Lying on the floor when I break through.

I pull you in to feel your heartbeat.

Can you hear me screaming? Please don't leave me- Chord Overstreet

You know that feeling well you're running for your life only trying to make it in time to only find the love of your life on the floor? Yeah, that's how i am feeling right now, she was fine I swear but then she wasn't.

I made her a blueberry smoothie. She loves blueberries and bananas, yet right now she's on the floor not breathing while Mika Yasuda was doing the paddles. I couldn't freeze, not when Teddy my teddy was on the ground not breathing.

I took charge but I never expected anything like this to ever happen to her, she's my teddy. My person, my best friend, the only person who put up with me when I broke the law or when I fell off the cliff. She stood by me loving me, yet now I know what it feels like to lose them.

I know what Teddy felt when I was laying there on the bed in trauma room 4. Frozen in fear because you could have lost them, but I don't even know why she's coding and here I am doing CPR on my wife begging her to stay with me. But how did this even happen?

4 hours earlier-

Teddy was laying her head on her Husband and drank her smoothie he gave her and rubbed her jaw again. Owen rubbed her back holding her close" You really need to get that looked at Teddy, I'mserious. It could be something huge and God forbid I have to deal with Leo's meltdowns on my own.

I won't make it I promise you that." he said kissing her head. Their son Leo has been going in and out of phases with dolls and everything. Rightnow, Leo was in his Elsa phase and Allison their daughter Allison was in her bite phase.

Allison was biting different kids at daycare; no matter what, she would not stop it. Teddy held her husband's hand and smiled'' I'm okay I promise, it's probably just something I had to eat.'' She said laying her head on his chest, she didn't think much of it as her normal was to push through it. She was an army veteran it's normal to push through everything.

She sighed into Owen as he played with her hair." Do you want more kids?" she asked him. She loved kids but she thought if they were to have more kids, she would want two biological and two that were adopted. With everything going on in the world she was scared, just last week a 7-year-old shot his teacher and that's on the parents, millions of kids die each year because of gun violence in schools.

Things need to change in their world and it's not just guns. Women are losing their rights to healthcare and that's something that's important to Teddy. Owen played with her hair and smiled.

"I want as many kids as you'd, if we are done. If we want more, we will be okay? No matter what we decide our littles are what matter to me, Teddy. You and our kids are what matter to me the most and if were not having more kids I will go get a vasectomy. I know how painful it was to birth Allison our chunky baby. Allison was a big baby, she was 8 pounds and 5 oz,"

she was their big girl and it hurt like shit for Teddy to do this without any pain medicine like she wanted. Teddy knew she was strong, but she wasn't that strong. Teddy nodded softly interlocking their hands and rubs his hand "Why don't we see where things go okay? Allison is our little terror and bites. I would be worried she would bite a baby right now. So, if it happens it happens and if it doesn't, I'm okay with that. Why don't we adopt a dog from the shelter and see if the kids adopt to that first before we even talk about the idea of kids okay."

Owen nodded and kissed her head "that sounds good, you enjoy your smoothie, okay? I have to get surgery but I'll check up on you later and we can get dinner and have mom watch the kids?" he asked her as Teddy nodded softly liking the idea. She kissed him softly and watched him leave rubbing her jaw.

Hours later she was being paged to Link's patient again whose bag was full of blood." Okay let's get him to the OR!." she yelled and put her scrub cap on scrubbing into the or. She was telling Adams and Simone directions when she suddenly felt dizzy and passed out. She could hear Yasuda say she was okay until everything went black.

Owen looked at his wife who was still not breathing as he yelled "Clear!" for the 10th time in the past 5 minutes. He would be damned if he lost teddy. Tears streamed down his cheek as did CPR on her as her chest rose and fell not breathing like her body needed to.

" Teddy, come on! You can't leave me or our kids! Leo and Allison need their momma. they need to grow up with both of their parents. We're supposed to live happily ever after, you don't get to die on 're the badass cardio queen and amazing chief."

he said as he yelled clear and moved the mouth mask as he blew into her mouth. He met her lips crying softly. He rubbed her hair softly as he gave her mouth to mouth, moved as Yasuda did paddles again and waited about to do it again when her chest rose on its own. Teddy Altman was not dying today, not tomorrow, or ever.

Teddy slowly moved her eyes open, and she saw him, her Owen. She saw him crying and moved her hand to his face before speaking softly" Hey I'm okay "Owen shook his head crying as he kissed her hand sniffling" Do not ever do that again you hear me.I don't care how bad it is you get the help" Teddy nodded softly holding her husband's face smiling weekly about to talk.

" Now you know the feeling about losing your spouse" she said referring to when Owen almost died last winter because of a car crash. Owen shook his head kissing her hand about to talk when Teddy closed her eyes again, she was breathing but slowly.

Owen looked at Yasuda and said, Go get cardio and a gurney!" he said picking his wife up and running out with her. Nobody mattered more than her at the moment, he got her on the bed as teams of doctors worked on her. He was crying again holding her hand when a doctor came to him" Doctor. Hunt, we need to put her in a coma and get her an EKG, we believe she had a heart attack, and she stopped breathing." Owen nodded and looked.

"She was having toothaches earlier; would that be a sign of the attack?" he asked the doctor. The doctor nodded and looked That could have been the warning sign, but we won't know for sure until we do more tests. We are going to intubate her right now."

they said as Owen went over to Teddy kissing her softly Everything will be okay my love, I will be here as long as it takes okay" he says before they intubated her putting a tube down her ran the tests and came back to Owen who was sitting by his wife's bed. When they spoke up.

" She had an infection from the tooth ache. It spread to her bloodstream and caused her heart to stop. We have her on antibiotics to help the infection, but she will need surgery later on." Owen nodded and signed off on the papers to do everything. Once everyone left the room and rubbed Teddy's hand sniffling.

"You will be okay my love, I told you to get that damn toothache checked out. But you will be okay you just need to rest for a little bit. I don't know if you will get to see Taylor Swift's Era concert but that's in July its March right now." he chuckled, his wife was the biggest swiftie along with his daughter. Owen thinks that was all Teddy listened to when she was pregnant. Owen stood up and fished out his phone, if Teddy needed surgery only the best of the best would operate on her, and teddy was the one who raised 2-time harper Avery winner who was making artificial hearts across the world. He dialed the number waiting for them to answer, he was transferred to their phone and said," I need you to come it's teddy."