Summer Bay

May 2, 2009

Dear Joey,

I got your text message and I couldn't help but smile for the rest of the day when I read it! I received it while I was staring out to sea and thinking of you, I guess you must of picked up on that. Your words touched my heart and filled it with such immense amount of joy! You are such a brave woman for battling it out with a storm non the less! You always say that I'm the brave one, the strong and courageous cop, but you are the brave one. I'm nothing but chicken shit in comparison. I think some of your courage has rubbed off on me because each day that passes I see myself come to terms with who I am and not giving a rat's ass about what anybody else thinks! I have you to thank for that.

Aden saw me at the beach and we started talking about all our woes. He's just as messed up as I am! It was good talking to him and I can tell that he misses you as well! There are a lot of people here in Summer Bay that miss you....just in case you want to cut your trip short! But I can guarantee you that no one misses you more than me!!!(By the way Aden says hi!)

So far the people I call my friends have been very supportive of me and wish me all the best. They can tell how much I'm hurting right now and are doing all they can to cheer me up, but no matter how hard they try, they fail miserably. Nights are the hardest for me, I become restless and the pain that I feel overwhelms me. My sole comfort is a pillow with a T-shirt that you left behind, it still has your sent. I have baptized the pillow "Pillowey" and the only way I manage to get some sleep is to hug it and curl up to it, till I fall asleep. It sounds very pathetic and it is, but if I can't have you by my side at night at least your sent gives me the peace and comfort that I so long for.

Joey, I know that I still have some issues to sort out, but at the end of the day it's you that I want, need and love! Last night, not being able to run out to you, to help you, comfort you and hold you, was unbearable to say the least. I want to always be there for you, to let you know that everything is going to be okay, that I will protect you from harms way, that you are never alone and most importantly, that you are loved. When you come back I hope you give me the chance to prove that to you!

I promised Leah I would cook tonight, so I better run to the store and see what I can come up with, perhaps a nice rack of lamb (Even though I would prefer a nice rack of Joey over some sweet tender kisses, followed by some passionate love making! ) Um, yes I've got to go to the store, but I'll have to take a a cold shower first!

You take good care of yourself and remember that I love you now and forever!

Love,

Charlie

P.S. I'll see you in my dreams tonight!