Disclaimer: Obviously I do not own Twilight or any of the related characters. The Twilight series is created by Stephenie Meyer and owned by Summit Entertainment. All rights of Twilight belong to Summit Entertainment. This story is a work of fanfiction and is meant for entertainment only. I am not making any profit from this story.
This is just a short fic based on the song you can let go now daddy by Patricia Maguire. I recently lost my own dad and although it's sad and I haven't written in a long time I felt this would be a nice little tribute.
Feedback is welcome and greatly appreciated.
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"You can let go now, Daddy" I whispered to Charlie as I held his hand. He looks just as he always did but paler and worn out. The hospital machines are too loud in my sensitive ears but I ignore them as I have been for the last week. I close my eyes to give myself a minute and recall the first time I ever said that sentence to him.
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"Daddy I'm scared" I whine as I sit atop the pink and white bike. I'm transported back to a memory of myself as a kid. Charlie is teaching me how to ride my bike without training wheels and it is terrifying.
"Bells, honey you'll be fine I'm right here." He promised me. I close my eyes, take a deep breath and slowly lift my foot off of the ground and onto the peddle. The bike wobbles and I squeal but surprisingly I don't fall over. "See I told you, I won't let you get hurt" He reassures me again.
I nod and Charlie starts to run as the death trap gains momentum. I keep pedalling and staring straight ahead concentrating on keeping my balance and steering.
"You ready? I'm gonna let go but I'll still be right here" Charlie warns me but before I can protest he lets go and I feel the bike wobble. I manage not to fall but I do press the break and put my foot down to stop. "I wasn't ready!" I whine.
I hear him chuckle and it makes me pout. "Honey, you were doing fine. One more time alright, turn round we'll try going back towards the house and then if you've had enough we can go inside and get some dinner. Alright?"
I sigh but get off of the bike so I can turn it around. Once I'm back on I settle myself. I can see the house down the street. I know it's not far and I think I might be able to do it. Once again Charlie holds on and starts to run. When I feel steady I get a rush of adrenaline and everything else happens so quickly. "You can let go now, daddy!" I squeal, making myself go even faster.
"I already have" I hear Charlie yell back at me. For a second I'm terrified but can't turn my head to glare at him. Instead I focus on the house and even manage to turn onto the driveway behind his police car. I come to a stop and all feelings of betrayal are gone. He scoops me up into his arms and swings me round "You did it, Bells! You can now officially ride a bike" I can't help grin as he puts me down but holds onto my hand as we head inside for dinner.
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Someone opens the door to his hospital room so I open my eyes and cross my legs in an attempt to feign humanity but relax when my father in law entered.
"How is he?" Carlisle asks in his ever compassionate tone.
"I'm not sure…" I admit. "The nurse said he was stable but I'm not convinced. His pulse is too weak" I inform him as I turn my attention to the monitor even though I don't have to watch it to hear my father's heartbeat.
Carlisle moves to look at his chart and then frowns at it before coming to sit in the plastic chair next to me. "Bella, I spoke to your dad's doctor. It's spread into most of his vital organs. It's growing too quickly for treatment and your dad has already fought so hard for so long."
I didn't realise how still I was sitting until Carlisle gently tilted my chin to make me look at him. My eyes burned as if they should be brimming with tears. I felt like my stone heart had been shattered. Instinctively I put one arm around my torso and blinked a few times. "He's not… He won't… wake up? I manage to stutter my voice too low for any human to hear.
I feel Carlisle squeeze my hand gently. "I'm sorry, Bella, he won't wake up and they need you to decide if you want to keep him on life support." I stare at him blankly not knowing how to react. "Think about it. Renee is coming." He warns me quickly and sure enough a few moments later there's a gentle knock and my mother pokes her head in.
"Hey, how are you holding up?" She asks as she comes into the room.
"I'm fine mom." I try to force a smile and stand up to hug her. Carlisle offers his seat to her
"Well I'll let you two talk." He smiles and glances at Charlie as he leaves. I don't need Edwards' gift to know what he was thinking. He will be sad to lose his friend.
My mom gives me another hug and then sits down. "So what are the doctors saying?" she asks.
"That he won't get better this time. It's spread into most of his major organs and it's growing too rapidly for treatment. He's fought hard and they think it's time to…" I can't even finish the sentence.
"Oh sweetheart I'm so sorry." Rennee tells me again. I just shake my head. "Mom, can you find Carlisle, ask him to call Edward and tell him to bring Renesmee. I think she should get to say goodbye. I don't want him to suffer anymore."
She nods and with tears in her eyes she stands up. She takes Charlie's hand, leans over and kisses his forehead. "Thank you for being a wonderful father, and a good friend. I love you Charlie." She whispers and then with another quick peck she leaves.
I take my father's hand once more and close my eyes, willing a miracle to happen. Instead I'm taken back to my wedding day.
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"You look beautiful, are you sure you're ready?" Charlie asks me as I hold his arm waiting for my cue to walk down the aisle.
I give him a quick nod as I'm hit with a wave of nerves. "Just don't let me fall dad" I beg him.
"Never." He promises me just as the music starts. We make the short walk through the backyard of the cullen house. As soon as I spot Edward I relax and smile, we reach him and I realise Charlie is still holding on tightly. I lean over to kiss his cheek and whisper. "You can let go now, Daddy" I step back and smile and with a little embarrassment Charlie watches my husband take my hand and then takes his seat so the ceremony can start.
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"Hey" Edward greets me quietly as he comes in with Renesmee. "I spoke to Carlisle. He has your mom in one of the family rooms." I nod and reach for my daughter's hand and she instantly wraps her arms around my waist and lets the tears fall.
"Shh, baby it'll be okay." I try to reassure her but my words don't even convince me.
"Why can't we just change him?" She sobs, I wrap her in my arms and hold her close.
"Ness, we can't just turn everyone we love and Charlie wouldn't want this" I reminded her. "Give him a hug, honey"
I watch her as she climbs onto the bed beside him "Papa, I love you. I'll always love you and I'll miss you forever. I promise to be good and help people like you and Carlisle." I can't bear to listen to her anymore. It makes me tempted to turn him myself.
"I need to go sign some paperwork and find my mom. Will you stay with her?" I ask my husband, I know that my daughter doesn't need to be watched but I don't want her to be alone.
"Of course" He promises pulling me into his arms "it will be okay" He promises me
"I know" I say with a small forced smile. I pull back and with a sigh leave the room to tell Renee and the doctor I'm ready for them to let Charlie go.
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I've sent Renee back to her hotel and Ness home with Jacob. Everyone has been in to say their goodbye's. Billy, Sue, Jacob, Renee, Phil, Alice, Esmee, even Rose, Jasper and Emmett had some nice words of gratitude to say.
The staff had agreed to let Carlisle be the one to shut the machines off so I could have a little more privacy. I sat in the same hospital chair I'd been in for days. One hand clutching Charlie's, the other holding myself together. Edward stood behind me with his hands on my shoulders. The room was now darker considering it had gotten late.
I didn't look up when Carlisle opened the door, instead I stared at Charlie trying to take in every single detail.
"Ready?" Carlisle asked quietly. "He might breathe on his for a few minutes but that's normal" He reminded me gently. I gave him the slightest nod not trusting myself to move anymore than that. I listened as the switches were turned off and machines stopped whirring and beeping until all there was was the faint sound of Charlie's ragged breathing. I gave his hand one last squeeze, took a deep breath and for the last time with the heaviest heart told him. "You can let go now, Daddy"
