"What do you mean try to kill himself?" Kat yelped as she slapped Sirius aside to run towards Remus.

"You tell me, you were there." Remus said as hot tears welled up in his eyes.

"Are you insinuating that I'm part of the reason?" Kat asked in disbelief at Remus who looked like he would blow at any minute.

"You knew he was upset and you knew why and all you did was walk out and let him leave. Did it ever occur to you that maybe he needed watching over?" Remus yelled at her.

"I needed to go to the dorm get something strait with Sirius and find Lily, Remus! James never even showed any signs of doing what he was doing and Lily was my first priority." Kat yelled back in anger.

"You were going to help the person who he was killing himself over." Remus asked his voice a dangerous growl.

"She was raped and lost it Remus. What in the hell was I supposed to do, leave her and go find the person who wouldn't believe her. I think Lily was closer to killing herself than James was." Kat yelled as she watched Paige run from Remus and grab her arm.

"Where in the hell are you going?" Remus yelled at Paige who turned to grab Kat's arm.

"She was raped Remus! James is ok now but god only knows where Lily is and she probably needs us." Paige yelled as she started walking with Kat beside her.

"So you're just going to leave and believe her?" Sirius yelled in disbelief as his voice came back to him.

"Lily wouldn't lie about being raped Sirius." Paige snapped as she turned back around.

"Then why was she so serine this whole time?" Remus said icily at the two girls back.

"You don't believe her? How could you not believe her?" Paige screeched as she walked towards Remus.

"It looks like Lily just wanted some attention." Sirius laughed as he watched Kat walk up behind Paige.

"Lily never asks for any attention." Kat snapped getting close to Sirius' face.

"Except for in the classroom right? I wouldn't be surprised if she was fucking half the professors." Sirius laughed coldly into Kat's face.

Kat slapped Sirius hard in the face making the sound echo off the dark walls and into the hallways nearby. "Say that again and you'll regret it." Kat growled as she walked away from Sirius and down the hallway.

"You're not really just going to leave us?" Remus asked as he looked into Paige's heated eyes.

"There's nothing worth staying for." Paige said as she followed behind Lily her blood stained dress rippling behind her.

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"Where are they now?" James asked wearily as he laid on the bed where his three best friends stood around him.

"Kat and Paige went looking for Lily and Lisi hasn't been here. I doubt she even knows anything yet." Remus said rubbing his face and yawning slightly.

"I'm sorry that you broke up." James whispered to Remus who looked tired and slightly agitated.

"She believed Lily was right when she clearly wasn't." Remus said with a slight edge to his voice.

"I don't know what to believe." James said closing his eyes and wincing as he touched the bandages that covered his body.

"Lily lied to us James, there's no doubt about it. She went her merry little way and acted just as nothing happened and lied to you. It all came out so she just lied again which proves she just wanted attention." Sirius said as he sat down in a chair that he charmed over from across the room.

"Lily doesn't lie, though." James said in a strained voice.

"James I know you love Lily but you have to realize she isn't perfect she is probably far from it. We all thought she was wonderful but she got caught in her own mistakes and finally showed her true colors." Remus said as he grabbed the end of the bed for support.

"I love her." James said in a strangled voice as he felt burning tears run into his eyes.

"You loved who you thought she was. She is just a lying bitch and I had to prove it." Sirius corrected him.

"You didn't have to say she fucked half the faculty Sirius." Remus said bluntly as he walked towards the other side of James' bed.

"YOU DID WHAT?" James yelled as he looked at Sirius.

"Kat deserved it. I did it more to irritate her than to actually accuse Lily." Sirius laughed a little at the thought.

"You need to apologize to Kat." James said as he looked at his best friend with stubborn eyes.

"She thought Lily was more important than you." Sirius said in disbelief as he looked over at his sickly looking best friend.

"She was only trying to help her best friend; she did what you guys did." James said.

"James is right; we shouldn't have gotten angry at the girls." Remus said rubbing the back of his neck.

"What do you mean not get angry at the girls? They believed that lying bitch that did this to James." Sirius said pointing at the bed where James was.

"I did this to myself." James said stubbornly.

"And if Lily wouldn't have started this shit then we wouldn't be here would we?" Sirius yelled in irritation.

