A/N: Motivation spiked, Here I am. Didn't expect this to happen so soon but whatever.
Just some context on this story, Yukino originally hated her parents but at her 3rd year of Middle School, She reconciled with them and now she is happier than ever. She keeps her Ice Queen persona however to get people away from her who just want to use her. 8man is regarded as worthless and a boy who should not exist, He is abused quite frequently and his entire family hates him, even Komachi. However, His elementary and Middle school years are better than canon, which kept him from being even more broken than he already is. His personality is not more of a monster of logic but more sad and desensitized to insults as he gets many from his family already, His essay too before joining the service club is different, more about hating himself than anything about looking back at his high school life. This should give you an idea about how their personalities differ in this fan fic. Also 8man does get abused but I will not show those scenes unless people want it so, and if you do, well okay I guess.
And So, The Endless Cycle Suddenly Ends.
Chapter 1 – I despise Life.
"Hikigaya, I know you are depressed and have problems but, this is way too much!"
"Sensei, you already know that I think Youth is just a farce. Plus, I don't care about life, You of all people know about my family situation."
"That is true, But still! You always tell me you're fine, But with this essay are you really fine? Are you okay? Do you need help?"
"No Sensei, I-I'm fine n-no need to worry about me, I'll get through this."
Seriously?! Why do all the wounds start to hurt me now of all times?!
"Well to me, You look like you're about to collapse at any moment! Here, Come with me, I'll help you get to the Infirmary"
"Ugh… Okay.."
Hiratsuka-sensei helped me walk to the Infirmary, I got bandages wrapped all around me for the many wounds I had and I was then set onto the bed to rest, Hiratsuka-sensei was obviously worried for me, But I don't get it. I just don't get it. Why worry about me, a useless boy who's classified as a waste of space and shouldn't exist? I don't get it.
"Hikigaya, At this point being with that family is gonna kill you someday So, you're joining a club, Not just to ease the burden on the family issues, but help change you. No objections. This is for your own good."
I don't talk and nod slowly, Being in a club would extend my time at being in school and not at home, which I am really thankful for. But I wasn't really sure what she meant by changing me. Maybe my self-deprecating personality? It could be.
"There is only one person in this club, I know very well how you are with crowds of people, and since I'm the advisor of the club, it's sure to be a welcoming one! I'll make sure of that! You get rested Hikigaya, I'll persuade your parents about this club and you going home late. Sleep well."
I feel at ease at those words and go to sleep, before I do I notice Hiratsuka-sensei with a serious expression, I think she will be scolding my parents, But they just won't learn.
A club huh? It might be interesting, and I'll definitely take more time away from my family. I just hope this one person in the club is somewhat hospitable, Because I'm getting the lingering feeling that they might insult me quite a bit, like it matters anyway. I don't care about insults. I get them way too much from my parents and sister anyway.
As I drift off to the realm of sleep, I think one last thing
I despise Life.
A/N: Okay, The setting is up! The next chapter will be 8man and Yukino meeting each other for the first time. Let's see how Yukino will react at first and how 8man being ultra-depressed and not caring about himself change the plot of Oregairu. For now, This is Isuckatnaming, leaving because I need to finish my cookie stash. And also because I think I did enough of a deviation from the plot already.