"This is really getting on my nerves!" Lily sighed as she sat next to Lisi. "Those two are driving me up the wall."
"I can't believe Kat won't even talk to him." Paige sighed as laid back onto the soft grass.
"I can't believe she lasting this long, she barley even talks to James anymore." Lisi piped in as she threw a rock into the lake.
"I heard her Quidditch is way down since… well you know." Two younger girls said as they passed by Lily and her group only to nod to Sirius Black who was coming out the doorway with two blondes under either arm.
"It sure doesn't look like Sirius is suffering." The other blonde giggled.
"It sure doesn't look like it's any of your business." Lisi snapped making the two girls notice them before they ran away towards the Hogwarts building.
"Where is Kat anyway?" Paige sighed as she tapped her fingers through the soft grass.
"I wish I knew." Lily sighed as James walked up to the group of girls.
"Hello ladies." He smiled cheekily at them before looking at Lilt.
"You want to take a walk?" He asked offering his hand.
"Sure, are you guys cool?" Lily asked standing up with help from James.
"Yeah, we're just going to wait and see if Kat comes." Lisi sighed in boredom.
"Good luck with that, Sirius is outside." Lily said and pulled James to walk next to her.
"How is Kat? I haven't seen her in a while." James asked curiously.
"Not so well, she barely talks anymore." Lily said as she swung her and James' hands in the air between them. "Sometimes if she doesn't have anything to do on the weekends she'll just draw her sheets around her bed and won't come out. We have to bring her meals or she wouldn't eat."
"I wish Sirius was like that. One day I walked into our room and he was on the floor with some girl." James said shaking his head. "He's the same old Sirius just ten times worse when it comes to women."
"I have been trying to get Kat to talk to other people but she just can't talk anymore. It's like she's afraid of the world or at least doesn't want to be a part of it anymore. She's more scared of seeing Sirius though and I'm glad she's avoiding him after what happened." Lily winced at the memory.
"Sirius kind of told me about that, what happened?" James smiled slightly at the memory of Sirius telling him the story.
"One day while Kat was still Kat she walked down to the library with me to go get books for a paper when lo and behold there is Sirius snogging some half naked blonde on our usual study table. Kat went stark white before mumbling an excuse and running out the door. Sirius just laughed it off and called her frigid and I'm pretty sure she heard. She hasn't been the same since." Lily smiled darkly at the memory. "It all went downhill from there. I just wish Sirius would leave her alone."
"Kat isn't even Kat anymore. A bludger hit her one day and she fell on her leg wrong but no one noticed she was missing because she was playing seeker while I did something else and she didn't tell anyone she was hurt. She sat there on the ground holding her ankle and crying when I noticed her and Sirius just laughed at her and called her wimp and things like that, really nasty stuff. She just sat there curled up in the ground soaking wet and caked in mud and took it, that's when I knew she wasn't right." James said sadly.
"Sirius has got to stop this shit." Lily said angrily. "It's killing Kat."
"He figures since he didn't end the relationship that he can torture her all he wants. In his mind he has the right to have payback." James said.
"Even if it's killing Kat?" Lily asked as she watched Sirius cross the field towards them, the two girls gone.
"Depends." James said as he yelled a hello to his best friend.
"On what?" Lily whispered as Sirius got close.
"If it's really killing Kat." James said as he walked up to Sirius with a grin on his face.
"Or if he realizes it." Lily whispered before walking towards the two boys who waited for her to get in between them.
"How are you Miss Evans?" Sirius asked winking at her. They had made up weeks after James incident with a lot of pushing from James.
"Not too bad and yourself?" Lily giggled as Sirius kissed the top of her hand.
"Incredible, thanks for asking." Sirius smiled down at her "And how are your friends?"
"They're coping." Lily nodded. "And so am I."
"Is there something wrong?" Sirius asked hunching up his eyebrows. "I can fix Snape if you need me to…"
"No nothing like that, we're just worried about someone." Lily said and James squeezed her hand for confidence.
"Kat is fine; she's just being a wimp." Sirius laughed. "She needs to get over it and she will. You shouldn't have to worry about her."
"Have you seen her lately Sirius?" Lily asked in a smaller voice.
"No, not since last week." Sirius said. "And then it was only a glimpse but she looked fine to me."
"She is not fine." Lily said in an indignant voice. "She looks horrible and has lost so much wait you can see her bones and her hair is a mess. She doesn't even talk anymore."
"It's all an act. I used to do it when I would get mad at her.' Sirius blew her off.
"This isn't an act. Kat wouldn't just start shutting up for a stupid reason. She is like a ghost of what used to be." Lily said feeling tears sting her eyes.
"Give her some time and she'll get over it." Sirius said and chuckled lightly.
"You should see her Sirius. I couldn't let her play last weekend because she's getting to weak from the weight loss." James said to his friend who gave him a disbelieving look.
"Then let me see her." Sirius said. "If I see her I'll straighten her up."
"Sirius don't get mad." Lily said squeezing his hand.