"What happened to me and Lily happened to me and Lily Sirius. We did this to ourselves not you and Kat or Paige and Remus. This is between me and Lily." James said at his best friend's back.

"It doesn't matter because we were broken up before any of this shit ever happened." Sirius grunted.

"What did you do?" James laughed darkly as Sirius gave him a look.

"Why does it always have to be something I do?" Sirius retorted back making James grin.

"Kat makes a lot of sense once you get past the occasional dumb moments." James laughed as Sirius smiled with him.

"She said I never said I loved her." Sirius said. "I took her on this romantic broom ride and everything but she still wanted to hear me say it."

"Can you blame her Sirius? She showed her love to you in so many ways and then all you do is go on a broom ride?" Remus laughed a little at the thought.

"I just don't want to think about it." Sirius said rubbing his temples. "It's over and me and Kat are never seeing each other again."

"I doubt that, you even talk about her in your sleep mate." James said to Sirius who was looking more and more tired by the minute.

"She was just a toy. She was no different from the others and now I hope she knows where she stands." Sirius growled as he looked back his friends.

"Or where you wish she would." Remus retorted back to him in a light voice.

"Just because you can fall in love in one year and your dream girl is actually your dream girl doesn't mean that everyone else's is." Sirius snapped at Remus.

"Why won't you admit that you love her Sirius?" Remus asked tiredly.

"I don't love her. Sirius Black does not fall in love." Sirius said before walking over to James. "I hope you figure everything out with Lily."

"I hope you do the same with Kat." James said looking into his friends silver eyes.

"I already have." Sirius said darkly.

"We better get going then, if this is all we have to talk about." Remus smiled slightly.

"You're right you guys need to sleep." James said as he settled more into his bed.

"Are you sure you don't want us to stay, we have tomorrow off." Sirius said as he pretended to punch James' shoulder.

"No, I want you to get some rest. This has been really traumatic and I think we all need some rest." James laughed as Sirius bent down to hug him.

"Whatever you say Prongsie." Sirius chuckled as he started out the door with Remus and Peter who was surprisingly silent throughout this whole charade.

James breathed silently in to the empty room before catching his patience again. "I know you're here Lily."

"I'm sorry." Lily said as she walked out from behind the sheeted bed next to James'.

"You didn't do this, Lils." James said sadly as he looked down at his bloody body.

"I was the reason though.' Lily said as she put her white hands on the side of his bed.

"There were a lot of reasons." James corrected her in a stern voice.

"I ruined everything." Lily said as the sobs came up her throat.

"I took away Kat and Sirius, I made Remus and Paige fight to the point of almost breaking up, I let them take my virginity, I made you try to kill yourself and now I am apparently fucking the entire roster." Lily sobbed as James reached out to touch her hand.

"Sirius is just angry and since he can't be angry at me then he is going to find something to be angry at and he chose you." James said in a soothing voice as Lily sobbed into her left hand since her right was still being held by James'.

"You should hate me." Lily sobbed louder as James stroked her pale hand.

"Did you lie to me?" James asked in a light voice.

"I never lied to you James." Lily said looking into his hazel eyes.

"Then I don't hate you." James smiled at her as she looked up at him.

"You should." Lily pouted as James moved over to the far side of the bed.

"Lie down with me." James said as he patted the now empty side of the bed.

"I'm wearing a dress." Lily giggled a little.

"That never stopped you before. Get on." James said as he tugged on her arm.

Lily jumped on the bed and settled herself beside James who wrapped his arms around her with the best of his ability. "Why did you make it painful?"

"Who said it was painful?" James asked as he looked out the window with Lily.

"James look at yourself! You have bloody gashes everywhere and every time you move you wince." Lily said.

"Listen to me, what I did was because so much was happening I couldn't take it anymore and then finding out what happened to you made me think I lost you forever. I don't regret what I did but I'm not going anywhere anymore so you need to stop worrying." James said as he kissed the nape of Lily's neck.

"How can I not worry amore, James? How?" Lily said sadly as she turned to cuddle into him.

"You're just going to have to trust me Lils. That's all." James said into her hair before looking out the window.

"We are so messed up. All of us are messed up." Lily sniffled.

