I'm back! Sorry about the hiatus. I went and wrote a song fic for fun because I was depressed; it's a tri-fandom thing and it's on my blog. The link is on the profile. Or, wait, it looks like there's a link toggle thingy in the editor. We'll see if it works out. Anyway, the blog is here and the post is here. I hope you all go and read it and enjoy it. ;-)
Anyway, I've been thinking about making this arc into a series of stories about the "falls" of various Jedi. Not necessarily falls to the Dark Side, but those will certainly figure in. ;-) Tell me what you think of that and if you'd like to read about the fall of a specific character.
Okay, and now for the warnings. This drabble is rather dark, and it involves depression and alludes to suicidal thoughts. Please, if you're worried at all, don't read this. Oh, and please don't be offended that I used the word "nirvana"... I don't intend to insult anyone's religion. It just seemed like a good word to use, a bit more descriptive than anything in the English language. *growls about the stupid vagaries of English in general*
For those of you who carry on to read it... enjoy... if you can. *evil grin*
Finding Nirvana (Barriss' Story)
I just want to forget.
Forget it all, slip away—darken the war, turn the lights out, and fall asleep.
Maybe forever.
Because this? It's too much. I'm sick inside and I don't want to feel any more. It would be better to just sink into nonexistence. Find Nirvana. And sleep.
Please let me out! I don't want to be caught in this nightmare any more. I just want to be free. The Jedi are slipping. The Jedi have fallen. And they're bringing me down with them.
The darkness is the only thing left.
So darkness I became.