"She is making you all miserable it's about time someone told her the truth." Sirius growled as he looked at the bags under Lily's eyes.
"Sirius I swear if you hurt her again." Lily warned as Sirius ran towards the castle before turning around.
"Last time I checked she hurt me first." Sirius said before he sped his way towards the castle.
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"Kat, you need to get ready." Lily said pulling Kat out of bed.
"I don't feel like it." Kat sighed before standing up in defeat.
"You need to go out and talk to people! You have been in a fricken coma all weekend." Lisi yelled as she came into the room with a towel wrapped around her.
"Kat we just want you to be better." Paige said. "We miss you."
"I'm fine really." Kat sighed again as she sat on Lily's desk.
"Come here." Lily grabbed Kat's hand and pulled her towards the mirror. "Do you think you look okay?"
"No… I'm just tired." Kat said looking away from the mirror. "I really look bad, don't I?" Kat asked her friends.
"Nothing a shower couldn't fix." Paige said grabbing Kat's shoulders. "We're headed to the bathroom."
"Let's go before Lily throws a fit." Kat smirked suddenly at Lily.
"Don't start with me Miss Depression." Lily said raising her eyebrows as she watched Paige and Kat walk out of the room.
"That was a nice change of scenery." Lisi laughed as she hopped onto Lily's bed.
"She's joking a little; I think she's starting to get over it." Lily said as she went back to brushing her hair.
"I don't think she'll ever get over Sirius Lils, I think she's just tired of sitting there thinking about it." Lisi said.
"I don't think her seeing Sirius is going to help her case though." Lily winced at the thought.
"She has to know he's going to be at dinner and she still is going so that must prove a point. She's tired of being locked up in this cage thinking about asshole of the blondes." Lisi snapped out of anger for Sirius.
"Have you realized that he hasn't dated a brunette since him and Kat split?" Lily turned around to look at Lisi.
"I never thought about it or paid much attention to it but now that you mention it I haven't seen him with a brunette." Lisi said running a hand through her wavy blonde hair.
"He really is trying to prove that he doesn't want Kat because Kat didn't want him." Lily sighed.
"Kat always wanted him just not the shit that comes with him." Lisi turned over to hop off the bed.
"And she would appreciate if you stopped talking about her and started talking to her." Kat walked in a tank-top and shorts.
"Sorry, we were just talking about Sirius' antics." Lily said as Paige came in behind Kat with sopping wet hair.
"How are Sirius' antics?" Kat asked not hiding her expression of irritation from the others.
"He hasn't been with a brunette since you left him. It's like anything that reminds him of you has to be gone and along with you disappearing he has had it perfect, exactly the way he wants it." Lisi said as Kat went to her closet to pick out her clothes.
"He sounds fine. I just can't wait to see him." Kat mumbled sarcastically.
"I need to talk to you about something though." Lily said as she walked over to Kat.
"What did you say to him?" Kat snapped as she watched Lily's mouth turn into a slight frown.
"He overheard me and James talking about you and he says he needs to talk to you. He wants you to stop acting like this." Lily said pointing to Kat.
"Acting like what? I am just tired of all the crap and this is the only way to get away from it. If I went out there like I usually do then Sirius would find some way to make me miserable!!" Kat said to her three friends.
"And you're not miserable now? Kat you stayed locked up in your room eating less and less every day. You don't talk to anyone and you don't play Quidditch because you're too weak. He is ruining your life because you are letting him." Lily said as she walked up to Kat.
"Either way you're going to have to face facts that you're going to have to see him and all the stares." Lisi said from her bed.
"I hate the stares, I hate the remarks and I hate it when they look at Sirius and me like we're going to blow up at any time." Kat pouted as she sat on the bed while Lily hugged her.
"We'll be there with you through the whole thing, but you need to get back to being you." Lily smiled weakly at her.
"I'll try." Kat smiled at her friend.
"Good, let's get out of here and eat. I'm starved." Lisi said grabbing Kat's arm and pulling her out the doorway with Lily and Paige behind them
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"There they are." James smiled warmly as the four girls entered the busy hall.
"Kat looks horrible." Remus sighed as he watched the tiny girl walk silently with her friends who were trying to make her laugh.
"She does, I can't believe it got this bad." James looked at Remus.
"What are you guys looking at?" Sirius walked over to sit next to James.
"Kat, she looks bad." Peter squeaked at Sirius.
"Someone needs to stop her pity quest." Sirius said flipping his fork between his fingers.
"Sirius you really need to stop." Remus fussed his friend.
"She is just trying to get some attention and she's mad because it's not working." Sirius said dropping his fork.
"Look at her." James said and nodded towards the girls.
Sirius looked over to see Kat who he hadn't really seen in quite a while. He could see her bones through her skin and her skin was a pale chalky white. She had dark circles under her eyes and looked as if she would pass out at any minute from exhaustion. Her weight was down and Sirius could see how her clothes hung in layers over her because of her ample weight loss. She kept her eyes glued to the floor as Lily ushered her into the hall which was quiet as everyone looked at her with critical eyes
"She looks… bad." Sirius said not being able to tear his eyes from Kat.