"That's what makes us so perfect Lily. Without each other we would go insane." James laughed as best he could.

"We're insane regardless." Lily laughed with him too.

"All the more reason to stay together then." James sighed and closed his eyes.

"I just hope we can make Kat and Sirius see it that way too." Lily said closing her eyes. And then they both fell asleep.

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"How is he?" Kat asked Sirius as he walked into the common room.

"That's none of your goddamn business." Sirius hissed at her turning around. "But since you're going to irritate me about it anyway I'm going to tell you. He has bloody gashes everywhere, his face is so swollen and bruised you can't barely tell it's him and every move he makes he winces. How do you think he's doing?"

"With a friend like you probably horrible." Kat shot back at him.

"What in the fuck is that supposed to mean?" Sirius yelled walking up to Kat, his eyes on fire.

"I heard what you said Sirius. You shouldn't be blaming her. You started this shit." Kat said tears running down her face.

"He had a right to know and I warned Lily that if she didn't tell him I would." Sirius snapped at her coming closer and closer to her face.

"The only reason you did what you did is because you didn't want to face what was wrong with you. You just had to ruin what they had because if you're miserable then everybody else has to be too. So are you happy Sirius you got what you wanted?" Kat laughed in his face before getting shoved roughly to the wall behind her.

"How dare you accuse me?" Sirius growled in her ear as he pressed himself up to her.

"All you care is about yourself; it's about someone enlightened you with the truth." Kat spat at him before laughing darkly in his face.

"You're nothing but a little whore. A toy and nothing but something to keep me busy when I need a good fuck but you couldn't even do that now could you? You're not even worth looking at you're so fucking horrible and if I ever see you or one of your little bitches around me or the marauders again I swear it'll be the last anyone sees of you." Sirius snarled in full fledged anger as he tightened his grip on Kat.

"You selfish goddamn son of a bitch! How dare you threaten me when I'm the one who has done nothing but-"

"Nothing but screw us up and keep yourself out of trouble."

"Well you would know all about screwing up wouldn't you Sirius? You can't even hold a relationship unless someone fucks you and even then if they do you find another reason to leave them." Kat said in his ear her face red with anger.

"At least someone wants to fuck me because of who I am." Sirius laughed. "You're just a pity fuck."

"I'd rather be a pity fuck than a whore any day." Kat hissed at him.

"Maybe you should tell that to Lily." Sirius smirked at her his face so close to hers she could feel his hot breath on her face.

"You smell like firewhiskey." Kat said as she looked at Sirius with wide eyes.

"I had a couple of drinks before I came in. Does that bother you?" Sirius laughed in her ear lightly.

"What bothers me is the fact you can't even be a man when we need you to be." Kat shoved him off of her as best she could but he caught her anyway and threw her against the couch.

"We, we need me? That sounds like a load of bull. When has anyone ever needed me besides the boys?" Sirius scoffed as he tightened his grip on Kat's arms.

"I needed you Sirius and you never came to help me. It's like the minute we have an argument we have to break up." Kat said to him looking down at her feet.

"If we wouldn't have split up tonight then we would have just broken up later tonight." Sirius said to her in a gravelly tone.

"You might be right but you never gave it a chance. So what use is it now?" Kat laughed harshly before letting the tears she had been holding escape her eyes.

"James wants us to get back together." Sirius said watching Kat cry and tightening his grip.

"He knows I love you and he knows that you need love." Kat hissed at him through her clouded eyes.

"That was never what I needed. I never need someone to love me."

"That's bull Sirius and you know it! You're just too afraid to say the truth." Kat yelled at him. "I have to go find Lily."

"What if I said I wanted to try?" Sirius said as he grabbed her wrist and turned her around to face him before kissing her softly with no protest from Kat.

"I would say yes if time hadn't run out in our little world." Kat whispered to him her lips still dangerously close to his own.

"How could time have run out Kat?" Sirius whispered in her ear.

"Unfortunately its morning and I have to go back to the real world." Kat said lightly to him.

"And I'm not in the real world?" Sirius asked as a tear escaped his own eyes.

"You tell me." Kat said before walking out the portrait door still in her now ripped up and dirtied dress.

"I wish I could." Sirius said before looking out the window into the day's first light.