment.

She wasn't going to see him tomorrow anyway, he was spending the day with his son. And she wasn't sure how to spend this Sunday, she wanted to catch a meeting but it would only keep her busy for a couple hours. Should she go back to her dad? It felt weird earlier. He hugged her and she felt, safer? She was surprised it made her feel this way. But the whole situation was weird. She still had no idea what she was going to do.

When Amanda reached her apartment she saw someone leaning on her door. She recognized him, he looked at her and smiled.

"Detective Rollins" he said "nice to see you again"

"Deputy Hawkins" what was he doing at her place?