"How long did it take you to figure that one out Sherlock?" James snorted as Lily and Kat walked up to the table.
"Look everyone Kat is coming to join us to eat." Lily smiled at Kat who was still looking at the floor with shy eyes.
"Sit Kat, no one is going to bite." Remus smiled up at the girl who didn't even try to meet his gaze.
Kat sat down and looked at her hands which were in her lap. She shuffling in beside her and felt someone sit closely beside her.
"Don't let Sirius bother you. He won't say a word I promise." James' voice whispered in her ear.
"How are you Kat? I haven't seen you in a while." Remus smiled leaning across the table to lift her chin to meet her gaze. "You're not very talkative are you?"
"I don't feel like talking." Kat said her voice cracking on the last word causing her to shut her mouth as whispers erupted around her.
"I wouldn't let them bother you Kat." Lisi smiled at her friend as she sat next to Sirius who kept is gaze fixed on Kat. "They just need someone to talk about."
"I'm tired I think I'm going to go." Kat whispered and stood up only to be pulled down by Lily.
"You are going to sit here and eat and talk with us. We miss you." Lily snapped as she watched Kat sigh with frustration.
"Fine, what do you want to talk about?" Kat sighed looking up for a second at her friends as James held her hand.
"I want to talk about Quidditch." He laughed.
"I should have known." Kat laughed making everyone smile at her ringing laughter that was missed at their meals.
"We really need you Kat. I don't want to win the cup without you, so can you please gain some weight so I can put you in?" James whined holding his hands together and making a pouting face.
"This is all I have been listening to so don't complain." Lily rolled her eyes as James went on telling Kat about the new plays he had in mind.
"James I'm going to come back just let me gain some more weight, but I'll still want to look over those plans." Kat said making her voice a tiny bit louder making everyone sigh with relief at her old habbits.
"Good because I need someone to go over them… foods here!" James yelled as plates filled up with food in front of them.
Kat watched as the boys dove to get to the food and laughed as Lily got sprayed with mashed potatoes. "My turn."
"Yeah we know." James winked filing food on Kats plate before she could.
"What if I don't want some of that stuff?" Kat laughed as James made a face.
"I am in charge of your eating habits until you can control them yourself." James pointed his fork at her daringly.
"Whatever you say, cave man." Kat said and slapped the fork away from her face.
"I think I'm going to go." Sirius said as he cleaned his plate.
"Where you headed mate?" Remus asked before looking at Kat who had resorted to staring at her hands again.
"I have prior engagements my dear Remy." Sirius said winking at them all and laughing. He looked at Kat who sat there picking at her nails and sighed before walking away.
"He eats fast." Kat whispered.
"He didn't leave because of you, he left because he has a blonde waiting for him." James said before getting kicked under the table by Lily. "Ow, what in the hell was that for?"
"Lily it's okay. I'm going to have to get used to seeing Sirius like this; we're not together." Kat chocked out the last word before looking at the empty doorway.
"Kat please don't," Lily started only to be stopped by Kat.
"Lily please just let me deal with this on my own." Kat said looking at her friend anxiously. "No one can help me get over this but myself."
"I know I just want to help." Lily said as Kat stood up.
"I'm going to go to the bathroom and then take a shower. James what time is practice tomorrow?" Kat asked looking into James hazel eyes.
"One o'clock and don't bring your broom because I'm not letting you fly." James warned her before throwing more food into his mouth.
Kat walked across the hallway and yawned softly. She had been so hurt after she had ended things with Sirius because of the way he treated her. He pretended she wasn't there and when he did per say notice her presence it was only to show off his newest blonde. That's what made Kat sore everytime she saw him. From the moment they had started dating she knew it was only a matter of time till he figured out he could have girls who were prettier than Kat had ever seemed to be and he had in fact figured it out. After Kat had seen him with that girl in the library she wanted to just get away from the world and just stay to herself until she died but Lily wouldn't let that happen. She figured she wouldn't stay like that for long and she was right, she didn't with help from her girls.
But when she had seen Sirius she was in a different world where she couldn't speak, eat or breathe. He just looked so damn good and smelled delicious and the fact that he just stared at her the whole time like she shouldn't be in his presence made her want to shrink up into a little ball. She just wished she knew what to do to make herself feel better around him. She wish she knew what she had to do to top Sirius Black and make him feel what she had for the past couple months.
Kat sighed and opened up the door to the first floor bathroom to be greeted by moaning and grunts behind her. She turned around to see a petite blond pushed up against the wall by Sirius Black who had his pants and boxers by his ankles as he shoved himself forward. She noticed he didn't notice her until after he grunted one last time and pulled the blonde off of him who was seemed to be in a pleasant daze. He told her she was a hot fuck before winking at her and turning around only to see Kat staring at him with a pale face.
And then Kat knew what she had to do. She had to get angry.